The summer we chased together in those years of youth

?After I came out of the hospital, my life didn't change much, and I didn't see that boy named Gao Hui again. I heard that Shan Xu went to him on the second day of my hospitalization. As for what I said to him I don't know, the dean and class teacher both came to talk to Shan Xu during the period, so I don't know about other things.

But after I was discharged from the hospital, he would wait for me in my class after school, we would go to the cafeteria to eat together, he would accompany me to the playground for a run, and he would help me with tutoring when he had time on weekends.

Even Tong Tong in the dormitory was scratching his head: "Even the iron tree Lin Mu is in bloom, when will the spring of my peach blossom come?"

At that time, I just smiled and did not deny what she said, so when everyone thought that Shan Xu and I would be together in the end, even I thought so, the result was unexpected.

Because I accidentally discovered a secret, when I think of it many years later, I think what would have happened if I hadn't gone to Shan Xu?But there is no if in the future.

That night, Shan Xu accompanied me for a run, and when I finished running, I couldn’t see Shan Xu, so I went to look for him, and then I found Shan Xu and Su Jin in front of an empty building, and my intuition made me hide behind their nearest tree.

"Shan Xu, I'm a little scared, I want to stop, don't continue"

"Su Jin was the one who asked me to hurt Lin Mu with my emotions? Now you can stop if you want!"

"I..." Her eyes flickered.

"Since you made me do it in the first place, is it possible to stop?"

The ugly mask of the boy was finally exposed, and an accidental encounter was like a ghost in the dark night, biting my heart like a midnight bell every time.

I remembered that Grandma Shan Xu told me that Shan Xu’s sudden change that year was because a girl saved him, but Shan Xu never told her who that girl was. When Shan Xu took me to his house that day, Treating me very well, that's why grandma thinks that the girl who saved Shan Xu was me, but I have never saved anyone?Obviously grandma guessed wrong, the girl who saved Shan Xu was not me, but Su Jin, and Shan Xu used this kind of thing to beat me and hurt me because of Su Jin, how could such a plot of the novel appear in my life? body.

What a ridiculous and ironic thing, his gentleness and kindness to me is just a fake, I don't understand why Su Jin asked Shan Xu to do this, if I offend her, it was at the beginning of the school when.But I said "I'm sorry" to her afterwards.

Besides, I didn't mean to make her look bad, I can't figure it out, I like a boy so much, he gave me a lot of warmth that I never had.

I once saw a sentence accidentally, like a person, willing to tear my heart and lungs for him, and hurt my body completely. I don't understand that, maybe this is the feeling of liking someone.

I left quietly, as if I had never been to this place, did not hear their conversation, I was still that Lin Mu, but my heart was crying silently.

I went back to the playground, I had no strength to run, sitting on the stone bench, the thoughts in my head were messed up, as if blocked by a stone.

At this time Shan Xu walked towards me, he was still smiling at me, but in my eyes, there was only irony left, and at this time, I didn't have the mood to pretend to be with him.

Panting for breath, he looked at me helplessly, and said to me, "I've been looking for it for a long time for how you came here."

I didn't speak, he saw that my face was not good-looking, so he quickly sat beside me, I quietly moved away, he didn't seem to notice my abnormality, he just asked me in a concerned tone, "What's wrong with you, you have such a bad face?" Ugly? Is it uncomfortable? Do you want to go to the infirmary to see..."

Before he finished speaking, I stood up impatiently and turned my face away, "I'm fine, I just sweated from running just now, I want to go back to the dormitory to take a shower now, I'll go back first." Look at him Hesitant to speak, I turned my head and walked away.

I thought a lot that night, I thought about having a showdown with him, I wanted to tear his hypocritical face, I tossed and turned that night, I couldn’t sleep, I wanted to make it clear to him, but I was afraid that when I saw He couldn't say it.

After a night of ideological struggle, I made an appointment with him in that seemingly sunny library. I planned to make it clear to him, but my heart was struggling silently. Serious look in the sun.

I said, Shan Xu, can we break up?

The silent library is as usual, my breathing is a bit difficult, he didn't speak, only the movement of flipping the book stopped there, let me know that he was listening to what I just said, and then I heard his deep voice, "why ?”

I didn't answer. In fact, I have thought about this reason thousands of times in my heart, but when I really faced him, I couldn't say it. I took several deep breaths in my heart, prepared to explain and then turned my head, but he was nowhere to be seen.

Without his breath around, I actually wanted to cry, I was afraid that I would really rely on him, I was afraid that my heart would be destroyed by him bit by bit.

In fact, when I didn't know his real purpose, Oh really felt that he was very good to me. When running, he would run with me, sometimes panting for me while shouting for me.When I couldn't run, he would grab my hand and lead me to run. When I was alone, he would tell me stories, jokes, and always said that I don't like talking, so he had to do more for me. Talking, enlivening the atmosphere, and when I fell and injured, he would carry me to the infirmary on his back.It's such a good person to me that I can't believe he would hurt me.

But if that wasn't the case, then why was he being nice to someone for no reason from the very beginning?

The next day, I got up for morning exercises at [-] o'clock as usual. The campus was very quiet. He stood under a camphor tree downstairs in the girls' dormitory. He didn't move. A few leaves fell down. He stared blankly at the ground, as if in a daze, I don't know how long he has been waiting here.

I walked with my head down, not daring to face him, I thought he should have seen me too, but I didn't know how to face him.

"Lin Mu!" Hearing his voice, I stopped inexplicably.

He walked towards me, I didn't know what to do, standing still was like acupuncture.

He raised his eyes and glanced at me, ignoring my restraint, "Let's run to the playground!"

His expression is calm, nothing abnormal, as if I didn't say the words that hurt him yesterday.

He is nothing, but I began to feel uncomfortable, I was afraid to be alone with him.

He ran ahead of me, "Hurry up and keep up!"

All right!In the end, I followed behind him without disappointment, and ran silently. The first ray of sunlight shone on us as usual, elongating our shadows. Slow down, falling a few meters away from him, the shadow was forced to separate.

I didn't dare to talk anymore, and he didn't seem to intend to talk to me. It was the first time we stayed together so quietly, and I was quite at a loss.