Narrow road to rebirth

Jane left home and headed southwest all the way.He has no destination, just stops and walks, looks at the scenery along the way, and appreciates the customs and customs of other places.

There were many places he yearned for, and he always felt that he would have time to go in the future. Most importantly, he wanted to go to many places with Lu Fengzhou, but he died before he got the chance.

Fortunately, God gave him a chance to do it all over again. This kind of thing is really more mysterious than winning tens of millions of grand prizes.

After coming out, he finally knew that the outside world was more exciting than he imagined.There will be all kinds of people and things on the journey.Really interesting!

It's just that once in a while, the shadow of that person would pop into my mind unexpectedly, which would startle me, and then drive him out again.He doesn't want to examine the past now, he wants to let go.

In the end, Jian Shuran entered the Tibetan area. The Tibetan area in February is really unfriendly to tourists.It was originally a plateau area with thin oxygen. Because of the cold weather and extremely low vegetation coverage, altitude sickness became more serious.

Headache, vomiting, rapid heartbeat, heavy breathing, Jane felt like she was about to burst.Fortunately, the owner of the hotel is very friendly and experienced, and has been taking care of him.After three days, the symptoms of altitude sickness subsided, and he came back to life.

But the lack of oxygen in the brain is also good, that is, he can stop thinking about all kinds of bad things at all, and focus all on his eyes.

This is the largest city in Tibet, and there are many tourists, but it seems that there are more foreign tourists in winter, and Jane wanders aimlessly on the street.

This place is very close to innocence, and you can touch Shide by raising your hand.The sky is always blue, like washed water, clear and transparent.

The majestic palace stands between the sky and the earth, shining brightly.Many people say that this world-renowned building is a testimony of a great love, but Jian Shuran only feels dazzling when looking at it from a distance.

The snow-capped mountains farther away towered into the clouds, majestic and graceful.Like a beautiful background painting, it freezes the infinite yearning of people, the yearning to transcend the world of mortals.

Jian Shuran likes to sit in a teahouse, grab a handful of barley noodles and drink a bowl of buttered tea, surrounded by a language he doesn't understand, he has never felt so relaxed.At least no one here will take a picture of him with a mobile phone, or spread all kinds of rumors.

Pure freedom, not thinking about anyone, not thinking about anything, enjoying everything lazily.

In the afternoon, I went to the square in front of the temple to bask in the sun. Some people worshiped there over and over again, piously throwing themselves to the ground, not afraid of the severe cold.Tibetans' beliefs are very pure, free from desires.

There are a few small stray cats in the square, and they are not afraid of people when they see many people.

A little monk was feeding the kitten. Jian Shuran stepped forward to take out the bread in her bag, broke it up, and fed it to the kitten.

The little monk smiled brightly at Jane, showing his white teeth.But a ten-year-old child has already become a monk!

The little monk smiled very purely, as transparent as the sky above his head.

The two of them just squatted in the sun to feed the cat, and neither of them spoke.

After the little monk left, Jane sat on the edge of the temple wall, with a few kittens circling around his feet.

The sun is shining and the winter is quiet. Even if the temperature is very low, he is willing to sit here for an afternoon.

The solemn chanting sound came from the ear, and the Buddha's voice curled up, smoothing the wrinkles in people's hearts, ironing the hustle and bustle of time, and returning everything to peace.

The Buddha said that the past life is the result of the future life.

Jane really wants to know what is the cause and effect of her two lives.

But the Buddha said: Do not speak!

For several days, Jian Shuran went to feed the cat, and saw the little monk every time.The two of them fed the cat quietly. Jian Shuran tried to strike up a conversation once, but the little monk couldn't understand Chinese.

He didn't say anything, meeting is fate, there is no need to invite words, it's not bad that it seems like a divine friendship.

Day after day, Jane forgot the return date. He thought it was a good place and made him feel very relaxed.Both physically and mentally, I haven't felt so relieved in a long time.Don't think about anything, don't worry about anything.

On this day, the weather was still fine, and Jian Shuran came to feed the cat again.

The little monk suddenly said something to him, it was in Tibetan, but Jane couldn't understand it at all.

"What did you say?" Jian Shuran asked in a daze.

The little monk repeated it again, then smiled at him, his dark eyeballs shone as if they had been washed with water, his monk robe shook, he got up and left.

"What do you mean?" Jane lowered her head and continued to break the bread.

"Since you don't want to give up, why don't you let it go!" A young woman next to her suddenly said.

Jane was stunned for a moment, looking at the woman, the bread in her hand fell to the ground.

"The little master told you just now." The woman pointed to the direction where the little monk left. Her Chinese was fluent.

"Thank you!" Jian Shuran thanked him dully, but began to chew on this sentence in her heart

Since you don't want to give up, why not let it go!

What are you reluctant to give up?Let go of what?Jian Shuran squatted down to pick up a large piece of bread, and continued to break it into pieces.The action is mechanical and monotonous.

It wasn't until the bread in his hand turned into crumbs, which aroused the dissatisfaction of the kitten, that he was woken up by meowing.

Don't give up, let it go!Let it go, don't give up!

These two words kept echoing in his mind, gradually amplified, and continued to amplify until they completely occupied his thinking.

Jian Shuran has never dared to admit it, he just couldn't bear Lu Fengzhou, so he found an excuse to hide.He said that he wanted to come out to find himself, yes, he wanted to find himself before he was 19 years old and before he met Lu Fengzhou.But as time passed, he felt that he was getting farther and farther away from him.

What he doesn't let go of is the 14 years of entanglement, what he doesn't let go of is the person he once loved deeply, and what he doesn't let go of is his ability to love others.

He was fighting against himself. During the time when he lost his memory, he regained the feeling of being in love with Lu Fengzhou at the beginning.A look can make him sleepless at night, and a touch can make him feel electrified.Every frown and smile of that person can infinitely affect his nerves, and he can feel the slightest change.

So he was fighting against his own heart, against his disobedient self, against the heart that insisted on going towards Lu Fengzhou.

Yes, after breaking through layers of knots in his heart and peeling off the blood scab on his heart, what he has to face is the fact that he still loves the road.

Sometimes people will be confused and confused, especially after many years of relationship, they can't help asking themselves, how did they fall in love with this person in the first place?Why did you fall in love with this person? Are you blind?

Jian Shuran also had the same thought at the time. When he was dying, he was still thinking about how he fell in love so deeply at the beginning. His enthusiasm was exhausted, and his heart was ashamed.At that time, it wasn't that he didn't love, but that he completely lost the ability to love.

But a memory loss made him only remember the first appearance, and now he remembered all the feelings of first love.The first heartbeat, the first passion, the first desire, and all the thoughts of seeing this person for the first time, all came to mind.

His original intention is back!

Cover your eyes with your hand, let it go, who will you let go?Is it himself?

He is afraid, because of the humble love of 14 years, so he is afraid.Rebuilding trust is very difficult, and he fears being beaten back to his original form every step of the way.But it's useless to be afraid, and I can't resist the desire to have it again.

But what should he do now... Should he be brave, or desperate!

Rather than saying that Lu Fengzhou trapped him, it was better to say that he trapped himself in a dead end.

He stood up and walked towards the inn. As the sun set, there were far fewer pedestrians on the road.The street is empty and deserted.

His eyes felt a little wet, and once he regained some thoughts, they would grow wildly like weeds, completely uncontrollable.

He really hated Lu Fengzhou!

So should he turn back?Look at that person, look at their feelings!Let each other go!

The cold wind blows and fills the entire street. The wind on the plateau is bitter and strong, blowing on the body makes people thoroughly awake.

Jian Shuran suddenly stopped and took a deep breath.I really can't bear it, so I just let myself die.Life is not long, why bother yourself!

He turned around slowly but firmly, this was the first time he turned and looked behind him since he went out.

The man he had loved deeply for two lifetimes was less than ten meters away from him, and his whole body showed signs of being abused by the plateau climate.

His hair is disheveled, his face is full of dust, his skin is dark, and there are two spots of the iconic plateau red on his cheeks.

Jian Shuran has always known that from the moment he left home, Lu Fengzhou has been following him, not too far away, has been following him.Not approaching, not far away, not disturbing but silently following.

He stubbornly refused to look back and looked straight ahead.

He was thinking that maybe when Lu Fengzhou got tired, he would give up.But now it was obvious that he couldn't wait for Lu Fengzhou to get tired, because he wanted to go home with this man.

Jian Shuran stretched out her hand to Lu Fengzhou, and also extended her hand to his future.

Everything doesn't matter anymore, I have died once, let all my fears be buried deep in the soil.

Lu Fengzhou's eyes sparkled as if they were about to burn, and he ran towards Jian Shuran desperately.Altitude sickness made every step of his life heavy, but he still tried his best to run towards his lover.

"Of course." Lu Fengzhou was breathing very heavily, as if his lungs were pressing down on a stone.After following for almost a month, he regarded himself as a background board or a passerby, and he didn't dare to take a step closer, so he watched from afar.

The two stood facing each other, each seeing themselves in the other's eyes.

Jian Shuran raised her hand, hugged Lu Fengzhou, and whispered in his ear: "Lu Fengzhou, I'll let you go, and I'll let me go too. This is our last chance, let's have a good time together Together. Let me see your sincerity!"

Lu Fengzhou was about to go crazy, crazy with joy, Jian Shuran's words fell straight into the depths of his soul, broke away from all the restraints on his body, and his heart was injected with a booster in an instant.

He hugged Jian Shuran tightly, trying to embed this person into his body completely, connecting the bones and flesh and blood, so that the two of them could become one.

After 15 years, Lu Fengzhou finally found Jian Shuran and his lover.There is heat in his eyes, this time no matter what, he will not let go again.

On the cold street, they embraced each other tightly, the coldness of winter was dispelled at this moment, and an indescribable warmth flowed through their bodies.It warms their past, present and future, and eliminates the past injuries and barriers invisible.

Since you are in love, you should bravely hold on to each other, no matter what you face in the future, just accept it calmly.

This relationship, the entanglement between the two lives, finally blossomed and borne fruit.