I don't know warm water

Zou Wei was still a little unconscious when he heard the doorbell, and when he opened the door and saw Li Zhefei standing at the door, he wondered if he was still sleepwalking.

"I..." Li Zhefei said, and raised a box of New Year's goods in his hand, "Happy New Year."

Zou Yan looked at him and stood at the door, showing no sign of letting go: "How do you know I live here?"

Li Zhefei's face also darkened, a little embarrassed: "Mr. Zhuang has a record, I came here after the college entrance examination. At that time, the flower seller upstairs in your house said that you moved away, and the house has been empty."

Zou Yan almost laughed: "You don't even know where I took the college entrance examination."

Then why did you come to me?During those four or five years, you never looked for me.

Zou Yan couldn't ask.He has tried his best not to care about Li Zhefei's actions or motives.Li Zhefei is too crazy, why is he so desperately chasing him now?

Li Zhefei was also a little embarrassed: "Then... can I go in?"

Zou Yan still knew that New Year's greetings cannot refute people's face, so he had to get out of the way.Li Zhefei entered the door and stood there, closed the door, cautiously looking for shoe covers and the like.

Zou Yan didn't even look at him. He sat on the sofa and turned on the TV with his back straight: "Come in directly. Anyway, I will leave after cleaning in a few days."

Li Zhefei put down the New Year's goods and turned to look at him: "Where are you going?" After speaking, he realized that something was missing in the room, and turned around, "Where is Aunt Lu?"

Zou Yan still sat stiffly, and said coldly, "As you can see."

Li Zhefei came into the room: "I don't understand."

Zou Yan finally raised his eyes to look at him, but this kind of eyes made Li Zhefei feel sore.He had never seen such tired and bored eyes from Zou Yan.When he was a child, there was always shyness in Zou Zhe’s eyes, even if that kind of shyness was only because he was an introvert, not because he looked at the person he liked; last year in City B, the forced smile in Zou Zhe’s eyes It is also obvious that the panic that is pretending to be calm cannot be concealed.But it's cute anyway.

"No more." Zou Yan raised his hand and took the remote control panel to turn up the sound very loudly.

Li Zhefei walked up to Zou Wei with small steps and sat down: "No more?"

Zou Yan didn't look at him, closed his eyes and pinched the roots of the mountain, his delicate side face showed a kind of helplessness: "Passed away. Years ago, in November."

"Sorry," Li Zhefei covered his mouth subconsciously, "My condolences."

The voices of the two were not loud, and the TV sound was loud, but Zou Yan could only hear Li Zhefei's words, and Li Zhefei could only hear Zou Yan's words.

Zou Yan got annoyed and turned off the TV: "You don't go to visit the New Year with your family, what are you doing here?"

Li Zhefei rubbed his hands, and didn't dare to look at him: "I...I've been wanting to find you, but you always don't reply to my messages. I went to ask Huang Wen, and then I found out that you came back here. I also came to touch luck."

"What luck?" Zou Wei frowned, and stood up, "You have been here before. I won't accept the things, you can go."

Li Zhefei also stood up quickly: "Don't do this!"

Zou Yan suddenly smiled, and looked into Li Zhefei's eyes: "Thank you for your New Year's greetings. But as I said, this family doesn't need firewood, rice, oil and salt, and these things you gave are meaningless."

Li Zhefei opened his mouth: "I..."

Zou Yan didn't look at him, and took the words again: "I'm sorry, you go. I didn't delete you but for the sake of my old classmates. Don't let me bother you."

Li Zhefei's tone was tinged with grievance: "You hate me so much?"

Zou Yi relaxed his shoulders, let go of his strength, and tilted his head to look at him: "Not yet. Li Zhefei, don't think of me too strong, I don't want to hate you. I haven't had that in front of anyone except you for so many years. A kind of nervousness. Oh, I’m talking about the kind of nervousness back then. Now I look at you, and I don’t feel anything but unhappy.”

Li Zhefei directly grabbed his arm: "But you clearly said that you like me!"

Zou Yan was startled, shook off his hand, and jumped a little behind: "So?! Aren't you disgusting?! What are you arguing with me now?!"

Li Zhefei just looked at him with trembling lips: "Zou Yan, don't hate me, okay?"

Zou Yan breathed heavily, pointed at the door: "Go out."

Li Zhefei suddenly stretched out his hand to wrap Zou Yan tightly in his arms, and Zou Yan had no time to react and struggle: "Zou Yan, don't do this, listen to me, I'm really scared...I've been afraid for many years..."

Zou Yan struggled to break free from him, supported the wall, and tried to calm his breath. His eyes were abnormally red: "What are you afraid of?"

Li Zhefei looked at the empty arm, and stammered, "I, I don't know...Zou Zhe, every time I am free, I will think of you."

Zou Yan managed to hold his breath, and sneered sarcastically: "Why, didn't you like Liu Xueyao in junior high school? No girls chased you in high school, so you think of me as an exciting gay?"

"No, it's not...I..." Li Zhefei was so excited that his neck turned red, he swallowed, "How do you know Liu Xueyao?"

Zou Yan looked up at the ceiling, his voice was also pulled by the movement of his neck, and he said hoarsely: "I don't have a single friend in junior high school."

Li Zhefei looked at him and took a step closer: "Then why have you never looked for me?"

Zou Yan lowered his head, stared at him with red eyes and frowning: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Li Zhefei stopped and didn't dare to move again, he also raised his eyebrows and stared at Zou Yan: "Why didn't you find me again?"

Zou Yan smiled with red eyes: "What do you think? Aren't you disgusting? So disgusting that I confessed my love and immediately fell in love with the girl you always said I didn't like! You still ask me why I didn't find you?! Li Zhefei, are you Thinking of me too thick-skinned?!"

Li Zhefei disarmed and surrendered, his momentum also weakened: "That's not what I meant."

Zou Yan looked at him: "But that's what you meant at the time. Li Zhefei, after so many years, don't make each other unhappy, okay? Now that I don't like you, you can find a girlfriend at ease, why bother to explain to me? "

Li Zhefei lowered his head: "No...I don't have a girlfriend."

Zou Yan was tired and pushed him away: "If you don't go, I will go."

Li Zhefei grabbed Zou Yan: "Listen to me! Listen to me!"

Zou Yan didn't get rid of him this time, because he was really exhausted, and he spoke quickly: "Don't you just want to apologize? I said, don't mention it again, I'll forget it. I won't forgive you, no Necessary. I never thought there was anything wrong with liking someone, but really forget it, after so many years, I won’t cry for your disgusting sentence.”

Zou Zhe turned his back to Li Zhefei and didn't look at him, but Li Zhefei held him tightly: "Zou Zhe, don't dislike me."

Zou Yan's eyes widened suddenly, his mind was still spinning rapidly.What is "Don't dislike me"?That's weird, what the hell does he think of himself as?

"Is it important?" Zou asked.

Li Zhefei grabbed him back with all his strength, hugged him from behind, leaned against his neck, and nodded vigorously on his shoulder: "It's very important."

Zou Zhe pushed Li Zhefei away with more force: "What do you want? Li Zhefei?" Pushing away, Zou Zhe looked at him, his eyes were red again, panting, as if he was about to die, "Li Zhefei, do you know that you What are you talking about? What are you going to do?!"

Li Zhefei is a piece of red-hot iron, which can make the surrounding water vapor scald and evaporate for him, and almost burn Zou Yan, killing all living breaths.

"I looked for you. I called you the year after the high school entrance examination, but your mother answered the phone. I didn't say anything, so I hung up the phone." Li Zhefei was flushed all over, but the words he spoke were light, like clouds .Zou Yan thought of Huoshaoyun inexplicably, and thought of the setting sun being red.

Zou Zhe calmed down a bit, but distanced himself and Li Zhefei further: "What do you want from me?"

"I..." Li Zhefei probably had a piece of raw bitter gourd stuffed in his throat, dry and sore, with nauseating bitterness, "I just...wanted to ask you... how you did in the exam."

Zou Yan didn't look at his mobile phone much during that time, and he didn't have anyone to contact.But he clearly remembered that he did not delete Li Zhefei's number, nor did he see "Li"'s communication records in his mobile phone.

But Zou can figure it out, if he hadn't picked up the call by chance because of Lu Yueping, and maybe deleted the record, he might have been shaken and distracted, and would have forgotten that he had made up his mind to prepare for the Florence Academy of Fine Arts. .

"What does it have to do with you? Li Zhefei, nothing has happened for so many years, what do you want to come to me now?! Why don't you not like you? What do you think I am?!" Zou Yan stepped back again, Looking at him defensively, "Li Zhefei, you are not a child who is easily frightened now, are you? What do you want? You insist on coming to me and saying these... meaningless things. Can you still distinguish between right and wrong? ?”

There was a buzzing in Li Zhefei's mind, and unconsciously he also thought of the first time he looked directly at Zou Yan.

Gentle and warm.People live up to their name.

Right and wrong.

But he seems to have been thinking about what is "right and wrong, black and white".

Zou Zhe likes him, did Zou Zhe do something wrong?In order to prove that he likes girls, he would rather fall in love with a girl he doesn't like, is he right?

He and Liu Xueyao were indeed not in a relationship, but he seemed eager to vent, he did not repeatedly reject Liu Xueyao's enthusiasm, and tried to flirt, flirt, and accept a love from the opposite sex.

But when Liu Xueyao hugged him with a smile and said "Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me", Zou Yan's smiling face came to mind.The boy with fair skin and thin stature was as clean and clear as clear water when he smiled, conveying a huge cleansing energy.

It seemed that the cool lake water submerged the reed roots of the reed in the bottom of his heart little by little, and the reed leaves swayed after repeated beating, which made him think of Zou Zou uncontrollably.

"Zou Yan...I, I want to continue to be friends with you. I have been looking for you for a long time." Li Zhefei's hands were hanging in the air, with a sincere expression, as if he was trying to persuade a lost puppy: Don't be afraid. , I will take you to find the master.