don't try to escape

"Xiao Lin, what are you doing!"

Her mother's voice came from the room, Lin Lin could only talk to Fang Yu, and was about to hang up.

"Alas! Just put your phone in your pocket."

After a moment of hesitation, Lin Lin felt compassion and put the phone in his jacket pocket.

Just remember to hang up after the new year.

When we got back to the house, the host on TV was already preparing to say his New Year's resolution, and it was only a few minutes before twelve o'clock.

"Go upstairs quickly, Xiaomeng and the others are waiting."

Being urged, Lin Xi ran a few steps faster, and when he reached the top floor, his body was a little hot.

"Why have you been on the phone for so long?"

"Oh, it's just a classmate who can't go home this year, so he played longer."

"The one who is an athlete?"

Lin Lin didn't expect his father to remember Fang Yu, that is, during the Chinese New Year last year, Fang Yu came to the house once, and happened to bump into Lin Jingtian, and they chatted casually at that time.

He didn't dare to look at Lin Xiao's face, but felt that he was thinking too much, after all, Lin Xiao also has a girlfriend now.

Coupled with such a cold attitude towards him, it is estimated that she doesn't care about his affairs at all.

"kindness."

"Your friend is pretty good. If you go to Beijing in the future, he will definitely take good care of you."

"Dad, if you don't order any more, it's too late."

An impatient voice suddenly broke in, making Lin Jingtian smile embarrassedly, and hurriedly checked the time for a while.

"Just right, just right!"

The flames were still dazzling on the brightly red roof, Lin Lin watched as the short lead wire was swallowed up and plunged into the darkness.

then……

"Boom! Boom! Boom!"

It broke through the shackles of the box, as if it was put to death and then reborn. In a short ten seconds, it flew to a high place with all its strength, and exploded with a "pop".

The curtain came to an end with satisfaction amid the cheers and astonishment of the crowd.

The bell at zero o'clock is always composed of countless fireworks, Lin Lin can tell the sound.

"Happy New Year."

It was a very small sound, which was not obvious mixed with the sound of fireworks, but because Lin Lin was too familiar with this sound, he turned his head in surprise the moment he heard it.

In the end, I only saw Lin Xiao looking up at the fireworks with a calm face, and the occasional light reflected on his face, which was colorful.

I was a little unsure if I heard it wrong, but I couldn't move my eyes away.

How long has he not seen Lin Xiao?

472 days.

In the past, Lin Lin always felt that the time passed was too long, especially when Lin Xiao was thinking of ways to torture himself, he felt humiliated, unwilling and even panicked, fearing that their shameful relationship would be discovered by others one day.

Later, he discovered that what was really difficult was the days when Lin Xiao was not around.

No one could see his abnormality, only he himself knew that occasionally when he woke up at night, all he could think about was Lin Xiao, Lin Xiao with a straight face, Lin Xiao who laughed at him, and Lin Xiao who dismissed him.

In the past, those images that made him tremble all over whenever he thought about them, became his only sustenance for comfort, as if he wanted to compete with himself, reliving the past bits and pieces in his mind over and over again.

Only then did he discover that Lin Xiao had left an indelible mark on his life long ago, the mark was so deep that just touching it would hurt his muscles and bones, and he would be so painful.

Seeing his own shadow reflected in those eyes as deep as a pool of water, Lin Lin looked away in a panic.

After returning to the room, Lin Lin took off his coat and threw it on the chair.

The heater was on in the room, and it was a little stuffy. Lin Lin wanted to turn off the heater, but after searching for a long time, he couldn't find the remote control of the air conditioner.

"Snapped!"

Falling into darkness for a moment, the hand holding the quilt unconsciously tightened.

"Who?"

The unseen anxiety made Lin Lin want to lean back against the closet, but instead bumped into a firm embrace.

Just as he was about to call out, his mouth was covered forcibly. Lin Lin was really frightened, and began to struggle desperately.

It seemed that he had kicked that person, and when he heard a "hum", Lin Lin immediately stopped moving.

"Huh? (Lin Xiao)?"

The man guessed that he was recognized, but he shouldn't, he just pressed him on the bed, and didn't let go of his hand covering his mouth.

Lin Lin's heartbeat has already caught up with the roller coaster, and the "bang bang bang" almost jumped out of his throat.

Thinking what Lin Xiao was going to do, I couldn't tell what it was like, but my body seemed to have finally found its home, and I felt a strange feeling.

He scolded himself in his heart, but he couldn't help but began to think that Lin Xiao entered his room to...

All that was waiting was the rough panting of hot air sweeping across his neck, causing a shiver.

The hand covering his mouth loosened, and Lin Lin grabbed it, "Lin Xiao?"

The man still didn't speak, but Lin Lin's eyes got used to the darkness a little bit, and he could see a pair of deep eyes staring at him. He couldn't understand what was mixed inside, but it was very complicated.

"What are you going to do?"

Lin Lin didn't dare to speak loudly. Although their room was on the second floor and his parents' room was on the third floor, his guilty conscience made him dare not even move more.

Still not waiting for Lin Xiao to speak, Lin Lin was a little angry. He didn't know if he was angry at Lin Xiao for not doing anything, or because he refused to speak.

Pushed Lin Xiao hard, but of course he didn't push, instead he felt the firm muscles on Lin Xiao's chest. It seemed that he was exercising.

"stand up!"

It was rare for Lin Lin to put on an elder brother's appearance, and growled under his throat.

This time Lin Xiao was no longer a wooden figure, but bent down and stopped only two centimeters away from Lin Lin.

The violent heartbeat was louder than thunder. If it wasn't for being unable to see clearly, Lin Lin was afraid that his expression at this time would reveal his inner thoughts.

"Are you with Fang Yu?"

It was a voice between a mature man and a boy, and it was deeper than before, like a snare drum beating on Lin Lin's eardrums.

After throwing such a sentence without end, Lin Lin really wanted to open Lin Xiao's head to see what was inside.

"Nothing to do with you!"

Probably because the expectations in my heart did not match the reality, or because I thought Lin Xiao could have a girlfriend by himself, but it was ridiculous to come to question him.

So Lin Lin turned back stubbornly, and went up to him without flinching.

The gazes of the two are meeting, and neither of them is willing to back down.

In my impression, this was one of the few times when Lin Lin dared to look directly at Lin Xiao, especially this time he didn't want to compromise.

"Do mom and dad know that you live with girls outside?"

As if he had caught the handle, Lin Lin felt a little pleasure of revenge in his heart.

You are allowed to question me, but one day it will be my turn to question you.

"Cohabitation?"

Lin Xiao frowned, and her mind was spinning rapidly, "When the doctor came last time, were you there?"

Not denying is admitting, Lin Lin felt that he was talking too much, but in the end it was just that he was sad.

"Do you know who she is?"

"Do not want to know."

"She is my classmate's cousin, my classmate was there that day, you just didn't see it."

"It is none of my business."

He said so, but Lin Lin believed it when Lin Xiao said it, and he didn't even want to think about it, thinking that the truth should be what Lin Xiao said.

"Are you jealous?"

"You... cough cough cough!"

He was too nervous to refute Lin Xiao's words, but he choked on his own saliva.

This made Lin Lin more embarrassed than direct verbal humiliation, especially when Lin Xiao was talking, he kept looking at Lin Lin, just waiting to see his reaction.

"You are my younger brother, why are you jealous?"

"But I will."

"..."

It was as if a stone had been thrown into Lin Lin's heart, and he looked at Lin Xiao in disbelief, as if trying to figure out whether he was joking or telling the truth.

"I thought... I would hate you forever, at least until I forgot what your mother did, but when I saw you hurt, I regretted it, regretted it very much, and I even hoped to stab myself twice to make up for it All the things I've done to you."

The sudden statement made Lin Lin a little flustered, and even began to avoid Lin Xiao's gaze, but Lin Xiao didn't give him a chance to escape, and turned back with his hand gently supporting his chin.

"I dare not see you because I am afraid that my existence will weaken your sense of survival. The doctor told me that if you can't make it through, you may do it in any unattended situation." Stupid thing."

Lin Lin didn't know about this.

He was just in a daze during that time, looking for something all the time, but he couldn't find it, and he had no direction day and night.

"So I thought, if you don't see me, are you going to get better, and thank goodness, you're getting better."

This is the Lin Xiao that Lin Lin has never seen before. Lin Xiao, who is like a child and only sees light because he has become better, the string in his heart loosened with a "snap".

"But I still didn't dare to see you, I was afraid that it would bring back some unnecessary memories, until I received a call asking me to go home for the New Year, it was amazing, I actually felt that day was the happiest in my life for more than ten years one day."

Lin Xiao's voice was a little choked up, and he could hear it clearly in the dark and silent room, which also made Lin Lin's nose sore.

"I thought I could finally see you, to see how you are doing, or...or, do you...do you miss me a little bit."

Have.

The courage of not daring to speak out made Lin Lin move his mouth but didn't make a sound. He just responded with burning eyes.

"Then I heard that my father said that you were going to Beijing and asked Fang Yu to take care of you, and that you and Fang Yu were on the phone. I was so jealous that I went crazy."

It was the first time Lin Xiao uttered these repressed and distorted emotions freely, like a spring that had been accumulated for a long time, and finally got loose. The unprecedented comfort made him say things that were difficult or unwilling to say before, All impulsively want to spit it out.

"I originally wanted to slowly ease the relationship between us, but I found that I have very little patience when facing you. I have been waiting for a day. I am afraid that if you wait any longer, you will run away."

The author has something to say: The purpose of the abuse article: Big sugar is big abuse~ Please be mentally prepared~ (Of course, the sugar is not over yet, there are still cars~)