back to college

Before he knew it, it was already late at night, Xu He was still sitting in the dark office, only the cigarette butt in his hand kept flickering, everything was still, without a single wave.

With his head down, he even looked at the resignation letter in his hand in a daze.His nose was sore, knowing that now he was even self-righteous and felt that the letter still had the temperature of when Tang Xiaoli left.But he still covets that poor temperature, he just caresses the letter mechanically, over and over again, reluctant to let go...

Through the floor-to-ceiling windows, the silver-white moonlight poured down like a waterfall, shining into the dark office, hazy.Everything in the room is shrouded in silvery white light, although there are only outlines but they cannot be seen clearly, but people who are used to darkness will not feel this way.However, the surroundings seemed to have fallen into a deep sleep unconsciously, leaving only the even and long breathing, which slowed down even the heartbeat.

Everything seems to be gradually tumbling in the empty surroundings, disturbing the tranquility of the pool, and all the thoughts are surging to the surface.Slowly, but stingingly, those irrelevant memories gradually... became clearer and clearer, and seemed to come to my heart bit by bit through my fingertips.

Those memories are all about one person at this moment.

The night seemed to be a strange mirror, which could reflect the most real, most longing, and most difficult person in his heart at this moment.

He still can't let Tang Xiaoli go...

No matter what, he still can't let it go, he still doesn't regret what he did today...

Only when he hugged and kissed him did he feel really warm again.The only thing he hates is that he didn't admit it earlier, that he didn't face his heart honestly earlier, that he didn't learn to bow his head...

He admitted that when he heard Tang Xiaoli say he liked him, he was so happy that his heart stopped beating.It wasn't until that moment that he really knew that he had been holding on to him for so many years, and that he couldn't let him go so unforgivably... However, it was only because of Tang Xiaoli that he owed himself such a sentence.

That simple liking made him feel solid and excited.My heart seemed to be hit hard, nervous, with a little excitement, a little sweet and slightly bitter.Even he himself didn't know what kind of evil he had been possessed by, but after that moment, he was so excited that he couldn't calm down anymore...

He felt hopeless!

He even thought that he must have fallen into the trap set by Tang Xiaoli unknowingly, the huge spider web entangled him and tightened the tighter the more he struggled... In the end, he had no choice but to catch him without a fight.

He can't let him go.

How can I let it go, otherwise, what should I ask him to do...

cannot! !

Absolutely not, just give him another chance to slip away in vain...

No matter what means he used, he couldn't let him go again.

It doesn't matter if you make amends or pay back, in short...

If, this is fate,.

he……

admit!

"Bah..." The cigarette burnt out and burned his fingers.

Stuff out the cigarette and throw it aside.

With trembling hands, he took out a cigarette again and lit the lighter.

The light suddenly brought by the flames illuminated Xu He's side face, elegant and handsome, with moisture on the drooping eyelashes, as if he had cried.Xu He kept looking at the flames, a little obsessed, those jumping lights seemed to turn into light, the temperature was like Tang Xiaoli's, faint, but very practical, people couldn't help approaching.

Looking at the dancing fire obsessively, a slight smile suddenly appeared on Xu He's face.

The smile is very clean, like a lotus flower washed by rain, with a touch of quiet beauty.There was a trace of sparkling moisture in the dark eyes...

Xu He picked up the letter at hand, and the letter was instantly tainted with flames.

Immediately, the letter was ignited, and it was burned almost in the blink of an eye, turning into ashes.

Turning off the lighter, the room suddenly returned to darkness.

Become calm and alone.

Xu He moved his body and closed his eyes slightly, as if a person who had been exhausted for a long time finally found a way to sleep peacefully. He just wanted to have a good rest, but Ruoxin didn't know how tired he was, he could only sleep more and more haggard.

In the middle of the night, when Lin Yi got up and passed Tang Xiaoli's house, he couldn't help but stop for a while.

He thought Tang Xiaoli was very strange today...

Although it was the same as usual, but, for some reason, he always felt that Tang Xiaoli's eyes were always filled with sadness, it was just drooping corners, but it seemed like tears were flowing.

Is it because of Xu He?

Although he wasn't sure, he felt that things were inseparable.Sighing, she couldn't help but gently pushed open the door of Tang Xiaoli's room.

Tang Xiaoli wasn't asleep yet.

He just sat in front of the bed in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking about, but he was fascinated, and he didn't even know why he opened the door.Lin Yi hesitated, and finally closed the door quietly.

Lin Yi suddenly felt that the soft place in his heart was accidentally touched lightly by someone. He couldn't even remember the last time this happened. It seemed that he hadn't experienced this for many years. He actually felt sore.

A little distressed.

Can't help but press the position of the heart, it was a very strange feeling, Lin Yi smiled helplessly for a while.

Before I knew it, three days had passed, and it seemed as if everything had suddenly returned to the way it was, or perhaps it should have been.

Originally planned to leave after a while, but because Tang Xiaoli had already resigned, it seemed that the contact with Xu He was cut off at once, and Lin Yi was relieved as if he didn't mind extending the time a little longer.In addition, in fact, Lin Yi has other plans.He is enjoying the feeling of being under the same roof with Tang Xiaoli now.If they really come back to Germany, they may not find such a good excuse to be in the same room.Therefore, after weighing the pros and cons, Lin Yi thinks that this is a rare opportunity to win over Tang Xiaoli. Although there are some risks, he thinks the current risk may be worth taking.

However, the peaceful life did not last until the fourth day, and was completely disrupted by the sudden arrival of an uninvited guest.

When Lin Yi opened the door, he did not expect that it was not Tang Xiaoli who was out shopping, but the murderous Xu He who stood outside the door.

"It's really a rare visitor." Lin Yi said, leaning lazily by the door, with his hands crossed over his chest, and his phoenix eyes slanted with hostility.

"I want to talk to you." Xu He said slowly.

Lin Yi turned his body slightly and motioned Xu He to go in.

"I think you know the purpose of my coming here this time?" Xu He sat opposite Lin Yi, his face a little ugly.

Lin Yi picked up the coffee on the table, took a sip, and shrugged helplessly: "I'm not a god, how could I know what you're thinking, you overestimate me."

Xu He was at a loss for words for a while, and his face was a little annoyed because of embarrassment, but he couldn't help but say: "I came here for Tang Xiaoli this time."

"...En." Lin Yi snorted casually, slowly put down the coffee cup in his hand, crossed his legs, leaned against the sofa, and looked at Xu He with a half-smile.He looked like he knew it a long time ago, and it was obvious that he was just playing with Xu He.

Xu He narrowed his eyes slightly, apparently understanding Lin Yi's provocation.

Neither of them spoke any more, they just considered each other.With such a sudden change in the atmosphere, it seemed a lot more tense.

……

Xu He didn't seem to intend to make any more detours, and said straight to the point: "I came today because I want you to give up Tang Xiaoli."

The sudden change in attitude made Lin Yi seem to have heard some joke, and couldn't help but laugh out loud for a moment: "Did I hear correctly?"

"I was serious."

"..." Lin Yi laughed harder and harder: "Xu He...how come so many years have passed, and you are in your twenties, why are you still so childish."

"No matter what, that's the purpose of my visit today." Xu He didn't get angry this time, and there was room for change in his tone.

"Are you begging me?"

"If you want, I..." Xu He bit his lower lip, "I'm...begging."

"Why?"

"Who are you? You haven't seen someone new and exciting. How could you be greedy for a bland person? This time, it's just to try something new." Xu He was silent for a while, as if trying to prove it: " Tang Xiaoli...is not suitable for you."

Lin Yi didn't make a sound, just laughed.That smile, but never from the bottom of my heart: "I'm not suitable, so you are suitable?"

"I..." Xu He couldn't find the words to reply for a while.

"You are not suitable either." Lin Yi said with great certainty, and the smile on his face gradually disappeared: "You can guarantee that you will treat Tang Xiaoli wholeheartedly from the beginning to the end, and will not be disturbed by others?!" Lin Yi pointed out Pointing to the location of Xu He's heart.

Xu He's face became ugly.

Lin Yi was not in a hurry: "You are right. I have seen and played with all kinds of new and exciting people. Tang Xiaoli is indeed bland and boring, but that was before, not now. If I say... …Today, at this moment, now, I suddenly want to settle down, and the person who can make me calm down is precisely his words, do you believe it?"

"..."

"Actually, you are the one who doesn't suit him. You have been separated long ago, why are you still struggling so hard? We are all men, so why be so pretentious and stick to this old love. People, you have to learn to look forward, Just let it go, why bother with yourself."

"...I haven't let go." Xu He's pale lips were a little pale, and his eyes were now black and blue, making him look a lot haggard.

"..."

Xu He didn't understand why he came here today, and even felt a little self-defeating.But he really couldn't help it, every time he closed his eyes, he could always think of Tang Xiaoli's words of liking and never seeing each other again and again... He really couldn't bear this torture.On the one hand, he was delighted that Tang Xiaoli himself admitted that he liked him, but on the other hand, he fell into unreasonable fear. He was afraid that, like Tang Xiaoli said, he would disappear for another four years without saying goodbye...

He felt that he could not wait and could not wait.

This kind of torture repeatedly pulled his last sanity, for three days...

It has been three days.

No matter how much he called, Tang Xiaoli would not answer.The company notified him to come to work, but there was no reply.Tang Xiaoli really never showed up, he was waiting in the office, but... day by day, he really panicked.

Unable to bear it any longer, he could only drive here overnight, but because he didn't know how to deal with it, he begged himself not to meet Tang Xiaoli again, so he could only wait patiently until he watched Tang Xiaoli go out Only then did he catch up to a showdown with Lin Yi.

Although it was nonsense, he still wanted to try it.

Sitting in the car, he had fantasized countless times. He even naively and stubbornly thought that maybe Lin Yi just happened to be with Tang Xiaoli, otherwise Tang Xiaoli wouldn't have nothing to do with him... Or maybe Lin Yi was just I wanted to change my mood and play with him, that's why I fell in love with Tang Xiaoli for a while.

Maybe……

Everything is fine, but he doesn't want to think about whether Lin Yi really likes Tang Xiaoli.

He felt that was the worst possible outcome.

He didn't have that self-confidence, and his position in Tang Xiaoli's heart was comparable to that of others!

He fantasized, maybe he didn't even say a word, Lin Yi couldn't wait to give up because of the artistic conception.

Only that... Maybe, only that proves that he still has an excuse to reappear...

When he went upstairs, he even felt that he was trembling slightly. He prayed repeatedly. He had never begged for anything. This time, he had never been so sincere. He prayed that everything he expected would be true.

Tang Xiaoli has no choice... I will give him another chance.

just one time.

He swore that he would face his heart honestly.

……

but.

Now, he suddenly realizes that his thoughts are really naive and ridiculous, even a little dumbfounding.He also knew that Lin Yi must be laughing at him in his heart for his ignorance, laughing at him foolishly, and he deserved it.

He endured it all!

However, he couldn't back down.Now that he has reached this point, he has to move forward cautiously. Only in this way may he still have a chance to fight.

Otherwise...he will make mistakes again and again, and will really lose Tang Xiaoli again.

Xu He took a deep breath, and a rare determination suddenly appeared on his tired face.

"Whether you agree or not, I will not let you take advantage of it again!"

Lin Yi still shrugged indifferently, but the sneer on his face never diminished: "It doesn't matter, you can think whatever you like, but I still want to kindly remind you that Tang Xiaoli has already agreed Leave here with me in a week. I sincerely hope that you can do what you want to do quickly, and don't wait until we leave and find no one, then you can think of a countermeasure. At that time, the cucumbers and vegetables will be cold."

As soon as the words fell, the astonishment on Xu He's face was uncontrollably reproduced and magnified, and he looked at Lin Yi in disbelief.

Lin Yi's confident smiling face was like a basin of cold water poured from head to toe, making the little hope he had just ignited instantly shaky.

leave?

leave!

These two words seem to be the only ones left in my mind...

Xu He's eyes were reddish, as if he had suddenly lost his mind, he grabbed Lin Yi's collar fiercely, and roared: "Nonsense? Where are you taking him?! He can't go, he can't even take a step Can't leave!!"

Lin Yi frowned. He didn't like someone talking to him like this, and the last bit of friendliness on his face disappeared immediately. He looked at Xu He who had already been furious very calmly, and said coldly: "This is me and Xu He." The matter between him has nothing to do with you. A week is already a long time for you, as an enemy, this is my biggest concession."

"..." Because Xu He's hand was held too tightly, the knuckles were clearly showing white.

"It's you who can't seize opportunities and keep people over and over again, so what do you have to do with who?!"

"Shut up, you shut up!!"

"Ask your own heart, do you still have the slightest right to mess around here? You are still the same as before, you will never know what you want, you will never grow up!! You don't know what you want, what is important, You ask yourself, would you love someone?" Lin Yi's words were pure and bloody, and Xu He, who was defenseless, was stabbed to pieces.

"..."

"You can't!" Lin Yi said with great certainty, as if he had seen through Xu He a long time ago: "Boy, you are still young, and you don't understand many things. People like you can't play with feelings."

"No...no..."

"Am I right? You know it best. I, Lin Yi, have never missed what I want. I don't know how to give alms, nor do I just wag my tail like you like a beggar. There is a week, if you have the ability, you can chase it back?"

Xu He's hands trembled slightly, his chapped lips were gray and colorless.

"If you have this ability, I can only offer it with both hands. If you don't, just be obedient and disappear completely. Whether you live or die, don't disturb our lives in the future."

Xu He's hand holding Lin Yi's collar gradually loosened.

Lin Yi straightened his shirt with his hands, his face full of arrogance.

Today's meeting was completely beyond Xu He's expectation.

Him, lost? !

As Lin Yi said, he is really like a bereaved dog. He is ridiculously thinking of his opponent asking for alms. He is really crazy...

Lin Yi watched Xu He's back gradually leaving, and Lin Yi frowned unconsciously due to the heavy and dragging footsteps.

……

He could feel that this kid was real this time, Tang Xiaoli and he were both...

However, soon Lin Yi sat down again indifferently. No matter what the result was, it was never so easy to give away what he wanted!

Lin Yi opened the book in his hand, there were traces of Tang Xiaoli's folding on it, his hands unconsciously stroked the creases of the page, a rare gentleness appeared on his face.

"Are you back?" Lin Yi put down the book in his hand, eyes were added to his face at some point, and his hostility seemed to be a little less, but he looked gentle.

"En," Tang Xiaoli nodded, and bought some food and beer, "Why do you have an extra pair of glasses?"

"Does it look good?" Lin Yi pushed his eyes, and smiled with a standard eight teeth, shining brightly.

It's a pity that Tang Xiaoli was putting beer in the refrigerator, so he didn't see it at all, but he nodded and agreed.

Lin Yi didn't take it seriously, he took off his eyes, and a serious look suddenly appeared on his face: "I just booked the plane ticket, the plane at noon the day after tomorrow."

Tang Xiaoli's hand visibly paused.

Lin Yi watched quietly: "Anyway, you have already resigned, and there are no formalities, so don't miss it, lest you have long nights and dreams."

Tang Xiaoli's hand, which had stopped, resumed its previous movement, still arranging the beer he just bought.

"I know time is a little tight, but..."

"I understand." Tang Xiaoli said with his back to Lin Yi, but his voice couldn't hide the disappointment.

"It's good that you understand," Lin Yi's Lian went to school with a smile on his face, put down the book in his hand, went to the refrigerator and squatted down side by side with Tang Xiaoli, and also helped put the beer: "I don't know, these drinks can Can't finish drinking?"

Tang Xiaoli just smiled, feeling a little sad... But he didn't say anything in the end, the fate is now, there is nothing else to say, maybe this is God's will.

……

about feelings.

Lin Yi thought that he had never been a person who kept his promises, and he didn't think it was a shame to play tricks.He admitted that he had changed his mind. He didn't want to follow He Xuhe's saying that everyone should rely on his own ability, and he couldn't keep his promise to stay for another week before leaving.Noon the day after tomorrow is already the limit, if Xu He is annoyed and regrets everything at that time, it can only be blamed on himself, and he has nothing to do with it.

Opportunities, everyone wants, he is not a selfless person, he can give away opportunities for nothing.

So, there's nothing wrong with that.

He just thinks more about himself than others, as it should.

The author has something to say: hide your face... (Xiao Tang, your mother is really good to you~~)

Xiao Xu, hurry up and admit your mistake... ╮(╯▽╰)╭

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