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"... Please fasten your seat belt, straighten the back of the chair, put away the tray table..."

Fang Qiusheng buckled the buckle on the seat belt, and looked at the scenery outside the window in a daze and receded.

He felt that he was probably crazy, he didn't even know where Cang Erdong was, and the day after tomorrow was the first term, and he had to run back home, delusional to see someone he couldn't see.

The three-hour itinerary was not long, but it was not short. After one and a half movies, Fang Qiusheng rushed out of the airport without any luggage, took a taxi, and when he returned home, he was still dying in the evening.

And no matter which window it was in that building, there were no lights on.

His pace suddenly slowed down, he dragged himself upstairs, stood at the door of Cang Erdong's house for a while, then walked to his own house, opened the door, entered the room, and lay down on the bed that obviously did not match his height.

The bed is only 1.2 meters. He bought it before elementary school. His father took him to pick it up in the furniture city all morning. When paying the bill, he still said that he would go to KFC behind his back, but he was called away before the bill was settled. , and gave him 200 yuan before leaving.

Later, there were fewer opportunities to eat together. He was entrusted to Chen Nian's family, and the larger bed was moved into Cang Erdong's room. Because he thought it was troublesome, the bed in his own room was never changed. Going home, I also live in a guest room.

To him, this home is just a resting place.

And three or four meters below the place where he was lying was his home.

Fang Qiusheng watched the sunset outside being swallowed up by the darkness little by little, the street lights came on, it was eerily quiet, and he had no cigarette on him, so he went to the kitchen, where there was still unfinished wine in the empty refrigerator.

He opened a can, and the bitter liquid entered his throat, and his thoughts immediately became chaotic.

It's good that people get drunk easily. It only takes one or two cans, and he can get so drunk that he can't find his way.

After his birthday, Tian Tang's words echoed in his mind all the time. He didn't want to accept such a suggestion at all, but he couldn't ignore the damage he had caused to Cang Erdong and his current powerlessness. He couldn't find a suitable reason to refute the other party, but after a few days of entanglement, it became difficult to even convince myself.

Will his Dongdong really be better off after leaving him?

Fang Qiusheng lay on the balcony and looked down, surprised by the height of the building, which could not prevent him from crawling to Cang Erdong's room when he was a child—could it be possible that since then, he has loved her so much that he would die what.

He stepped out of the balcony and stepped onto the railing downstairs in twos and twos. After drinking, he was a little unsteady and almost fell. The curtain shook, and someone supported him.

He heard what the other party was talking to him, but under the influence of alcohol, he only felt as if he was submerged in water, and he couldn't hear the dialogue clearly. He just blinked his eyes a few times, and after seeing the other party's face clearly , Kissed him brazenly.

His Dongdong is very thin, his round face has begun to have edges and corners, and the butterfly bone on his back can be clearly felt, but his tongue is still soft, and his teeth will be slightly pressed down when he is nervous. The eyes closed in fear, and opened again when it was too much to bear.

Fang Qiusheng knew that the dream was about to wake up, and he was about to see the blood hole again, so he waited silently, but no, the left eye finally opened normally, staring at him correctly.

Fang Qiusheng's fingertips trembled.

It was too real, every detail of this hallucination was so real that he could feel falsely happy.

"Little cocklebur, little cocklebur, little cocklebur..."

He kissed the other person's lips again, carried him into the room, and put him gently on the bed, for fear that he would wake up again from the dream.

He didn't know if it was because he had a fever, everything was hot to the touch, and the person under him was also terribly hot, so he kept leaning towards him.

As usual, he clasped the opponent's fluttering hands with one hand, raised them above his head, untied his clothes with the other hand, and licked the two soft protrusions on his chest without any rules, which made his waist tremble and tremble. Out of shape.

The opponent's trousers were taken down to the ankle by him, the thin stem was sticking up, and the front was dripping with water. He touched the hole on the back, and it was already so wet and limp. It was waiting to be invaded, and he stretched two fingers in, probably because it hadn't been opened for a long time Because of this, the person under him stiffened in a jerk, and his back was also twisted tightly.

He soothed his cockleburs as usual, first the eyes, feeling the tremor below through the eyelids; then the cheeks, although they are not as tender as before, but it does not prevent him from leaving marks on them; the tongue Sliding into the opponent's mouth along the curvature of the face, provoking the soft tongue inside; finally the slender neck.

There is a small protrusion at the back of the neck, which is a sign of growth.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, little cocklebur."

He could hear subtle whimpers, but he couldn't understand what it was. After all, it was just a dream. He didn't want to concentrate, he just wanted to indulge in such chaos.

At the back to the fourth finger, he hastily sent the utensils in his lower body into it, but he couldn't make up his mind, and couldn't get in several times. Cang Erdong's face in front of him began to blur, which made him stand up desperately and hold the opponent down. shoulders, locking people under him.

"Dongdong, Dongdong..."

Fortunately, his Dongdong didn't disappear, but pulled him back, and the bottom went in smoothly, with a sense of satisfaction welling up, Fang Qiusheng felt that he was about to get hot.

The tender meat in the tunnel was attracted there from all directions, which made him almost surrender. There was no frequency of thrusting, and he just pulled out the whole root and submerged it all according to the most primitive instinct. He could feel the other party's crazy trembling when the grinding passed a certain point. , the random scratches left on his back, and the tighter and tighter legs.

When it reached the deepest point, the genital cavity was not closed as before, but gradually gave way with each impact, inviting him to probe further in, until the front end broke into it, swelling into knots, and at the same time The canine teeth were embedded in the protrusion of the neck, and he could smell the bitter taste mixed with a little sweetness.

He really wanted to drown in this dream and never wake up.

He hugged each other tightly, buried his head in the other's hair, and kissed all over the soft hair.

"Shengsheng, I'm leaving."

A soft and hoarse voice rang in his ears, but he couldn't open his eyes. He just knew that Cang Erdong seemed to be talking to him. He wanted to cheer up and ask him, where are you going and what do you want to do? , but drunkenness and insomnia for several days and nights made him unable to speak.

"You have to study hard to become an excellent director, and I also have to study hard, but I am stupid and can't be a very good person."

He doesn't want to, his Dongdong is not stupid, he wants to tell him that every day without him is very tiring, life seems to have no hope, and it is impossible to be happy.

"I'm leaving, Shengsheng."

"Dongdong..."

Don't go, stay with me, don't go.

But he couldn't speak.

He has no confidence to create a safe haven for Cang Erdong that no one can see, no capital to seek trust from his godfather and mother, and no resources and works worthy of his current popularity and reach the same height as his parents.

What's more, this is Cang Erdong's own idea, which is a huge improvement for his illness, so how can he interfere with his life.

So he chose to keep silent and let himself fall into the boundless darkness.

Cang Erdong cried a little out of breath, Fang Qiusheng hugged him tightly again, he had to put his head on the other party's neck and breathe along, waiting for the other party to answer, but the strength in his arm loosened, Fang Qiusheng fell on the ground beside him.

"Shengsheng, Shengsheng..."

He could smell that Fang Qiusheng had been drinking, and drank a lot, so he wasn't sure if the other party could understand what he was talking to, but he was actually thinking that if Shengsheng refused, he would reconsider.

That day he overheard his parents and Alan talking about doctors in country B, so he told them his thoughts.In fact, he has always had this kind of plan. If he takes the college entrance examination, he may not be able to get a decent result, not to mention that without Fang Qiusheng, it will be difficult for him to stay in school peacefully.

Besides, it is not realistic for him to inherit his father's company. He is actually more interested in his mother's career. His mother said before that if conditions permit, he would like to go to country B to learn how to make desserts, but his body does not allow him to work in a foreign country. Live for a long time.

Then he can, he can go to country B, learn how to make desserts, have surgery, and see what Alan said about the big farm.

More importantly, although he may not be able to learn mathematics, do not get high scores in composition, and may not be good at science, making desserts is not difficult for him, at least in this field. , he can become a little more powerful.

Parents are naturally supportive, Wen Hansan has also contacted the doctor there, and Alan will spend time with him, everything goes smoothly and develops in the most ideal direction.

It's just that he never had the chance to ask Fang Qiusheng's opinion, ask him, what do you think.

There are very few times in his life when he needs to make major decisions, and most of the multiple-choice questions are decided for him by Fang Qiusheng. It is as big as the school to fill in during the senior high school entrance examination, and the choice of essays or reasoning is as small as what to wear today and what to go to on weekends. Fang Qiusheng will arrange everything for him. All he has to do is to be obedient.

So that kind of tension has been lingering in his heart, wanting to go but not wanting to go, finally waiting for Fang Qiusheng to come, the final decision is whether the other party nods or shakes his head.

But Fang Qiusheng didn't say anything, just had a painful sex, which ended hastily.

Cang Erdong secretly took Fang Qiusheng's clothes to wipe his nose and tears. He was in so much pain that he couldn't even say a complete sentence, but just curled up in Fang Qiusheng's arms, sucking his nose and sobbing.

"Shengsheng, I'm going to country B to learn how to make desserts."

"Shengsheng, my body hurts and my butt hurts."

"Shengsheng, the scars on my eyes are healed, and I can hardly see them anymore."

"Shengsheng, Dr. Wen said that there is an expert in country B, who seems to let me see clearly."

"Shengsheng, I think my pheromone smells a little better."

"Shengsheng, I'm so sad, can you give me a hug?"

Cang Erdong shook Fang Qiusheng, but Alpha still didn't respond, eyes closed, brows furrowed, lips pursed into a line, he put his head on Fang Qiusheng's chest, listening to the familiar heartbeat.

For many nights, he fell asleep with such fiery throbbing, but from now on, no one came to hug him to sleep again.

"Dongdong, get ready to wake up."

Cang Erdong's mother's voice woke Cang Erdong up. It was just before dawn. He was half awake and half asleep for an unknown period of time, but his body didn't feel as painful as before, but there was still a faint feeling of fullness behind him.

He turned over and got out of bed, after washing and dressing, he tidied up the bed a little bit, covered Fang Qiusheng with the quilt, and then sat on the bed for a while in a daze.

It was almost time to go to the airport, Cang Erdong slowly got up and opened the door, opened the door like a guilty conscience, and then quickly closed it, and looked at the person lying on the bed through a long and narrow door, as if unwilling to do so.

"Goodbye, Shengsheng."

The door slammed shut with a mournful click.

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When Fang Qiusheng woke up, it was already high in the sun outside, and he had a terrible headache, but the familiar scenery made him sit up excitedly, but before he could fully recover, there was the sound of parking outside, and he crawled like a frightened bird. Get up, hide on the balcony to watch, Chen Nian and Cang Jingxing get out of the car, there is no shadow of Cang Erdong.

His body suddenly became very heavy, he mockingly thought that he would have such an absurd dream, took a few deep breaths, and finally regained his strength, turned over and went upstairs while the two of them were out of sight.

He quickly packed his phone and wallet, ignored a string of message prompts inside, took a taxi, and went to catch today's plane.

The driver would take another 10 minutes to arrive, but he still hurried out the door, and when he passed by the door of Cang Erdong's house, he didn't even dare to take another look.

Cang Erdong didn't come back, he had already left.

And in the future, he will no longer have a place to return to.

The plane flew overhead, and the boy ran to the opposite distance without looking back.