Just be your own driver

Li Shaoyan stood motionless at the door of An Xing's house. He held the key but did not open the door. It is a good thing to have dinner with old friends, but it is not so easy to calm down when talking about old love.An Xing knew about his past, but he didn't know about this love history. An Xing never asked, and he didn't say anything.Both of them had some things they didn't want the other to know, just like An Xing had never told him about An Xiaoke's background.

Both of them know that sooner or later they will tell each other everything, and they are all waiting for such an opportunity, but the opportunity is reserved for those who are prepared. Is he ready?

Li Shaoyan opened the door and entered the room. An Xing was speaking English to An Xiaoke. The two chatted for a long time, and An Xiaoke finally said "I understand".The aroma of millet porridge in the room has not dissipated, and it is also mixed with the choking smell of fried peppers.

An Xing came out of An Xiaoke's room, "Are you back? Is English in the fifth grade so difficult now? It's comparable to my English in the fourth grade at that time."

"En." Li Shaoyan replied listlessly.

"What's wrong?" An Xing noticed something wrong with Li Shaoyan's expression.

An Xing spread his arms and asked An Xing for a hug.An Xing patted him on the shoulder, and Li Shaoyan's cell phone rang. It was a string of numbers, and the caller said: Liu Jingshi.It's Zhao Yichong.

"Don't answer? Harassing calls?" An Xing gently kissed Li Shaoyan's cheek.

Li Shaoyan adjusted his breath, grabbed An Xing's hand, and pressed the switch.

"Hello." Li Shaoyan said.

"Yan, long time no see." Zhao Yichong's voice came from the mobile phone, with a bit of artificial affection, and a bit of deliberate indifference.

The moment he heard the other party's voice, Li Shaoyan's heartbeat suddenly returned to its normal frequency, and the willful and free-spirited man deep in his memory couldn't be linked to this voice no matter what.The unexplained and unseemly breakup back then was like a hammer raised early and finally smashed the past years into pieces. There was no regret, only joy.

"Oh, Zhao Chu. Why do you think of me?" Li Shaoyan leaned into An Xing's arms and turned his phone into a speakerphone, and threw it on the table. "What happy event do you want to tell your brothers?"

The other party laughed dryly, "I'm getting married, the exact date is the ninth of next month, and the seventh is Saturday to entertain old classmates. I have reserved a table at Liu Jing's Jingxiu Hall tonight."

"Congratulations." Li Shaoyan replied.

"Are you coming?" Zhao Yichong asked, "I want you to come. I haven't seen you for seven years since graduation."

Li Shaoyan didn't answer.

"Please, I have a lot of things I want to tell you. All these years, I have been thinking about you..." Zhao Yichong lost the frivolity at the beginning of the conversation.

"Then I have to discuss it with my family." Li Shaoyan interrupted the conversation.

"Family? Didn't you cut off contact with them?"

"My parents are not family members, my family is my lover." Li Shaoyan said like a tongue twister, and he cast his eyes on An Xing.

"Oh... congratulations too." Zhao Yichong was a little lost in his speech, "By the way, add me to WeChat. My mobile phone number is WeChat. Number seven, I'll wait for you. Goodbye!"

After hanging up the phone, Li Shaoyan leaned on An Xing's shoulder and remained silent for a long time.

"The ex-boyfriend is getting married, are you so disappointed? Do you still pay attention to my lover?" An Xing asked with a smile.

"We are college classmates..." Li Shaoyan calmly told the story between him and Zhao Yichong.

"So, neither of you mentioned breaking up?" An Xing asked.Li Shaoyan shook his head.

"Then am I considered a third party?" An Xing asked again, "Prying his man."

Li Shaoyan was amused by him, looked at the dimples on Anxing's cheeks, and nodded, "You are a wife, and you want the wife that Mingmei is marrying."

Seeing him smile, An Xing said, "You should go to his wedding."

"Student reunions and weddings are very easy to have extramarital affairs," Li Shaoyan said, "Are you making me make a mistake?"

"You have to break up with him decently, so that I can justify my name." An Xing said jokingly, but the truth is correct, and there must be an end to the past, even if things are different.

Li Shaoyan didn't add Zhao Yichong's WeChat after all, he didn't want the other party to see his life through Moments.He just told Su Cheng to buy a ticket for himself when he went to Liujing City.

He still deals with bloody traffic accidents every day, feeling the panic of the perpetrators, the unexpected disaster and the fragility of life.It's just that any amount of exhaustion and weakness will disappear when you get home.He used to not understand why home is a harbor and a habitat, but now he understands that what makes home a home is not the [-]-square-meter house, but because the people in the room care about you and can take care of you when you are relieved. After defense, warm the one who protects you.

That person sympathizes with you, but also needs you.For example, now, after hanging up the phone, An Xing was frowning.

"There has been a change in the personnel that our center will send to Liujing College for exchange and study." An Xing sighed, "Xiaoqu's lover's due date is more than a month ahead of schedule, and he is now in the delivery room. He can't go."

"Can't you change someone else?" Li Shaoyan asked.

An Xing was about to shake his head, "There are not many people in the center. In the past two days, the Ministry of Education came to check, and there are escorts. Now I can go, but I can't take a car."

"When are you going to communicate? How many days? Are you in Liujing City?"

"Report on the night of the [-]rd, communicate with each other on the [-]th, [-]th, and [-]th, and leave on the [-]th." An Xing looked at the notice, "Not in Liujing City, but in the Liujing Comprehensive Reform Area."

"Let me see you off." Li Shaoyan said, "It happens that we are going to attend the wedding on the [-]th, so we will go together. I will take a few days off and accompany you. I will come back on Saturday and take a rest on Sunday."

"But it takes five or six hours to drive to Liujing City. I can take motion sickness medicine for four hours." An Xing said while looking at the map.

Li Shaoyan thought for a while, "We took the high-speed for about four hours, and the nearest high-speed exit is on the national highway. If you wake up and feel uncomfortable, we will stop. When you fall asleep, we will go."

"It will take a long time to walk. You will be tired from driving." An Xing disagreed.

"It's okay, if you really want to be good for me, just sleep a little longer. I'll take care of the rest." Li Shaoyan wiped away An Xing's frowning brows, and said with a playful smile: "It's been a long time since the car shook, I feel confident that I can make you faint .”

An Xing pushed away the handsome face in front of him, and now he can only try it.

An Xing, who has never traveled far, has been anxious since he decided to communicate. He was restless, worried about whether he would get sick, and worried about how to prepare his luggage.This was the first time in his life that he was going to spend four days in a strange city, and the excitement far outweighed the panic.

The next day was about to start. After An Xing communicated with his mother and Xiao Ke about the two-day pick-up and drop-off to school, he began to worry.There is only one An Xiaoke suitcase at home, the pink Barbie, which is only small enough to use.Li Shaoyan brought two suitcases from his apartment.When he was on the SWAT team, he traveled a lot, and packing was like baking a cookie to him.

Li Shaoyan made a list: shirt, underwear, socks, charger, ID card, toiletry bag, slippers, sleeping bag, coat.

An Xing squatted on the ground facing the list and put the things into the box, "What's in the toiletry bag?"

"The hotel actually has these, but I'm used to bringing my own towel and comb, and two drinking cups, so I can drink water and rinse my mouth." Li Shaoyan took out condoms and lubricating oil from the drawer of the bedside table, and threw them into the in the box.

"Do you bring this too?" An Xing raised his head and asked.

Li Shaoyan looked along his neckline, and inspected the scenery on An Xing's chest with his eyes, "You are so attractive, what should I do if I can't hold it? The hotels are too expensive."

Anxing ignored Li Shaoyan's teasing, staring at the list and still worrying, "Why do you need a sleeping bag? It's too late to buy it now, is there any in the supermarket?"

Li Shaoyan pulled An Xing up, hugged him, and kissed the corner of his eyes, "There is me, don't worry. I used to live in the hotel of the police station, and I brought sleeping bags for cleaning. What about the two of us?" Li Shaoyan thought for a while, "The hotel It’s all warm, just take two sheets, thick and thin.”

"That's four beds." An Xing said and wanted to look for it.

"Come back to me!" Li Shaoyan pulled An Xing, "Are you capable? Do you still want to sleep in a separate bed with me?"

"Jingjiang College provides a standard room with two single beds." An Xing explained, "I can apply for a double bed room and subsidize the difference myself, but what if I don't have one?"

"Then squeeze one." Li Shaoyan domineeringly pushed An Xing down on the bed, pecked his thin lips, "No matter how narrow it is, can it be narrower than my sofa? Don't we sleep well?"

An Xing tossed and turned all night, obviously ready, but still uneasy.After falling asleep in a daze, it didn't take long before dawn, and he kept yawning, thinking that he could fall asleep without taking motion sickness medicine.But half an hour before departure, I still took the medicine.

Anxing opened the co-pilot's door and was about to enter, but was stopped by Li Shaoyan, and went directly to the back seat behind the driver's seat.

"Huh?" An Xing asked with narrowed eyes.

"The co-pilot is the safest. The one behind me is the safest." Li Shaoyan took two cushions and put the plush dog he won in the amusement park last time on the car seat, "Lying or sitting?"

"Sit down." An Xing had long legs, and the first two times he slept in his nest was not comfortable.

Anxing leaned against the car window, looked at the dimly lit garage, listened to Li Shaoyan's long-winded and melodious music, nodded from time to time, and promised, "I know, I will tell you when I wake up uncomfortable." Sleepiness and Yao Jin came together, and he quickly closed his eyes.

With the experience of the previous two times, Li Shaoyan basically mastered the method of driving with An Xing.In the four hours after the medicine took effect, no matter how fast I drove, I wouldn't wake him up even if I stepped on the brakes twice.Four hours later, An Xing gradually became sober, and Li Shaoyan had to try to keep driving as smoothly as possible.

But the last time An Xing clearly woke up, but insisted until he parked the car. Although Li Shaoyan was very distressed, it could also prove that An Xing could bear it for a while, which might be a good thing, but this time I should pay more attention, An Xing can bear it, but I can't bear his uncomfortable look.