think love

The event ended early, and after the food coupons from the mall were distributed, the parents and their children dispersed.

A group of people were so tired that they dragged their feet into the store, ignored the sashimi and sushi that Lu Pengcheng ordered for them, silently picked up two mouthfuls of ramen, and then went back with two arms.

Lu Pengcheng stared at a table of things that had hardly been touched, and some of them hadn't even been delivered yet, but Fang Bining stayed. It seemed that he was the only one in the group who seemed to be alive. one.

"Why are you still so energetic when they are all exhausted?" Lu Pengcheng expressed his own doubts.

Fang Bining raised his head, bit his chopsticks and thought for a while, and then said, "Probably because I sat on the side when they and the children were free to play at first."

Lu Pengcheng narrowed his eyes, "You just watched them being tortured in dire straits, and you didn't reach out to rescue them?"

"Yes." Fang Bining picked up a piece of salmon sashimi, dipped it in wasabi and soy sauce, "I helped take a picture, and then sent it to you, asking for your help."

When Fang Bining said this, he even showed an expression of seeing how loyal I am.

Lu Pengcheng didn't know whether to cry or laugh. Turning around, Tony and the others knew that he was such a loyal person. They should drag him into the smoking room next to the tea room to get in touch with colleagues.

Lu Pengcheng found that he was getting worse and worse.

The two chatted about some things while eating. The atmosphere was very harmonious, and bursts of laughter broke out from time to time.After finishing those on the table, it is almost time for the mall to close.The two walked out of the mall together into the night.

The colorful lights on the square turn on and off, together with the tall fir trees, creating a quiet and romantic far away from the busy city, so there are many couples sitting on the benches in the square, hugging each other intimately and talking , or share a cone.

Fang Bining said that he could just take a taxi back home, but when Lu Pengcheng came, he parked the car in the parking lot outside. Lu Pengcheng.

"this is for you."

Lu Pengcheng picked it up, inexplicably, spread his palms, only to find that what Fang Bining threw to him was a small apple made of colored clay. There are two drops of water on it.

"Why are you giving me this?" Lu Pengcheng asked, holding the little apple up.

"Because I have nowhere to put it."

After Fang Bining finished speaking, the flagged taxi stopped in front of him. He opened the door and was about to get in. He stopped, turned around, and smiled at Lu Pengcheng, "Fang Bining's apples can be given to you." You are a lot of inspiration."

Snapped!The door closed and the car started slowly.

Fang Bining sat in the back seat and waved at Lu Pengcheng, so Lu Pengcheng just watched the taxi carrying Fang Bining and disappeared into the sea of ​​taillights on the road.

Lu Pengcheng looked down at the little apple in his hand, thinking, since there is no place to put it, where has it been kept until just now?It feels like a toy that children have always loved, but after playing for a long time, they get tired of it, so they just find an excuse to give it to others.

Lu Pengcheng sat in his car and put the little apple next to the car air purifier. Before starting the car, Lu Pengcheng looked at the little apple and heard Fang Bining's words in his ear.

"Fang Bining's apples can give you a lot of inspiration."

"Fang Bining, you are conceited!"

Lu Pengcheng snorted secretly, turned the car key, and started the car.

The oncoming lights along the way passed the flower-shaped air purifier and the small apple next to it one by one, and the two leaves of the air purifier swayed up and down regularly.

Accompanied by the music streaming from the stereo, Lu Pengcheng tapped his fingers on the steering wheel, and when his gaze inadvertently glanced at the little apple next to the air purifier, Fang Bining's figure involuntarily flashed in his mind.

The young man was dressed in casual clothes made of light-colored cotton and linen. He was slim and tall. He had a face with delicate features. He smiled cleanly and transparently. He played with a ball of colored mud with his beautiful fingers. After a few strokes, a small apple fell into the He was born between his fingers, as if by magic.

Lu Pengcheng felt his heart beating faster again involuntarily.

Along with the figures that kept flashing in his mind, there were also waves of hot waves in the depths of his body. It was a feeling similar to a desire that could not be vented.

But why did such a reaction appear when thinking of Fang Bining?

Lu Pengcheng guessed that he was too busy during this period, and he really didn't get a good vent during the past few months when his girlfriend left, and accumulated for too long, so that there would be such a result... It must be like this, he was sure own guesses.

That night, Lu Pengcheng had a dream.

In his dream, he was indulging in a charming and passionate affair, with intertwined limbs, sweat, and heavy and sexy panting.

In the dream, Lu Pengcheng only cared about bumping into the body below him, and looked down at the body when his desire was relieved, but what he didn't expect was that the object of love was Fang Bining!

For Lu Pengcheng, the impact of this dream is no less than that of customers running orders during the financial crisis.

Not only because the partner is Fang Bining, but also because Fang Bining is a man like himself.

Although the dream was vague and not very real, when he saw Fang Bining's face clearly, he woke up immediately, but for normal men, who would choose the same sex as the object of sexual intercourse?

Not in the mood to eat breakfast, Lu Pengcheng changed his clothes and was about to go to the company. When he got into his car, he saw the little apple that Fang Bining made for him the night before, sitting quietly in the air. next to the cleaner.Lu Pengcheng picked up the apple and looked at it, then opened the glove box and put the apple in it.

Lu Pengcheng felt that it was normal for a normal man to have erotic dreams. He recalled it carefully. At first, he didn't notice who the person under him was, and he didn't even pay attention to the gender. When he lowered his head, he found that it was Fang Bining. , probably because he was the last one with me last night...

Thinking of this, Lu Pengcheng felt a little relieved, but after all, there was still a lump there.

When he arrived at the company, Yolanda had already put Lu Pengcheng's breakfast on his desk.

Yolanda wore a small dress with a deep V-neck today, showing off her curves. She has a good figure, and the color of the dress is very bright, making her look much younger than her actual age.

When she came in to deliver coffee, Lu Pengcheng kept staring at her until Yolanda frowned, covering her chest with both hands, "Pancho, it's very impolite for you to look at a lady like this, and I'm already famous Lord, although your conditions are very good, I will not fall in love with you."

Lu Pengcheng choked on the coffee and coughed twice.

Yolanda took out a piece of tissue and handed it to Lu Pengcheng considerately, "Don't be guilty, I know that beautiful ladies always attract many admirers, I don't mind getting more compliments, but my body and mind I am faithful to my lover."

So Lu Pengcheng coughed even worse, but when reaching for the tissue, Yolanda withdrew his hand back and said "huh?" at the same time.

Lu Pengcheng immediately understood, "Okay, esteemed lady, you are beautiful today, like a rose covered with morning dew in the garden of Venus."

After finishing speaking, Lu Pengcheng felt that he was already full of nausea.But Yolanda nodded in satisfaction, handed the tissue paper to Lu Pengcheng, and walked out stomping on small high heels.

After finishing his breakfast, Lu Pengcheng was going to wash his hands in the tea room. As soon as he opened the office door, he saw Fang Bining coming in. Today he made an exception and wore a dark T-shirt with jeans underneath, looking very sunny.

As soon as Fang Bining entered the office, he ran to Yolanda, lay on Yolanda's desk partition, and smiled mischievously, "Sister Yolanda, you are so beautiful today, let me be one of your admirers."

Yolanda looked at the monitor without looking back, just picked up another convenience bag on the table with one finger and handed it to Fang Bining.

After Fang Bining took it, Yolanda turned her wrist and spread her palms, "Don't think that you can get away with just a few nice words."

Fang Bining probably wanted to pretend to be a fool, showing an innocent expression, "What?"

Yolanda spread her hands and snapped her fingers, but her voice was cold, "If you don't want to hang around in Guangyan, just keep playing stupid!"

So Fang Bining buried his head between the arms resting on the partition and groaned in pain, then stood up straight and put the convenience bag in his mouth, and resignedly reached out from his trouser pocket to find the money and put it in Yolanda's hand.

"No change." Yolanda took the full bill and put it in the drawer, her movements were done in one go, clean and tidy.

When Fang Bining turned around, he saw Lu Pengcheng, with a smile on his bitter face, and greeted Lu Pengcheng, then took out a bun from the convenience bag, and walked to the tea room while eating.

Lu Pengcheng looked at Fang Bining's back, and then at Yolanda who was sitting there fixing her makeup.

It should be Yolanda, who is sweet and beautiful, knows how to act like a baby at the right time, and is sometimes absolutely mature and charming, is more attractive, but that kind of unstoppable heartbeat only appears when seeing Fang Bining, even in the dream last night It also came to mind, intertwined limbs, sexy voice... There was a very cooperative reaction somewhere in the abdomen, and Lu Pengcheng knew that there must be something wrong with him.

He intentionally waited for a while before going to the tea room. He didn't expect Fang Bining to be still there, probably because the hot water in the water dispenser hadn't reached temperature yet, so he sat there with a magazine and flipped through it.

The sunlight came in through the glass and fell on Fang Bining's body, as if each strand of his hair was emitting a soft light, enveloping him in warmth.He read very casually, flipping through the pages, sitting lazily, as if enjoying a sunbath.

Lu Pengcheng was temporarily distracted by the overly beautiful picture, until the sound of someone's footsteps from outside the tea room entered his ears, which brought him back to his senses.

Lu Pengcheng originally planned to exit without making a sound, but unexpectedly, the hot water indicator light of the water dispenser lit up with a bang.

Fang Bining looked up and saw Lu Pengcheng, "You also make tea? What do you want to drink?"

Lu Pengcheng was stunned for a few seconds, and then he reacted in a daze, "No, I'm just passing by." When he turned around, he almost seemed to be running away.

He was a little afraid to be alone with Fang Bining, because of that erotic dream, because of his heart beating wildly for no reason...

Although there is no way to control the dream, the sense of guilt that shouldn't exist haunts him all the time, as if he really did that to Fang Bining.

God always has trouble with people, Lu Pengcheng wanted to avoid Fang Bining, but he always gave him time to be alone.

Originally, a lot of people had lunch together, some were called away by customers halfway, some immediately went back to work after eating three or two bites, Fang Bining was left sitting there chewing slowly, and the set meal in front of Lu Pengcheng was also There is more than half of it that has not been eaten.

It was the same during the meeting. The project manager answered the client’s phone call and then stopped coming back. As soon as the plan had an idea, he rushed out. The designers went to modify the design after listening to the revision opinions. Fang Bining saw that only Lu Pengcheng was left In the meeting room, slowly open the notepad.

"Let me tell you about my thoughts on those events in July..."

This feeling is very strange, the other party reacts as usual, but here I am feeling guilty, inexplicably anxious, and my head is hot, and if this continues, even they will see something strange.

But it's impossible to say this to Fang Bining: Fang Bining, I made you the object of my erotic dream last night, I'm really embarrassed.

...Maybe it will be regarded as a pervert, right?Or it might be taken as a not-so-funny joke.

Lu Pengcheng also hoped that he could laugh at that dream as a joke, but obviously he couldn't.

In short, on this day, Lu Pengcheng's irritability reached an unprecedented height.

For the next few days, Lu Pengcheng was in a state of anxiety.He went online to search for anyone who had the same experience as himself, and inexplicably read a bunch of stuff about homosexuality.

Lu Pengcheng is very clear about his sexual orientation, and there is indeed a spark of affection between him and his previous girlfriends, but why does he react when he sees Fang Bining now?Have you changed your sexuality unknowingly?

knock knock!

There was a knock on the office door, and Lu Pengcheng came in with a voice, and at the same time moved the mouse to close the webpage he was browsing.Tony came in with some papers.

"Pancho, this is last month's report, please take a look. In the big conference room at three o'clock in the afternoon, the Lulemall team will make a summary of last month's work, do you want to come and listen?"

"I'll be there."

Lu Pengcheng reached out to take the few pieces of paper, and seeing Tony turned to go out, he called out to him.Tony turned back to wait for his order.

Lu Pengcheng frowned and thought for a while, then said hesitantly, "Tony, what do you think... Fang Bining?"

"Very good." Tony answered him without thinking, "As I said last time, Aning is very thoughtful, works hard, and quickly adapts to the new environment and industry. In short, he is a very good person. Amazing people."

Tony praised Fang Bining without hesitation.

When Tony, who was as harsh and serious as Lu Pengcheng, said this, Lu Pengcheng almost thought that Fang Bining had bought him by stuffing red envelopes in private.

Lu Pengcheng picked up the pen on the table and turned it in his hand, "That's not what I asked... I mean, outside of work, you think Fang Bining..."

After saying this, Tony's expression suddenly changed, and then he leaned forward a little mysteriously, covering his mouth with his hands, "Boss, did you hear that too?"

"What did I hear?"

"That."

"Which one?"

"That's what I said."

Lu Pengcheng was a little impatient, "What about this and that, don't play charades!"

Tony looked at Lu Pengcheng's face, as if he was thinking about something, and after a while he said softly, "I heard that Aning seems to belong to that circle... Shasha and the others entered the arena at night, and accidentally saw Aning enter to that famous gay bar."

Lu Pengcheng frowned even deeper.

Tony probably misunderstood that Lu Pengcheng was disgusted with Fang Bining's special sexuality, so he hurriedly said, "Boss, the times are so open now, if Ah Ning really belongs to that circle, don't show your disgust on your face. Ah Ning is very good, and I heard that there are quite a lot of people in the art circle.”

Lu Pengcheng loosened his frown, "When did I show disgust? I don't know if it's true or not, so stop spreading rumors there."

Tony took a step back to avoid Lu Pengcheng's waving palm, "Boss, you have good conditions, maybe he came to our company because he fell in love with you." After speaking, he swayed away from the pen that flew over like a dart , and then dropped the sentence "I'm going back to work", and escaped in a hurry.

Lu Pengcheng got up to pick up the fountain pen that was thrown out. When he straightened up, he saw Fang Bining's seat through the decorative glass of the office.

Fang Bining was sitting on the seat, typing quickly on the keyboard.The thin sunlight outlines the soft and smooth lines of his silhouette, and the corners of his mouth smile from time to time, looking very charming.

Lu Pengcheng didn't walk away immediately, just looked at him like that.Fang Bining stopped typing, took a drink from the cup on the table, and at the same time turned his head to look at Lu Pengcheng...

Eyes intersect!

Fang Bining's expression was visibly stifled by the movement of the cup still in his mouth, as if he didn't expect Lu Pengcheng to stand there, and then blinked his eyes, turning around as if nothing happened.

Lu Pengcheng felt a click in his heart, and then his heart began to beat wildly uncontrollably.

Did he see it?

I saw myself looking at him... But at the same time, when he looked at my office, I was also seen by myself...

Lu Pengcheng walked back to the desk with a pen in his hand, remembering what Fang Bining had said.

"I've never dated a girl before."

"Because sometimes, what I want to obtain and feel must be given by others, but there is no way for others to give it to me, so I feel a lot of helplessness."

"Like... love."

Thinking about it now, maybe at that time, Fang Bining was actually talking about his sexuality in a very veiled way.

Because I belong to that circle, I have never dated girls...Because homosexuality is regarded as a heterogeneity in the eyes of the world, so some things that can be naturally given to ordinary people are difficult to give to them... such as love .

Maybe Fang Bining's persistent pursuit of the sense of existence is also related to his sexual orientation. After all, in the eyes of many people, homosexuality is a different kind, and after being known by others, he has to bear strange eyes and fingering behind his back Poking, that's why I pursue the value of existence more and more...

Thinking about it this way, Fang Bining felt somewhat pitiful.But then, Lu Pengcheng immediately felt that he was really weird.

Although he has read a lot of data about homosexuality intentionally or unintentionally in the past few days, he should be somewhat surprised that the word homosexuality suddenly appeared beside him.However, apart from the moment I heard it from Tony, I was a little shocked, but I didn't have much feeling.

Probably as Tony said, most of the artists’ personalities and behaviors are unique and unusual, and Fang Bining is one of them, so I don’t think there is anything strange about it, and the times are so open. They should be cast a bad eye.

Just when Lu Pengcheng picked up the stack of reports and was about to read them, the image of Fang Bining looking back suddenly flashed in his mind.

Is he looking at himself?And when he found himself standing there, his face was obviously stunned... Was it because he didn't expect that he would be there?

But the truth can only be known by asking Fang Bining.

As a result, one of the problems that troubled Lu Pengcheng did not go away, but a bunch of them came again.Lu Pengcheng put all these behind him first, and dealt with the company's affairs first.

I have been busy all day, and when I regained my senses, it seems that the normal off-duty time has passed.However, working overtime in the company is commonplace for Lu Pengcheng or anyone in the advertising industry.

Lu Pengcheng turned off the computer, walked out of the office with his wallet and car keys, the lights outside were all dark, only the duty room was on.

After walking two steps, he found that the monitor on Fang Bining's desk was still on.Lu Pengcheng thought that Fang Bining forgot to turn off the computer when he left, but after walking over, he realized that Fang Bining hadn't left yet.

The document displayed on the screen is a planning proposal for several events in July, and some places on it have been revised or reminded by red letters.Fang Bining sat facing the direction of the glass window, with a pair of slender legs resting on the table, and leaning his head back on the back of the chair.It's obviously not a very elegant posture, but it doesn't look annoying.

Lu Pengcheng walked over, trying to wake him up, but before he could speak, his voice was stuck in his throat.

The white fluorescence of the monitor shone on Fang Bining's face, making his skin fairer, with a straight nose, long eyelashes, and slightly tight lips, which looked a little moist with a thin powder, and matched with delicate The facial features look like models standing in a window.

Lu Pengcheng watched and couldn't help reaching out his hand and touching his lips with his fingers, because for a moment, the thought that Fang Bining had never really existed in this world flashed in his mind.

But when touched by the fingertips, there is a little warmth and softness.At the same time, Fang Bining opened his eyes.

Neither of them made any further movements. Fang Bining maintained this posture and looked at Lu Pengcheng, but Lu Pengcheng didn't intend to withdraw his hand.It should be said that Lu Pengcheng didn't expect that he would do such a thing, nor did he expect that Fang Bining was not asleep, so he didn't know how to find an excuse for his current behavior.

The air in the office seems to have stopped flowing, and the lights outside the window are bright, and the taillights of traffic on the road in the distance form a long river that flows slowly.

After a few seconds of silent confrontation, Lu Pengcheng looked away and withdrew his hand, "I..." but was interrupted by Fang Bining.

"Are you from that circle?" Fang Bining asked.

Lu Pengcheng was taken aback, but Fang Bining didn't listen to his answer.

"If not, it's better not to get too close to me..."

Lu Pengcheng was half leaning against the bed, smoking a cigarette silently, the ashtray beside him was full of cigarette butts, he raised his hand and took a strong puff, then slowly exhaled the blue smoke, trying to get rid of the doubts pent up in his chest .

What Fang Bining said to himself in the office was played back over and over again in his mind.

The young man with a face as delicate as if carefully sculpted by a sculptor, with a lower than usual, but still sexy voice, drew a gap between the two of them.

"If you're not from that circle, please don't get too close to me."

The light outside the window fell in his eyes, like crystal clear gems sinking in a sparkling pool, like a perfect work of art, but his eyes were full of loneliness.

At that time, he almost blurted out something, but he knew that he couldn't say it!So he swallowed the words abruptly, but told Fang Bining to go back early, then turned around and left.

When the automatic glass door of the office opened, he saw Fang Bining reflected on the glass, looking at him sideways.

Lu Pengcheng knew that he couldn't say that, because they were not in the same circle, and because he didn't want to believe that he had such feelings for Fang Bining.

However, after knowing that Fang Bining is from that circle, the shackles that originally restrained some eager desires in my heart seemed to be loosened a little. Something was stirring in my chest with uncontrollable speed and strength It feels like it won't be long before the rest of the bondage will break free.

Lu Pengcheng felt a little scary, he didn't know what would happen next, but tonight he had already done something out of his control...

Thinking of this, he looked down at his hands, the fingertips still had the feeling of touch, lukewarm, soft, a little moist, Fang Bining's lips...

Lu Pengcheng couldn't help putting his finger on his lips, imagining that he touched the softness, clinging to it, tossing and pressing...

Lu Pengcheng was a little sad to find that not only did he not feel disgusted or disgusted, but he was looking forward to it, and even his body had an honest reaction.

So no matter how much he didn't want to believe it, he had to admit that maybe he really had affection for Fang Bining that surpassed the relationship of a working partner, and the reaction he should have had towards the opposite sex was exactly the same when facing Fang Bining.

With a bit of a headache, Lu Pengcheng stretched out his hand to press his temple, and then put out the burnt cigarette in the ashtray.

When did it start?Lu Pengcheng couldn't remember either, he and Fang Bining had known each other for less than half a year, and met each other for less than two months, how could he have developed strange feelings for someone of the same sex in this short period of less than two months?

It was too incredible, but Lu Pengcheng had no time to think about how this feeling of being different from ordinary people came about, he was just thinking, what should we do next...?

Fang Bining's words not only hinted at his sexual orientation, but also meant that he felt something strange about him, so he was warning himself?

Think about it too, which man would touch the lips of a same sex?

The embarrassment that Lu Pengcheng expected did not happen in the following days.

Fang Bining acted like nothing had happened, as usual, we had meetings and discussions with him, had lunch together, and occasionally took a ride to the subway.

Compared with Lu Pengcheng's overly calm attitude, it made Lu Pengcheng's embarrassment look a bit ridiculous.

So Lu Pengcheng thought, this is not bad, everyone pretends that nothing happened, whitewashing the peace, after all, he and he are not in the same circle.

Although he can think so, but when he meets Fang Bining's eyes inadvertently, he still can't restrain his heartbeat, as if that distorted affection doesn't want to be ignored at all.

And Lu Pengcheng still guards his bottom line firmly. He firmly believes that he is still a normal person with a normal sexual orientation. He also firmly believes that this is just his momentary confusion. leave no trace.