young and inaction

Lu Yang blurted out these words, but he didn't expect that Lu Xichou could completely collapse, no matter how thick the wall was.

"I admit...I admit that I have been there, but..." Lu Xichou kept calm, looked at Lu Yang and said.Lu Yang made a pause gesture and said, "This is not a question of whether you admit it or not, it is a question of your nature."

Of course, in Lu Xichou's memory, as long as he signs a guarantee, he will never do anything again.This time, Lu Yang had expected it, but he was just surprised.

"I admit my mistake, I apologize..." Lu Xichou reopened the folder, looking at the printed font, and the signature and fingerprints on the last page, he felt unprecedented fear.

Giants are tall, they are brave and fearless, and they are also afraid, afraid of losing, afraid of losing people who mean a lot to him.

"Can you tell me why? So you can't change it? So you can't let history repeat itself?" Lu Yang lost his patience. He looked at the son in front of him, and couldn't help but want to go to the eldest son in heaven.

Lu Xichou was dumbfounded, he held the folder tightly, and smiled helplessly while propping his forehead.It's him again, it's him again!Lu Xichou didn't know when he began to dislike him more and more.

"He, him! It's him again! He's dead! Why do you still miss him?" Lu Xichou yelled at Lu Yang, he couldn't bear it anymore.

"Aren't you tired? My brother shouldn't have died in the first place. I should be the one who should be damned! I was manipulated by you like a puppet. I could have my own life, but you packaged me as my brother! Lu Xichou walked towards the bookcase, there was a drawer in the middle of the bookcase, he took out a photo from it, and smashed it on the ground together with the frame.

When Lu Xichou yelled the first sentence, he had already realized that the situation was irreversible, since it was said to be broken, let's break it to the end.When the glass mirror frame shattered on the ground, glass shards flew everywhere, and both of them were breathing still.

"You're crazy!" Lu Yang walked over and slapped Lu Xichou's face very hard, and a red and swollen mark appeared on the right side of his face.

"You are crazier than me! Junior high school, high school, my life, and even my hobbies are pasted and copied from my brother. I have had enough of living in the shadow of others! I want to leave, I want to go my own way! "The blood vessels on Lu Xichou's forehead protruded, and there was burning pain on his face.

Liu Yun pushed the door and entered, she listened outside the door, just happened to hear the name of the person Lu Xichou mentioned, Lu Xiting, she already felt unfamiliar.

Lu Xiting died of illness in the third year of high school. He was better than Lu Xichou, and he was more suitable to be Lu Yang's successor than Lu Xichou.Lu Xiting works steadily, has excellent grades, and doesn't talk much. He is a veritable neighbor's child.

But their son is the complete opposite of the eldest son.Lu Xichou is lively and eloquent, but from Lu Yang's point of view, the second son can't always speak in the right place.

Lu Xichou likes electric guitar, but Lu Yang objects, so he decisively enrolls Lu Xichou in piano lessons; Lu Xichou likes basketball, but Lu Yang thinks it's a waste of time.

When he was young, Lu Xichou was ignorant, he only thought that his elder brother could learn whatever he wanted, but he couldn't get such treatment, so he went to ask Lu Yang.

The answer I got was - "Because your brother is better than you."

At the dinner table, Lu Xiting never leaves a word, Lu Xichou is like an air-like existence.Lu Xiting treats his younger brother like an ordinary brother, but he never comes home from school to buy a candy for Lu Xichou who is doing homework on the desk.

These three words seem to be sealed, and when they are mentioned again, bits and pieces of memory in my mind have to be opened again.

Liu Yun looked at the shattered photo frame, and suddenly squatted on the ground, picked up the photo from a pile of glass shards, wiped the glass shards off the photo with his hands, and stuck the photo on his chest.

At this time, even the flying dust in the air felt embarrassed, Lu Xichou tore up the contract in the folder, and said on the ground: "Why did you give birth to me in the first place? Since you already have my brother, why do you want me? I fucking came into this world to atone for my sins!"

"Ah!" Liu Yun slumped on the ground and screamed, followed by a cry that Lu Xichou had never heard before. This was a cry that had been suppressed for a long time. Liu Yun choked up and said, "You don't know anything! What? Do not know at all!"

The situation was a bit confusing, Lu Xichou was dazzled, he stared at Liu Yun and said, "You all know everything, what about me? I deserve to live like this?!"

As soon as the words fell, Lu Yang slapped Lu Xichou on the face again, this time stronger than last time, Lu Xichou licked his right cheek with the tip of his tongue, there was a smell of iron, and the corner of his mouth was bleeding.

"Do you know how your brother died?" Lu Yang couldn't raise his spirits, he was already tired and just wanted to make a fuss.

Just as Lu Xichou was about to refute, when he heard this sentence, he suddenly raised his head and looked directly at Lu Yang's mouth. When he saw the shape of Lu Yang's mouth, he froze.I just feel that my brain is congested, and my vision is suddenly blurred and suddenly bright.

Lu Yang said - AIDS.

Who would have thought that Lu Xiting, who has always been well-behaved, steady and sensible in front of his family and teachers, likes boys, and he also met a boy in the first year of high school.

The boy had dropped out of school and was a sophomore at his age.Everyone didn't talk to him, it just so happened that Lu Xiting met him after school that day and said thank you to him.

None of them knew the boy's name, and even these things were heard from Lu Xiting lying on the hospital bed dying.

It was also summer that day, Lu Xiting packed up his homework as usual, and left the teaching building with his bags on his back. The dark clouds were pressing down on the tall buildings in the city, and the branches on the roadside were almost unable to withstand the strong wind.

Lu Xiting planned to run to the bus stop sign. At that time, the stop sign was just a stop sign, without the so-called booths and chairs.When the first drop of rain hit the ground, the bus hadn't arrived yet, and when he was about to take a taxi after getting wet all over, an umbrella appeared above his head.

"Thank you." Lu Xiting looked up at the umbrella, it was black.The boy holding the umbrella lowered his head to meet his gaze and said, "It's okay, I just happened to be waiting for the bus."

In this way, the first time two people spoke, it was also the first time their hearts moved.Just like when Lu Xichou met Lin Xingxiu for the first time.

They added WeChat to each other, and every day after school, the boys would go to the school gate to wait for Lu Xiting after school, take him to dinner, and take him to places that Lu Yang never allowed him to go.

In the second year of high school, Lu Xiting became an adult. On his birthday, the boy said that he would take him to a place. On the ground was a bar where the boys sang. This bar must be quiet.

On the day he went, the bar was very lively, and it took him a long time to squeeze through. The boy smiled and stretched out his hand to pull him over, and walked to the front.

They did a lot of things that night, what they should do, what they shouldn't do, they did it all.

The third year of high school was tight, so Lu Xiting chose to board at school. At some point, Lu Xiting felt something strange in his body. During this period of time, he always had a low-grade fever and didn't have much appetite. Even if he went to bed early at night, he would feel tired the next day. He thinks it should be too tired to prepare for the college entrance examination.

He didn't dare to tell Lu Yang, if he did, boys would exist.After school in the afternoon, Lu Xiting accidentally mentioned his symptoms to the boy, but the boy bowed his head and remained silent.

That day, the two of them had some unhappiness, and they hadn't seen the boy for a long time. Lu Xiting felt that his illness was getting worse, and the college entrance examination was getting closer. During the last mock exam, Lu Xiting fell asleep in the exam room. He woke up and accompanied him to the infirmary.

The teacher around him was also shocked, he found it unbelievable, the school doctor listened to Lu Xiting's description of his symptoms, and slowly said that it might be AIDS, and asked him to go to the city hospital for examination.

Going to the hospital for an examination meant notifying the parents. Lu Xiting asked the teacher to borrow a cell phone, ran out in a panic, hid in a corner, dialed the phone, answered the phone on the other side, and said in an irritable tone: "Hello? Who is it? !"

The hand holding the phone trembled slightly, and he reconfirmed the phone number, and it was correct.But the voice in the receiver was something he had never heard before, it was not the gentle and pleasant voice in his impression and memory, and the voice when he talked and sang was completely different.

The other party lost his mind and cursed: "You idiot, don't make a sound even if you make a wrong call..."

"Brother, I have AIDS." Lu Xiting said in a trembling voice, these three words scared him, and what happened next scared him even more.

The receiver obviously stagnated for breathing, coughed lightly, and hung up the phone.He couldn't hear the sound anymore, thinking it was a problem with the mobile phone, when he called again, the phone on the other side had already been turned off.Bean-sized tears fell on the dry ground, and the scorching sun quickly absorbed the little bit of water.

Sure enough, money is sometimes a burden, and some people approach him just for money.What's even more ridiculous is that he didn't realize it and sent it close to his face.

Lu Yang was in the hospital, he was beaten and scolded. Looking at the test results in his hands, the hearts of the husband and wife were completely chilled.Lu Xiting was diagnosed with AIDS, but the final "rescue time" has passed, which means that for the next period of time, he can only wait to die on the hospital bed.

Facing Lu Yang's torture, Lu Xiting also shut up and didn't say a word, that scumbag would only make him feel distressed and disgusted.The day before he felt that he was about to lose his strength, he told Liu Yun everything.

Early the next morning, Lu Xiting had already passed away.

During this period of time, Lu Xichou was sent to his grandmother's house. He was very happy. His grandmother's house made him feel happy, just like a children's playground in the square. He also slowly began to accept the violin.

Lu Xichou was already speechless, only Liu Yun sobbed softly in the study, he felt his legs go weak, and with a "bang", he knelt down in front of Liu Yun and Lu Yang.

"Yes... I'm sorry..." Lu Xichou said, and he repeated over and over again: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

The wrinkles on Lu Yang's face had begun to become apparent, and he didn't realize that Liu Yun hadn't dyed his hair black recently.

"I just don't want to see you go the way of Xiting. Looking at you, I always feel that you are repeating another tragedy." Lu Yang helped Liu Yun who was on the ground, and pinned a strand of hair on her forehead to her ear Finally, said: "Why don't we love you? We are also parents for the first time."

"Go out, I'm tired." Lu Yang said softly, "From now on, you and Lin Xingxiu can do whatever you want."

Lu Xichou knelt in the study all night, when Aunt Zhang came to clean up, she found Lu Xichou fainted on the ground.Last night, he didn't know how to spend it in remorse.

On the other side of the city, last night was suffering.

The sound of the instruments in the ward returned to the long-lost "beep" sound, Lin Xingxiu put on the oxygen mask again, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and the pain on his wrist made him know that he was not dead again.

Before going to bed at night, he took sleeping pills as usual. When he saw the folder in the drawer, he somehow let go of the glass and stepped on the floor with his bare feet. The cold feeling did not make him "awake".

He bent down to pick up a piece with sharp edges and corners, and walked to the window. The moon was still semicircular. The scene in front of him was full of life during the day, but dead at night. He drew the curtains without a trace of nostalgia.

The bathroom is separated from wet and dry, and there is cold water in the bathtub at the moment.He sat on the edge of the bathtub, scratched his arm with a shard of glass, and red blood couldn't wait to overflow from it.

The corners of his mouth curled up, suddenly feeling very happy.

When the water was full, he put himself in the hospital gown and immersed himself in cold water. He lifted the fragment in his hand and scratched the veins in his wrist without hesitation. The first time, the second time, the third time... the blood began Red bath.

During the day, the nurse forgot to bring Lin Xingxiu the winter clothes he had prepared. In the afternoon, he went to pick up his grandson from school. After returning home, he forgot the time and made a new dinner for Lin Xingxiu before coming to the nursing home.

If the nurse was 5 minutes late, Lin Xingxiu would be dead by now.

Strange, why can't he die?When he was fully awake, only this sentence remained in his mind.

The author has something to say: Lu Xiting is really "sealed" by this family, and the first fifty chapters don't mention him a word!

Lu Xiting: I'm just playing tricks!