Heartburn

Chi Zhao wanted to chat with Fu Nan'an, but the reality didn't allow it. He was downstairs in the men's dormitory, and the senior brothers had not had time to go upstairs. As soon as they saw Chi Zhao and the others, they all came over. The senior sisters in the dormitory also yelled out, insisting on asking Chi Zhao to have dinner together.

A brother said: "Did Xiaochi just come back? We were talking about you just now!"

Another senior immediately answered, "Have you had dinner yet? It's a pity that you didn't come to the dinner party. The hairy crabs we ate tonight are delicious."

A brother next to him said, "Don't talk about it, let's go to another stall. If there is no dinner party, can our protagonist still be called a dinner party?"

The first brother had already made a phone call: "Wait a minute, I'll call those girls right now."

Everyone still remembers what Chi Zhao reported. At the beginning, I didn’t understand it, but now I’m so grateful. It’s so rare to be able to continue to insist on yourself in that kind of helpless situation with no evidence. But Fan Chizhao had a moment Hesitating and shrinking, their project might be blown. While talking, they pushed Chi Zhao and walked to the food stall next to him. Chi Zhao was still holding Fu Nan'an's hand, so he was forced to let go.

"What should we do now?" Chi Zhao winked at Chen Kaiji crazily. He never thought that the plot would develop like this. While everyone was ordering food, Chi Zhao approached Chen Kaiji and asked, "I originally wanted to chat with Professor Fu." Why did you start eating all of a sudden?"

Chen Kaiji knew that Chi Zhao had always been thinking about Professor Fu, so he could only shrug his shoulders and give him a helpless look.

If you want to blame, you can only blame Chi Zhao for coming back at too late a time. It was already past nine o'clock in the evening when Chi Zhao came to the hospital, and he knew that he probably wouldn't be in time for the dinner party. Chi Zhao originally wanted to go directly to Fu Nan'an's house and wait for Fu From Nan'an, he didn't expect to be bumped by a group of people just as he left the dormitory door.

The brothers and sisters in the laboratory were all too enthusiastic. They didn't notice the simmering emotions between Fu Nan'an and Chi Zhao, and directly pressed Chi Zhao on the seat. The only thing they were lucky about was being the project leader. Fu Nan'an was also ordered to come to the second party.

There is also no way to do it, it's hard to turn down the hospitality.

The skewers and beer came up quickly, and the last stall was full. This meal was originally for Chi Zhao, so they divided more than half of the skewers and put them in front of Chi Zhao, and gave them to Chi Zhao one by one. Chi Zhao toasted.

The first person to raise the wine glass was the senior brother who had the biggest opinion on him when he reported Chi Zhao: "Senior brother wrongly blamed you, Xiao Chi. When you reported it before, I thought you were reckless and ignorant. Now I think about it, what if I didn't have you?" There would be no project for us."

The senior sister who had persuaded Chi Zhao many times also raised her glass: "Let's not talk much about Xiao Chi, senior sister admires your courage."

Everyone sincerely thanked Chi Zhao. They revolved around Chi Zhao one by one, and they inadvertently left Fu Nan'an in the cold. It's normal to be left out. Everyone knows that the success of the project is inseparable from Fu Nan'an's hard work. They won't He denied what Fu Nan'an had done, but Chi Zhao did show too much courage in this matter. Fu Nan'an knew it and felt that Chi Zhao deserved it.

So he just listened quietly, and then lowered his head to take a sip of tea from time to time.

The tea in this shop seems to have been brewed for a long time, the entrance is full of astringency, and the bitter feeling spreads in the mouth, Fu Nan'an still drinks it one after another, to feel the bitterness and astringency, and the trace of tea leaves fragrance.

Chi Zhao is a very good person, brave, tenacious, and not afraid of power. He has too many beautiful qualities, and he is so bright that even if his eyes can't see it, Fu Nan'an feels that the direction Chi Zhao is sitting in is a light. group.Chi Zhao is too good. When Fu Nanan realized this, he was irritable and at a loss. Such a soul deserves the same warm and brilliant love, but Fu Nan'an can't be so passionate, or dare not be so passionate.

Fu Nan'an is a person who is not brave enough. The pain in his eyes is too clear for too long. Even if Fu Nan'an has been working hard to achieve a perfect state, he is not a perfect person after all.Not only was his body imperfect, but a small piece of his heart was also missing.

In the eyes of outsiders, Fu Nan'an is a gentle, calm, knowledgeable and knowledgeable professor, but he is also the most ordinary ordinary person and a disabled person.He is more restless and unstable than others. The defect in his eyes is his eternal pain. He can prove his ability through hard work, but he dare not try to analyze the complex emotion of love. Love is too full. It is different from all other relationships. All the joys and sorrows are given by one person. Fu Nan'an doesn't believe in love and dare not love. He even didn't agree to Chi Zhao's confession at the beginning because he thought love would change, age It has never been a problem for him, he is afraid that Chi Zhao will regret it after seeing his imperfect side.

But now everything is over, listening to Chi Zhao chatting with other people on the table, Fu Nan'an's mood is particularly heavy.

Very heavy and steady, Chi Zhao said that when he misunderstood, he once had a moment of expectation, but now he has completely calmed down, like ashes after burning.

He quietly listened to the chat between Chi Zhao and the others. After listening to the whole dinner party, everyone asked Chi Zhao to go back after the dinner party. Chi Zhao shook his head and said, "I still have something to do."

A brother asked, "What's the matter?"

Chi Zhao said, "It's very important."

The meal was also gathered, and everyone's gratitude was accepted. Chi Zhao couldn't wait any longer. After saying goodbye to the others, Chi Zhao held Fu Nan'an's hand. In the grove next to the food stall, Chi Zhao held Fu Nan'an's hand again. took Fu Nan'an's hand.

"Professor Fu." Chi Zhao came to apologize to him, "I'm late, I'm too busy these days, I really didn't mean not to come to you, don't be angry."

His voice was low but hot, like a small animal looking forward to its owner whom it hadn't seen for a long time, so intimate and dependent, so Fu Nan'an suddenly felt a sense of irritability in his heart: "Why?"

Chi Zhao was stunned for a moment: "Why?"

"You don't need to apologize to me, you should not look for me," Fu Nan'an asked him, "Why do you still come to me?"

Chi Zhao's body was too hot, and Fu Nan'an felt that he was going to be burned. It was unbelievable and incomprehensible. Chi Zhao was such an excellent person but he was not. Why did Chi Zhao choose after he realized that he was not that good at all? Continue to approach?

"What you said that day was correct, and you saw everyone's attitude at the dinner party today." Fu Nan'an tried to calm down his mind, and he helped Chi Zhao analyze, "I'm not as perfect as you imagined, and I'm not as perfect as you think. Not so gentle and powerful, don't you understand, he is just the most common blind man, who will get confused and make mistakes because of someone else's words, don't come to me again, I'm not worthy of your liking—"

"It's worth it, and I say it's worth it."

Fu Nan'an fell silent before he finished speaking, Chi Zhao raised his head and kissed his lips.

After coming out of Fu Nan'an, Chi Zhao regretted it. After all, he was impulsive and got on top. He never thought of saying such a heavy word. He obviously could choose a more peaceful method, but he didn't. He clearly saw the passion in Fu Nan'an's eyes. Pain and struggle.

To be strong, to be brave, to fear power, to fight bravely, the words are very simple, and children know this truth, but it is difficult to understand the pain of others without personal experience. Chi Zhao didn’t know that Fu Nan’an had experienced it before. What.

Doesn't Professor Fu struggle hard but is still denied? Doesn't he want to be strong, brave, and indestructible?

Chi Zhao did say something hurtful when the words were rushing, but he regretted it the moment he ran off the rooftop. He was neither angry nor disappointed. He actually felt distressed, and his distress was at the hardest and most painful time for Fu Nan'an He couldn't arrive at the first time, he felt sorry for him, and he wanted to hug him.

I wanted to hug, so I did.

From time to time there was the sound of heavy traffic outside the grove, and Chi Zhao put his arms around Fu Nan'an's waist.

"I was in a hurry to say harsh words that day, but I have never been disappointed in you. It is up to me whether it is worth it or not. I remember all your good things."

When talking about this, Chi Zhao thought of a lot, thinking about the cotton candy that Fu Nan'an handed him, and also remembering what Fu Nan'an said that day when he rejected him. The sadness given to him, but it all constitutes his truest love.

Chi Zhao slowly closed his eyes, and his tone slowed down: "Professor, I never thought you were a perfect person. I knew it from the day you said you liked me but pushed me away."

It turned out that Chi Zhao had always understood, he had seen through him a long time ago.

He knew that he would be afraid and disturbed. He saw through the heart that was neither brave nor firm under his gentle appearance. He never ran away from him or persecuted him. He just accompanied him quietly by his side. Very quiet, no words.

Quiet and insignificant things can also have power. Chi Zhao is like this. He is not very old, and he is not knowledgeable or wise, but he has light in him.

Chi Zhao buried his whole body in Fu Nan'an's arms, and his tone was firm: "I'm wrong, I'd like to walk with you, if you don't want to fall in love, then I'll just wait, I like you, with everything I like everything, I am willing to wait, don't push me away, okay?"

It turns out that someone is willing to accompany you even after seeing all your fragility and embarrassment;

It turns out that someone's feelings can ignite a silent heart;

It turns out that falling in love is a process in which two souls get closer and heal each other;

It turns out that lovers don't need you to be perfect.

Chi Zhao's voice was hot, so the sparks of the stars converged into a prairie fire, igniting Fu Nan'an's heart that had been silent for a long time, and burning it, it doesn't matter if you are fire or ashes, when the fire burns, what is left in front of you is There is only light.

Not wanting to endure and being unable to endure, Fu Nan'an lowered his eyes and kissed his lips.

Chi Zhao's body was just enough to fill his empty arms, so the missing piece on the apex of his heart was also fulfilled at this moment.