don't try to escape

What kind of life Lin Xiao lived, he didn't even know. If he had to use four words to describe it, it would be darkness.

When he left home before, he thought it was just as difficult as before, but it wasn't unbearable. At most, he always woke up in the middle of the night, like a never-ending nightmare.

But the truth is, the dark night after tasting the sweetness is far more painful than he imagined.

He has always been confused about his feelings for Lin Lin. At first, he regarded Lin Lin as his favorite brother, and he just wanted to stay by his side. Even when he saw him smiling at him, he felt that his heart was filled. fully.

Later, when he found out that Lin Lin was the culprit who killed his mother, anger and pain intertwined and blocked all his liking for Lin Lin.

So much so that for a long time, he obtained satisfaction in his heart by seeing the unbearable after being humiliated from Lin Lin's face.

He even felt that everything he did was just punishment, but he didn't know that he was also weaving a cage for himself.

When he realized it, Lin Lin seemed to have become an inseparable part of him. Sometimes he even felt so distressed that he couldn't do anything, and just wanted to take good care of him.

He knew that this should not be done, but his reason seemed to have been lost long ago, and he was no longer under his control.

So after hurting Lin Lin again and again, he chose to escape and stay away. He didn't want to be the one who pushed Lin Lin into the endless abyss at all.

But the price of staying away is the bone-piercing pain and endless longing. The body seems to be poisoned, and every night, he goes crazy thinking about Lin Lin.

He really misses it too much, misses Lin Lin's nice fragrance, which is not as strong as perfume, but just smelling it feels like an addiction.

I miss Lin Lin's suppressed crying when he was bullied miserably, with a little bit of grievance and forbearance, hearing him always playing tricks makes his heart ache.

Sometimes he thought that maybe Lin Lin was a goblin who only ate his goblins.

But his goblin lay under someone else's body, doing that dirty thing under someone else's crotch!

When he saw that video, he really went crazy and smashed everything that could be smashed in the house.

He wanted to tear something apart, and even more wanted to capture that goblin, punish him viciously, and force him to ask why!

Obviously it should be his...

After the anger was over, he was hit by a tide of sadness. Day and night, the sound of gasping, begging for mercy, and even his depressive cry of being in love rang out in his mind day and night...

He started drinking, trying to numb himself with alcohol, because he didn't know what identity he should use to control Lin Lin.

As a younger brother?

Or as... lover?

His head was always groggy, and when he was awake, he was torn apart by pain like crushing bones, driving him to the point of madness.

When he was not awake, he grabbed Lin Lin over and over again in his head and asked him why!

Until that day, he drank a little too much, and he didn't even know when someone came in.

When he was drowsy, he heard someone tell him that his brother was looking for him.

elder brother?

This word seemed to be a sobering agent, which made his chaotic head sober, struggling to get up from the bed, and snatched the phone.

When the voice he had been thinking about and looking forward to day and night really came from the phone, he almost cried out of frustration.

But soon, the anger that had been suppressed for a long time accumulated in his heart little by little.

"I said, haven't you been fucked for a long time, just find someone to sleep with?"

Lin Xiao thought that after saying this sentence, she would be very happy, but in reality, her heart felt like a big gash was cut, and she was still steaming.

pain.

What a fucking pain!

But besides the pain, it was grievance, grievance like being abandoned.

He was so complicated that he didn't even have the strength to hold the phone. He obviously wanted to humiliate Lin Lin, but he was the one who ran away.

I hung up the phone hastily, and tears poured down like a flood that opened the gate.

"As for you?"

It was the sound from the side that made Lin Xiao realize that there was someone beside him, and he wiped away the tears on his face indiscriminately, only then did he see that the person who came was Ye Shuang.

It was the younger sister of the brother he recognized. To be honest, he didn't like this person at all.

Before, it was considered as being able to make friends, but she pissed him off twice, which made him very disgusted.

The first time was when she was met by that doctor Xia Zhe and Lin Xiao last time, and she was the one who came out of the room.

How she appeared in his room, he didn't know at all, but he was too drunk that day, and when he came together, he saw this woman lying on the bed wearing his own shirt.

But even if he was drunk, he still clearly remembered that he had nothing to do with this woman at all.

The second time was when she came to look for him at home, which caused his previous lie to be exposed.

He really wanted to explain clearly, but he also knew that since the first lie he told was found out, no matter what he said, Lin Lin would never believe it again.

So he hated Ye Shuang very much, but because she was that person's younger sister, Lin Xiao didn't want to tear her face apart.

Of course, Ye Shuang was very aware of the relationship between him and Lin Lin, and because of this, he came out again and again to disrupt the situation.

"Who let you in."

Lin Xiao grabbed a piece of clothing from the bed and put it on. His messy hair indicated that he had a restless sleep all night.

"You didn't lock your own door."

Ye Shuang looked quite innocent and shrugged.

"go out!"

Lin Xiao grabbed Ye Shuang's shoulders, trying to carry her out, but Ye Shuang was lying on the bed like a rogue.

"I came here with great difficulty, why don't you let me take a rest?"

Ye Shuang likes to put on heavy makeup. She is only sixteen or seventeen years old, but she dresses herself as someone in her twenties. When she goes outside, she doesn't behave like a student. It's just like there is a little girl in front of Lin Xiao. capricious.

Disgusting capriciousness.

Lin Xiao's complexion was very bad, and his heart was already filled with confusion. If possible, he really wanted to throw this person out without thinking about anything.

"Go away, don't make me say it a second time."

Lin Xiao didn't want to talk to her, and went straight to the bathroom to clean herself up. When she came out, she saw Ye Shuang sitting at the dining table full of breakfast.

Without even looking at it, Lin Xiao found the school uniform from the closet and put it on herself.

"Are you going to school today?"

Lin Xiao didn't answer, and took out the textbooks and materials that will be used today from the bookcase and put them in the schoolbag.

"Then when is school over?"

Putting the schoolbag on her back, Lin Xiao pushed Ye Shuang who was blocking the way, and walked to the entrance, as if about to go out.

"Hey! Are you a little too much?"

Putting his hand on the doorknob, the coldness of the metal temporarily suppressed Lin Xiao's anger.

"If it wasn't for your brother's sake, I would have thrown you out like trash."

"Oh!"

The door that was closed vigorously raised a gust of wind, blowing on Ye Shuang's eyes, bringing countless tears.

The author has something to say: I'm sorry, I'm sorry~ I'm too playful~ I sincerely bow and apologize!