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Cang Erdong walked around on the blanket with his bare feet, walking like a duckling because of his stomach, Fang Qiusheng made up his mind not to keep his attention on him all the time, this is It's the last homework, and after handing it in, he can take him out for a walk before the other party is out of the hospital.

"Sheng Sheng—"

Apparently Cang Erdong failed to fulfill his wish, dragged his long voice and whispered his name, like a dog's tail grass scratching the palm of his hand, the itchy feeling was about to penetrate into the bone marrow.

He patted his thigh with one hand, and Cang Erdong walked into his arms with small steps, thinking that his stomach was in the way, so he wrapped his hands around his waist in some annoyance and refused to let go.

"what happened?"

Probably because he didn't sleep well last night, the two hairs on the top of the man in his arms were raised, and when he was talking, he shook his head as if drunk, as if dancing on the tip of his nose.

"Why didn't Huanhuan answer my phone? Did I do something bad?" Cang Erdong's voice came up muffled, successfully crushing his good mood, "Should I not talk to him? What about Alan?"

"You care so much about them."

"Oh," Cang Erdong didn't mind Fang Qiusheng's unfriendly tone, and continued without raising his head, "Huanhuan said, you are jealous and sour."

Alpha picked him up and put him on the table, and Omega flapped his feet submissively to keep him from approaching. Fang Qiusheng also took into account his inconvenience, and just grabbed his legs and put them on her hips.

"You care so much?"

"I'm going to go for an inspection later, I haven't been there for a long time."

"Why are you friends with him?"

"Because Huanhuan is very kind to me and will tell me many things."

"Just because of this?"

Cang Erdong's breathing slowed down, his eyes flickered: "When you were not around, he looked a little like you."

"That's not an answer I like."

Fang Qiusheng's face was very close, he just caught a cold, and his nose was still a little red, so Cang Erdong touched the tip of his nose there: "I don't know."

He lowered his head to avoid it, but Fang Qiusheng held him in his arms and couldn't move. The other party followed the arc of his collarbone and made a hickey all the way, and his lips made a soft sound as he rose and fell.

"Hmm... Shengsheng..."

"I came too late to give people a chance."

"Ah! It hurts, it hurts, Shengsheng..."

Cang Erdong patted Fang Qiusheng's back weakly, but the glands at the back of the neck had already been bitten, bursting out a strong coffee aroma, it felt strange to be temporarily marked, a small wound hurt so much Numb, but felt that an invisible thread was pulled out there, connecting the emotional states together.

Fang Qiusheng bit his chin, catching the tears that flowed down his cheeks, swallowing eagerly, as if tasting some fine nectar.

"Don't call him anymore, I'll take you to check later."

Cang Erdong finally lied in his arms obediently, biting the shirt on his chest in retaliation, smearing cold saliva marks on it.

The wind blows the curtains open, bringing in a sense of dryness and heat, the blue sky is as transparent as glass, and summer is really here.

Fang Qiusheng's efficiency only increased after the interruptions were gone. After finishing the homework, he found that the person in his arms was taking a nap, his mouth was pouted, and there were still drops of water on his eyelashes.He hesitated for a while, but decided to keep his promise, carried him into the car, and when Cang Erdong woke up, he leaned over to kiss his face again.

——Now he has been able to skillfully see the tendency of the other party to do this, and turn his face away in time to turn this close kiss into a deep kiss.

When we arrived at the clinic, we found that Yan Huan was really not there. Fang Qiusheng asked Cang Erdong to wait on the chair beside him with a smirk. He went downstairs to ask the front desk what was going on.

Alpha's footsteps were very fast, and he disappeared in a swish. Omega looked at the direction he was leaving, and couldn't help shivering. The corridors of the clinic were always gloomy and cold. He hadn't noticed it much before. I feel that Yan Huan has an aura that can warm the surrounding air.

Cang Erdong glanced at the closed door, with his right hand picking at the barb on the finger of his left hand, feeling a little pain.

"Are you here to see Doctor Yan?"

The female doctor who spoke a foreign language poked her head out from the opposite consulting room, her voice was a little loud, which startled him, and he didn't answer in a daze.

Seeing that he didn't respond, the doctor turned back again. Before he could breathe a sigh of relief, the man came back again, holding a letter in his hand with his name written on it: "Is this your name?"

Cang Erdong nodded, and the doctor handed him the letter, just as if he couldn't understand what he was saying, shrugged his shoulders, and walked back to his consulting room.

The envelope didn't look like Yan Huan's exaggerated style, it was a regular shell of kraft paper, and the letter paper inside was torn from the medical records.

"Dear Cangdongdong, first of all, I want to confess to you one thing, non-relative Omegas are not allowed to enter the delivery room, the influence of pheromones will make people unable to think rationally, so I can't deliver you, But don't be sad, my spirit is with you."

Cang Erdong thought, it turns out that a person can also have a tone when writing a letter, and when he reads the letter, he can roughly imagine what kind of expression Yan Huan will use to look at him.

Put your hands on your chest, look directly at him, and it is best to put a foot on top of him.

"There are some things I don't know where to start, but in the end I chose to be a deserter, throw away the life I spent ten years working hard for, and go to a place I am not familiar with. Thank you for telling me about Alan , although I knew it a long time ago, but at first I thought he was just cheating, and he didn't take me seriously, so I have been looking forward to the day when I can impress someone with my heart, but I don't know that he has no heart.

Alas, I am a little envious of you when I write this, someone will shield you from the wind and rain before everything happens.In fact, Alan's father chose to leave the house after the divorce. Alan didn't have much savings, and like his grandfather, he liked to gamble and cheat people everywhere.His so-called grandma’s pendant, there are at least a hundred of them. I have seen no less than ten people wearing the same pendant. I flushed the toilet with it in the morning and it was clogged. Let him block it.

Man, it’s always so easy to repeat the same mistakes. In fact, I struggled with it for a long time, and even wanted to explain it clearly to him, so that the two of us can get through the difficulties together. As soon as I made up my mind, I was blocked by debt collectors when I got off work, saying It's so funny to hack me and my wife to death if we don't pay back the money within a week, go hack it, go hack it, and I don't need to do it myself.

Forgive me for being so cowardly, but I have some reasons beyond my control, so for a quiet life, I am leaving, don't think about me, we will meet again if we are destined.

Things are a bit sudden, the above is full of nonsense, and the bottom is serious, like this, it is really tormenting, don't understand well, it's rare to be confused.

Your dearest Yan Huan. "

The following words were written the size of a sesame seed, and they were all squeezed on a piece of paper. Cang Erdong found it very difficult to read, but he didn't stop. He read it again and again. He seemed to be deprived of hearing and locked in the universe. In a small cage in the prison, I cycled through the feelings conveyed by the crumpled piece of paper in my hand.

—until someone broke the silence.

"Dongdong, Dongdong, help me, Dongdong," Alan lost his usual sanctimonious demeanor, his socks were one red and the other green, Cang Erdong stared at his feet, without looking up, the other party squatted He got down and looked at him as usual, "You know where Yan Huan is, right? He owes a lot of money and I can't pay it back. The usury came to collect the debt and he wants to hack me to death. Dongdong, help me .”

Beta's hands rested on his knees, the nails on those hands were a bit long, something dirty was stuck in the crevices, it was disgustingly black.

He stood up slowly, and Alan also stood up, putting his hands on his shoulders, with joy in his eyes.

"Take your hand away."

Fang Qiusheng's hoarse voice came from the other side of the corridor, and Alan bent over anxiously to stare at Cang Erdong, and tried to pull the paper in his hand.

Cang Erdong took a deep breath, turned slightly sideways, and finally raised his face.

"Snapped!"

Alan didn't even see the other person's expression, so he was stunned by the sudden slap. He covered his face and stood there without moving. Just when he was about to turn around and scold, the next slap came from the other side .

"Fuck! Cang Erdong, you have something wrong!"

"Huanhuan, he likes you so much, he likes you so much! Why! Why!"

Omega yelled until the veins on his forehead popped out, and his whole body was shaking so hard that he couldn't stand up. Beta got a headache from screaming, but just as he clenched his fists, Fang Qiusheng threw him to the ground, and Alpha stepped on his ankles and walked over , the force was so great that it was about to be crushed, and the pain made him cry until he lost his voice.

"Dongdong, Dongdong!"

Fang Qiusheng hugged Cang Erdong to prevent him from going any further, hugged him forcefully and pressed him to the seat, Omega struggled like crazy, and bit his forearm.

"hiss--"

Alpha let out a cry of pain, but he didn't release the strength from his hands, but instead tightened them tighter. The sweet taste of blood filled Cang Erdong's mouth, and it took him a long time to let go, his mouth full of blood was at a loss as to what to do. .

"What do you want to do, tell me, I'll do it for you, don't make things difficult for yourself."

Cang Erdong's energy suddenly disappeared, and he sat paralyzed in Fang Qiusheng's arms. The hospital's security guards came over and drove Alan away from them.

He wiped the blood gushing out of Fang Qiusheng's arm with his sleeve, but the redness in his eyes became bigger and bigger, and the pain came from nowhere, and he tried to look at Fang Qiusheng's face in the last second , I lost consciousness in the next second.

When he woke up again, he could only see the pitch-black area, and the instrument next to him was beeping. He waved his hand, and Fang Qiusheng leaned over.

"Don't move, don't you feel uncomfortable?"

Cang Erdong took his hand and shook his head: "Where's Fang Xiaxia?"

"It's still in your stomach, it won't come out so easily."

"Oh."

There seemed to be a little disappointment in the promise.

Fang Qiusheng leaned against his forehead, with a weary voice: "Next time you won't be allowed to do this kind of thing. Even if you die, I will follow you."

Cang Erdong touched the gauze on his arm, rubbed it, and whispered: "I'm sorry, Shengsheng."

"I'm sorry for not listening."

Cang Erdong raised his other hand to touch Fang Qiusheng's face, but found that the paper was still in his palm.

"It can't be broken, you'd better give me a reasonable explanation."

"Shengsheng, Huanhuan him, let's go." Cang Erdong's voice was full of tears, and the tone was twisted and twisted, making people's heart tremble, "He shed a lot of tears on the letter paper, the words were all blurred, can not see clearly."

He handed the paper to Fang Qiusheng, who didn't read it, but put it aside.

"Huanhuan said that he has liked someone for ten years. He likes him so much that he can imagine that when he is 80 years old, they will live together in a place like heaven. He also said that liking is sometimes a special thing. When people are sad, people seem to be possessed by demons, and they want to have something to do with that person. But he left because that person did something very bad to him.”

Fang Qiusheng took Cang Erdong into his arms, patted on the back lightly, giving him comfort.

"Shengsheng, did I make you very, very sad too?"

Fang Qiusheng's hand stopped, hanging on his butterfly bone, the heat from the opponent's palm came in, it was hot there, as if something was about to break through the ground.

"Shengsheng, I won't do bad things, I will try my best to get better, can you, can you..."

"I won't go." Fang Qiusheng breathed out and put his head on his shoulder, "How can I go? If it takes you 20 years to understand, I will wait for you for 20 years. If it takes you 100 years to understand, I will Just wait for you for 100 years, if you don't understand for the rest of your life..."

The other party didn't go on talking, but stopped to look at him, and pushed back the hair on his forehead to reveal his eyes.

"It doesn't matter if you don't understand it all your life, anyway, I like you, Cang Erdong, whether you understand or not, I like you."

The moist and warm breath scratched his ears, Cang Erdong looked through the window and saw a star falling down in the sky.

Like an angel falling into the mortal world, hiding its wings in the bones of a butterfly, and quietly spreading its white wings in the night when no one sees them.