Zhuxi

He was a little cautious and a little shy and said to me that he went back yesterday and thought about it for a long time, and felt that although he was not gay, he still had some affection for me, so he thought he would give it a try, whether he could become a lover or not depends on the situation.

But that sounds like an affirmative answer to me!What I want to do most now is to hug him hard and kiss him here, but none of this can be done in such a public place, and his red ears also tell me that I can’t do that reckless.

So I just took his hand in his lap under the table top, tight.

It seems to have captured the happiness of a lifetime.

Those days were the sweetest in my life, but looking back now, those days seemed to be covered with a faint golden mist.It's bright enough, but it's hard to see clearly.

Because, it's so beautiful, so beautiful that it's too illusory.

At most, my behavior towards him was kissing involuntarily, holding hands in hidden places from time to time and so on. This was pure love that I couldn't even imagine before.But I was genuinely afraid of scaring him off, exposing my dangerous and miserable side early, and screwing everything up.

So when he agreed to live in my house temporarily, I excitedly hugged him and turned around——his figure is relatively slender compared to mine, with a height of about 1.7 meters and a weight of fifty or sixty kilograms. It's so weak to say the least—of course, how do I know the huge and destructive power hidden in that body.

I don’t actually have a home, that place is just a house to me, and I have many, many houses like this, all of which are full of dust and left unattended.A house without people can’t be called a home. My father died in the early years to save Zixi’s father, the old gang leader of the Yan Gang. I don’t even know which woman who became my mother gave birth to me. It is said that My father's old friend in the ballroom died after giving birth to me.

However, one of these houses is finally getting its owner - that's what I told him, but I also remember him comforting me and saying something that moved me if.

What did he say?It seems that my age is also a bit old, and I can't remember clearly.

It's just that the remnants of the touch and joy are still lingering in my heart, as if when my heart aches, they will come out to anesthetize my riddled heart, as if it won't hurt anymore.

Happy days are always short, and I have laughed at myself countless times in the future, Liang Enzheng, Liang Enzheng, do you think that if you walk in the sun for a long time, you can really be as pure and flawless as others, and you can Have you enjoyed happiness with peace of mind?

I can not.

Because I am guilty.

There is such an exquisite word in this world to describe the situation where the pain is released, and it is self-inflicted-Pandora's box.I opened Pandora's box, and all the pain, sorrow, suspicion, and suffering poured out, and the most amazing thing is that it was all my own doing.

Who can remind me once, so that I don't wake up in the middle of the night that evening, so that I don't wonder where Liao Fanxing, who should be sleeping next to me, has gone, so that I don't walk to the study room along the faint light, and see the pain that makes me want to die scene.

Zixi and I have always been in control of Yanbang's account books and some important information. Zixi doesn't like to use computers to record things, and he doesn't like to leave any evidence. He kept it in his mind, and no one could steal it away.

Most of what I have is the company's financial bills. Most of the black money of the Yan Gang is laundered by the company. There are many and complicated accounts. It is impossible for me to keep these things in my mind. Naturally, they are stored in the computer .

But I never take the computer out of the safe, and no one will ever know the combination to my safe -- except him.

On the first day I entered the house, I told him the passwords of everything on me, including bank cards, accounts, and credit cards.I hope that his life will not be embarrassing, and I also hope that he can buy something for himself and dress up well, so I deliberately changed all the passwords to his birthday. It was his birthday, and my computer's power-on password was also changed to his birthday.

That's why I could see him fiddling with my computer in the middle of the night, those accounts were flashing across the computer screen, the USB flash drive was plugged into the computer, and the indicator light flickered crazily.

I never knew my voice could be so bitter.

"Liao Fanxing, who are you?"