night without tears

Life starting from scratch is not as easy as Yin Yening imagined.Today's F is obviously different from the past in many places.He still cared about Yin Yening very much, and made things at home perfect, but he could no longer feel the faint attachment and the warmth of staring.

After Chacha came back, her attitude towards F was obviously much better than before, and she would occasionally follow him around, but F not only didn't look very happy, but seemed a bit embarrassed.

"Please don't follow me anymore." He knelt down and patted the big white dog's head and whispered, "There are still two hours before your meal time, and it is useless for you to follow me any longer."

"Chacha followed you only because she liked you." Yin Yening walked by and explained for the dog.

"Uh...really?" F was even more troubled: "It's a pity, although it likes me, but my setting seems to be more difficult to feel for...animals."

"Nonsense, you used to like Chacha very much!"

"Is that so?" F thought for a while, then looked at Chacha's wagging tail, "Well... maybe, because I forgot, I don't like it that much now."

...Yes, is it...

Yin Yening stood aside, staggering, feeling as if a hole had opened in the ground, and his body fell down along with the hole, falling into an invisible abyss.

Because I forgot, I didn't like it so much.

So, is it the same for me...

You don't like Chacha anymore, and you don't like me anymore, do you?Do you mean that?

He suddenly looked at F a little fiercely, thinking that there is something in your words, and this is what you want to tell me, right?

"Master? What's wrong with you, your face is very pale." F walked over, trying to support him.

"You don't touch me!"

"……Owner."

Yin Yening pushed him away, and his voice became agitated unconsciously. He looked at F's bewildered face, and suddenly felt a burst of powerlessness, so he couldn't change back to the wayward and moody Yin Yening. Shouted at him: "Go away! Go away!"

At that moment, he felt that the punishment he imposed on himself was very childish and ridiculous.

Of course it is very ridiculous, why do you torture yourself, why let F say those things that make life worse than death to torture him unintentionally?

He can't bear it, in fact, he can't bear it if F doesn't love him for a day, he really wants to take him back to find Fang Jili immediately, and tell him that you install that ghost program back for me, and I want him to love me, even if it's just because of the program , I don't care how unfair it is to him!

He's right by my side, he's right by my side... This kind of torture, which is so close at hand, is too unbearable.But...he remembered that for so long, F was by his side silently, enduring his emotional abuse.

Didn't you mean to start from the beginning, love him slowly, and warm him slowly?Why can't this be done at all, why yell at him who did nothing wrong...

"Master, I... I'll make you a pot of tea to reduce the fire. Getting angry is bad for your health."

"F, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Yin Yening hurriedly hugged him from behind, holding him tightly.

F tilted his head and smiled: "It's okay."

He said, grabbed Yin Yening's hand, frowned suddenly, turned around and touched his forehead: "Master, you seem to have a little fever, did you fall asleep without wiping your hair after showering? You and I How many times have I said it, but you should listen to it once."

He sighed, and carried Yin Yening directly to the bedroom.Yin Yening, on the other hand, was stunned for a long time, and it took a long time to find her voice.

"...You, do you remember that you once told me this?"

F recalled what he said just now, and was also taken aback.

What is "how many times have I told you?" This is a high-sounding statement, how long has he been with the master, and when did he remind him before?

Sure enough... the maker had told him that his memories were brand new, but before those memories existed, he was already by the owner's side.Therefore, the master treats him well because he has been a master and servant for many years.

He couldn't remember the past, so he shook his head, and only dutifully put Yin Yening on the spacious bed and wrapped him in a quilt.

"F...you try harder, maybe, maybe you can think of more..." Yin Yening pleaded with him, looking a little pitiful at the eyes that were wet from the high temperature.

"This..." F had no choice but to tell the truth: "In principle, it is somewhat difficult, because my memory chip is actually not the original one. If it is the original chip, even if it is slightly damaged or formatted, the memory is still possible. I found it, but Dr. Fang said that the chip is completely irreparable. So... in the current situation, no matter how hard I try, it is really difficult to regain the lost memory. I'm sorry, master."

Yin Yening listened blankly for a while, then covered his eyes with his elbow: "No, it's not your fault, it's me...it's all my fault."

It was me... I made you crush your memory with my own hands...

Thinking of this, Yin Yening suddenly felt overwhelming fear.F at that time, how much he had to hate him, how much he had to hate him to do such a decisive thing, crush his most precious memory, all the memories of them together, into powder...

"No, don't think about it," he suddenly trembled and murmured, "Don't think about it, it's best not to think about it... forget it, forget it all..."

F hurriedly sat beside him, trying to calm his trembling, Yin Yening hugged him tightly.

"Master, it's all right...don't be afraid." F stroked him lightly, as if comforting a wounded beast, with a helpless smile on the corner of his mouth.

"You...where are you going?" Feeling the person in his arms breaking free without a trace, Yin Yening's heart suddenly became empty.

"I'll get the medicine for the master." Seeing that he refused to let go, F grabbed his hands forcefully. After all, in front of the robot, Yin Yening was like a child struggling in front of adults. F said with a smile: "Although it is I'm sick, but master, you can't be clingy, it's important to take medicine."

"No, I won't let you go!"

After being pushed away by him, Yin Yening pounced on him and dragged him. During the tugging, he was almost taken out of bed by F. Seeing him like this, F didn't dare to use brute force anymore.

"Master, I can't do this. I'm just going to get some medicine. Why are you so self-willed like an ignorant child?"

Although the words were accusations, the tone was just a little helpless. To F, after all, the master was relatively new to his brand-new self, so that he did not expect that the master, who usually seemed mature and stable, would actually be sick when he was sick. So hard to serve.

"Don't let him go!" The master still dragged him, his voice became hoarse but he was still stubborn: "Don't let him go, even if he dies of illness!"

This, this situation... F's head is getting bigger.

"I just want you to stay by my side and accompany me. I'm sick, can't I just ask you to accompany me?"

Facing the poorness of the patient, F broke into a cold sweat: "Then why not take the medicine first and then stay with you?"

Yin Yening shook his head, he didn't want to let him go, not for a second.

"Master... so, if you are willing to take the medicine, I will give you a reward." Since the other party was making trouble like a child, F had no choice but to play tricks.

"What reward?"

"What does the master want?"

"Hmm..." The temptation is so great, Yin Yening began to think.

It's now! Taking advantage of his distraction, F broke free from his bear hug and jumped three meters away from the big bed.

"Master, I'll come back as soon as I go." He said with an elegant and smug smile.

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It took only two or three minutes to bring the medicine and water, but Yin Yening felt that she had waited for a long, long time, as if the sea was dry and the stone was rotten, so she curled up on the bed and started to lose her temper again.

"Master, drink some medicine."

"Don't drink!"

"Master, look, I've served it all. Otherwise... I'll feed you?"

"..." Yin Yening's half-dead face was suddenly stained with a strange blush: "Where should I feed it?"

"Use..." Where is it used? F finds this question extremely strange: "Feed with a spoon."

"..." Yin Yening covered her head with the quilt: "Don't drink."

"Master..." Can you be more obedient.

"You said you would give me a reward." Yin Yening suddenly turned over and sat up.

F began to think, facing such an unreasonable master, whether he should just use force to force the medicine down.

"Yes, yes... what does the master want?"

"I want you to feed me with your mouth." Yin Yening twisted the quilt with both hands nervously. Although there was no expression on his face, his heart was pounding.

F thinks this request is weird.But since the master said so, he took the medicine in his mouth and pressed it to Yin Yening's lips.

The master's lips were soft and warm, as if he had tasted such an unbearable tenderness and stickiness before, this feeling was like grinding in smooth honey, although he had never really tasted the taste of honey, but The description of that thing seems to be exactly like this.

He didn't remember to struggle until Yin Yening grabbed his hands and kissed him forcefully and tenderly when he was pressed on his master's lap.

"Master, Lord... um..."

This is not feeding medicine, this is kissing, no matter how slow he is, he will still be able to react.The master must have lost his mind and kissed him!

He nimbly caught Yin Yening with his backhand and stood up. At this moment, even as a servant, he had no choice but to put on airs, frowned and said to his master, "Stop making trouble."

Yin Yening's face was flushed, she had no strength at all but still stubbornly opened her eyes, stared blankly at F and smiled: "It's okay... I'm always on top, I can let you just once..."

"What is above and below?"

F didn't understand, and Yin Yening didn't have the strength to explain, so he looked at him with those misty eyes: "Come here, kiss me."

"Master, I'm not strictly human."

"I know."

"I'm biologically a man."

"I know."

"..." Forget it, it's my destiny.

F lowered his head and tapped on the honey-like smoothness again, Yin Yening's lips and tongue immediately entangled with it, so logical, so familiar.His hands wrapped around F's neck, and slowly slid down his back...

At this moment, F suddenly realized, could it be possible that his original self was actually the kind of "conscientious" servant who besides doing housework also solved his master's physical needs by the way?

...Why are things being used to the best of their ability?Should I go to an organization to complain, maybe robots also have legal rights and cannot be exploited like this.

"Hmm..." The finger, Yin Yening's finger, touched where it shouldn't be.The body trembled involuntarily.

"Master..." What do you want to do?

With her mouth sealed, Yin Yening turned over and pressed her forward, rubbing her hand skillfully at the most sensitive part of him.

"Uh...ah...haha..."

F wanted to struggle at first, but soon he only had the strength to gasp.

The master's kiss, the master's hot body, his embrace, his hands, everything, at this moment, spread like the fragrance of gardenias in the night, making people intoxicated...

"Ahhh..." He couldn't control his body anymore, he moved his waist and fell into the convulsions of orgasm.

After being intoxicated, he found that Yin Yening had exhausted all his strength and fell asleep on top of him.There was a satisfied smile on the corner of his mouth.

Why did he insist on doing such a thing when he was clearly ill? What kind of master is this? F is a little confused.

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At noon the next day, F brought lunch to Yin Yening's bed and served him to eat and drink.

This man, obviously the heat has receded a lot, but he shouted that his hands and feet were sore and insisted on asking him to feed him. While feeding him, F looked up at the wall clock.

"What's the matter?" Yin Yening was a little dissatisfied with his absent-mindedness.

"Master wants me to remember. Every Wednesday afternoon, I go to the hospital to visit that patient. Since you are in poor health, I will go alone today..."

Are you going to leave me alone to see Pei Yi?Yin Yening felt a little unhappy for some reason, "I won't be going today."

F tilted his head, scooped up another spoon and sent it over: "Is this okay?"

"Why not?" Yin Yening didn't know why he suddenly became angry: "In your heart, is that guy more important than me who is sick in bed?"

"..." F was very speechless, and wanted to say that the so-called "visiting Pei Yi no matter what rain or shine", you, the master, let me remember it.

"Well, it's so hot..."

"Master, master, I'm sorry!" When he was distracted just now, he forgot to blow, F thought that Yin Yening would definitely scold him hysterically, but his master just covered his lips and frowned, those beautiful eyes turned red, almost To shed tears.

You might as well scold me, F felt distressed for a while: "Show me..."

"Go away." It was this sentence again.

"Master..." F sighed, thinking that it was my fault, it was all my fault, it was all my fault, your master is really too hard to serve.

According to the system analysis, adults are generally not too moody, but the emotions of their own masters are so elusive.

"Master, what did I do wrong? You seem to... don't like me very much."

F thought about it, so he couldn't help asking. He must not like it very much. If he liked it, the master would probably not always put on various expressions and make all kinds of troubles.

Who knew that Yin Yening's face changed drastically when he heard that, and he yelled at him hysterically: "Yes, I don't like... I just don't like you! That's right! I hate you the most! You idiot, get out of here! "

As he said that, he threw the job bowl in front of him, and F quickly turned his head to avoid it. He didn't dare to make a sound anymore, and lowered his head to pick up the scattered pieces.

The owner doesn't like wearing shoes, if you don't clean them up, you will get hurt.The owner is so capricious. F thought about it, and couldn't help shaking his head, no wonder Fang Jili wanted to make himself such a good temper that wouldn't get angry, if it was someone else, who would be able to stand him.

F tidied up, and heard faint weeping sounds from behind, one by one, gently tapping his heart.

Why is the master like this, so emotional and even crazy?

He threw away the pieces, walked over, and sat down beside Yin Yening.He couldn't let him alone, because he didn't know why he felt that the master looked so pitiful.

"I...I told you to go, why don't you go..."

He choked up and said this, but leaned on F's chest, holding on and refusing to let go. F coaxed him gently, feeling that the front of his clothes was wet.

"From now on... stop talking nonsense. Did you hear me!"

...what the hell did I say? F didn't dare to ask, and could only nod seriously.

That day, he just hugged Yin Yening until he fell asleep in his arms.He helped him cover the quilt, let out a sigh of relief, and looked at him silently for a while.

The master is very handsome, with black hair hanging by the ear, and the curve of the corner of the mouth is very moving.Such a master, why is there no one to accompany him, why is he so lonely that he needs a robot in his life to share his joys and sorrows?

...Could it be that the master's strange temper made everyone around him run away in anger.

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The next afternoon, F and his master went to the hospital to visit Pei Yi.

F pushed the man's wheelchair and walked on the white stone path in the hospital lawn, his bangs blocked his eyes.He smiled helplessly, and brushed away the obstructive hair: "Master, how about I cut my hair shorter?"

"Don't cut it!" Yin Yening reacted fiercely: "Don't cut it! If you change again, I'm afraid I won't recognize you."

Really, too much has changed to be changed.Yin Yening feels that even just looking at F is a kind of torture, even if he has done nothing wrong, it is still a kind of torture, because this person's unintentional every move is so different from what he used to be.

F will never sit next to Pei Yi again, calling his name over and over again, trying to wake him up.

Never again.

His persistence, his expectations, his so many fantasies and madness, are all gone.He will never insist that he has a soul again, and he will never say such silly things as "If you love me, maybe I will become a real person one day."

The current F is dedicated to his duties, has no desires or desires, is gentle and obedient, maybe this is what he originally hoped Fang Jili would create.

However, it wasn't what he wanted now.So, now it's him, and when F is not paying attention, he will secretly pinch Pei Yi, trying to wake him up.

If there are really so-called miracles that F believes in in this world, if the person in front of him who seems to have no soul can really wake up - F said, then it proves that he can have a soul.

If a certain wish that I insist on can really come true, Yin Yening thought so, I hope that the person I love can turn back into himself, and I hope that I can bring him happiness within his ability.

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On the way home, Yin Yening took F to the shopping street. His old clothes were gone. Seeing him wearing a neat suit all day, really looking like a butler, was really not pleasing to the eye.In the past, F would not dress so formally at all.

Yin Yening suddenly remembered that she once bought a set of sheep-shaped pajamas with ulterior motives. After putting it on, F sat on the bed, his whole body was in vain, with his ears drooping next to his cheeks, coupled with his unique innocent expression, it was extremely sinister...

And F obviously didn't have much interest in the clothes, Yin Yening showed him one by one, and he stood there in a daze.Finally, his master picked out a bunch of clothes and happily went to check out, but he was still standing there stupidly.

"You... hello..."

Suddenly someone tugged on his sleeve with a small force. F looked down and saw that it was a girl, she looked no more than high school age, she was pretty and pretty, with brown hair hanging by her ears, big eyes that were watery, and her cheeks were also rosy red.

"Ah, what's the matter?"

The girl shook her head, looking cute and flustered: "No, it's okay. That... I'm a student from S Middle next to me, and my name is BOBO."

He introduced himself, so F replied very politely: "My name is F."

"That, that..." The girl lowered her head in disappointment, "That... BOBO is my real name."

F was stunned for a moment, and quickly explained sincerely: "F is also my real name, it's true!"

The girl looked at him, smiled shyly, and suddenly took something out of her pocket, stuffed it into F's hand, turned and ran away.

F opened his palm and saw that it was a photo sticker. The girl smiled brightly and made a V sign. Her name and phone number were written on the back of the sticker with a ballpoint pen.

Oops... what should I do? This was the first time F encountered such a thing.Although I am still a little happy-but I can't call the little girl back and say: Thank you for your attention, but I am actually a robot, and humans and machines have different paths.So I had to carefully put the photo sticker into the jacket pocket.

When he came out of the shopping street, the sky was gloomy, F said he wanted to buy an umbrella, Yin Yening said he was busy.It turned out that on the way the two of them walked through the park in the middle of the street to the parking lot, a downpour of rain came down.

The two fled quickly. Fortunately, there was a large irregular sculpture in the park in the middle of the street, which blocked a space for shelter from the rain, but when the two ran in, a little red umbrella next to it also took advantage of the situation. .

Under the sculpture, the little red umbrella was put away: "Hey... is, is it F?"

F also smiled when he saw the face of the owner of the little red umbrella: "BOBO, what a coincidence, are you still shopping around?"

"Yes, yes..." The girl lowered her head shyly, but looked sideways at F secretly.

Yin Yening felt that even if he had a big heart, he might not be able to tolerate this hateful ambiguity, not to mention that he had never been a big-hearted person.

"Who is she?" The voice was neither yin nor yang.

"Ah, her name is BOBO, I just met in the shopping street. BOBO, this Mr. Yin is mine..."

When F said this, he suddenly felt that the words "is my master" should sound strange to normal people, so he couldn't think of how to answer it.

"Lovers."

The girl under the red umbrella was startled, and so was F.

Yin Yening stared at the girl, grabbed F's hand, and moved slowly, but with an extraordinary elegance and meaning.He put that hand to his lips and kissed it lightly.

F was extremely embarrassed, and suddenly pulled his hand back. It seemed that the electric current was blocked in the heart for a moment, and it was numb.

Yin Yening didn't give him a chance to escape, grabbed his hand back forcefully, smiled at the girl, or said with a smile on the surface: "Sorry, that's what happened, I hope you can understand .”

"Um...ah, I'm sorry..." The girl had probably never been frightened like this before, she jumped aside like a rabbit, then took up her umbrella and ran into the drizzle.

Looking at her back, F suddenly felt that such a scene seemed familiar, as if it had touched a wonderful memory in his heart.

It seems that at some point, there was a similar girl who fled in front of them.

The emotions condensed in this memory are like a sense of pride that a cunning trick has succeeded, but F thought about it carefully, but still couldn't think of anything.

"What's the matter, are you still reluctant?"

The face was turned, the master's hand was rubbing his cheek, the slender fingers were inserted in his black hair, and the thumb just touched his lips.It reminded him of... the master's soft kiss.

He was in a daze for a moment, only to realize that the master's eyes were terrifying.

"In the shopping street, I only left you for a few minutes? In such a short time, you met girls for me?!"

F knew that he really shouldn't have asked this sentence, but at the same time he couldn't figure it out if he didn't ask: "Master... Excuse me, what did I do wrong?"

"What did you do wrong? You asked me what did you do wrong?!" Yin Yening seemed to have heard some particularly funny joke, and hissed: "F, listen to me - you are mine! "

"Well," F nodded: "Of course I belong to the master."

"You know you are mine, and you dare to talk to others?"

Yin Yening showed her pointed canine teeth, which made F feel that there was nothing more to say, but she couldn't figure it out without saying it.

"I am your servant, but, as a servant, can't I talk to others or make friends?"

"Of course not! Because, because...you look like this, who wouldn't want you when they see you?"

can you? F didn't take it seriously, he didn't feel that he was special in appearance, but he was the master--sparkling and charming, attracting the eyes of passers-by all the way.

"It shouldn't matter..." F scratched his head, still dull: "What is the master worried about, because of that girl? Don't worry, I don't think she has any other intentions, and I know very well, I It's a robot, I can't like humans."

"What did you say?"

Probably because Yin Yening's expression was too scary, F was taken aback and paused: "Master, did I say something wrong again?"

A flash of lightning flashed by, followed by rumbling thunder, and Yin Yening's eyes suddenly turned red.

He panted heavily, looking at F's innocent look.This is really abominable, with an innocent look, accusing those past mistakes everywhere - he told him with innocent eyes that I don't love you anymore, and asked him with innocent eyes why he was so angry.

because because because because...

The time that has been stained and discredited can no longer be repaired, and the memories of the past can no longer be retrieved.What should I do?

Yin Yening really wanted to ask him, what should I do with the me who is now, the me who is no longer loved by you, and the me who desperately wants to go back to the past?

He took a step back and stood staggeringly in the rain, as water jets slid down from his head, turning him into a real rain man, and the world became hazy, a mirror image of water and moon Yingbai.