extravagant hug

The afternoon sun was not hot, and the gentle wind blew in, dancing the pure white and elegant floor-to-ceiling curtains.

On the deck chair on the balcony, Lin Shu was covered with a thin blanket, his complexion didn't improve much, he was still sickly pale, and upon closer inspection, there was a kind of powerlessness and weakness.A gust of wind blew, and he tightened the blanket around his body, with a big hand gently resting on his lower abdomen, as if he was sensing the traces of the little life inside.

From a distance, he seems to be integrated with the blue sky outside the window.

"Brother Wang, I came here to ask you to help me..." Lin Shu turned his back to Wang Zimu who came again, with a slightly tired but unchangeable tone.

"You don't need to say. I will do my best to keep this child. But, Lin Shu, he... what are you guys?" Wang Zimu was really confused by these two people.

In the quiet afternoon light, Wang Zimu was blown away by the flood gate of memory...

At that time, it was the spring when the grass was growing and the birds were flying. The sun was shining brightly. He and Lu Jinsui were members of the football school team.

When they rushed over to apologize, they only saw a thin figure paused for a while and continued on his original route, ignoring the two apologetic faces behind him.

In the first encounter, Lin Shu was so unique.

It wasn't until later, with chances one after another, that they gradually became acquainted and fell in love with each other as brothers, but Lin Shu still didn't change much.

He never talked much, and most of the time he watched others play like an ignorant child, and he just stayed in a corner quietly, watching their eyes focused and lonely, but whenever someone invited him At the same time he will refuse.

They had never been to Lin Shu's house, and he didn't mention it. It wasn't until one time when he was sick that they went to see him that they found him huddled in that small rental house with a high fever for a day.

With this illness came the exposure of little-known things about him.

Lin Shu had already moved out of that so-called home long ago, because his body was deformed.Yes, he is intersex.After having him in the family, there was not a day that was really happy until we had a younger brother, a very cute and chubby child who was two years younger than him.

Later, for unknown reasons, Lin Shu moved out of that house in his third year of junior high school, and never went back again, nor did his parents come to look for him.

Wang Zimu still remembers the shock he felt when he heard this, and it took a long time to calm down, even though he was studying medicine.But in just a few days, Lu Jinsui used his actions to show the strength of their friendship and dispel Lin Shu's long-suppressed worries.

So far, they have really pierced the last barrier.

At that time, Lu Jinsui and Jin Liu were boyfriend and girlfriend.During the days when Lu Jin died in a car accident with his parents, it was Jin Liu who was by his side all the time, silently giving him help and courage to face it, and Jin Liu's parents, as close friends of his family, also came from the United States to help him take care of the funeral , to appease this young but strong young man.

After that, the relationship between Lu Jinsui and Jin Liu naturally got closer, and he followed the wishes of the two old people. They planned to get married after graduating from university. They were also a perfect couple in the eyes of outsiders.

But when Wang Zimu returned from an exchange student abroad, things changed so quickly that he couldn't figure it out.Jin Liu, this gentle and considerate woman had passed away, and things that shocked him and worried him followed one after another.

Lu Jinsui began to become taciturn, and Lin Shu also disappeared for a year.

Lu Jinsui didn't sink into the pain for a long time. After graduation, he devoted himself to his career and worked hard for his goals. If he only relied on the limited wealth left by his parents, he definitely wouldn't be where he is today.

Later Lin Shu came back, and Lu Jinsui married him unexpectedly.As for Lin Shu's physical condition, the two of them already knew about it, so after hearing the news, he was shocked and apprehensive, but he still expressed his blessing as a friend.

However, today's situation is really...

"Brother Wang, it's something I never dared to imagine that this crippled body could give birth to a child for him. Although I have selfish intentions, but since he loves her so much, I'm afraid there will be no one else in the future. If there is a child... it would be good to be with him."

Under the sun, his hair was dazzled by the light, his face had a peaceful expression, and there was even a smile at the corner of his mouth.

"You don't have to worry about him, I will find a way to make him agree."

Where the breeze passes by, it seems to have a decisive taste.

Since Lu Jinchu had already arranged for a house in the city center, he moved to a new house after a series of handover matters after returning to China were slowly settled.

Before leaving, he smiled embarrassingly at the seemingly incompatible two people, and thanked Lin Shu for taking care of him for so many days.Lu Jinchu was actually reluctant to leave. Lin Shu's cooking skills really suit his taste. Of course, this is also because the two brothers have similar tastes.

Thinking of passing a glance at the elder brother who only cared about moving things with a cold expression, he felt in his heart that the elder brother was never so dull and incomprehensible before!

So Lu Jinchu took advantage of his brother helping him move his things into the car, and whispered something in Lin Shu's ear, which made Lin Shu's face turn red, until he heard the sound of Lu Jin honking his horn wildly. Just like the wind, he ran away.

Jin Sui, the whole world knows my love for you, only you treat it as a complete atonement, and discard it like a piece of trash.

Lin Shu rubbed his swollen forehead, and covered his flat belly with his hands. He didn't know why, ever since he knew that his body was giving birth to a child, he always touched his stomach from time to time, trying to feel another A trace of a small life, and for the first time I am grateful for the specialness of my body.

It seemed that as long as he had a child, he would not be alone, and no matter how great the pain and blow was, he could bear it together, and was even happy to accept it.

He has infinite love for Lu Jin's easy-going child in his heart, and he always believes that these are enough to support him through so many difficult days and nights, so he doesn't want to give up, and he won't give up, he even thinks a little selfishly not to let go Without him, their special family can be as happy and happy as an ordinary family.

But, no!Jin Sui only has deep-seated hatred for him, and the child is also regarded as a bargaining chip for him to repay. Instead of letting the child be troubled by his special biological father, it is better to let him go and let him live the life he wants, then shouldn't he be satisfied? ?

After all, my life was willingly given up the moment I fell in love with him.

Lin Shu went back to his room and sorted out the agreement he had drafted and revised by a lawyer. It stated that Lin Shu would bear all the child support, and he would not hold Lu Jinsui responsible for the child. It also stated that all consequences would be borne by Lin Shu. Very conceited.

Of course, he knew that Lu Jinsui would not agree to cancel the engagement with him. All he could promise was that he would not fulfill his wife's legal rights to interfere in his private life, and that he and his children would not occupy any of his property.Even in this way, Lin Shu may face more pressure in life and the warmth and coldness of human relationships.

His heart began to throb without warning. Whether he can give birth to a healthy baby is still a question. Even if the child is healthy and has a good life, but in this deformed family, can he alone give the child complete love?Besides, his body may come to an end at any time.

Lin Shu began to miss Lu Jinsui uncontrollably, he knew he was wrong, he shouldn't have disturbed their normal life, he shouldn't have indulged his feelings so capriciously, he shouldn't have planted the plant that made him full of hope and sweetness. cause.

How could such an excellent Jin Sui accept such a self, how could he admit this unethical love?

However, I just want a chance.To love, to be loved.

His right hand caressed his left chest. For a moment, he wanted to die, so that the damage he had caused should disappear, right?That person can still smile, that person can still be so gentle to everyone.

From the bottom of the cabinet, he took out the secretly kept group photo of them and Wang Zimu, and pasted it with his fingers as gently as if he was afraid of waking up the smiling person in the photo.

They haven't had a photo of the two of them together yet...

However, at least he has decided now that he will do his best to give the baby and him a perfect future.

Baby, don't blame Dad, okay?

Lin Shu raised his head slightly, and the photo was stuck to his heart like a baby, as if that would let the people in the photo understand his mood at the moment.

A suppressed sob overflowed from his throat, like a wounded beast struggling to die, licking his bloody wound alone in the corner.

His hands trembled slightly, but he still organized the documents in an orderly manner. The next thing to do was to wait for him to come back, and everything was finally settled.

Lin Shu was indeed physically and mentally exhausted during these days. When the moon first rose, Lu Jinsui's white BMW drove into the elegant house in the mountains.

Entering the room, three dishes and one soup were placed on the table as usual, but there was no trace of tampering.

Lu Jinsui glanced at the table full of food, and he didn't intend to move at all. His hatred for Lin Shu made Lu Jinsui feel disdain and contempt for things related to Lin Shu, so he went straight to the guest room.

The window of the guest room was open, and the curtains were rustling by the wind. The soft but cold moonlight shone into the room, but the room was completely dark.

Lu Jin turned on the light casually, but did not find Lin Shu in the room.

hateful!The word Sichuan between the eyebrows appeared habitually, recalling the last time I saw him vomit in the toilet with a weak appearance, a trace of inexplicable boredom appeared in my heart.

After closing the door of the guest room, loosening the tie, he casually pushed open the bedroom door and turned on the bedside lamp, only to see that figure unexpectedly.

Lin Shu didn't know when he fell asleep lying on the big black bed, and didn't even notice that Lu Jinsui approached.

The light at the head of the bed and Lin Shu in his sleep constitute an incomparably harmonious and beautiful picture.His slightly long hair hangs down, half covering his closed eyes. His fair face is reflected on the black sheets, making it look more transparent and thin. His lips are very light in color and are slightly parted at the moment.

Lu Jinsui just stood by the side of the bed, staring blankly at his fragile and defenseless appearance like a newborn baby, and couldn't bear to disturb him.

Lin Shu in his memory has always been strong, even when they were in a good relationship before, he had never acted as weak and helpless as he was now, as if he had exhausted all his strength.

What has changed him, or is this really him?

After Lin Shu finished the documents and cooked the meals, he walked into the room where they had been together for two years.It was here that the last layer of membrane was broken, and it was also here that he endured the contempt and ravages of his lover.

Both body and mind were surrendered, even though he didn't expect his love and tenderness, the colder gazes made Lin Shu's heart shattered as if being run over by a wheel.

In fact, I still have hope for him, otherwise, how can I survive the sarcasm that is sharper than a dagger, and how can I still laugh when facing his cruelty...

He loves him!

Not only did the two years not decrease in the slightest, but it spread silently and crazily when witnessing the other party's sadness.

Love is like a poisonous poppy, which grows wildly in Lin Shu's body, and after he has bruised himself all over, he still can't let it go.

Facing the empty house alone, no matter how sad and wronged he was, he could only turn into a wry smile at the corner of his mouth.

Lin Shu lay quietly on the bed that was as dark as an abyss, he didn't dare to climb up to hug the pillow that held his breath, he didn't dare to grab the warm quilt that held his warmth, he could only sit on the floor On the bed, reviewing the details of these days, after the body relaxed, he fell asleep in a daze.

When he woke up again, feeling the oppressive gaze, he turned his head and found Lu Jinsui standing upright by the side of the bed.

Lin Shu, who had just woken up and was exhausted, could only raise his head, and couldn't see the other person's expression clearly in the backlight, but he knew after thinking about it, how could he give him a good face?

In their love, he was doomed to be a loser, but he lost willingly, at least once he had a sweet extravagant hope.

It was also because of the habit of being indifferent to him and disappointment in love for a long time that Lin Shu did not see the trace of unbearable and distressed in Lu Jinsui's eyes.

Lin Shu propped himself up and stood up. Even standing like this, he was half a head shorter than the other party.Hehe, in this chase battle, hasn't he humbled himself to the dust?

"Jin Sui, have you eaten yet? I'll go and heat up the food."

Although Lin Shu knew that the child's matter had to be resolved, he really didn't want to face it right away, because he was afraid of hearing Lu Jinsui's answer.Because of loving him, when facing him, no matter how rational he was, he could only be replaced by deep feelings one by one. Before he knew it, Lin Shu had already started to escape.

However, this time Lu Jinsui did not cruelly refuse or taunt. He obediently took a shower, sat at the table and waited for dinner.

Lin Shu heated up the food quickly, and even though he was nervous and tangled in his heart, he still watched him eat calmly.

"You don't want to eat?" For the first time ever, Lu Jinsui asked quietly when he saw Lin Shu who was watching him eat without moving his chopsticks.

Hearing this, Lin Shu was in a daze for a moment, and then showed a gentle smile.

"I'm not hungry."

Not hungry?

In fact, it was because of Lin Shu's health that his appetite had been poor recently. He knew that for the sake of the child, he had to ensure that he had enough food, but it was rare for them to sit at the same table so peacefully, and Lu Jinsui did not sneer or sneer.

At such a moment, he really wanted to watch it fiercely, imprint it in his mind, and prevent it from fading and withering.

After a simple and silent meal, Lu Jinsui went to the study as usual, making work plans on the computer and checking the company's operations.

He has always been very serious and devoted to his work, coupled with a tolerant but extremely principled attitude, he has achieved today's results.But he didn't even notice that Lin Shu knocked on the door and came in.

"Jin Sui." Lin Shu knew that interrupting without authorization would be even more detrimental to his subsequent negotiations, but this matter must be resolved today, right?

Lu Jin looked up at him from the computer screen.

Damn it!I was fascinated just looking at it.So at this moment, Lu Jinsui was displeased with Lin Shu's unauthorized interruption, and the reaction on his face was cold mixed with anger, and his cold eyes swept over him, making Lin Shu's originally mustered courage suddenly disappear. The balloon burst and disappeared without a trace, so I quickly adjusted my emotions.

"Is something wrong? I don't remember when you were allowed to enter the study? Did you forget your identity because I didn't remind you?"

A series of questions, each word was colder than the last word, and harder than the last word, each word was like a poisonous arrow, shooting at Lin Shu's body and heart.Lu Jinsui straightened his glasses, and his face showed a message of anger. Of course, outsiders looked the same except that he was colder than usual.

Lin Shu took a deep breath, handed him the document in his hand, and looked straight into his eyes.

"Jin Sui, child, I must stay."

At this time, Lin Shu was in a negotiating posture that hadn't been revealed for a long time. He didn't have the humiliation and humility of the past two years. own conditions.

Lu Jinsui seemed to see Lin Shu, who was full of confidence when he participated in the debate competition, shining brightly, but his usual attitude towards him immediately reminded him of his position.

Yes, what do you want this child to do?Do they resent the tortured seasoning?Why another trouble!

"Oh! Why?" His tone was full of contempt, and he threw all the documents Lin Shu gave him on the table, without even looking at them, his expression was determined to deny.

Lin Shu had imagined his imposing manner, and he puffed up his chest to cheer himself up.His gaze contained firmness without concealment, and he tried his best to stabilize his breath, and his words were sonorous and forceful.

"The child and I will not take any of your property," calmed down, and then said slowly, "I will not use legal procedures or personal power to interfere with your private life. After the child is born, if you want to raise me, you will not If you have any objections, if you don’t want to, I will bear it independently. Also, after he is born, I will disappear automatically to fulfill your wish.”

This remark shocked Lu Jinsui.

disappear?

He narrowed his eyes dangerously, not letting go of any subtle changes on Lin Shu's face, for fear of missing any important information.

After finally plucking up the courage to say these words that made him feel like he had passed through a long time, Lin Shu kept numbing himself, imagining himself as an emotionless machine, only then was he able to speak out, and only then did he have the leverage to make him agree, to give A best ending.

But in fact, there was a deep soreness in his eyes, and he was so afraid that they would break through the restraint and come out violently.He didn't want to cry in front of him. After facing so many humiliations, he had never cried before. He gritted his teeth and endured so much, how could he be discouraged at the most critical moment.

So, Lin Shu tried his best to make his eyes look clear and calm as before, suppressed the burst of pain in his heart, felt the faint discomfort in his abdomen, and persisted in fighting to the end.

"Oh? That's all? What if I don't agree?" The more urgent the situation was, the more calm Lu Jinsui was, showing his kingly demeanor.He slowly took Lin Shu's hand and stroked it carefully.

How could he not see that Lin Shu's face was the same as usual, but his hands were trembling.

Is it fear?

Knowing the result, why bother to fly to the flames!

Lu Jinsui grabbed his hand, which seemed to be caressing, but actually held Lin Shu's hand so hard that it hurt.

disagree……

yes!In fact, I know that my chances of winning this time are very slim, but I just want to break the boat with my last hope.Originally, it was for the love for the child and him. If it failed, would the child just disappear?

How he hopes to have a child of his own who can live happily in this world!What's more, it is shared with the person he loves!

He promises that he will leave and leave his cherished relatives. Even if he is watching from afar, or in heaven and hell, as long as he knows that they are alive and well, he will be happy and gratified.

But now, he insisted on depriving him of the little hope he had left, and the tears could no longer be stopped, and began to hover in his eyes, dripping heavily again.

But Lin Shu smiled, he smiled so defenselessly, so relieved, as white as a gardenia, but it made Lu Jinsui narrow his eyes even more dangerously.

"If you don't agree, then he will disappear, and I won't leave him alone."

This sentence was not so heavy and difficult to utter, on the contrary, it was like a crossing to heaven, which made Lin Shu feel extremely relaxed.

Isn't this a happy ending?

Lu Jinsui's face was turbulent and the situation was changing in an instant. He looked at Lin Shu's white face with a lingering smile, and the anger in his heart was burning.He shook off Lin Shu's hand vigorously, pushed open the door and strode away, without even taking a coat in time, he walked away in this cool autumn night.

After hearing the door slam shut with a "bang", Lin Shu couldn't bear it any longer and slid slowly to the ground, tears flooding his face.

It's been a long, long time since I released my emotions like this...

Leaving that suffocating home, it was almost midnight, Lu Jinsui didn't go to the hotel for a night like before, and didn't go back to the company, he went straight to the "Stampede Time" bar.

The air outside the bar seemed a bit chilly. People in the city late at night seemed not to be satisfied with the silence, but to let off the pressure of the day to their heart's content. Come here to show enough madness, as if singing and dancing can make you forget the troubles of reality and the pain of the past.People in the city really stomp on time in self-deception.

Lu Jinsui found a corner position, and the dazzling lights of the bar occasionally hit him.

But tonight, he only wants to spend money to get drunk.

The regularity, rigidity and caution of the past are flowing into the body with the wine tonight, every cell is clamoring, like a lethargy longing for a kind of relief.

He just drank one cup after another, the strong wine flowed onto the front of his clothes, but more was swallowed into his body, his chest was always burning with a raging flame, and his stomach was also aching like burning.However, Lu Jinsui seemed unconscious, he only knew to pick up the glass and swallow the wine.

He is eager to forget time and himself, but the reality is such that it goes against people's hearts. The refreshingness that alcohol brings to his body does not give him spiritual relief.Scenes of past events flashed in my mind clearly like a movie.

He shook his head vigorously. At this time, he no longer had the demeanor of a strong man in the business world, but was like a wandering dead leaf, leaving only lifeless depression and loneliness.

Breathing hard, he wanted to get up and leave, and then find another place to get drunk. However, at that moment, the fragments of memory turned into thousands of daggers, flying straight towards his heart.

Is this a joke of time?Or the ruthless masterpiece of the Creator?

The light-colored and elegantly contoured eyebrows, and the jet-black eyes are shining and charming, but in Lu Jinsui's eyes, they are pure and beautiful.

A face that has been described countless times in memory!

In the half-light and half-dark shadows, the long hair hangs down, adding a kind of beauty that can only be found in dreams.

It is not a beautiful face, but in this cold autumn, there is a kind of warm and fresh power, the calm and calm demeanor between talking and laughing is still familiar, but the emotions at that moment are so complicated, even there is a thread in his heart that makes him Unwilling to admit to evasive thought.

However, the moment he got up, he caught that gaze as if destined.

His heart was throbbing slowly and sharply, but his footsteps did not stop. Lu Jinsui still had a trace of confusion on his face, but he looked like an anxious and remorseful child, afraid that she would disappear in the blink of an eye.

Xu Siru, who has just been transferred to this city due to work, specially invited new colleagues out for dinner today.Although she has a gentle temperament, she is not withdrawn, and she has become one with everyone soon after she came.

At the moment, I am talking and laughing with my colleagues, counting all kinds of funny deeds in the past.

Feeling the sound of heavy footsteps behind her, the smiling woman was about to turn her head to look around, but fell into a firm and fiery embrace in an instant.

Her whole body was filled with the breath of a strange man, and there was still a hot and strong smell of alcohol around her neck, and a pair of strong arms tightly wrapped her around her.

After a while, under the surprised eyes of colleagues around me, I struggled free, only to hear a choked and hoarse male voice full of sorrow: "Liu'er... Liu'er...you are finally back..."

"Stepping on time" is just a joke made by humans themselves.

That day, before Xu Siru had time to push the strange man away, he was so drunk that he became limp, but one hand was still firmly holding on to the corner of her clothes, muttering sorry.

In desperation, Xu Siru, with a confused face, asked his colleagues for help. Everyone could only help Lu Jinsui to lie on the sofa beside him, but they didn't know what to do next.

Seeing that his clothes are casual but not casual, I asked the staff of this bar and learned that he is not a regular customer, and wanted to contact his family through his mobile phone, but after searching, he did not have a mobile phone with him.All of a sudden, everyone's original fun was wiped out by this reckless drunk.

"Forget it. Since this incident is caused by me and it has spoiled everyone's fun, I think you should go back. He doesn't look like a rascal. I will send him to a nearby restaurant and wait for him tomorrow." You'll be fine when you wake up."

Xu Siru came to the new office not long ago, so she behaved courteously and decently, and she herself was always gentle and polite. She took care of things in a few words, which made her colleagues' impression of her even better.

At this moment, Lu Jinsui was still holding Xu Siru's clothes, and the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, which was rare and fragile.

A group of Xu Siru's colleagues looked at each other, and finally thought that this method was feasible, but the male colleague who had a car was too embarrassed to ignore the matter, so he insisted on sending them to the nearest restaurant, while others also dispersed. .

Xu Siru said goodbye to his colleagues with a smile, and looked at the man who was supporting Lu Jinsui.

His name is Yang Zihua, and he is his immediate boss.This person is reticent, but he is very principled and talented, and his appearance is rare and handsome, so he has always had a good reputation in the company.

Yang Zihua looked at Xu Siru who wanted to come to help, moved away calmly, carried the weight of Lu Jinsui by himself, and walked straight to the restaurant.After walking a few steps, I turned around and saw Xu Siru who was still hesitating in a daze, and a steady voice sounded: "Siru, follow up!"

Xu Siru came to his senses, put away his thoughts, glanced at the hangover man lying on the opponent's shoulder, and followed.

When they finished the formalities, the two couldn't help but relax, and the simple things became not easy when they were drunk.

Xu Siru raised his hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead, exhaled lightly, and immediately looked up at his boss as if remembering something, only to see that he had already put Lu Jinsui on the bed in the room, and was looking at her with interest.

Interested?

Xu Siru was surprised to see the boss's expression like this, but immediately suspected that he was dazzled.Seeing her staring at him unblinkingly, Yang Zihua immediately returned to his normal expression, straightened his clothes, and said, "Everything is done here. I'm going first. Do you want to go together? I'll take you home Bar."

"No need. I'll just go home later. I live not far away, so don't bother, just go first."

Yang Zihua glanced at her, turned around and left without hesitation.

Opening the door of the room, the well-dressed eyebrows glanced at the drunk man lying on the bed.Although Lu Jinsui was already drunk, his good self-cultivation prevented him from becoming drunk like a drunk, and even maintained his usual elegant posture at this moment.

The brows and eyes were slightly furrowed, and the corners of the mouth pulled out an inexplicable arc, which made the normally serious face suddenly come alive.

She reached out and traced his outline carefully and carefully.

It turned out that it was such a face!

At this time, Xu Siru's eyes showed undisguised contempt and ridicule. She took off the silver-white bracelet she was wearing, put it on the bathroom countertop, turned around and left the room without looking back.

Late night and dawn, after all, are not just close by a thin line.