Go ashore

The next morning when the moon was shining, Gu Han, who had a regular schedule and was healthy, didn't even need an alarm clock. He opened his eyes on time at 08:30, and stretched his arms under the pillow to touch his phone.

When the face recognition passed, he swiped his thumb on the screen of the phone, habitually clicked on WeChat to check the news, and the loading icon on the top of the home page symbolically rotated twice to complete.Gu Han half-closed his eyes to check the information, and a red notification on the address book icon below could not be ignored. He entered it habitually, and a user named "It's not raining today" applied to become a friend of "Not a Dog or a Lion Han".

Gu Han first clicked on the person's avatar, a stick figure of a squid with tentacles that was OK, and then he continued to confirm the reason for this person's application: "You Yu, trumpet.".

Um?What did he see?

Gu Han opened his dog eyes in disbelief - he received a friend request from You Yu's private WeChat.

It's not common, is it?

That's definitely not common in Dewy Love, right? !

Gu Han's mind and body were blown away by this news, he even stood up so happy that he almost jumped off the bed to the ground.For Gu Han, the progress made by the first man to land on the moon was probably not as shocking as the offer You Yu gave him. He suppressed his beating heart, took a deep breath, and clicked the "Agree" button.

After passing the verification, a dialogue window between the two was created immediately. Gu Han was thinking about how to greet him, but the other party expressed his opinion first.

It's not raining today: good morning.

Not a dog or a lion Han: Good morning, Doctor You!

No rain today: This is my personal account, so don't be so polite.

It's not raining today: just call it by name.

It's not a dog or a lion Han: Okay, no Brother Rain today!

It's not raining today: Has Gougouhan had breakfast?

It's not a dog, it's a lion Han: It's a lion Han!

Not a dog but a lion Han: Get up and eat later!

It's not raining today: choose more delicious food, and you can ask me for reimbursement.

Not a dog but a lion Han: Are you raising small animals, Brother Wuyu?

It's not raining today: Boss Gu's career is so good, does he need me to be raised with a dead wage?

It's not raining today: stop teasing me.

You Yu talked a lot today, and his joking tone could almost immediately jump from the text to Gu Han's ears. He stared at the other party's "typing..." sign without moving, his body became hot for some reason, and his ears turned red up.

Right now... I miss You Yu very much.

He slowly curled up, grabbed the phone and stuck it to his face, with You Yu's profile picture on the tip of his nose, and entered the main page of his private account - the world here is much richer than his boring job account where he only shared medical knowledge.

The most recent photo shows the family of three sitting together eating coconut chicken. A computer is placed opposite the table. The people inside the computer are rolling their eyes at the steaming cauldron. , but, dear uncle Bai Yeshi, we have not forgotten the spirit of sharing beauty in thousands of miles. Even if there is a time difference of twelve hours, we must urgently wake you up from your hungry sleep, in order to share this moment with you A delicious three-yellow chicken. I wish you a happy DDL, and next time, Party A will definitely approve your plan!"

Gu Han couldn't help but chuckle while imagining You Yu's humble tone.He who is active in the circle of friends like this seems to be more vivid than the one Gu Han knows in reality, stubborn and poor-mouthed, and has a close-knit family.

The phone vibrated lightly, calling Huihuihan's attention, and he returned to the chat interface with Youyu. Today, Wuyu sent a new message: Good news, classmate Gu Xiaomiao can be discharged from the hospital tomorrow and go back to rest.

Not a dog but a lion Han: Why do you have to go to work today?How do I feel that since I met you, you have been in the hospital every day and never rested.

Not a dog or a lion Han: I really believe you have four kidneys now.

It’s not raining today: Although your focus is wrong, but... it seems that your "I'm so tired, please stop" last night was just perfunctory to me?

No rain today: I am on duty in the ward today.In order to avoid being in a hurry when you leave the hospital, if you are free today, your family can arrange for someone to come over and take away some of Gu Xiaomiao's daily necessities in advance. He has to go home with the wheelchair tomorrow, so there will be less luggage and less burden.

Not a dog is a lion Han: Received.

Not a dog but a lion Han: How about perfunctory you, do you want to punish me?

Today Brother Wuyu "Is typing..." After typing for a full 5 minutes, he choked out a sentence: Gougouhan, I will rest the day after tomorrow, let's meet.

Gou Han's heartbeat obviously missed a beat. On the other side of the screen, in a place that You Yu couldn't see, he adjusted his breathing deeply, then brought his head and whole body into the summer quilt, and tapped out a :good.

Gu Han didn't know what kind of mood You Yu typed out the words "Let's meet", but to him, it seemed to represent something deeper, something that people couldn't stop, wanting to Keep sinking in, wanting to be attracted to something.

Is it a long-lost infatuation?

He stretched out his left hand from under the quilt, touched the little blue pillow in the corner of the bed into his arms, and fell into another mood of contemplation.

At the same time, the emergency duty room of the Second Affiliated Hospital.

You Yu was paralyzed in a split and flexible posture like a salted fish on the small bed of only 1.2 meters in the duty room. A chair placed on a horizontal line has the meaning of just drifting with the flow and then taking it out and using it when the time comes.

His fraternal twin brother sits cross-legged at the big table drinking espresso with chicken nest hair and dark circles under his eyes, apparently having just had a big night.

You Wei slowly chewed the whole donut sprinkled with white icing sugar with the coffee. The blood sugar and blood energy that were already in dire straits were finally replenished in time. Feeling the fluctuations blown by the fan, I finally realized that I had returned to a little human.

Feeling comfortable, You Wei observed this cheap little brother who came to deliver meals and disturbed people's sleep, while taking two breaths on the cold coffee as if he was blowing health-preserving goji berries, and said leisurely: "I said, You have been laughing inexplicably at your phone for 2 minutes, are you a ghost or are you possessed?"

Without raising his eyes, You Yu gently swayed the soles of his feet on the taller chair from side to side, and replied in a comforting tone: "This is a hospital, what nonsense are you talking about, you are not afraid of recruiting unclean things. ?”

You Wei raised a finger and shook it left and right, the old god said: "Feudal superstition is not a good thing. However, even if we see something unscientific, there is a high probability that we all know it. , and there is nothing unclean to say."

You Yu was amused by his sloppy brother, put down his phone, and said sincerely: "You are so poor, You Wei, no wonder you can chat with anyone."

"Why don't you say more. You have such a bad personality, and you can live to middle age in peace and stability. It's not all because of your brother's mouth to help you make up for it. Age is not easy to be fooled." You Wei continued to quarrel, The brilliant flag of the dyeing workshop was fluttering in the wind, and he then poured the remaining half cup of coffee into his body, squeezed the other half of the donut into his stomach with his fingers, and continued to lazily say: "Xiao Su has been unable to sleep at night for half a month. Just making desserts, this craft is improving too fast, almost catching up with the level of bakeries. How on earth did Bai Yeshi maintain her figure under these sugar-coated bombs?... No, no, this is high in oil and sugar , What a sin, I can’t eat any more, my stomach will come out if I eat any more.”

You Yu looked at his twin brother like a caring idiot, and said speechlessly: "...Have you ever thought that because of the time difference, when Xiao Su lived at Bai Yeshi's side, his work and rest were normal, and there was no insomnia at all. Question, there is no such thing as a hobby of baking experiments in the middle of the night?"

You Wei's CPU was stuck for a second, and then he nodded and murmured: "Well, it makes sense. Then we can only feel sorry for Bai Yeshi's lack of good taste."

"Yes, he is still in the reserve team with high blood pressure."

You Yu shot an arrow at his little uncle on the other side of the ocean without any sympathy and bad taste.

"You didn't answer my first question. What are you watching on your phone? You smile like you won the lottery." You Wei has been in the emergency room for too long, and he has already acquired the instinct of a gossip hyena here, biting Even if the nonsense about an unusual point reaches the horizon, he will not forget his original intention and insist on asking back.

"How is Zheng Xi?" You Yu evaded and didn't answer, and changed a new topic like a golden frisbee just thrown out.

They know each other so well that there are countless topics that can be used to create conditions that avoid the important ones.

Sure enough, You Wei took the bait immediately, and ran to take the Frisbee: "He is out of danger, and he is observing in the ICU. Last night was really thrilling. He went into shock twice, and even the old cow was sweating from shock. collapsed."

After hearing this, You Yu responded in a neutral manner, then propped up his upper half of his body, stretched out his long hand, and easily reached the other half of You Wei's donut from the table to his body, and he naturally He took a bite and continued to ask, "How does it feel to be back on stage?"

"It's not bad. Anyway, those operations are engraved in my bones, and it's hard to forget. If there is any other feeling... I feel a little nostalgic."

You Wei finished answering honestly, but this time he didn't receive the response he should have.So he had no choice but to send out his concerned little eyes, let it evaluate his younger brother without any trace, and then added a sentence that his younger brother most wanted to hear at the moment: "So, are you going to visit Zheng Xi?"

You Yu didn't say a word, it took 5 minutes to chew half a donut gracefully before he said, "It's not very good."

"Why didn't you think of the word 'not so good' when you rushed into the operating room in a grand manner?" You Wei couldn't help but rolled his eyes and scolded You Yu, then cleared his throat, and said in a strong voice: "Since fate has pushed things like this, you should do something according to your intuition, isn't it just to take a humanitarian look at your ex-boyfriend, what's the big deal."

You Yu's heart was full of twists and turns, greed, hatred and obsession were all available, but the words could only be turned into a long sigh and a sentence: "I promised his parents that we will disappear after we break up, and we will never see each other again." .”

It seems that this dear friend who is in great pain hesitates and chokes out a lame line that will only appear on the TV station at [-] o'clock, which makes his twin brother couldn't help but sneer mercilessly: "Those rigid principles you set for yourself Sometimes it's really useless. Unless you can now confirm that you still have fanciful feelings for Zheng Xi, I can't understand your thoughts at all. Isn't this asking for trouble? You have thrown away the shadow of their family. There are so many people I have been up and down for so many years, but now I just meet Zheng Xi face to face and still feel timid, because I think the grievances at the beginning were not enough? Xiaoyu, I know you, and I believe that with you, at least the relationship with Zheng Xi , what should be in the past is over. Let's be sensible and don't draw a prison for those who are not worthy."

You Wei's resolute tone increased the credibility of the crooked reasoning in his words, but it didn't ease the burden on You Yu's heart at all.Although the grievances and pressure of those years are nothing to him now, the things in the past existed after all, and they have become an ugly obelisk standing behind him.Occasionally, the stele would tightly clasp Youyu's spine like a commandment, from top to bottom, from cervical vertebrae to tail vertebrae, 26 joints, every bit and no less, allowing him to deeply experience the experience he experienced when he was a teenager. All kinds of suffocation and defeat that can never be overcome.

You Yu sat half-supported on the small bed, hanging his head in thought, but remained silent.

Seeing that his younger brother didn't refute, You Wei immediately struck while the iron was hot and continued to output: "If I think about the past with you now, no matter what I say, it's not kind. But ah, Xiao Yu, there are some things that I can't express quickly, so I said it. The two of you just During the time when I was discovered, Zheng Xi came to see me and talked with Bai Yeshi on the phone. He told the uncle on the other end of the overseas phone that he would share this feeling with you no matter what. I was quite moved when I heard it. Later Not long after, he was caught by you on a date with a girl. Although he explained afterwards that he was pressured by his parents and didn’t show his true feelings, you didn’t care about him. But you know you told me After this incident, what was I thinking? I was thinking, if my younger brother stood in his situation, even if he was scolded by me and uncle and kicked out of the house, he would not do such a thing An asshole against your will."

"It's a bit far-fetched. Xiao Yu, I want to tell you that from before to now, no matter what moment, I don't think you are incapable of love at all, even though you have been emphasizing yourself for ten years "don't love, love Incompetent", but I know you, I know how depressed you are, and I know what you long for. You always think that you are the moon that shines only when the sun shines, nonsense, even the moon, its job is not only to come out at night It’s so simple to shine, and it also controls the gravity of the earth. In my eyes, you are the moon that can control the tide.”

You Wei nimbly jumped down from the table, sat next to You Yu, patted his younger brother on the shoulder twice, and finally concluded: "You don't want the Zheng family to go to hell, it's because you are gentle and tolerant. When you play with others, you understand him and don’t make things difficult for him; his parents rushed to the school and pointed at you in front of so many people, insulting you and asking you to break up, so you really explain it to him slowly, old man Be honest, don’t entangle at all; Zheng Xi wanted to elope with you but was locked up at home, his father led a group of people to block the entrance of the internship hospital recklessly, grabbed your collar and threatened you, telling you to go away, You will really go to the other side of the ocean. The good things are theirs, the bad things... Heh, you have abandoned Zheng Xi's predecessor ruthlessly, this is the only label you have left."

A story full of conflicts was condensed by You Wei into a short paragraph, which was narrated calmly.

But on the contrary, this kind of clear and rational description made You Yu feel like he was back in the past, and the belated heartache suddenly rushed to the tip of his nose and eye sockets. He stretched out his hand to stop it, but he couldn't stop it. Dikes traced his cheeks and jaw, and hit the floor tiles drop by drop.

In those years, grievances were of course grievances.But Youyu is born with a personality that doesn't like conflicts with others.What about his family?There was only a reserved and kind twin brother left, and his younger uncle and sister who were far away across the ocean and couldn't help him in time. Therefore, no matter how many grievances he had, he had no choice but to digest them by himself.

Unexpectedly, after digesting it for ten years, and encountering old people's old stories again, what I ended up with was indigestion.

It's not that I can't let go of that person, but I can't let go of myself who couldn't handle the incident perfectly at the time and suffered too much shackles and violence.

It's him who doesn't live up to expectations.

The sudden fragile emotion completely defeated You Yu, he couldn't bear the sadness of being away from him for a long time, and the agitation made him curl up.

You Wei took out two pieces of paper and stuffed them to him, hugged his brother tightly with one hand, and persuaded in a low voice: "From now on, live for yourself, Xiao Yu. The self-punishment should be over, you deserve it." Have a better relationship and life. Let's take this opportunity to completely turn this matter and this family in your heart, okay? Brother, please."

You Yu didn't know how long he cried silently, but until he woke up, You Wei was by his side.

Unknowingly, dozens of tissues were replaced, and the vision flooded by tears regained clarity. You Yu escaped from the life-like obsession with the past and finally ushered in a new chapter. He heard himself nodding decisively to his brother, and agreed: " OK, I'll do my best."