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"Zhuang Qiyun! Zhuang Qiyun! Wake up."

When Zhuang Qiyun suddenly opened his eyes, he saw the person in front of him clearly.

It was Shang Zhiyu.

"You're having nightmares again." Shang Zhiyu left the tatami and went to the bathroom to fetch towels. Zhuang Qiyun was covered in sweat, and even the bedding was wet.

Shang Zhiyu knew how serious Zhuang Qiyun's nightmare was from the first day he came, and he could hardly wake him up at first, but after finally waking up, even though it was only midnight, he refused to fall asleep again.

"Get up, sleep with me tonight, and change the quilt tomorrow." Shang Zhiyu spread out his quilt a little, let Zhuang Xiyun sleep over, and put Zhuang Xiyun's quilt aside.

Zhuang Qiyun lay down silently, staring at Shang Zhiyu with his dark eyes.

"What's the matter?" Shang Zhiyu turned his head to meet his unblinking eyes and asked, seeing that he was holding the towel in a daze, so he took the towel out of his hand and wiped it for him. What, it's just a dream now, don't think about it anymore, you know?"

After a long while, Zhuang Qiyun said "hmm" and said, "Ayu, I don't want to sleep anymore, I'm afraid I'll have a dream again."

"If you don't want to sleep, don't sleep. What do you want to do?" Shang Zhiyu asked him.

It's the middle of the night now, Zhuang Qiyun saw the hands of the clock pointing to the position of "3", he couldn't help but said, "Sleep with you, don't worry about me."

"It's okay, if you sleep during the day, I can sleep with you for a while." Shang Zhiyu said, put down the towel, and asked him solemnly, "What do you want to do?"

Zhuang Qiyun thought for a while and said, "I remember when I was a child, I often had nightmares, and Xiaofeng would take me to explore. I used to think that this house is so big and has many rooms. There must be many interesting things hidden in it, but now I don’t feel that way anymore.”

"Then, are you going?" Shang Zhiyu asked him.

Zhuang Qiyun looked at Shang Zhiyu, seemed to think about it carefully, and then said, "Shall I take you to visit my secret base with Xiaofeng?"

Shang Zhiyu couldn't help feeling curious, nodded and said, "Okay."

Zhuang Qiyun couldn't wait to get up like offering a treasure. He lifted the quilt with a big hand and was about to set up crutches, but Shang Zhiyu pushed the wheelchair over and said, "Your rib injury can't heal well. Doctor Lin said to wait for you." Only when the leg is completely healed can the wheelchair be thrown away, otherwise it will affect the rib injury."

"I know, you can't use crutches for more than half an hour a day." Zhuang Qiyun had memorized it by heart, but he retorted, "But my chest pain is gone."

"That's not okay." Shang Zhiyu vetoed it, and then took a coat from the hanger and put it on him, saying, "I just sweated a lot when I put it on, and it's easy to catch cold."

As a patient, Zhuang Qiyun is obedient, just like what Lin You said was right to seek Shang Zhiyu, because since Shang Zhiyu took over to take care of Zhuang Qiyun, Zhuang Qiyun has hardly lost his temper and is very obedient. Shang Zhiyu, or because Shang Zhiyu himself is gentle and reliable, worthy of trust.

After Zhuang Qiyun got dressed, he pulled Shang Zhiyu's sleeve and said, "Let's go!"

Seeing that he was as happy as a child, Shang Zhiyu couldn't help but curl his lips, and pushed the wheelchair out of the bedroom.

Kyoto at the end of autumn is as cool as water, with a refreshing taste like thin wings, rippling on the tip of the nose and lingering in the heart.

Zhuang Qiyun pointed to the road. Even in the eyes of Shang Zhiyu now, this building is still huge, with maze-like corridors, and rooms that look very similar at first glance, let alone Zhuang Qiyun and Zhuang Xifeng when they were young. In their eyes, it would feel like they were on an adventure. Shang Zhiyu walked in the direction Zhuang Qiyun pointed, passed the courtyard, and came to the side courtyard, where a Buddhist shrine was enshrined. They walked around the stone path to the back, and they could see the building They used the lights on their mobile phones to illuminate the way ahead, and Zhuang Qiyun asked Shang Zhiyu to push him for a while, then pointed to a spot on the wall and said, "I remember, it should be behind here, look at that Is there a mark on it?"

Shang Zhiyu was taken aback for a moment, and took a photo with his mobile phone. Sure enough, he found a circle drawn on one of the bricks on the brick wall. Zhuang Qiyun said, "Try to see if it is loose?"

Hearing this, Shang Zhiyu stretched out his hand and found the crack in the brick, and after a little force with his fingers, he found that the brick was indeed loose.

Seeing this, Zhuang Qiyun asked Shang Zhiyu to go away, and then he kicked hard with his uninjured foot, and a pile of bricks fell down with a "crash", forming a small hole in the wall, which was just right. Shang Zhiyu used his mobile phone to take pictures of the hole in the wall that allowed seven or eight-year-old children to pass through, and found that behind the hole was a small room, but it was separated from the wall for some reason, and it must have been rebuilt later.

"We have hidden all the secrets here that we don't want adults to know, do you want to go in and take a look?" Zhuang Qiyun smiled and invited Shang Zhiyu to ask.

"Of course." Shang Zhiyu said as he was kind.

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Lin You didn't dial the number until four o'clock in the morning, because the other party was in another hemisphere, and it was inconvenient for him to fly there, so he had to make an appointment with him to make this call and ask.

"Doctor Chiba, hello, I'm Lin You who made an appointment with you earlier." Lin You said as soon as the call was connected.

"Ah, hello." The other party is Japanese, so he said to Lin You in Japanese, "You came to see me about Ms. Michiko, right?"

"Well, it's about her son's condition. I believe you have received the email I sent you before?"

"Received, I still remember Ms. Michiko's child. At that time, I persuaded Mr. Fujiwara to send that child away. Judging from his current condition, it should have a lot to do with his mother's behavior at that time. Therefore, if I would be happy to help you."

"Thank you very much, Doctor Chiba." Lin You quickly thanked her, and then said, "Just now you mentioned Ms. Michiko's behavior, did you mean...abuse?"

The other party was silent for a moment before saying, "She is severely depressed, has severe schizophrenia symptoms, and has a very serious suicidal tendency, so it is inevitable that she will treat her child like this, because she regards the child as her own thing. If she wants to If you die, you will definitely let your children die first."

This was almost the same as Lin You's guess, but he couldn't help asking, "The last time Ms. Michiko committed suicide, do you know the situation of her child? I heard that he just witnessed the death of his mother. I wonder if Dr. Chiba knows the detailed situation?"

"Did you witness it?" Dr. Chiba sighed a little more in his voice for some reason, "How could it be just that? Now, for the sake of that child, I don't need to hide it anymore. On that day, that child was The one who went into the water with his mother was in the bathtub of their house. When I arrived, Ms. Michiko pressed the child's head into the water frantically, and kept saying, "Go with mother to see brother", and that The child struggled desperately. I managed to save the child and asked the servant to bring Miss Michiko into the room. Unexpectedly, it was only three days after this incident that there was news that Ms. Michiko had drowned. At the scene, the child was still standing blankly in the corner. He was drenched all over. He must have been frightened by his mother's death. He couldn't speak for a whole month. Mr. Fujiwara worried that he would be like his mother, so he finally decided to Send him back to Mr. Zhuang."

Hearing this, Lin You always felt that even he could hardly breathe. At that time, Zhuang Qiyun should have been 11 years old. Fortunately, he was already 11 years old, so he could struggle to survive, but this still made him feel creepy. That's it, what about before the age of 11?Lin You no longer dared to imagine.

"Then, Doctor Chiba, do you think the cause of Zhuang Xifeng's disease is hereditary or acquired?" After a long while, Lin Youcai asked again, and he explained, "Actually, I only recently learned about Ms. Michiko's condition. So I have never considered genetic factors before, once genetic factors are added, the degree of complexity will deepen, and I feel quite troublesome for this.”

Dr. Chiba was silent for a moment because of his question, and then said, "He should not be the actual victim, but since the two are twins, the problem of telepathy between the twins has not been explained yet, but they do have strange telepathy. Therefore, in order to treat Zhuang Qifeng, it is indeed necessary to understand Zhuang Qiyun's past experience, but as I said just now, he is not the actual victim after all, on the one hand, he felt something when his younger brother suffered misfortune, on the other hand, he should listen to his younger brother and tell him After telling about these experiences, empathy, coupled with the severe blow of the final death of the younger brother, will lead to the current split personality. If you just look at the medical records, even if there are genetic factors, but only one of the parents is sick, it is considered the same. Egg twins do not necessarily have the disease, so the acquired influence is the most fundamental."

Dr. Chiba's words made Lin You think for a long time, and then he asked some questions. In the end, he thanked Dr. Chiba, "Thank you very much, Dr. Chiba. I will carefully consider the treatment plan later."

"By the way, I suddenly thought of another matter about the Fujiwara family." Dr. Chiba suddenly said again.

Lin You was startled, and then he heard the other party continue, "Miss Michiko likes small animals very much. Whenever she sees stray or injured kittens and puppies when she goes out, she will take them home, but I later found out that those kittens and puppies are always They will disappear, I have paid attention to the corners of that building, but I can’t find them.”

"You mean...Miss Michiko..." Lin You quickly thought of a certain possibility, and Dr. Chiba quickly said, "I also mentioned the issue of Miss Michiko's abuse before. After I observed the disappearance of animals, I started to pay attention to that child, and I tried my best to ask Mr. Fujiwara to separate Miss Michiko from that child, but as far as I saw, it could be regarded as a real act of killing, and you also know that this kind of behavior will escalate. Before killing one's own child, I'm afraid there are countless times before."

Lin You didn't know when he hung up the phone. He was in a daze. As a doctor, he was used to seeing life and death, so he should be calm, but as a friend, he couldn't calmly face what happened to Zhuang Xifeng's younger brother. Because of this, as the older brother, Zhuang Xifeng knew his younger brother's experience, so he couldn't stand his younger brother's death even more. He should have protected him better, instead of...

But if he didn't break through that knot, Zhuang Xifeng might never be able to truly recover, but if he wanted to break through, the pain would be unimaginable, and where should he start his treatment?

What a headache...

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Because it was inconvenient to move, Zhuang Qiyun didn't go into the hut, but he sat by the wall hole, Shang Zhiyu was separated from him by the wall hole, he found the things Zhuang Qiyun remembered, and handed them to him.

It really was their secret base. Shang Zhiyu saw that there were even robots made of wire, and the warship was made of cardboard and iron sheets. In addition, there were a lot of cardboard piled up in the corner, which seemed to be an unfinished project. The tank is really well-made. In addition, there are a bunch of models. At first glance, it is something that boys like. A box was filled with presents, both unopened and unopened. Shang Zhiyu asked Zhuang Qiyun as if handing them out, and Zhuang Qiyun sighed outside, "Ah, this is my birthday present, but , it was given by a female classmate at school. She often confuses me with Xiaofeng, so we all like to tease her. When she gave a gift, it was actually for Xiaofeng, but I pretended it... ...However, until the end, we didn't talk about it, for fear that she would feel sad..."

Zhuang Qiyun's voice was full of memories, and Shang Zhiyu was also very interested in listening to him talking about the past, but no matter how he listened, he could already confirm that these were the memories they had together when Zhuang Qiyun was still alive before the age of 15, and that at the age of seven Most of them were before, because after the age of seven, Zhuang Xifeng left the house and went to another place with his father, leaving Zhuang Xiyun here alone.

As he spoke, Zhuang Qiyun's low tone unconsciously revealed a sense of sadness, "Xiaofeng... is always by my side, even though he separated from me at that time... But now, I don't feel it. The existence of Xiaofeng... Ayu, is there something that I should have remembered but forgot?"

Shang Zhiyu was taken aback by his sudden question, how could he tell the truth in front of him?Involuntarily, he comforted him softly and said, "Because you haven't seen him for a long time, right? You miss him so much that you can think wildly." He changed his tone as relaxed as possible and said, "Here There are really a lot of things, which also means that you have a lot of memories worth collecting, when you recover from your injuries in the future, when we come here again, you can tell me bit by bit, these memories must be very..." He originally While talking, he turned over a box again. The box was not very eye-catching, it was pressed under several boxes of gifts, it was one of the bottom ones, but after opening it, Shang Zhiyu couldn't help being stunned, because What he wanted to say was also paused, because there were several glass bottles inside, and the bottles were filled with soil, but a long and thin wooden sign was stuck in the soil. Shang Zhiyu moved the phone closer and saw several In small crooked characters, it read: Tomb of Little Fish.

The same is true for the slightly larger glass bottle, but there is also a small wooden board inserted in it, which reads: Tomb of Junjun.

"... Junjun... who is it?" Although Shang Zhiyu spoke unconsciously, in such a quiet night, Zhuang Qiyun outside had already heard Shang Zhiyu's voice clearly.

There was a sudden "boom" in his head, and those pictures from Jiu Yuan appeared.

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"Xiaofeng... Another goldfish we raised died..." Zhuang Qiyun held the already cold body, weeping and ran to find Zhuang Xifeng.

Although Zhuang Xifeng and Zhuang Xiyun were born exactly the same, they were stronger because they were born with the consciousness of being an older brother. Although he also felt very sad because of the death of the gold fish, he still comforted Zhuang Xiyun and said, "Let's bury it."

"Well, good." Zhuang Xiyun nodded, Zhuang Xifeng handed him a handkerchief and said, "Come on, wipe away your tears."

When the picture changed, it was Zhuang Xifeng leading him to run desperately to the backyard. They ran into the hole in the wall. Zhuang Xifeng hurriedly stacked the bricks. When he turned around, he saw Zhuang Xiyun hugging his knees and huddling in the corner. My mother's erratic voice came, "Xiaofeng, Xiaoyun, mom won't hurt you, mom won't lie to you..."

"Xiaofeng, it hurts, it hurts..."

Zhuang Xifeng hugged Zhuang Xiyun tightly, and kept comforting him, "No pain, no pain, we are not afraid of pain..."

"Why...why did mother treat us like this..." Zhuang Xiyun asked Zhuang Xifeng.

Zhuang Xifeng's eyes were also full of doubts and deep fear, and he showed strength even more. He firmly protected Zhuang Qiyun, and murmured, "...I...don't know...why... "

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"It hurts...my head hurts..." Zhuang Qiyun pressed his head tightly, moaning in pain escaped his lips, "Xiaofeng...my head...it hurts..."

Shang Zhiyu was taken aback inside, and hurriedly came out from the other side of the wall hole, only to see the man with his head down and his fists clenched in extreme pain.

"Mom...why...did you do this...we...were not born...just fine..."

"Zhuang Qiyun?" Seeing his painful appearance, Shang Zhiyu couldn't help but raise his eyebrows. He seemed to be in a nightmare again, and unconsciously called Zhuang Xifeng's name.

Shang Zhiyu squatted in front of the wheelchair, not knowing what to do, he stretched out his hand to cover Zhuang Qiyun's hand that was pressing on his head, then clenched it tightly, and said in a low voice, "Zhuang Qiyun, I'm Shang Zhiyu, look at me, those things It's all over, don't think about it anymore."

Obviously, the name "Junjun" touched Zhuang Qiyun's taboo memories, causing him to suddenly become so painful. Looking at him, Shang Zhiyu felt that even his own heart ached, but he did not He had no choice but to keep comforting him from the sidelines. In the end, he simply leaned forward and hugged Zhuang Qiyun in his arms in a kneeling position. After much difficulty, the sudden pain seemed to be slowly relieved. Zhuang Qiyun But he was already dripping with cold sweat, and his face was frighteningly pale.

"Ayu?"

Finally, he recognized Shang Zhiyu and called out softly.

Shang Zhiyu finally breathed a sigh of relief, his palms were covered with cold sweat, at this moment he looked at Zhuang Qiyun and said, "Let's go back, don't come here again."

"But... the doctor said, I have forgotten many things, if I can remember them all, Xiaofeng will come back."

Shang Zhiyu was speechless for a while, seeing Zhuang Qiyun's stubborn expression, he suddenly realized, and asked, "That's why you want to come here?"

He seemed a little angry, which made Zhuang Qiyun shrink his head and stopped talking.

Shang Zhiyu stared at him for a long while, and finally could only compromise, but said, "Although what the doctor said is right, I know how much you want to see Xiaofeng, but if you are so reluctant, Xiaofeng will worry, and I will worry too. Isn't your injury just right? Or, you don't care if Xiaofeng is worried? Am I worried? "

"I care! Of course I care!" Zhuang Qiyun quickly replied, "But... I'm also worried that you will find it annoying to take care of a patient all day—"

"So you want to get better as soon as possible?" Shang Zhiyu interrupted him and continued for him.

Zhuang Qiyun nodded honestly and said, "Yes."

"Well, you're tall!" Shang Zhi was so depressed that he blurted out, but how could he be really angry with him? After a long while, he stared at Zhuang Qiyun and said to him word by word, "You just need to focus on healing your injury, The past has passed, Xiaofeng definitely does not want to see you pushing yourself like this now, and I will always be by your side, if you are really sad or feel pain, I hope you can tell me, we will face it together, Solve it together, maybe you will think that it is too easy for me to say that I have not experienced the same thing as you, but since it is impossible to change what has happened, we can only look forward, but all this has to wait for you After recovering from the injury, we will come one by one, you know?" He said, and added specifically, "Besides, as long as it is your business, I will never be bothered. So, I'm used to it."

There was a smile in the last sentence for some reason, Zhuang Qiyun could only stare at him blankly, unable to utter a word.

"Okay, after all your troubles, I decided to take you back to the room to rest, don't be disobedient." Shang Zhi Yu Rong Zhuang Qiyun retorted authentically.

"Oh." Zhuang Qiyun replied honestly, Ren Shangzhiyu stood up and pushed the wheelchair back, but he still couldn't help turning his head back, staring at the hole in the wall, with pain faintly appearing on his face, but And the expression of reluctance came.