Dangerous Aesthetics

"As long as it's not like bin Laden." David raised his head and looked at the tent that was close at hand, "Olivan, let's make an agreement. In this tent, we will all tell each other the most painful thing in our hearts." thing. And when you're done, leave it in this tent."

"Did you do the same on your high school graduation trip?" Olivan asked sideways.

"Well, I heard that's the case, but unfortunately I'm not there." David shrugged, "If you feel embarrassed, I can speak first."

"Really, what is the most painful thing for you." Olivan asked casually.

"Me?" David took a breath, "I'm so bad, I always 'miss'."

"When I was in elementary school, I was very small and was always bullied by people in my class. Later, a new female classmate was transferred to me. She was very big and strong, and always liked to bully me. For example, during recess Carrying me around the desks, think about it, how embarrassing it is for a boy to be hugged by her like this. At that time, I almost became the object of ridicule by the whole school. Once outside the school gate, I deliberately hid I hit her in the face with a stone at the corner, seeing her squatting on the ground in pain, I ran away triumphantly."

"It's very similar to what you would do." Olivan chuckled.

"Later, the girl dropped out of school because I hurt her eyes. In the eighth grade (that is, the second grade of junior high school), she actually came to our school to study. Maybe it was because of her development. She didn't look so strong. She was even pretty, and fell in love with another good boy in school. During a school sports meeting, she half-jokingly told me that she liked me very much when she was in elementary school, and she was very sad to see me being bullied by other boys I couldn't bear it, so I always carried me around the classroom, so that other boys wouldn't bully me." David took a breath.

"Do you like her?" Olivier asked.

"I don't know, it's just that when I look back and think of her in elementary school, I suddenly feel that she is really beautiful, even more beautiful than the school beauty. Why didn't I find out at that time?"

Oliwen was silent for a while, "That was in elementary school. You don't have mature aesthetics yet."

David smiled, "Mature aesthetics doesn't mean you won't miss beautiful things. When I was in high school, I always liked a female classmate in my class. She had an elegant temperament, but her family was rich. Even if she liked me, I Knowing that her father wouldn't agree to us being together. I just made up a lot of lies and created a lot of opportunities just to talk to her....a bit wimpy and a bit silly...time capsules are popular among high school students, and before graduation we Bury it under the school tree. Four years later, many classmates returned under the tree together, but she went to other countries with her father, so she didn't come." David looked at Olivan, the innocence in his eyes seemed to be Back to the age when I was not familiar with the world, "Her message is: David, will you come to me?"

Oliwen frowned his pretty eyebrows: "Why don't you go to her?"

"Because I don't have the courage, do you want me to stand in front of her and tell her that I'm a liar?" David took a breath, "But it's nothing, the worst thing is that I fell in love with it later Someone you shouldn't like."

"What kind of woman?" Olivan's arms were resting on his knees, half of his face could not be seen clearly.

"He...has no femininity at all, he has a bad temper, and often makes people hate him."

"This is your self-torture." There was some teasing in Olivan's voice.

"Yeah, but he... made me see myself more clearly, and he took me to a higher and farther place." David smiled softly, "It's just that I can never reach his height. Because I know that even if I fly to him with wings on, his heat will melt my wings, and I will fall even more miserably."

"David...Your life is very rich. You have experienced secret love, been admired by others, and loved helplessly. But what I have is only that one time." Olivan's voice was steady, like The years passed quietly, but there was a delicate pain in the deepest part, "At that time, I liked to stand in a bright place, and I liked to hear other people's admiration and applause, because I knew that in those eyes looking at me , there must be him too. My inspiration can't even be controlled by myself, it keeps coming out..."

David watched him, saw stars in his eyes that twinkled, but faded quickly.

"My mother came from a gangster family in England. My grandfather didn't want me to be a painter. He used his network to threaten all the sponsors. No one would help me to hold a painting exhibition. Then I would soon be rejected by the art world. forgotten."

David lowered his head. Neo once mentioned that Olivan's mother eloped to the United States with his father, but he didn't expect his grandfather to be so powerful and even want to influence Olivan's future.

"When no one was willing to help me, he sold the Tsarist eggs that had been passed down from generation to generation in the family... He came to me with a check, but was targeted by malicious people... When the police found him, He was stabbed six times, and he lasted until I came to him and handed the check to me... The last words he said to me were, Olivan, you are free, just like art as free..." Olivan closed his eyes.

The candles in the candlesticks burned out, and everything fell into darkness again.

David's heart was pounded violently, and his tears fell.

Then the two of them never spoke again.

When the morning light shone into the studio, David squinted his eyes, only to realize that he had fallen asleep unknowingly last night.

The floor was so tight that his back hurt a little, and he slowly propped himself up, only to realize that Olivan was sleeping beside him.

Unnaturally, David took a breath. David never thought that he would have the opportunity to spend a night with Olivan like this.

The other party showed no signs of waking up, but the expression on his entire face was soft, without the usual sternness and arrogance.Head resting on one arm, like a child.

As if possessed by a demon, David propped up his upper body and leaned over.

His lips touched the opponent's eyes, and before he could feel Oliwen's temperature, he shrank back like an electric shock.

My heart is beating wildly, what did he do just now...

David's face was burning, oh my god, he kissed a man!

What a heartbeat!

But... it's just a kiss, and Olivier won't miss anything...

Forget it, you have such a bad temper, and you also shout at me, let's treat it as a little reward other than salary.

What else can I do but touch you when you don't know?

David climbed out of the tent and walked to the window. The sun was shining after the rain, and he stretched a lot.

Without waking Olivan up, David prepared breakfast for himself, and then went to the supermarket.

Toothpaste, toothbrush and other daily necessities, when he pushed the cart to the cash register, the phone rang.

"Could it be that Olivan guy lost his temper because he found himself sleeping on the floor?" David took out his phone and looked at it, but it showed an unfamiliar number, "Hi, I'm David."

"...David, this is Ruby."

The trolley stopped, and the bright supermarket lights suddenly became dazzled.

"Ruby? Are you okay? Where are you?"

"I'm at home... David, why are you sending so much money to my account?"

David smiled, "You know why, so don't ask me why."

"Fool, so much money... I have nothing to give you in return."

"...Then live a little longer, long enough for Diana to grow up, long enough to see me grow as old as you."

"David..." Ruby's voice choked, and it took a long time before the voice came again, "If one day I'm gone, can I hand Diana to you?"

For a moment, David's eyes were wide open, and he understood what the so-called "I'm not here" meant.

"No." Because I'm a liar, I don't have the confidence to teach her well.

"I'm sorry, you've helped me a lot... I shouldn't bother you anymore."

"You can tell me the address, maybe... I will go and see your daughter."

David had a premonition that Ruby's life had come to an end.

He had had countless chances to hold her hand, on their bike outings together, at their prom, when she was leaving the States...he hadn't taken it once.

Now... what should he do?

When he returned to the villa with daily necessities, Neo also came back from vacation.

He bought a lot of local specialties and gave them to David. Needless to say, he felt guilty because he left David alone to bear the depressed Olivan.

"You really feel guilty?" David raised his chin.

"Really! Really!" Neo nodded.

"Then take off this watch for me." David raised his wrist.

"Hey, why do you want to take off this watch suddenly?" Neo looked at David with scrutinizing eyes, "Could it be that you did something bad and wanted to escape?"

"What are you running away from?" David deliberately raised his voice, "The day after tomorrow is Jessica's birthday, and I want to wear the watch she gave me to the party! Have you ever seen someone wear two watches?"

"Oh——" Neo nodded, "You can take it off, anyway, there is nothing important to track down your whereabouts recently."

"Then take it off quickly!" David stretched out his hand, "I'm tired of wearing this watch!"

"Okay! Okay!" Neo went back to the computer, and after entering the password, the watch strap really bounced off.

David looked at his own wrist and smiled with satisfaction.