Chang'an ancient meaning

That day was originally Wu Linglan's mother's birthday, when they got up early in the morning, both Xue Chongjian and Wu Linglan changed into plain clothes, they didn't want to show off, and they didn't bring their family with them, one by one, they rode up to Pujiu Temple to do meritorious deeds for Princess Liang.After coming out of Pujiu Temple, it was already a few miles southward in the afternoon, and it was near the ferry of the Yellow River. Xue Chongjian looked up and saw a tall pavilion floating in the wind and waves of the sky and sea. , go up to the sky; fly to the pavilion to flow pills, and go down to nowhere.He has lived in seclusion for a year, and his activities are only in the small courtyard. Suddenly seeing such a magnificent building with vast clouds and water, he was a little lost.He suddenly remembered that when Li Chengqi came out of the deep palace that day, he took him to visit Luoyang Shifang. His wish was to find a high place to look at—now he finally understood that wish.

Seeing him looking at the high pavilion, Wu Linglan felt a little joy in her heart. She only hoped that she could ride horses side by side and walk with him forever, out of Puzhou, which was a prison, and out of the Tang Dynasty, which made them so sad.She said softly: "This is the famous Guanque Tower in Puzhou, let's go and see it?"

Xue Chongjian heard her tone slightly disturbed, felt a little sore, and nodded.When the two of them walked to the river, they realized that the Guanque Tower was built on the Fenhe River. Looking at it in the misty water of Qingqiu, it is no wonder that it is as ethereal as a fairy mountain on the sea.They tied their horses to a tree, walked across an arch bridge to Hezhou, and climbed up the stairs.Wu Linglan only went up two floors, and felt flustered and out of breath, Xue Chongjian took her hand to lead the way, heard her breathing was different, turned around and saw her flushed like Shi Zhu, said: "Shall I carry you up? "Wu Linglan suppressed her shortness of breath, smiled and shook her head, said: "This building is so high, you can't lift it, I can rest for a while."

Xue Chongjian was about to speak, but in the dark, he heard his own laughter, pouring into his mind like the wind: "No matter how high or far, I am carrying you on my back."

He closed his eyes hard, Wu Linglan was right, he couldn't think about it anymore, even for this woman who had suffered so much, he should support his broken body and give her some hope.But the past, like the butterflies in the spring and the swan geese in the autumn sky, are everywhere, which makes him feel heartbroken and yearn for love when he climbs the tree.He knew that his lovesickness was not found, just like a person who crosses the Naihe bridge but refuses to drink Mengpo soup, who will come back after three lives and can no longer find what he misses.

Xue Chongjian strode forward, hugged Wu Linglan horizontally, and walked up.Wu Linglan exclaimed in a low voice, and sighed softly: "There is someone upstairs..." But her body lay softly on Xue Chongjian's chest, listening to his heartbeat that accelerated due to exertion, she actually fell from his body for the first time in a year. Feeling business, she slowly leaned her face up, feeling the tears overflowing from the corners of her eyes, moistening his chest, and then moistening her own cheeks.She loves his unruly and domineering.

They finally climbed up to the high pavilion, Wu Linglan raised her hand to wipe the sweat off Xue Chongjian's face, Xue Chongjian then slowly put her down.Upstairs there were already many tourists, and they were surprised to see a pair of handsome young men and women, both dressed in plain clothes, their sleeves standing side by side on the hundred-foot high pavilion, with mist floating outside the window. , I just feel that they are not people in the world.

Suddenly someone called out: "Xue Langjun!"

Xue Chongjian was also surprised, unexpectedly there was someone who recognized him here, he followed the reputation, but saw an old man with a stooped figure standing by the window, he was a little puzzled, he gasped when he got closer, the man was actually from the past The Zhongshu Ling Li Qiao.At that time, Li Qiao, Du Shenyan, Cui Rong, and Su Weiwei were called the "Four Friends of the Article", and together with Su Weiwei, they were the leaders of the show. Su and Li's poems were always indispensable at the court banquet, but Xue Chongjian often saw him.Li Qiao was driven by fame and fame. Zhongzong flattered Webster in Japan. After Zhongzong died, he and Song Zhiwen joined his mother's sect to survive. However, this person was exquisite and friendly with his mother, the emperor. Xue Chongjian despised him as a person. No friendship.When he met Li Qiao here, he was surprised after all, and said, "Mr. Li, why are you here?" A wry smile flashed across Li Qiao's haggard face, and he said, "I was demoted to Chuzhou, passing by here, listen It is said that this building was repaired by the princess that day, and I want to come and see..." Seeing Xue Chongjian's indifferent expression, he explained ashamedly: "The princess has a great favor for me..." He used to talk like a pearl in the court hall, but now every day Saying a word seems to be very disturbing and difficult, and after saying a word, he swallows it again.

It was only then that Xue Chongjian realized that the Guanque Tower had such a connection with his mother. His eyes slowly scanned the people passing by upstairs. Most of them were dressed in robes and waved folding fans, shaking their heads and searching their stomachs, looking for some poems about the ups and downs to inscribe on the wall.It turns out that the rise and fall of their emotions is the story of his own experience.Emperor Wu of the Han Dynasty once worshiped Fenyin Houtu here, and Yuwen Hu of the Northern Zhou Dynasty commanded thousands of troops here, and his mother probably did not lose to them when he was famous. Their business is just for poets and scholars to sigh twice. Pavilion empty.So many bloody farewells to life and death, in the eyes of others, are just a few words of talk.

He overlooked the downstairs. It was the mid-autumn flood season at this time, the river was rising, and the waves kept rushing to Shangzhou Zhu, as if it was going to knock down the attic at any time.Thousands of years later, all the happiness and loneliness he experienced will be blown away by the rolling waves of the Fen River, and his longing for seeing the sun and not seeing Chang'an at this moment will eventually turn into a handful of loess.What manpower can't do is rise and fall, what governs rise and fall is time, time has watched how many rises and falls with a cold eye, but still doesn't show any mercy, just like the water flowing downstairs, no matter how much he misses looking west to Chang'an, it still flows eastward endlessly .

He felt puzzled, he clearly saw the result clearly, why he still couldn't get rid of this obsession; he felt funny again, he stood aside, listening to others talk about his own rise and fall, even he wondered whether he was alive or not, Or has long been a wandering soul floating in the world because of obsession.

Li Qiao looked at the side of Xue Chongjian's face. After a year, Xue Chongjian's appearance was much thinner, but he did not lose the handsomeness of Guibi in the past.It's just that he was used to seeing this young man laughing at Yan Yan, and the unfamiliar Xiao Se at this moment made him feel at a loss.He was a Jinshi at the age of 20, with outstanding diction, and entered the court early. He almost used flattery to accompany Xue Chongjian when he grew up.He looked at this former charming son of heaven, who was good at the prosperity of the four dynasties, until today he became a solitary person, and met him on this misty cloud and water.Li Qiao shivered lightly. This reincarnation from consummation to abnormality seemed like a prophecy to him, pushing some truths that he already understood but deliberately avoided to him—it was as if there were countless emptiness, like Heaven and earth travel against each other, and time passes by.

They were all moved away, and when they were reduced to the end of the world, they couldn't find words to comfort them, they just smiled awkwardly and said: "I thought I'd go to visit my husband as soon as I went downstairs, but I didn't want to meet you by chance here." Xue Chongjian smiled lightly. Said: "Meeting by chance, we are all guests from other lands." Li Qiao was stunned for a moment, knowing that he had a hint of irony, Li Qiao held the window lattice in silence for a long time, sighed and said: "I have lost my reputation and education in my life, and I have never been able to come here. My benefactor, I deserve this kind of retribution." Xue Chongjian finally turned his eyes slowly to Li Qiao, and he whispered with a smile: "Sir, this pavilion may turn into Qiu Xu after a storm, but your article It can be passed down through the ages. Your talents can only be admired by people a hundred years later, and your merits and crimes can only be judged by people a hundred years later. The merits of your articles have nothing to do with the wealth and fame in front of you."

Li Qiao met Xue Chongjian with cloudy eyes, and suddenly said in a trembling voice: "Pen, bring the pen!" The accompanying servant boy hurriedly took out the pen, ink, paper and inkstone from the bag, Li Qiao licked the pen, and wrote: "Don't you see the old days?" When Xijing was in its heyday, the queens of Fenyin offered sacrifices to relatives.

There are storage offerings for the sleeping quarters in the fasting palace, the bells are ringing, the drums are ringing, the drums are ringing, and the feather flags are treed..."

His figure like a candle in the wind, at the moment when he was writing, he suddenly stood tall and straight, and his wrinkled face also glowed with brilliance. When he swiped the pen and ink, he opened and closed, like drawing a sword The general weather huffing and puffing.The tourists around saw the old man writing vigorously, and all the good people gathered to watch the fun. The expressions on everyone's faces gradually changed from surprise to admiration, from admiration to horror, and almost every sentence burst into exclamation: "Five of the Han family!" Ye Cai and Xiong, Binyan Wanling Chao Jiurong.

After Bai Liang wrote poems and had a high banquet, the imperial edict was fortunate enough to drive east of the river.

The governor of Hedong personally cleaned up and welcomed the supreme guide Luanyu.

The five battalions are flanked by roads and guards, and the three rivers look at the empty Lilu.

Hui Jing stayed at the Spiritual Ancestry Field, burning incense and laying down wine to invite Baixiang.

Jinding's hair color is bright and bright, and his spirit is Weiye's scenery.

After burying the jade and offering sacrifices to the gods, he raised his horse and rode out.

The song and Jia of Bifen can be traveled, and Mulan is the boat with osmanthus.

The song of the oars is slightly chanted, the color is floating, and the flute and the drum are mourning for Bai Yunqiu.

After the entertainment feast is given to the group, every family will get rid of the household cattle wine.

Declare that there is no joy in the sky, long live Nanshan Shou.

Since the Son of Heaven went to Qinguan, the jade chariot and the golden chariot have never been returned.

The feather fan of the bead curtain is long and lonely, and the dragon's beard in Dinghu is safe to climb.

Once Qianling's personnel affairs are empty, the world is home and the road is poor..."

When he wrote here, he seemed to have exhausted his strength, and he was only trembling when he bent over his desk.Xue Chongjian stepped forward to take the pen in his hand, and continued to write: "Where is the heroic spirit now, the mandala and palace are full of canopy.

Lu Fengguo, the old man, sighed, the world is unpredictable.

In the old days, brothels sang and danced, but today Huangai gathers thorns.

The mountains and rivers are full of tears and clothes, how long will the wealth and glory last?

I can't see it only on the Fen River today, but only the geese fly every autumn. "[1]

A long song ended, but the onlookers were silent. In this eerie silence, Li Qiao raised his head slowly, tears streaming down his face.Xue Chongjian looked calm, but there were two drops of water hanging on Ruyu's cheek, and he didn't wipe it off, instead he turned his head and gently took Wu Linglan's hand.Wu Linglan's white dress was blown by the strong wind from the high platform, but she showed her slender figure, her face was the same as her clothes, and her whole body was like a piece of pure white crane feathers, which would be blown away by the wind at any time.Xue Chongjian's subconscious tightened, and he said in a low voice: "Let's go." They went downstairs together under the surprised eyes of tourists, and heard Li Qiao's old and weak sobs behind him.

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After all, the Supreme Emperor was worried that Li Chengqi went to Puzhou alone, and sent a servant to follow him. They took the purchase documents from the Ministry of Internal Affairs to Dongdu, and did not stop them all the way.The two of them worked hard, and finally found Puzhou Biejia Mansion at noon on the second day.

Shi Chun was sweeping fallen leaves in the yard with a broom when he heard someone banging on the door, he was also surprised, hurriedly went to open the gate, surprised, and said, "Your Highness!" Li Chengqi had been riding a horse for nearly two days and could barely walk. Staggered and fell two steps inward, Shi Chun supported him and said, "Why did Your Highness come to Puzhou?" Li Chengqi asked anxiously, "Huanu, where is Hua Nu?"

He was so anxious, but Shi Chun calmed down a little. He took a look at Li Chengqi and saw that his shirt was full of mud and dust, his face was very haggard and tired, and he was accompanied by only one servant, which did not match the Prince's style of travel. After guessing his actions slightly, he couldn't help but sink slightly in his heart and said: "The lord and the lady have gone out in the morning, you come in first to rest, and let the old slave pour you a cup of water." Li Chengqi was splashed with a basin of cold water, stunned He asked: "Is he not there?" Shi Chun calmly supported him and said, "Your Highness, please move into the room." Li Chengqi had no choice but to follow him in, and told the servant: "You stay here and watch."

Shi Chun brought him to the hall, first locked the lock on the door, then turned around to make a big salute, knelt down to Li Chengqi with his hand on the forehead, and said, "Your Highness is a thousand years old! Don't be too old, I don't know if your highness is in good health?" Li Chengqi He said anxiously: "Where did Hua Nu go? You should have someone find him back." Shi Chun looked up at Li Chengqi and said, "Please excuse my talk, Your Highness. Is your Highness here to serve as the Governor of Puzhou?" Li Chengqi Dazed: "No." Shi Chundao: "Is that according to the imperial decree to take my husband back to Chang'an?" Li Chengqi said: "No, I want to see Hua Nu, please tell me, where is Hua Nu, I only have half a day Time can't be delayed!" Shi Chun asked: "So, His Highness left Beijing in a low-clothes?"

Li Chengqi didn't understand why this old servant who was usually quiet and seldom talkative was only noisy today, and said anxiously: "Don't worry about it, I want to see Hua Nu!" Shi Chun asked: "After meeting? How should Your Highness arrange my family?" Jun? But when His Highness returns to Chang'an, you still want to leave my husband here?"

Li Chengqi was silenced by Shi Chun's words, he actually didn't think about any future matters, he also knew in his heart that going out of Beijing without permission was a big crime, and he didn't know what kind of punishment was waiting for him after returning.He can't control those, all he knows is that there is no punishment that torments him more than the longing for each other.When Hua Nu left Beijing, he was put under house arrest in the palace. Hua Nu used to protect him with his life. When Hua Nu was in the most painful time, he was not by his side. He owed him too much.Although he was powerless to save Hua Nu from suffering, at least he could listen to his cry, pat him gently, and make him believe that he has been thinking of him all year long.Li Chengqi said sadly: "I can't take him back now, but I have to let him have a glimmer of hope. The Supreme Emperor and I will try our best to ask for a pardon for him."

Shi Chun looked up at the exhaustion and pain on the young prince's face. He was too familiar with this expression. This was the expression that Xue Chongjian deliberately suppressed for a year, but he couldn't suppress it no matter what.He watched Xue Chongjian grow up, and he knew that Li Chengqi had a relationship with Xue Chongjian.He is a servant, unlike those scholars who can carefully chew the pain into poems that can be passed down by future generations, but his love for the child does not need to be expressed in words, he knows clearly that it is giving up. His own life, but also to protect his comprehensive determination.

Shi Chun kowtowed and said: "Your Highness, I beg you, if you can't save my husband, then let him go!"

Li Chengqi shook his body violently, and said in a trembling voice, "What did you say? What happened to Hua Nu?"

Shi Chundao: "Your Highness grew up with my lord. I know that he lives happily in life and death, and the most unbearable thing is humiliation. The princess died, and a family of old and young, only the lord survived. There are rumors outside that the lord is greedy for life and afraid of death. , I beg the Supreme Lord to grant my mother a death... For the past year, in this place where there is no way to go to heaven or to go to earth, Mr. Lang is locked in his room every day, but he actually dare not go out..."

Li Chengqi closed his eyes, a line of tears slowly slid down, and said: "I know the suffering of Hua Nu."

Shi Chun resolutely said: "If your Highness knows, you shouldn't come!" He looked at Li Chengqi's blank eyes, his heart softened again, and he said in a low voice: "The easiest thing in this world is death, and the hardest is death. I came down because the princess wanted him to survive, because he was the only one the lady could rely on, and because he still thought of His Highness in her heart. Over the past year, the lady has worked hard to support a family of young and old. I got a little angry. Seeing this, His Majesty will let Langjun go through life and death again in vain. He really can't bear it now! If His Majesty is really good for him, let him forget the past and live with his wife's support Bar!"

Li Chengqi took a step back and sat on the couch in a daze. Shi Chun hurriedly got up and said, "Your Highness, how are you?" , reminding him that this is Puzhou, which is smoky and cold, not Luoyang and Chang'an, where musk is lingering.The farewell a year ago, they had a close relationship, Hua Nu didn't give him a word in the past year, he was worried, and he was not reconciled, he held his breath and rushed four hundred miles desperately, it turned out that it was also for his selfishness That's all.

After a long time, Li Chengqi was finally awakened by the fishy and salty taste in his mouth, he slowly let go of his lower lip which had been bitten unconscious, nodded and said: "Ah Weng taught me the lesson, I was wrong, I, I just... ..." After all, he couldn't bear to utter that word, and begged: "Let me take a look at his residence, okay?" Shi Chun looked helplessly at Li Chengqi, nodded while sighing, and led the way with a stooped figure.

Shi Chun pushed open the door of Xue Chongjian's bedroom, the wooden door creaked softly, and Li Chengqi shuddered. He hoped that when the door opened, he could see Hua Nu raising his head with a smile and calling him cousin, but at last Afraid to meet him at this moment.It's just that he knows in his heart that his fear and expectation are all mirages, just like the empty river and mountains seen on Lishan Mountain, they don't belong to him and cannot be touched.

He walked slowly into the room with sleepwalking steps. Although the room was far less colorful than Chang'an's mansion, full of beautiful jewels and jade, it was very neat and elegant, and the sadness of Li Ren could not be read for a while.At one time he was very disappointed, he couldn't see the literary mandarin ducks on the quilt, the Wushan clouds and water on the mica screen, and the carved fragrant balls falling under the bed curtain, he was eager to grab a wisp of flowers from the void The breath, for your own collection, to resist the long lonely years.His room is far away, and his people are far away. Since then, his relationship with him is that every day when the wind and rain are like darkness, they listen to the sound of the pattering rain together, thinking about that Man, what is he doing right now.

He walked to the dressing table, reached out and slowly took a wooden hairpin, which should be used for funerals of flower slaves, without any decoration.He remembered that after he beat Hua Nu that day, he also wore such a hairpin to be angry with himself. He had failed Hua Nu too many times. After draining their hopes, they are not qualified to say anything that does not turn around.He picked up the hairpin and said softly, "Can you give this to me?"

Shi Chun sighed and nodded. Li Chengqi took off the hairpin and replaced his own jade hairpin. That's the only way to go. Who will take care of the mess?

Yingluo ran in in a panic and said, "Aunt, some weird people have broken into our house, looking for the King of Song..." Li Chengqi's face changed slightly, he expected that he would not be able to hide this from the emperor after all, but He didn't expect the pursuers to come so fast, he didn't want Shi Chun to worry, so he smiled shyly and said, "It's okay, they took me back." He took a deep breath, stared into the room, put on the big hat step out.

When he came to the front hall, he saw that the leader was actually Gao Lishi, with eight or nine servants, waiting impatiently.When Gao Lishi saw him, he finally put on a smiling face, bowed and said, "All blessings, Your Highness. It is good that Your Highness is safe, but the house is in a hurry..." Li Chengqi was still slightly surprised when he saw Gao Lishi, he knew the emperor One can imagine the emperor's fury, he was afraid that Xue Chongjian would come back suddenly and see himself in such a state of distress, so he raised his hand to stop Gao Lishi and said: " If you have anything to say on the road, I'll go back with you." He finally said these words, a pain in his heart like a knife gouging and sawing, but he was relieved, his attachment, his reluctance, his own Someone else came to help him cut it off.

Shi Chun sent them to the door, and Gao Lishi smiled and pointed to a driveway: "The servants are afraid that His Highness will have to ride a horse, so they specially go to Puzhou Governor's Mansion to transfer a car." Li Chengqi knew that they were afraid that they would escape again on the way, or be killed. When people see the unexpected, they think so thoughtfully, he just smiled wryly, and said to Shi Chun, "Don't tell him that I have been here." Shi Chun bowed and said, "I understand." He glanced at the little dirt on Li Chengqi's body suddenly remembered that the first time I saw him was when he was just released from the deep palace by Emperor Zetian, a jade-like youth wrapped in a brocade robe, sitting on the horse and looking around, his expression was full of surprise.Thinking back to that time, he must have held a lot of expectations for this world, but he was finally completely let down by this world.With tears in his eyes, Shi Chun said in a low voice: "Your Highness, take care." Li Chengqi smiled lightly, and was helped by two servants to board the carriage.

The carriage traveled westward for only ten steps, when Li Chengqi suddenly heard the sound of horseshoes in the distance, he opened the curtain, only to feel that the beautiful autumn wind was as fierce as a fist, hitting him head-on so that he almost fainted, Xue Chongjian and Wu Linglan rode together , walked slowly to the door of the house.

Li Chengqi was clinging to the car window. He saw Xue Chongjian get off the horse, and then hugged Wu Linglan off the horse. Wu Linglan's body was like an orchid, nestling on Xue Chongjian's bosom infinitely tenderly.

They were separated by a distance of more than ten feet, whether it was an illusion or not, he could still see the familiar smile that lingered in his dreams for more than 300 days and nights.But his carriage was moving, and he couldn't help but get farther and farther away from Hua Nu, his smile seemed to sink into the water, crushed by mischievous ripples into an elusive fleeting image.He was so anxious that he just wanted to shout, to stop the car, and let him see more clearly the nostalgia of this life.His heartbeat was so loud that it covered the rustling of the wind and the rattling of horseshoes, and that heartbeat pierced his heart with a sound that blocked his throat with blood: Hua Nu, Hua Nu.Such incantations kept echoing in his mind, calling it now, it was still too late, and it could still make Hua Nu look back.

Gao Lishi saw that Li Chengqi's fingers clinging to the window lattice were snow-white, and his complexion was almost transparent. He was afraid that the prince would spurt out a mouthful of blood like last year, so he whispered with a smile: "I'm back, Your Highness." Do you want to meet?"

Li Chengqi was shocked, and finally understood his situation, and slowly returned to the car. He came to see Hua Nu, and now that he saw him, he told himself that the harmony between Hua Nu and his wife was what he was most looking forward to seeing, but why? The pain in his heart was still so severe that he wished he could reach into his chest and crush the beating heart.With trembling hands, he groped for the hairpin from the bun, and stabbed fiercely at his arm. Although the wooden hairpin was not as sharp as gold and silver, it couldn't withstand his force, and it still penetrated into the flesh.The piercing pain in his arm finally vented the pain in another place, and he also gathered up a little strength, whispered: "Go on, don't stop." He looked at the darkness in the car, this is his In this world, he was absent from Hua Nu's farewell a year ago, and Hua Nu is absent from his reunion today, or this is the cause he planted, and the bitter fruit should naturally be swallowed by him alone.

Xue Chongjian held Wu Linglan in his arms and told Shi Chun: "The lady is not feeling well, please call the doctor." He suddenly felt that there seemed to be a persistent gaze following him behind him, and when he turned around, he saw the carriages and horses at the entrance of the alley, and asked, "What is that?" People." Shi Chun said in a muffled voice, "I don't know, it seems to be from the governor's mansion." This place is not far from the governor's office, Xue Chongjian was worried about Wu Linglan, said "Oh", and quickly walked into the gate of the mansion.

The author has something to say: Li Qiao’s only seven-character long poem in his life. When Li Sanlang left Chang’an to flee to the west, the Jiaofang still played a farewell song. Li Sanlang was finally abused and cried.