There is such a metamorphosis in the world

When I saw Xiao Jing's lips, I couldn't take it anymore, my face turned red all at once.

"Come down first." He said to me.

I nodded and got out of the car with weak legs.

Walked a few steps forward, saw that no adults had come out in the yard, and felt a little relieved.Turning around, I found Xiao Jing looking at me.

I felt strange, but he suddenly looked away.

After a while, he looked at me again and called my name.

"The Lu family."

I am waiting for his next words.

No.

I looked at him in surprise, meeting his eyes.

"The Lu family."

He spoke again.

I nodded and moved closer.

"In the future, don't worry about what those people are talking about, they are all boring people." Xiao Jing said, "It's such a nasty joke..."

As soon as I heard him say that, a string in my brain snapped, and I hurriedly shouted: "It's true!"

Xiao Jing who was interrupted stopped talking and looked directly at me.

I was dumbfounded by him, and my heart broke out in sweat: "It's not...that, what...they weren't joking, and I don't know how they knew."

"Don't make trouble." Xiao Jing patted my head.

I was so angry that I asked him back: "Then why are you so angry... You clearly thought it was a joke..."

Xiao Jing's expression changed, and he began to look at me coldly.

I was most afraid of his eyes like this, but for some reason, I felt at the time that if this matter continued like this, there would never be a chance of turning things around.The courage that emerged in a flash broke through all the previous worries, and I was a little desperate to let Xiao Jing know what was on my mind.

"Go back first. Auntie said she was not feeling well when she asked. I'll ask for leave for you."

Xiao Jing turned the car around.

"Don't worry about the school, I have a solution."

Seeing Xiao Jing change the subject directly, I became even more anxious: "Wait."

He glanced at me and got on the bicycle: "Don't talk about it in the future."

"No, it's true..." I said anxiously.

I don't care, really, I don't care.

What is gay, what is two years older, I really don't want to care about it.

Only one thing, only one thing you can't get me wrong—

Xiao Jing stepped on the pedal and rode forward.

"Brother!" I called him, "Brother, brother! Brother, Xiao Jing... I really like it, it's true, it's so fucking true! Xiao Jing, I like you!"

Xiao Jing's figure swayed twice, and finally the bicycle carried him and disappeared around the corner.

I followed a few steps and froze in place.

I turned around, turned around quickly after walking, and howled desperately at the corner: "Xiao Jing!!"

There was no echo, and even the sound of the car chain turning disappeared.Xiao Jing has already left.

I turned around and moved home slowly, feeling so wronged.It's hard to say, but in the end others still don't believe it.What the hell.I angrily kicked the big stone on the side of the road, gasping for breath from the pain.

No, or should I say, this was impossible from the start.

And I know it all too well.

I touched my feet and squatted at the intersection.

They say that men don't flick their tears easily.

It's all fucking bullshit, it's funny to say it.The man is hurt, sad, wants to cry but can't cry, who will hold back?

So I cried.

The night was spent restlessly.

In the evening, I secretly lay on the window to watch Xiao Jing who had just finished school, and saw that there was no strange injury on his face, and his expression did not change.I thought this should be resolved smoothly.

I'm not worried that those people in school will call me gay again, but I'm afraid that Xiao Jing will be the defendant who throws chairs and kicks people in the classroom, and then Mother Xiao will definitely beat him to death.

Xiao's mother was very strict with Xiao Jing and would not allow him to make any mistakes in planning.

Thinking of this, I immediately regretted my morning confession.

How should I face Xiao Jing in the future? I don't want to be unfamiliar with him at all.

I had a bunch of messy dreams in the middle of the night, and woke up suddenly at five o'clock and couldn't fall asleep anymore.As the sky got brighter, I became more and more anxious, constantly thinking about how to talk to Xiao Jing in my mind.

The alarm clock that had been set started to sound, and I woke up with a headache.

After washing up, he walked out with his schoolbag on his back.

When he arrived at the entrance of the yard, he saw Xiao Jing leaning against the wall with his schoolbag hanging on his bicycle.

I lowered my head, wishing I could degenerate into an ostrich and move forward with a pile of dirt.He walked over slowly, thinking that if Xiao Jing didn't call me, he would run away.

Xiao Jing heard the voice and opened his eyes to look at me.When I walked over, he suddenly bent down to look at me: "Didn't sleep well last night? Your eyes are red."

This sentence made my legs weak in fright, I wished I could kneel on the ground and stuff yesterday's confession back into my mouth.

I huffed out of breath.

Xiao Jing glanced at me, walked over to put on the legs of the bicycle, and said to me: "Come on."

I nodded and skillfully straddled the back seat of the car.

On the way, he asked about going to school, and he answered roughly, but kept silent about the word "homosexuality".

I opened my mouth, but didn't say anything in the end.

Xiao Jing didn't speak any more.

After arriving at school, Xiao Jing asked me to come down to the classroom first.

In fact, I kind of wanted to go to the car with him, but I didn't dare to say anything when I saw him like this.

He struggled to walk towards the stairs, and only heard the sound of Xiao Jing pushing the cart when he got to the middle.All of a sudden I couldn't move anymore and stayed where I was listening to the sound.

The question I thought about in the morning surfaced again, and Xiao Jing and I will become like this in the future?

I like Xiao Jing, but I don't know if Xiao Jingxi likes me...

No, we can't be together even if he likes me too, with so many people around watching.

I shook my head, my head was in a mess.

I took two steps up, felt something was wrong, and took a few steps back.

In the end, I couldn't bear it any longer, I took a few steps down the steps and ran straight to Xiao Jing.

It was only when I bumped into Xiao Jing that I realized what I was really thinking in my heart. I was worried and reluctant, but I was more reluctant. If I didn’t want to give up, I couldn’t give up. I like Xiao Jing.

Xiao Jing was caught off guard and was knocked down by me to the ground.

I was taken aback, but I still pretended to be calm and watched him turn around in surprise.

The people around were also shocked by this scene, maybe some of them heard about me, and it didn't take long for them to scream.I raised my head and yelled to the side: "Don't fucking fart, where should you go!"

They looked at me, then at Xiao Jing, and had no choice but to leave in embarrassment.

I turned around and pointed at Xiao Jing, and said viciously: "You wait for me, sooner or later you will fall into my hands!"

After yelling boldly, I ran away immediately, leaving behind Xiao Jing who was still sitting on the ground.

I have to say that I am always like this. Before things happen, I worry to death. Once it is confirmed, [-] horses will not be able to pull back.Before, when I thought I liked Xiao Jing, I liked it all at once, always afraid that he would know.Now that someone knows that he has confessed, he wants to be with him all the time.

I feel that it doesn't matter if ten sticks are interrupted by my parents.

Facing Xiao Jing, I poured out all my shameless enthusiasm, but I didn't think about him at all.

Although people's hearts are all made of meat, meat is also different. Maybe I am pork belly and others are high-quality beef.

Now that I think of these things, I can only scold him for a piece of shit, but after that, I still don't want to hit the south wall.

I sighed. At this moment, the afterglow outside the window disappeared completely, and Xiao Jing, who was reading a book behind him, turned on the desk lamp.

One day passed by so slowly, and Xiao Jing hadn't finished reading his English book yet.

Looking at the night scene again made me feel tired, so I turned around and floated back to Xiao Jing's side.

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January 2014, 1, winter, sunny to cloudy

I can't pretend when the sun hits my eyes.

Xiao Jing was still sleeping when he opened it, facing me.

His sleepy expression was a little playful, and I stared at it for a while.After a while, Xiao Jing was also awakened by the strong light, moved to my side with a dissatisfied face, and fell asleep again.

Looking at his messy hair, I laughed.

Such a man usually has a cold face and a sneer, and he looks innocent when he sleeps, as if he has nothing to do with him.

Slowly floating up, I looked helplessly at the open curtains.If you usually see it, you can help him pull it up.

I floated down again, lay beside him, looked at his face, and began to think about the past in boredom.

Recently I found that this is really a good way to pass the time, especially staying with Xiao Jing.

To be honest at that time, I didn't know how to catch up with Xiao Jing, at most I was more attentive than usual.

Or take advantage of it occasionally.

Xiao Jing has always ignored my small gestures.

Not long after such an offensive, I was beaten back to my original shape, back to how I got along with Xiao Jing before.But to use the words of Jiang Yang, who went to college, to put it—even you are disgusting.

Whenever I heard this sentence, I gave him the middle finger and laughed at him for being jealous.

Gradually, the third year of high school came, and everyone began to enter the state of preparing for the college entrance examination. The few people who joked that I was gay before were no longer so idle, and the tense atmosphere permeated the entire third year of high school.

I also put the pursuit aside first, and the most talked about when I stayed with Xiao Jing was "Brother, how to solve this problem".

Sometimes when I was tired from doing the questions, I went straight to sleep at Xiao Jing's house, and woke up vaguely in the middle of the night, and found myself wrapped in a quilt, with the sleeping Xiao Jing beside me.

My heart was pounding, and I kept thanking the sensible mother Xiao.She opened her eyes and looked at him beautifully, thinking that she must be competitive in the college entrance examination and enter the same university as him.

If we want to talk about the episode in the last year, I would probably count the incident where I met Jiang Yang again.

Deciding to spend the afternoon in the school library on Sunday, Xiao Jing went home first and said he would come to see me at five o'clock in the afternoon.

This was simply beyond my imagination, and I was jumping around to pick up books.

Halfway through the jump, a person patted me from behind: "The second semester of junior high school?