North to Hanchuan

Gu Hengbei woke up suddenly from the damp and sticky room.

The curtains were only half drawn, and the dark night flooded in from the other half of the window like a rising tide, and there was a rapid and suppressed panting in the silent room.

After a while, the lights came on, Gu Hengbei sat up, and saw his own reflection reflected on the window glass, the window was covered with fine frost, his deep facial contours were blurred in the mirror, only a pair of spots of paint The ordinary eyes were burning a little abnormally.

Gu Hengbei closed his eyes and took a deep breath. The sudden dream made him tired and tired. He raised his hand and loosened the two buttons of his pajamas, and he didn't get out of bed until he felt the turbid heat in his body completely disappear.

Gray smoke exhaled from thin lips, Gu Hengbei stood on the balcony outside the bedroom, the winter night air was cold and fresh, entangled with the smoke and filled into the lungs, hot and cold mixed, on the tip of the tongue A strange bitterness lingers.

He hadn't had such a dream for a long time.

In the eyes of others, Gu Hengbei these years seems to have cultivated to be ruthless and give up his desires. Although he is a bit reluctant, he still has to admit that Ji Hanchuan has raised his standard for choosing a mate, and also raised the lower limit of his lust threshold. The lower limit is even infinitely close to the upper limit, which is enough to make people who don't know why think he is suffering from ED.

When he first returned to China, Gu Hengbei also thought about finding someone else.

Those games that I was keen on when I was young, meeting strangers, chasing fresh faces and interesting souls, approaching and being approached, flirting and being flirted, willing to take the bait or playing hard to get, those routines that come and go The ever-changing tricks of teasing and taming have long been abandoned because they have nowhere to use them for many years.

The only skill he was good at in those seven years was digging out his heart and putting his heart and soul into it, and he had already been eliminated from Feng|Jianghu.

Gorgeous neon lights were twirling crazily above his head, Gu Hengbei stared blankly at the bewildered expressions of others, he didn't even know why he appeared here.

Even though he looked so out of place, he still attracted the most attention from the audience. In this game world, he looked like a top player who had just registered and was already dressed in red.

There are beautiful boys wrapping around his body, breathing hot breath in his ears, tempting him to give him a crazy screaming night.

Gu Hengbei almost ran away in despair.

He knew what was wrong with him. To use an inappropriate description, it is impossible for a person who has injected heroin all year round to smoke marijuana to feel pleasure again.

Gu Hengbei is used to love and desire going hand in hand, her heart can't move, and she can't move there either.

How funny, others are ruined by failed love and become self-deprecating, but he is tempered by failed love to become pure and pure.

He really hated Ji Hanchuan, which actually started at that time.

His love had not failed, it had died.

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Many things happen, like a huge undercurrent surging under the silent deep sea. On the surface, it is calm and silent, until the waves capsize and there is no way to recover.

The change between Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan started when he came back after going to CSHL for the second time.

At that time, Gu Hengbei left for half a full year, isolated from the outside world, unable to meet anyone, and unable to make phone calls. At that time, he and Ji Hanchuan had reached their seventh year.

Gu Hengbei still pretended to be worried when he was busy, thinking about the seven-year itch, and he hasn't been home for so long, will Ji Hanchuan make a mutiny for himself? Thinking about it, he can still be happy stand up.

Even if the end of the world comes and men can only survive by cheating, Ji Hanchuan will guard his body like a jade!Gu Hengbei is so confident.

After the project was finally completed, Gu Hengbei was eager to return home. As soon as he got his mobile phone, he couldn't wait to call Ji Hanchuan. They made an appointment to meet at the airport.

But Ji Hanchuan failed to pick him up that day, and when Gu Hengbei pushed the suitcase alone and passed by the center of the airport hall, he suddenly covered his chest, as if something had hit his heart instantly, the pain was so deep and distinct.

Gu Hengbei secretly scolded himself that the more he lived, the less sexual he became. Ji Hanchuan must have had a reason for not being able to come, and he shouldn't be so hypocritical.

It was only later that he realized that it was a premonition.

When you think a man doesn't value you that much, he really doesn't value you that much.

Gu Hengbei learned that NorMou had experienced many turmoil in the past six months by watching the news on his mobile phone while taking a taxi. At the most serious time, Ji Hanchuan himself was even taken away by the CIA. Fortunately, after several investigations, the Congress of Country A only issued a warning to NorMou. fine.

Gossip news about NorMou and Ji Hanchuan is overwhelming, and Gu Hengbei saw the most ridiculous saying that the reason NorMou was let go by Congress is because Ji Hanchuan has fallen in love with Ivanka, the daughter of Paul Wilson, the investment god of country A. , the two will get married soon, and Ji Hanchuan will change his nationality at that time.

Put the fucking shit.

Gu Heng Beixin said that my temper has really gotten better and better in the past two years, if I put the face of the self-media that spread rumors all day long, I would not let it go.

It is Ji Ningsheng who annoys Gu Hengbei more than self-media.

After the incident in northern Myanmar, Ji Ningsheng and Gu Hengbei almost tore their faces apart. Later, he came to country A to join Ji Hanchuan, and Ji Hanchuan found him a house in another place. Except for important festivals, everyone wanted to sit together for a meal. , Gu Hengbei and Ji Ningsheng hardly ever meet each other.

When Ji Ningsheng learned that Ivanka has a crush on Ji Hanchuan, he has been working hard to match those two people. He sent messages to Gu Hengbei every now and then. Most of the photos on the messages were of Ji Hanchuan and Ivanka attending the same occasion. , Sometimes it's a business banquet, sometimes it's in the office, sometimes it's a press conference.

Gu Heng didn't even bother to talk about it, so he simply blocked Ji Ningsheng.

Gu Hengbei hated Ji Ningsheng to the extreme, but he never asked Ji Hanchuan to give up on Ji Ningsheng, even though Ji Ningsheng actually had a lot of money and didn't need Ji Hanchuan's care at all.

After more than ten years of nurturing, Gu Hengbei will not let himself become as narrow-minded as Ji Ningsheng, and he never forces Ji Hanchuan to make a two-on-one choice.

In fact, he doesn't understand Ji Ningsheng's brain circuit very much. He can't live a good life, but he has to force himself into pain. God hates ghosts.

Those who are familiar with Gu Hengbei know that he is a loose person on the surface, but in fact he is very shy. As long as it is something he believes, it is useless even if people from all over the world oppose it.

Everyone in the capital was against Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan being together, and Gu Hengbei insisted on going his own way.

In country A, Ji Ning gave birth to Ivanka and occasionally even other cats and dogs came to talk, and Gu Hengbei also treated it as fart.

He single-handedly challenged the whole world, and he still felt that he was awesome.

Here in Gu Hengbei, there is no such thing as three people becoming tigers, and there is no such thing as one saying the same, he only believes in his own feelings and judgments.

Yet at last his feelings and judgments puzzled him.

The direct reason for Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan's breakup was that the old man was seriously ill, and Ji Hanchuan was unable to go back with him, but in fact, before that, Gu Hengbei had noticed Ji Hanchuan's restlessness and hesitation.

Ji Hanchuan would always go home tired, with staring eyes, staring at Gu Hengbei in a daze for a long time, and when Gu Hengbei asked him questions, he would not answer directly, either with work or with a smile.

This state has never happened between them, and Gu Hengbei didn't even know how to deal with it.

No matter how much he trusted Ji Hanchuan's feelings and character, reality forced him to be vigilant again and again.

"Is there something you are hiding from me?" Gu Hengbei asked bluntly.

"No, it's just that the company recently released new products. Don't you know that it's a bit busy."

Ji Hanchuan comforted him gently.

"We've been together for seven years, do you think it's the seven-year itch? I always feel that you've been talking to me less recently, like a gourd, tired of looking at me?" Gu Hengbei reminded in a joking way.

"No, don't think about it." Ji Hanchuan comforted him helplessly.

"Ji Hanchuan, you've been so fucking wrong lately! Where did you go fooling around until midnight every day?" Gu Hengbei even used all his strength to stalk.

"I'm sorry, I'll be back early today." Ji Hanchuan comforted him apologetically.

Ji Hanchuan is like a man made of cotton, whether Gu Hengbei pricks it with a needle or splashes it with water, he accepts it softly, and then twists and turns and reverts to his old ways.

What a perceptive person Gu Hengbei is, he knows every bit of Ji Hanchuan's changes by heart.

In the past, whenever Gu Hengbei got a little angry, Ji Hanchuan felt as if the sky was about to fall. He would put down everything he was doing and go around Gu Hengbei. If Gu Hengbei ignored him, he would hug Gu Hengbei sternly. Bei, scratched the back of Gu Hengbei's hand over and over again with his little finger until Gu Hengbei calmed down.

But now he will only say "I'm sorry", "Don't think about it", "I'm just a little tired" over and over again.

Just like the absence of Ji Hanchuan waiting in the center of the airport two years later, the brand of Ji Hanchuan in Gu Hengbei's life is gradually shifting.

One day, Gu Hengbei suddenly remembered Ji Hanchuan's Weibo account.

Even though he knew it was wrong to do so, Gu Hengbei still wanted to enter Ji Hanchuan's trumpet to see if he had any secrets.

But Ji Hanchuan's trumpet password was changed.

The password of ccbb1314 has been replaced.

Gu Hengbei was facing a watershed in his career that year. He could not take the license test in country A. There were only two paths before him. One was to stay in country A and follow his supervisor to enter CSHL as a postdoctoral fellow, and the other was to follow the public agreement When returning to China, no matter which one he chooses, he and Ji Hanchuan have to live in two places.

The only solution is for Ji Hanchuan to return to China with him.

Gu Hengbei has been waiting for Ji Hanchuan to bring it up by himself, and of course he was able to come to Country A for Ji Hanchuan to accompany him back then, and now of course he will return to Kyoto for him.

What's more, the international situation was complicated at that time, and NorMou's overseas environment was not good, and shrinking back to China was originally to adapt to the situation.

Gu Hengbei had nearly two months of vacation before making a formal decision. Before Ji Hanchuan took the initiative to speak, he waited for the sad news that his grandfather was seriously ill.

Gu Hengbei didn't know how long he had been crying after he cut off the call with his grandfather that day. He only knew that when he called Ji Hanchuan, his throat was already speechless.

Ji Hanchuan rushed back in a panic.

"I want to go back..." Gu Hengbei clutched the shirt on Ji Hanchuan's chest, his face was blurred with tears, all the scenes in front of him were constantly reversing, he couldn't see Ji Hanchuan's expression clearly, he just asked over and over again, "You Will you come back with me?"

"Let's go back!" Ji Hanchuan hugged him tightly and kept kissing his eyes and cheeks, as if he wanted to rub him into his own flesh and blood, "Gu Hengbei, let's go back!"

"I thought you wouldn't go back with me." Gu Hengbei grew up so big, and was so fragile for the first time, he didn't even know that he would be so fragile.

"Gu Hengbei, you have to believe it," Ji Hanchuan choked with red eyes, "no one or anything in this world is more important to me than you."

But in the end Gu Hengbei returned to Kyoto alone.

When Ji Hanchuan answered the phone at the airport, Gu Hengbei watched helplessly as his face turned as white as paper, and all the blood faded in an instant.

"What's wrong? What happened?" Gu Hengbei asked.

Ji Hanchuan's lips were bitten by him until they turned blue and white. It took him a long time to tell Gu Hengbei with difficulty that he wanted to go back to the company, and he would go back to the capital as soon as possible.

Gu Hengbei stared at him firmly: "What happened to the company? Did it explode? Did someone die? Is it going to go bankrupt today? If it goes bankrupt, then fucking go bankrupt! Is that little money worth it?!"

Ji Hanchuan's upper and lower teeth were chattering, but he couldn't say anything.

"How did you become like this?" Gu Hengbei couldn't believe it, "I just walked for half a year, what made you become like this."

The airport broadcast began to announce that Gu Hengbei's flight was about to be checked.

Gu Hengbei turned around after passing through the ticket gate, and looked at Ji Hanchuan who was a line away. He only left a sentence: "Ji Hanchuan, remember what you chose today."

After seeing off his grandfather, Gu Hengbei knew that he could no longer deceive himself and others.

On the day he returned to Country A, Gu Hengbei went straight to NorMou.

Ji Hanchuan is not in the company.

What Gu Hengbei caught was that he was not in the company.

Ji Hanchuan's mobile phone has a positioning chip of the company's security department. This department is managed by Li Chu. Except for Ji Hanchuan himself, only Li Chu has the right to check his itinerary.

Gu Hengbei blocked Li Chu in the office, he smiled and said Li Chu, you didn’t go back for the Spring Festival three years ago, Ji Hanchuan and I went to your house to deliver things to your mother on New Year’s Eve, your mother’s aneurysm ruptured, From the first aid to the hospital, and finally the recovery from the operation, I handled everything by myself. Then you said that you owed me your life. Is this not counting?

Li Chu's knees softened when he said this: "Senior, what do you want me to do?"

"Give me all of Ji Hanchuan's itinerary for this month."

Li Chu is a technical geek, he didn't know that there was a big problem between Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan until then, and he thought that Gu Hengbei just wanted to check the attendance.

In NorMou, Gu Hengbei also learned that Ivanka had a car accident and hadn't come to the company for a month. The date of the accident was the day Gu Hengbei returned to Kyoto.

Ji Hanchuan stayed in the same place that month.

It was a very high-end private nursing home. When Gu Hengbei came to this place, Li Chu notified Ji Hanchuan in advance, and Ji Hanchuan stopped him at the door.

The couple who have been together for seven years will meet again a month later, completely different.

The address Gu Hengbei got was accurate to the room number, and he rushed all the way to the door of that room: "I want to see who is in here, and let you stay here for a whole month!"

Ji Hanchuan's face was as pale as death. He followed Gu Hengbei all the way, but his footsteps were weak and out of breath. He pulled Gu Hengbei several times, but his hands seemed to have no strength, and Gu Hengbei easily swung them away: "Gu Hengbei Hengbei, please don't make trouble, this matter will wait until later..."

Gu Hengbei will either not do one thing, or he will definitely do it.

His bottom line was that Ji Hanchuan retreated again and again, but now he cannot retreat.

"Yes, I made a fuss today," Gu Hengbei pointed at Ji Hanchuan, and said calmly, "Ji Hanchuan, you return to the gods every night, so I didn't make a fuss; the news scandals in the major media are overwhelming, I didn't make a fuss; my grandpa left, you didn't go back to Kyoto with me, I didn't make a fuss...Since I made a fuss today, I'm going to make a fuss, I must know who is inside, do you open the door yourself, or Shall I drive?"

"Don't be like this..." Ji Hanchuan spat out the four words in pieces.

"That's how I am," Gu Hengbei kept his tone steady, "What can you do."

"Ji Hanchuan, I've used you all these years, do you really think you're just a thing?"

When Gu Hengbei was ruthless, he was really ruthless. Even if the person in front of him was Ji Hanchuan, he could cut him to the bone with a knife, tearing his flesh dripping with blood.

The beige door lay in front of them, Gu Hengbei pushed the door hard, and Ji Hanchuan held onto the doorknob tightly.

In the past, their hands were tightly held together, and they all exerted force in the same direction.

But now on this door, going in the opposite direction.

The door cracked little by little, and Gu Hengbei saw a back covered with long black hair in the snow-white eyes, it was undoubtedly a woman.

Ji Hanchuan's eyes were full of bloodshot eyes, as if a knife's light had sliced ​​through his pupils. He closed his eyes slightly, and when he opened them again, his eyes were burning with despair.

Ji Hanchuan's purplish lips trembled uncontrollably, his hoarse voice was dripping with blood, and every word was picked out from the deepest part of his throat:

"Gu Hengbei, don't you understand? Ever since my brother got into an accident and you just tried to excuse Gu Jinnan, I feel that we are not the same kind of people..."

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The cigarette butt that burned to the end suddenly burned to the fingertips, interrupting all memories.

Gu Hengbei was so burned that his fingers flinched. He pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray on the balcony, and unconsciously glanced at the red and swollen wound on the back of his hand.

After Gu Hengbei returned home, he took a shower and fell asleep, and did not disinfect the back of his hands. The wound soaked in water showed signs of inflammation.

His eyes paused slightly, unexpectedly thinking of the scene where Ji Hanchuan shed tears when he saw the back of his hand.

Gu Hengbei suddenly strode towards the door and opened it.

The lights outside were brightly lit, Gu Yuze and Ji Hanchuan didn't know to turn off the lights when they went to bed, Ji Hanchuan's medical record bag was still on the coffee table in the living room, Gu Hengbei took all the X-rays, CT, MRI and other films Pour them all out and examine them one by one under the light.

After more than half an hour, Gu Hengbei dialed an international call:

"Hi, is this HHW Nursing Home? I am a family member of a former patient in your nursing home."

"My family entered your nursing home four years ago. At that time, he lived in Ward 009, Area A... No, no, I am not looking for trouble after a few years, but my family misses a nurse who used to take care of him very much recently, so I want to find the nurse..."

"My family's name is Ji Hanchuan (Heason·J)...is there no such person?"

"Sorry I made a mistake, his correct name is Han Xueluo (Snow·Han)."

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