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Regret?

Xie Tong asked himself this question in his heart many times, when he saw Xue Ningli's eyes shining on You Qingge, when the two embraced and shed tears when they won the award, when You Qingge broadcast the official announcement to the world.

A puff of cold air would rush up her back, causing her to shiver, and then ask herself in her heart—do you regret it?

After all, Xue Ningli also stayed by her side for a short time, and the two of them also cooperated. Her identity is even more similar than that of You Qingge - she is Xue Ningli's idol, but You Qingge is not.

But why wasn't she the one who owned Xue Ningli in the end?Is it because she is really inferior to You Qingge, the mismatch engraved on her DNA early on, or because she once watched the fireworks in full bloom but failed to catch the falling sparks.She would not be really clumsy enough to confront Xue Ningli or You Qingge face to face, and she deliberately avoided the two of them in all announcements, but her doubts remained in her heart like this, and she would come back when touched by certain familiar words To the then scene and then continue to heartache.

The show "Let's Sister Fall in Love" has long since ended, and she and Li Xuan's CP is not too much of a splash at all. She only attracted a wave of CP fans when she partnered with Xue Ningli for a short time, and the rest is all about her personal charm, no need Purification did not tear.

But she still kept in touch with Li Xuan uncharacteristically.

It's not that I still have nostalgia, but it's the envy of outsiders, and the relief that I can confide in some inhumane words.

Xu Yunnuo is too naive, Wen Zhou is mature, the protagonist has nothing to do with her, Li Xuan looks careless but pays attention everywhere, he is the best receiver of secrets, and also a bystander of the triangle between her and You Xue.

"Would you regret it?"

Li Xuan asked this sentence, but avoided her face, lowered his head to stir the coffee, the bitter taste caused Li Xuan to frown.

"It's okay."

Xie Tong laughed, her tone was so indifferent that she seemed to be the one who stayed out of the matter, even she herself was surprised, the surprise made her want to laugh.

"Xue Ningli definitely doesn't know."

Li Xuan reluctantly took a sip of the bitter coffee, but the name he said casually made Xie Tong feel as if he drank a large cup of bitter coffee. The pain was so numb that after deceiving himself many times, it seemed that it was no longer painful.

"There's no need to let her know."

Xie Tong smiled again, the smile was on her face like a mask: "You Qingge is so bold."

I am not worried about the many troubles caused by the exposure of my unique sexuality at all, and I am also grateful to the current tolerant environment and cp fans who are not Ye Gonghaolong, they still hold hands to block the noise of the outside world and leave room for them to survive.

Like Xie Tong himself, he doesn't have such courage at all, not even the courage to show love to Xue Ningli secretly, and even the Xiuluo field that people talk about in the last few episodes of the show was just born by her in the sweet interaction between You Xue and Xue Ningli A little precariously possessive.

It disappeared after the show aired.

What can be done?This is her own choice and she can't blame anyone.

From a very young age, Xie Tong was a child of someone else's family. He was obedient, well-behaved and intelligent, and worked hard to survive under the high-pressure education of his parents.

You can't make mistakes, and you can't make mistakes in every step of your life. Once you make a mistake, you will fall into the abyss of eternal doom.This is the life motto taught to her by her parents, and she implements it earnestly, stopping in front of every variable, turning around, and stepping into the right track in the eyes of her parents.

At the age of five, her parents took her to the Children's Palace and asked her to choose a hobby of learning.Said it was a choice, but after she finished reading the signs, she chatted with the dance teacher next to her and pulled her into the dance studio.

At that time, she was still young and young, so she couldn't suppress her own preferences to cater to the requirements of adults.After being half-coaxed and half-forced by her mother to the front of the elevator, she resisted the adult's will for the first time, standing straight and refusing to follow her mother into the elevator.

There were other parents waiting to go up in the elevator. Seeing that the deadlock between the two was not broken, they gloated and watched the confrontation between the two.

It was a silent confrontation.

The mother watched her, her usual gentle and unchanging smile like a mask slowly disappeared, and the eyes looking at her became cold, mixed with disappointment and pain.

That look.

After this time, no matter what Xie Tong faces, he will always think of these eyes when making choices, and they often appear in nightmares.

She was almost scared to cry by her mother's seldom shown scary eyes. She tried her best to hold back her tears and stepped into the elevator, then apologized to her mother in a low voice.

"I was wrong."

But her mother turned her face away and let her cook in a frying pan, without even looking at her, she waited until the door of the dance studio before saying, "You are an obedient child, aren't you?"

"Correct."

Xie Tong held back his tears and went in, stood in the last row and looked at the dancing people in front, awkwardly learning the movements of others.Not long after, she went from the back row to the middle to the front row and then to the center. She participated in the competition and accepted the applause with the trophy in her hand.

What was going on in the other classrooms, she would never look again, never want to learn.

junior high school.

Xie Tong met a different friend, unlike her who spends all day in books and questions, who flies out of the classroom every day when the bell rings like a bird, always has endless words and endless energy, It just has nothing to do with learning.

Xie Tong liked this kind of person and wanted to be friends with her.It was easier for the two of them to get acquainted than she imagined. The other party had a warm personality that would not push away any hands. With her, Xie Tong felt like a prisoner who was accidentally released on a desert island.

Even though the time was short, Xie Tong still saw the blue sky and white clouds beyond the book.

But when she learned that the teacher sent the report card to the parents, her heart sank slowly to the bottom. On the way home, she was trembling and couldn't even swallow dinner.

"how are things?"

Mother put down the bowls and chopsticks, and it was enough to make people nervous without looking up.Auntie was cleaning up the dishes beside her, not daring to vent her breath.

Xie Tong felt her teeth shaking, she tried her best to piece together the words but tears still fell down: "I'm sorry... I didn't pass the exam..."

"Is it because you have been playing with your friends lately to delay your studies?"

"No! I was just careless..."

"Ah."

The conversation stops here.

But I don't know what my mother explained to the class teacher later, the girl's seat was moved to the last row, and she became No.1's deskmate.

Mom doesn't need to do anything.

The girl quickly got acquainted with other people, and Xie Tong, who was boring and boring, was naturally forgotten by her. Xie Tong became a loner again, as if he had entered a prison/prison after a short exile.

In high school, arts and sciences are divided into classes.Xie Tong thought that she didn't have the flexible thinking of a science student, and the science scores on the report card were also in a mess. She asked her mother like a prisoner waiting to be executed while pinching the subject sheet.

"Can I choose..."

"Choose science, the science score is low."

"But I can't learn well..."

It's still a heartbroken look of hating iron but not steel.

Xie Tong withdrew silently.After filling out the subject form, she vomited in the toilet for a long time at noon. She felt sad, as if she had never had the power to control her own life.

What happened later was unexpected. I was discovered by scouts during the competition, and then signed a contract with the company to become a trainee. After practicing for a few years, I participated in the draft and debuted as a member of Polaris Girls.

The trajectory of his life seemed to be going in the opposite direction. Not only did Xie Tong not feel tired because of the changes, he even felt faintly happy.

It was as if she was resisting her parents and power, and felt that the control of her life was back in her hands.

Until Xue Ningli appeared, it seemed to be different, as if a bird reappeared in her sky.But soon, Xie Tong felt as if his emotions were being controlled by something, and he couldn't control his ups and downs.

She instinctively felt fear, subconsciously chose to escape, and even used the worst way - exchanging Xue Ningli for benefits.

It seems that without knowing it, she has become a mother-like person, selfish and selfish, as if all the softness and innocence have been worn away.

But she underestimated her feelings for Xue Ningli.

Like a clown, she tried hard to get the other party's attention back on her, but there was still no way.Anyone or any emotion is not something that can be called and gone.

When her mother occasionally asked about her relationship status, she would briefly mention it perfunctorily. The other party was silent for a long time and asked her if she liked Xue Ningli.

"You are my daughter, how could I not understand you."

"Nothing."

"really?"

Mom tried to carve a hole in her face with her eyes.

Xie Tong turned his back and pretended to be busy, without changing his expression, his tone was flat: "How can I like her, doesn't she already have You Qingge, I don't love other people's things."

Then quietly wipe away the tears.

So after all the dust settled, Xie Tong also had to admit that he really lost Xue Ningli.

But what does it matter if you lose the other party?

Losing is the best thing in the world. It is because of losing that the other party becomes more and more shining in the memory. White rice grains become white moonlight, and cinnabar moles become red roses. Every memory has a filter. When I think of it late at night, I sigh, and when I am reminded of similar scenes, I feel palpitations.

Only occasionally when she fell asleep, she suddenly dreamed that when Xue Ningli was cooperating with her, when she smiled, her eyes were curved and sweet, like a moon soaked in honey.

It's a pity that I can no longer see the moon.

Xie Tong admitted that she really lost her sweet moon.

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