The price of rebirth

He is running, wishing to grow wings.

He used to think that way, it would be great if people could grow a pair of wings, so that they wouldn't stand helplessly downstairs, watching Qin Yue with broken wings fly down from the sky and fall into an ugly puddle. Vomited slime.In that way, Qin Yue can still live to taste the ups and downs of life, to paint, to be weak and strong at times.That way they can still be friends.That way it wouldn't leave a bunch of people crying over him.

He didn't want to accuse the deceased of right and wrong, said that Qin Yue was cowardly, selfish, cruel, and what's the use of saying that, Qin Yue had already been smashed into mud, and was burned to a handful of ashes the next day, only black and white The teenager in the photo smiled at the world lifelessly.

The living people are talking about it, so what does it have to do with Qin Yue?

Qin Yue couldn't hear it.

When a person chooses to die, there is always suffering that others cannot understand.

Even now, Su Yan still doesn't know the reason why Qin Yue chose to commit suicide. He thought about it a lot, maybe Qin Yue did it for love, maybe because of family affection, Qin Yue died suddenly and cleanly, without leaving a single word, The mobile phone that kept his heartfelt thoughts died with him. How can outsiders read the diary in his heart.

Obviously the college entrance examination is just around the corner, Qin Yue, don't you want to take the entrance exam for your second university?Don't want to learn oil painting?It doesn't mean that I want to be a painter and photographer in the future, carrying a drawing board and a camera, and traveling every inch of the land.

Didn't you say that you have seen the light of day.

Those voices that once emerged from the bottom of Su Yan's heart, how much he wanted to question Qin Yue, but Qin Yue died.

"Qinyue——" Su Yan yelled with all his strength, and rushed up to the rooftop. The empty rooftop has a wide field of vision. When you look up, you can see the clear blue sky. When you look down, you can see the abyss.

The nightmare, the nightmare that had tormented him for a long time resurfaced before his eyes.

Close your eyes, you will see Qin Yue's bloody body, the height of the sixth floor, if a living person falls down, he will be nothing!No matter how young he was, no matter how handsome he was, no matter how he came into this world crying, how he was loved by others, how he laughed and how sad he was.

He became a pool of blood mud!

Lying carelessly in the flower bed, the blood was gushing, and the bright red rose petals fell to the ground.

He just took one look and threw up on the spot.

Such a nightmare, how long has it tortured him, and how long will it torture Liang Kui, all living people will have no peace.

Why fight against yourself, why betray your own purpose.

He didn't want the nightmare to recur, and didn't want to be sad for Qin Yue's death.

He hoped that Qin Yue would live, that's all.

"Qin Yue..." Su Yan's voice was hoarse, and his body was shaking like the wind.But he didn't dare to blink, and didn't dare to relax.

Qin Yue, the Qin Yue who died before his eyes.

At this moment, he is still alive.

Holding a mobile phone, standing on the death line without fear, as long as one step is taken, heaven and man will never see each other again.

Qin Yue's cell phone was even singing, that familiar English song from junior high school to high school.

YesterdayOnceMore

The quiet English female voice echoed on the rooftop, a gentle, soothing song that makes people feel warm and nostalgic.

Su Yan listened blankly, suddenly felt ironic.

Reappeared yesterday.

Listening to this song, Qin Yue didn't know whether the yesterday that reappeared in his heart was happy or beautiful.

At this time, the yesterday that reappeared in Su Yan's heart was the black and white portrait of Qin Yue.

I used to have happiness, today there is only sadness, everything has changed.

I don't know if I made it all sad, or if the sadness made me change.

Qin Yue didn't speak, but Su Yan understood his mind.

Su Yan didn't open his mouth, he didn't rush to call him over, and he didn't walk over to pull him.

As the voice in my head said, if a person chooses to die, no one can save him.

The only thing that can be saved is his own heart.

I rescued him forcefully today, and there will be another time for him.

He obviously has no fear of life and death.

He just... has nothing to think about.

It can really make mecry It really made me cry Just like before Su Yan raised his head and tears welled up in his eyes.

Liang Kui ran up with all his might, but before he breathed a sigh of relief, the wind from the exit of the roof was blowing towards him, and it was so cold that it fell on his face like someone else's tears.

He looked up blankly and saw someone was really crying.

At that moment, his heartbeat seemed to stop.

The person standing on the roof crying was actually Su Yan.

Why is Su Yan.

How could Su Yan cry.

How could Su Yan cry.

everything has changed...

He once said to Su Yan, seeing you smile is harder than ascending to heaven, and he asked me to do my best.

Su Yan laughed at that moment.

Brighter than the sun.

He never thought that Su Yan would cry, never thought that Su Yan, whom he likes, would shed tears for others.

Su Yan was really crying at this moment.

The sun hides behind the clouds.

Rough fingers clumsily wiped the young man's wet eyes, trying hard to wipe away all his tears, but the warm tears slipped past his fingers and wet his palm, and he couldn't wipe them off no matter how much he wiped.

Liang Kui's heart ached to death, how did Su Yan's tears flow so violently because of his broken heart.

Looking back on how it was years gone by Some can even make mecry Su Yan saw the clumsy appearance of a young man, he looked at him with blurred eyes and wiped his tears.This scene just happened again yesterday, except that Liang Kui was the one crying in the mourning hall, and he was the one who clumsily wiped away the sadness for him.

Su Yan didn't cry, Qin Yue died, he didn't shed a single tear.Because someone is sadder than him.Because Liang Kui was crying, the Liang Kui who was going crazy in the mourning hall, the Liang Kui who was yelling and yelling, cried alone after he left the building.Crying like a child, the tears are like a flood that burst the embankment, no matter how hard he wipes it, he can't finish it.Liang Kui cried so sad and helpless, he needed comfort, encouragement, and someone to rely on, so Su Yan couldn't cry.

The feeling of heartache is still in his heart.

It's just the reappearance of yesterday, only he remembers it.

Joy and sadness are all his own feelings.

He wanted to prevent that tragedy.

He likes Liang Kui, not including his tears.

"Qin Yue, are you going to jump off in front of us?"

"It was you and Guan Wen who taught us two boys about love."

"You can't survive, you can die."

"Do you want to dance? We will remember you forever."

"No one's choice is completely wrong."

"Qin Yue, even if you choose to die, I will support you."

Liang Kui was almost dizzy, he restrained his body's impulse tensely, and didn't rush over to drag Qin Yue back.Qin Yue is going to jump off the building, Qin Yue is going to commit suicide, what a terrible fact.

Liang Kui trembled, Su Yan grabbed his hand and held it tightly, both of their palms were soaked.

Liang Kui wanted to say something, at least he should stop Qin Yue and call him back.But he couldn't speak, he lost the ability to speak, he couldn't speak a few times, he could only watch Qin Yue's thin back that was about to go with the wind.

When did Qin Yue have such terrible thoughts? He is a cousin who gets along day and night, but he never noticed it.Now, with the terrifying scene in front of his eyes, he is deeply reflecting on it. Yes, Qin Yue has been thin and small since he was a child. He was not a rough boy since he was a child. Qin Yue will always be the object of protection by his cousins.Qin Yue is timid, even fragile, such a Qin Yue would choose today's path, but as a cousin, he has neglected his duties and did not seriously think about Qin Yue.If he could be more careful and care about Qin Yue, Qin Yue would not go to a dead end alone.

It's better to die than to live. If you are not desperate, how can you want to die.

"Yue Yue...you have to live."

Live, just a simple sentence you want to live, I hope you live.

These are just a few words.

If someone wants you to live, you should work hard to live.

Can live, why die.

No one is afraid of death, even Qin Yue.

Who wants to die, no one wants to die, and neither does Qin Yue.

Damn... it's a heart of despair.

The cold wind blew past on the rooftop, scratching his eyes.

With a wave of Qin Yue's hand, echoing the reappearance of the mobile phone yesterday, it flew down the stairs, crashing and smashing into pieces, causing everyone to scream.

He took a few steps back and returned to a safe range, but he never looked back.

He was afraid of turning his head and exposing his tearful face.

He is fragile, not like a man, but he wants to work hard to be stronger, more like a Qin Yue who is struggling to survive.

Liang Kui collapsed and wanted to talk to Qin Yue, but Su Yan stopped him.

The two sat far away, looking at Qin Yue's back without speaking.

They have enough patience to wait for Qin Yue to speak out, as long as he waits, he will definitely speak.

After sitting quietly for some time, Qin Yue really spoke.

His voice is like an old tree that has been dried by the sun, old and empty.

Only a trace of vitality remained.

A voice that was powerless, but spoke heavy words.

The power of words is amazing, it can save a person, and it can also kill a person.

"My mother wants me to die."

His beloved mother was crying and screaming in despair and anger on the phone.

Qin Yue, what's the use of your life.

Qin Yue, you are a disaster.

Qin Yue, this family was ruined by you.

Qin Yue, why don't you die!

Why don't you die, why don't you die... That voice echoed in his mind over and over again.He was not stupid, he knew that it might be a momentary remark from his mother.It's just a moment of anger, a moment, but it's not false.

That idea existed in my mother's mind.He didn't resent his mother at all, and he also felt like a scourge.Good women don't like to like boys, which makes the family mess up.His father felt ashamed of him, and felt that his mother hadn't taught him well, so he spoke coldly to Qin Yue and was dissatisfied with his wife.

The son my father wants is not like Qin Yue. His son doesn't need to be great, smart, or obedient. At the very least, his son must like women, carry on the family line, and carry it out. If he is a normal person .

But the son he has raised for nearly 20 years is nothing.Fate is always a coincidence. The son at home made him grieve, but the woman outside was pregnant. He would never want that child before, because he never thought of divorcing his wife at home.But what is he hesitating about now, no matter whether it is a son or a daughter, this is a gift from God, the blessing of having a son in his later years.

The day he went home with the child in his arms was the day he divorced his wretched wife.

There is no room for negotiation. For the sake of the children, this wife can also be abandoned.

Even when they were young, they were extremely affectionate.

God favored him, and he really got another son.

The woman outside needs to be straightened up, it's a trivial matter.

He never thought that his decision would separate him from his eldest son.

The son he loved so much before, the son he hated so much later.

Died one day, never to be seen again.

When he personally collected the corpse, he instantly aged ten years.

As a father, in the bottom of my heart, have you ever regretted it?

But who is to blame? Qin Yue's liking for a boy, which caused the separation of his wife and children, and the destruction of his family?

Qin Yue fell down, lying on his back on the cold concrete floor of the roof, with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.

"He's tired." Su Yan said.

The two sent Qin Yue to the hospital. Although Qin Yue was not injured, he was emotionally unstable, so it was right to send him to the hospital.

On the first day, Qin Yue didn't wake up.

The next day, Qin Yue didn't wake up.

On the third day, Qin Yue didn't wake up.

On the fourth day, Su Yan and Liang Kui were dumbfounded, and the doctor was also dumbfounded. Qin Yue was quickly transferred to the most authoritative hospital in C city.

The doctor said that Qin Yue couldn't find out anything abnormal. Qin Yue was healthy and just sleeping.

On the seventh day, Liang Kui couldn't stand it any longer, and soon, Qin Yue's parents rushed over.

On the tenth day, Qin Yue fell asleep like that and never woke up.

Su Yan was standing in the corridor of the hospital smoking. He hadn't smoked for a long time, and he was forced to come out these days.

"Don't worry about it, Qin Yue won't wake up, and he won't die either. As I said, your every move will change things. It's not uncommon for Qin Yue not to jump off a building, and to lie in bed forever as a living dead."

living dead...

lifetime……

Su Yan's stomach twitched, he actually thought it would be better for Qin Yue to die.

"Su Yan, is there something uncomfortable? It's been too hard these days. Go back and rest. I'll be here with Yueyue and my aunt." Liang Kui comforted Su Yan with a hoarse voice through his haggard eyes.

Su Yan shook his head and extinguished the cigarette.

Liang Kui sighed, actually they were all tired, but no one dared to leave.He was afraid, afraid that Qin Yue would sleep all the time...

"Qin Sihai! You bastard who kills thousands of knives! If you hadn't been so shameless and gave birth to a little bastard, how could we have become like this, how could my son have become like this! Qin Sihai, I hate you forever!"

Liang Kui and Su Yan paused, silently looking at the ward in a dilemma.

Finally, there was a quarrel. Before the divorced couple could sign their names, Qin Yue had already laid down.After enduring it for a day, two or three days, Qin Yue never woke up. They finally... couldn't bear it anymore.

The quarrel was expected by Liang Kui, and he couldn't think of a way to stop it, unless Qin Yue could wake up in time.

Liang Kui couldn't say how he felt about his aunt and uncle. Qin Yue's suicide had something to do with them.But undoubtedly, there are also Qin Yue's own reasons.

Qin Yue, who was raised by his parents since he was a child, can't be said to have been abandoned by his parents.Their words may be cold, but their blood nature can never be broken in their hearts. They are not other people's children, but the sons they have cared for since childhood.Even if you are disappointed and hated by him, your heart will still ache for him.

How much Liang Kui wanted to tell Qin Yue, wake up quickly, and live with a different mood after waking up, the world is still colorful.

If you really go to sleep, how many people will cry for you.

Facing his hysterical and grief-stricken wife, Qin Sihai didn't say a word, and let her beat and scold him.There was the cry of his wife beside his ears, but his eyes never left the hospital bed.

It seems that he hasn't looked at this son carefully for a long, long time. He doesn't want to look at it, doesn't want to look at it, and is too lazy to look at it. When he sees him, he feels irritable. Seeing him is like seeing the biggest stain in life.

He beat him and scolded him, but after beating and scolding, nothing but anger remained.

As long as he thinks that his hard-earned son has turned into a 'daughter', he can't bear it.

Dirty and dirty, these vicious words were actually covered on his son's head.

He, Qin Sihai, couldn't even straighten his back when he walked out.He had been glorious all his life, but was dragged down by his son.

The youngest son born to a woman outside almost made him radiant.He vowed in his heart that he would discipline his son strictly and train him to be an 'upright' man.

He was holding the little newborn, with a carefree and profound smile on his face that could no longer hide the traces of time.That mood is like having a new reliable sustenance, the old and dirty one, even if it is discarded, so what.

He even thought in disbelief, find a time to hold the younger son to meet the elder son, and witness the consequences of his disobedience with his own eyes.

But at this moment, Qin Sihai really felt that he was old, the years were changing quickly, and people's hearts were changing too fast.

He obviously looks like a son who just learned to speak not long ago, but now he has grown up.

Lying here with a face as white as paper, when can I wake up?

If someone hadn't stopped him, would he have jumped off the tall building and turned into a corpse?

Qin Sihai took out a cigarette with shaking hands, exhaled fiercely, and thought sarcastically, Qin Sihai, when you live to be 40 years old, have you ever thought about collecting your son's body one day?

How could he have thought about such a cruel direction.

Qin Yue lay in the hospital until May, but still didn't wake up.

Without hesitation, Qin Sihai and his wife took Qin Yue back to the big hospital in city A and continued to seek medical treatment.

Su Yan and Liang Kui returned to campus, facing the college entrance examination with only one month to go, the campus was full of gossip about Qinyue.

Many people saw that he wanted to jump off the building that day, but they couldn't hide it.

Most people speculate that Qin Yue is under a lot of pressure to study, while a small number of people think that Qin Yue is murdered by love.

But everyone talked behind their backs, and no one dared to say it out loud. If Liang Kui accidentally heard it, no matter what happened, he would definitely hit him hard.

The school's senior management was also frightened, and the holiday became one day a week, and the physical education class that the students were looking forward to was no longer forced.It is also necessary for the class teacher to take the lead and engage in more small entertainment activities to let the students relax.

Su Yan looked at Mr. Ma who encouraged everyone to play idiom solitaire on the podium. In the last life, Qin Yue's death had a great impact. Although Qin Yue's parents did not seek any responsibility from the school, they died after all. The Education Bureau reprimanded the principal, and the principal He reprimanded Mr. Ma for his incompetence in teaching. When the college entrance examination was approaching, Mr. Ma was almost dismissed. Later, he reluctantly stayed in school to teach, but he could only teach the first year of high school and never became a class teacher.

The last life and this life...

From the moment Qin Yue was saved, it began to fork.

Su Yan stared out the window in a daze, wondering what the road ahead would be like, whether he could still achieve his goal, the road was out of control.