Narrow road to rebirth

Jian Shuran felt as if she was locked in a box, which was a very comfortable box.There is everything in it, such as eating, drinking and playing, and it is like spring all the year round, surrounded by flowers.And the person he loves, every minute and every second he seems to be stepping on the clouds, experiencing the happiness that others can't experience.

He just wanted to stay in the box and didn't want to leave.Only one day, the box suddenly cracked a gap, and he saw the outside world.

There was another him there, and that one was very unhappy, very unhappy.I struggle with my own consciousness every day, believe or doubt, be loyal or betray, stay or escape, warmth or hurt, it is a world full of contradictions and anxieties.

He seemed to see a very thick blood color, that there was a big, big hole in his heart, and blood was bleeding inside.

Jane is really scared, his box seems to be collapsing.He tried his best to grab something beautiful, something wrapped in honey, but suddenly the honey fell off, revealing the extremely bitter core inside.

Finally, he was forcibly pulled out of the box. Outside the box was a violent storm, and everything he was unwilling to face, but he still left his box and his shelter after all.

When Jian Shuran woke up completely, it was already winter vacation.In Jingcheng in the twelfth lunar month, dripping water turns into ice, it is very cold!

The memory is docked, and after living two lives, the memory seems to be the overlap of three lives.All the pain and sweetness are intertwined to form an oversized Luo Wang, which engulfs him.The more he struggled, the tighter the entanglement became.Gradually, the flesh was strangled with bleeding marks, which was very painful.

When he recalled the years he had lived, was this a joke?

Lu Fengzhou has always stood by his side like walking on thin ice, like a puppy who is afraid of being lost at any time.The eyes that are revealed at all times are the kind that imply desire and expectation.

It's just that Jane is unable to respond now.

He's tired, really tired.He had such a beautiful dream, in which he had no experience other than happiness.

Now their home is very quiet, the original laughter has long since disappeared, he and Lu Fengzhou can't find a topic to talk about.Facing the current situation, Jane didn't know how to deal with it, and he couldn't accept marriage calmly.But he couldn't leave directly, he didn't know how to explain to his parents.

Jian Shuran could only lock himself in the room day by day, he didn't even have the energy to argue with Lu Fengzhou.

Jian Shuran finally understands why those celebrities or politicians, who live under the eyes of everyone, can maintain a marriage that seems to be divorced from each other for decades, because there are too many scruples.One hair can move the whole body, their relationship is like this.

Jane knew that he was trapped, in a dilemma.

Lu Fengzhou stubbornly slept in the living room, as if he was afraid that people would disappear without a trace.

He felt like he was going crazy, and Jane hadn't said a word to him for a week.There is no sign of him in the eyes, and the sense of presence in the air is stronger than him.

No matter how humbly he coaxed him, he couldn't get even a look.I was so flustered that I couldn't even sleep.

He thought that when Jian Shuran thought about it thoroughly, life would be full of storms, but now it seems that Jian Shuran doesn't even give him the wind and rain.

"Of course, can I come in?" Lu Fengzhou knocked on the door, but there was no response from inside. He was used to it, so he pushed the door open and entered.Seeing Jian Shuran sitting by the window, staring blankly at the scenery outside.

"I'm going out for a while. I have a very important banquet today. I can't miss it. It won't be long. I'll be back soon." Lu Fengzhou came to him and sat down.

"I'll bring you the poplar nectar from the ginkgo courtyard tonight." Lu Fengzhou was very close to the person, and he could smell the dry smell of Jian Shuran's body, which was warm.But this man is cold.

"Eat well tonight, Yun Shu and Zhuo Yu are here to accompany you." Now Lu Fengzhou dare not leave Jane alone, this state seems to disappear in a second, no matter in form or consciousness.

Jian Shuran leaned her head on the glass, feeling cool and cool. This man has been talking, but many words can't enter his mind.He's a bit of a mess!

"Of course, is it okay for you to say something to me, just one word, you can say anything." Lu Fengzhou begged, he didn't even bother to quarrel, did Jian Shuran's heart really die?What is left between them.

The cold war was the last thing he wanted. The feeling of being treated coldly was like cutting flesh with a blunt knife, and the pain was slowly and clearly stretched several times.

"Get out!" Jian Shuran said a word lightly, and as Lu Fengzhou wished, he spoke.

Lu Fengzhou trembled all over, and closed his eyes in despair.

"Baby, is it because I am dead that I can relieve your hatred?" Perhaps for them, inseparable life and inseparable death are really stories in fairy tales.

Lu Fengzhou looked at the head of the bed, their wedding ring was lying there quietly, it was abandoned, just like him.

Lu Fengzhou stood up suddenly, hugged Jian Shuran, and said softly: "I will not die, I will always be with you. Wait for me to come back."

After speaking, he kissed Jian Shuran on the ear, got up and walked out.

Lu Fengzhou left, and the room returned to silence, but Jian Shuran didn't come back to his senses. His thoughts had been floating in the air, wandering in the pain of the past life and the sweetness of the present life, constantly tugging on the other party.

Until the buzzing of the phone brought him back to consciousness.It's just that Jane didn't move, as if her body was out of control.Recently, a slightly loud noise can startle him, so the phone is set to vibrate.

The buzzing stopped for a few seconds, and then it started again, very persistently.Jian Shuran took the phone with a stiff arm and glanced at it. It was an unfamiliar number, so it must be Ming Xi.

Ming Xi is very tenacious, even if one number is blocked, she will immediately change to another one.The phone number he changed recently, if connected together, it is estimated that he can go around the A large playground.

After being dazed again and again, Jian Shuran still answered it. This was the first time he answered Mingxi's call after recovering his memory.

"Let's go out and play. I'll take you to the island country to see the cherry blossoms. The cherry blossoms on the southernmost island are already in bloom. If you like, we can go all the way north to see the cherry blossoms until June."

Ming Xi's tone was very relaxed, and he didn't question Jian Shuran why he didn't answer his calls or texts.It seems that there is no barrier between them, and it is a relationship that they can ask out to play at any time.

In fact, they haven't seen each other since the last unpleasant meeting in University A.Lu Fengzhou protected him even more tightly.

"Ming Xi, in my previous life, I always thought you liked Lu Fengzhou." Jian Shuran's voice was dull.

There was silence for a while, and suddenly hysterical laughter broke out, which was a bit harsh.Jane waited quietly for him to finish laughing.

After a long time, Ming Xi stopped laughing: "I'm getting the script of a disaster movie, can I fall in love with him? Am I blind or crazy? Don't tell me, this is the script you never gave me. The reason for my good face, I really died unjustly."

After listening to him, Jane suddenly thought, isn't this saying that she is blind or crazy?Forget it, say what you like.

"Mingxi, I don't love you, and I don't like you. Just give up and let yourself go. After struggling for so long, you must be very tired." Jane knows that loving someone is difficult. He realized how hard it was to respond, so he advised Ming Xi to let go.

"How do you know if you don't try? Broaden your horizons. There is more than one man in the world, Lu Fengzhou. If you don't look at other scenery, you will always be stuck here. Leave him and come to me." Ming Xi said to Jane has extraordinary patience, but he is surprised by Jane's stubbornness. He thought that after his memory is restored, everything will develop in the direction he expected, but now it seems that it is too far away.

"If you leave him, I won't go to you. The relationship between me and you is black and white. The relationship between me and him, I will find a way to deal with it." Jane couldn't accept his paranoia.

"How to deal with it? If he won't let you go, you won't be able to get rid of him at all. But I can help you." Ming Xi has never been afraid of anyone, before and now.

"I won't ask for your help, and don't involve Changfeng and Mingsheng. There are many lives and fortunes involved, so you can't be so self-willed." In the struggle between the two groups, the people at the bottom are often hurt in the end. .The news has been coming out frequently recently, even if he is mentally weak, he has no time to take care of it too much, and he has heard that both sides have losses.

And the real upper class will not be shaken. After all, a skinny camel is bigger than a horse.

"You are like this, and you still care about other people. You can't be too kind, or you will be bullied. Haven't you been bullied enough?" Frankly speaking, Mingxi didn't like this kind of person the most before, and felt too holy. .But for Jian Shuran, he really likes it. It seems that from the very beginning, he likes everything Jane does.

"I'm different from you. The class I was born in is destined to prevent me from developing a willful character. Stop it."

"If I stop, will you come with me?" Ming Xi asked innocently.

Jane was helpless, and the problem came back again.

"Mingxi, I won't go with you, how many times do I have to say it before you understand?"

"Jian Shuran, do you still love Lu Fengzhou?" Ming Xi took a deep breath with a questioning tone.

"Whether I love it or not, it's all my business." Jian Shuran never publicized her feelings everywhere, and she couldn't explain it to Ming Xi.

"Lu Fengzhou is a disaster." Ming Xi's voice inexplicably paused here, "If there is no him, everything will be easier."

Before Jian Shuran could speak, Ming Xi said again: "When Lu Fengzhou dies, you can come with me."

Jian Shuran frowned, he didn't like hearing the word "death" now, and felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

Before he could speak, Ming Xi had already hung up the phone.

Listening to the busy tone coming from the phone, my heartbeat fluctuated for some reason.