Just be your own driver

The car was very quiet, and An Xing was a little nervous, "Stop..." Before he finished speaking, he felt Li Shaoyan rushing towards him. He fastened the seat belt fast enough to cover his ears, stretched out his hand to start the ignition, stepped on the accelerator, and the car "Whoosh" jumped out.

"Why did you tell others what I should know? Am I not good enough for you? Or am I too good for you?" Li Shaoyan turned the steering wheel anxiously, but asked An Xing in his mouth, "Cheng Tingpei knows, Am I unworthy? It’s great to have money and power! Holding a large bouquet of roses will tell you everything.” Li Shaoyan vented all the pent-up grievances in his chest, “Can’t take a car yet? I don’t think you sit well Is it?"

Li Shaoyan glared at An Xing angrily, wanting to hear his explanation.The moment he looked at the past, his heart was beating wildly, he slammed the steering wheel, and braked to stop on the side of the road. "Anxing, Anxing! What's wrong with you?"

At this time, An Xing was curled up on the passenger seat, exhaling desperately but not inhaling, his eyes closed tightly, glasses hanging crookedly on the bridge of his nose, his face was pale, his lips were bloodless, he was holding the seat belt with one hand, and the car door with the other Hand, trembling uncontrollably.

"An Xing!" The moment Li Shaoyan let go of his seat belt, An Xing collapsed on the seat.Li Shaoyan reached out to touch his face, it was cold, his forehead was covered with cold sweat, and the shirt under the windbreaker was wet, like a cat that had been drenched in the rain all night. "Don't scare me, An Xing, wake up." Li Shaoyan touched his cold face and hugged him tightly.

"Get off... the car..." An Xing used all his strength to bite out two words from his lips.

Li Shaoyan opened the doors on one side of the car to create a relatively windless space, put the cushions on the car on the roadside curbs, then took An Xing down and sat down with his arms around him.He took off his clothes and covered An Xing's head, wiped his cold sweat gently, and muttered softly: "Get out of the car, it's all right, get off the car, it's all right."

Li Shaoyan kept trembling while hugging An Xing, and couldn't tell whether it was him or An Xing who was shaking. He kissed An Xing's forehead from time to time, and the salty taste became bitter in Li Shaoyan's mouth.

I don't know how long it took, Anxing's breathing in his arms gradually calmed down, and his cold hands became warmer. He slowly opened his eyes and said softly, "I'm sorry, I scared you."

Looking into his dazed eyes, Li Shaoyan patted him lightly, "Don't talk, don't talk, it's my fault."

An Xing leaned on Li Shaoyan's shoulder, and looked at him who was at a loss. He barely raised his mouth. He raised his hand and patted Li Shaoyan's face, which was wet. An Xing said weakly, "Is it raining? Why is his face so dark?" Wet."

Li Shaoyan grabbed his hand, put it on his lips and kept kissing, "You're still teasing me at this time! What's wrong with you? You scared me to death."

An Xing sighed, "It's an old problem."

An Xing adjusted his breathing, and Li Shaoyan didn't dare to urge him, but just waited. After an unknown amount of time, he finally said slowly: "On my 12th birthday, I was lying on the window waiting for my dad. He told me Bought Transformers as a gift. It was raining so hard that day, I watched cars passing by one after another, and finally saw my dad’s car. I opened the window to call him, but saw someone on the road. My dad’s car suddenly I lost control, avoided people, but crashed into the side of the road. The car overturned at that time. I ran downstairs crazily. In the heavy rain, the sound of the engine and the horn kept ringing. My dad was pressed in the car. Blood, I called him desperately, trying to pull him out. He looked at me crying and said to me with a smile: Happy birthday."

An Xing bit his lip, and wiped the corners of his eyes lightly by wiping his glasses. What happened more than 20 years ago was like what happened yesterday. The heavy rain and the car accident took away An Xing's father and birthday, and left him forever. In Taohuaping District.

"When the ambulance came, he was already dying. After my father passed away, I often dreamed of that scene. After a period of rest, I went back to school again. Once the school organized an autumn outing, and I got on the bus. The time was fine, but when the car engine started, I seemed to be back to the moment when my father’s car accident happened. I couldn’t control my body, vomited, sweated, and convulsed... From then on, I couldn’t take the car anymore, the bus Cars, private cars, even tricycles and electric cars. Just sitting on them and hearing the roar of the engine makes me sick. So, I can only ride a bicycle.”

"So you have only been active in Taohuaping since you were a child?" Li Shaoyan asked distressedly.

Anxing nodded, "When I was in college, I occasionally rode to other districts in Taojiang City. After I got Xiaoke, I was basically in Taohuaping. I will go around when I have time on weekends."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Li Shaoyan held An Xing's cold hand.

"Oh, I fell in love when I was in school. As long as I told the other party that I couldn't take a car, they didn't care at first, but gradually, I couldn't travel together. It was always a pity. They wanted to go far away, but I could only stay. In the same place, we will break up in the end. I can only stay in Taohuaping, but it has become my reason for rejecting others."

"Those are little kids. I'm an adult, so it's different." Li Shaoyan gently stroked An Xing's hair in his arms.

"After you know, will you take me to climb Longshan Mountain to see the scenery? You will definitely accommodate me."

Li Shao was at a loss for words, it really was like this.

"When I was young, my dad often took me out. After the accident, I no longer have the ability to go out, and I have forgotten what the world outside Taojiang City is like. I have always wanted to cycle around China, but Xiao Ke and My mother needs to take care of me. But when Xiao Ke grows up and my mother doesn’t need to take care of me, I can still ride a bike. Now it’s rare that someone is willing to take me out, so I just want to play once and count.” An Xing Looking at Li Shaoyan, he said softly, "I'm sorry, I only cared about myself and failed to consider your feelings."

After listening to An Xing's story, Li Shaoyan sighed, filled with emotion in his heart, "Then we used to date, how did you go back and forth?"

"Bike." An Xing replied honestly.

"You would rather ride a car for tens of kilometers and spend several hours than tell me..."

An Xing bit his lip and bowed his head in silence.

"Fool!" Li Shaoyan complained in a low voice, "Are you going to the hospital?"

"No, just walk."

Li Shaoyan supported An Xing to get up, took out a hat from the car and put it on his head, after locking the car, the two walked slowly side by side, Li Shaoyan's hand tightly holding on to An Xing.

The night in September was getting colder, and the two of them walked aimlessly, and the street lamps stretched their shadows for a long time.

"How do you know that I can't take the car?" An Xing slowed down a little and asked.

"I met Cheng Ting." Li Shaoyan touched An Xing with his elbow, and said with a bit of jealousy, "I didn't know that he knew your secret."

"I didn't want him to pester me." An Xing replied softly, "Is it because of this that you come to ask me to blame you?"

"I am the one who loves deeply and is responsible." Li Shaoyan gave An Xing a blank look, seeing that the hair under his hat was still wet, and his hands didn't feel warm even after covering them for a long time.

"My house is nearby, go up and sit for a while." Li Shaoyan said, "It's so cold, don't let you catch a cold."

"Okay, anyway, Xiao Ke has already sent it to my mother's house."

"Has your mother been taking care of Xiao Ke for you?" Li Shaoyan was curious about how An Xing, an old man, took care of the child.

"Well. We moved back to the building. My mother and I are in the same community, in front of the building and behind the building. She doesn't want to live with us, so it's good to be separated." An Xing followed Li Shaoyan into the community, "I work overtime, on duty, and go out for entertainment. Send Xiao Ke there."

"Pastime?" Li Shaoyan asked with squinted eyes, "With whom?"

An Xing smiled and pushed Li Shaoyan, "It's just riding a bicycle around Taohuaping, looking for fun and delicious food. It's the first time I went to Leopard Point, and I met you."

Li Shaoyan lives in Linyu Community, where he focuses on urban white-collar workers. The environment of the community is good and the properties are excellent.Li Shaoyan used a fingerprint lock at home, and when he pressed the doorknob, the door opened, and An walked in.

"Your house is really clean." An Xing looked left and right, "Yo, duplex. Do you clean it yourself?"

"What else? You are the first customer." Li Shaoyan poured a cup of hot water, looked at An Xing whose hair was still wet, put the cup on the bar, turned and went upstairs, and found a piece of clothing from the cabinet, " I broke out in a cold sweat just now, change your clothes, don’t catch a cold.”

An Xing took the clothes, took off the outer jacket, took off his own shirt, and just put the T-shirt on his head when he felt fingers drawing pictures on his abdomen.

At first, Li Shaoyan fell in love with An Xing's long legs, but he didn't expect that this guy not only had long legs but also a thin waist, even if he had a thin waist, he also had some flesh, and his abdominal muscles could be vaguely seen under the soft flesh.Hey, this made Li Shaoyan drink the hot water that was originally given to An Xing by himself, and he had the idea of ​​​​comparing with this person who has a better figure.

"Darling, I've already taken it off, so don't wear it now." Li Shaoyan's deep voice sounded in An Xing's ear, "We both agreed at the time that the kidneys should not be distracted, but how many times have I distracted the kidneys now? Never walked through it once."

Li Shaoyan pulled off the clothes on An Xing's head and threw them on the sofa.An Xing's glasses were wrapped in his clothes, he couldn't see clearly for a moment, he narrowed his eyes, and bit his lip unconsciously.

"Didn't I already say that? You want to bite me." Li Shaoyan put his hands on An Xing's waist, pushed him back hard, and threw him onto the sofa. "I heard that the prostates of people who ride a lot are not good. You can enjoy it."

An Xing is highly myopic, and after taking off his glasses, he could only see a vague shadow. Li Shaoyan knelt on the sofa and took off his clothes. When An Xing remembered, Li Shaoyan held him down again, "What is this for?"

"Where are my glasses? I want to see you clearly." An Xing looked around for his clothes.

Want to see you clearly, these words fell on Li Shaoyan's heart softly, he pulled An Xing up, hugged him on his lap, stared at An Xing's bewildered eyes, touched his with the tip of his nose, and hoarse his voice Said: "Can you see clearly?"

Anxing bit his lip and reached out to touch Li Shaoyan's face. Years of wind and sun made Li Shaoyan's skin feel like gravel, making his fingers itchy.Li Shaoyan's facial features were profound, and those eyes stared at him for a long time, they would be sucked in like a black hole.

Just as Li Shaoyan was about to kiss her, An Xing's eyes moved down and he slid down.An Xing asked softly: "Is it tiring to do 1?"