Love him and endure the cold

Miserable.

"Take it back? Hehe, why does the owner always like to use this method to arrange other people's lives? Since he sent me out, do you still want to take it back? Is Jun Yinghong so talkative? Stay in Shurong Town? Do I stay in Shurong Town?" You'll be back there?"

"If you don't leave Shurong Town, I won't notify Jun Yinghong. If you stay in Nianyue Villa until I annex Xiqu Valley, you don't have to be imprisoned here."

"Shut up here? Haha... I don't think, although I have always obeyed the owner's orders before, if I don't want to, no one can force me to do anything. So does the owner think he can lock me up?" Yes, Fengxue Mountain Villa can't lock me up, I'm just giving myself a chance, a chance to completely give up.

"Yeah, I know I can't hold you down... Are you really in love with Jun Yinghong?"

I suddenly laughed, the situation in front of me was a bit weird, I looked at Han Jingxiao in front of me and felt like I saw my previous self, when did we switch roles?

"I don't deny that I like him, but the one I love has always been you... Don't you understand?" My hand gently caressed Han Jingxiao's face.Suddenly kissed his lips.

He hugged me tightly, as if he was going to strangle me into his body.But I know what's coming next.Sure enough, not long after, he suddenly pushed me away, and I could see a trace of fear in his eyes.As if fleeing, he turned and left.

"If you don't want to hug me, then why did you bring me back?" I raised the corners of my lips.

He stopped.

"Yunyi, I said...you shouldn't come back...I'm scared when I look at you now, because I feel like...I can't hold you anymore...I think you will leave me..."

I slowly put away my smile.

"I just want to know what else you want from me... Xiao, why don't you tell me directly, as long as I can give it, I will give it..."

"No...I won't tell you, because I know if I tell you you will leave me forever."

Han Jingxiao really knew me very well, I watched his leaving back and sighed softly.He has already seen my determination, he knows that I actually want to make a break with the past, yes, I am indeed waiting, waiting to see what else he wants, as long as I give him, I will not owe him anything up.

Not long after Han Jingxiao left, Li Feng came to visit.

"The owner just went to the Jinse House." Li Feng looked at my face and said cautiously.I nodded, still no response.Jinse Xiaoguan is a Goulan courtyard in Luoyang.

"Why don't you seem to care now? This time, you and Zhuangzi have changed a lot. I find it very strange. You are obviously in love with each other, why do you still torture each other like this? Why do you still go to Jinse's small restaurant when the owner has you?" ? He's never been to that place before."

I shrugged. "Then you should also know that although we sleep together every night, nothing ever happens."

Li Feng nodded.

"This is also what I find strange. The owner is not a person who suppresses himself, but I can see that he is patient... I think the owner is afraid to hug you for some reason. I think he seems to be afraid of something. It seems like if I hug you, I will lose it."

I shook my head.

"No, he is afraid that after hugging me, he will be reluctant to part with me again."

127. Snow Night

Just like when he used me as bait to lure Jun Yinghong to attack me, he didn't dare to hug me, because he was afraid that after hugging me, he would lose control of himself and be desperate for me, so I didn't lie to Yun Yi But now I am not afraid of anything, what is really afraid of is Han Jingxiao.

"I think the owner has a difficult reason. He suppressed himself not to touch you, but he still sleeps with you every night. Haven't you thought about why this happened?"

I tugged at the corner of my lips.

"I know."

"Then why do you still have trouble with the owner?"

"I didn't quarrel with him, I was just tired, and there is no future with a person, I would rather not have this kind of love! I don't need his charity, if my existence is also a kind of torture for him , then separation would be the best choice. I have never blamed him for anything, everyone has their own choice, if there is any complaint, then the only thing is that he always said nothing to me, No matter what decision he made, no matter what he was encountering, he refused to tell me..."

I clenched my hands mockingly.

"If I can't share anything for him in his heart, I'd rather leave..."

Li Feng looked at me for a long time and spoke quietly. "It seems that the owner loves you more than we imagined. In fact, you should be happy, because the owner is doing this to protect you. I don't want you to suffer any pain."

"Maybe, but what I want is not these... What I want is the kind that Jun Yinghong gave me, no matter what I have, I will face it side by side... Li Feng, in fact, my request is very simple, I just want ...stand by his side...that's all..."

Day by day, there is still no change between me and Han Jingxiao.In fact, sometimes I also wonder what else he wants from me.

My martial arts are not as good as his, and I don't have many contacts in the Jianghu. Now that I have even sent Yunfu out, what else does he want?Shu Yichen and Jun Yinghong have also met, it would be ridiculous if they want to use me to contain Jun Yinghong, and Han Jingxiao has already discovered that Jun Yinghong has no intention of fighting for anything after being in contact with Jun Yinghong a few times.

The moonlight was cold, and Han Jingxiao hadn't returned yet, and he would disappear for a few days every month.Without him, I would always wake up from the cold, since I woke up again tonight, I might as well go out for a walk.

Yun Yi told me that Lou Fengze had left the old house, but he didn't ask for any money from me.That's fine too, if it's really possible to make it easy for everyone, I've always felt a little strange about Lou Fengze.

When I first met him, I felt that he approached me purposefully, but later when I found out that he liked me, I felt a little surprised. This person’s feelings are not as strong as Han Jingxiao’s, nor as gentle as Jun Yinghong’s. It is easy for people to ignore his existence, but whenever something happens to me, I will naturally think of him.

It's a good thing that he's gone now, the Yun Mansion is no longer mine, and I don't have the ability or excuse to keep him by my side.

It's just that his flute is still with me and I haven't asked for it back. Do you want me to remember him?Before I knew it, I walked back to the old house of the Yun family.Just as I was about to open the door and go in, I saw a person approaching from a distance.

"Xiao? Since it's a coincidence, why don't you come in and sit down. There are a lot of fine wines hidden in my old house." I extended the invitation with a slight smile, and Han Jingxiao didn't refuse.

He didn't ask me why I left Fengxue Mountain Villa in the middle of the night, and I didn't ask where he went every time. I lit the stove to cook wine, and the two drank silently.

"Yi'er, are you still mad at me?"

Yier?I didn't dwell on the sudden change of address for too long.shook his head.

"Aren't you wondering why I'm here too?"

I shook my head again.

"...Looking into your eyes now, it seems that I don't care about anything...I'm afraid, you know...This is retribution...The timing of two people being together is really important, when you love me very much At that time, I didn’t love you enough. When I loved you very much, I used the wrong way. Now... Yi’er, I’m afraid that you don’t love me anymore, because I suddenly found that the love for you has already penetrated My bones, my blood..."

I moved my eyes from the falling snow outside the window to him.

"Yi'er, I know you have always been concerned that I once loved Mo Ziyi, but now I want to tell you no, I like Mo Ziyi because his eyes resemble a person, and that person is the first time I have loved Mo Ziyi. The one I fell in love with...that was a little boy. From the time my father brought me back to Luoyang from Suzhou, I knew how difficult the future would be for me. I often had to endure inhuman torture and torture...because I Father wants me to practice the Sun Transforming Knife..."

I was shocked, could it be that Jun Yinghong's guess was right, did Han Jingxiao really have to make his meridians completely retrograde once a month to practice this kind of saber technique?I suddenly don't know what it feels like, since I was a child, life is worse than death once a month... Can I survive it?

128. Dream Reality

"Actually, I thought about giving up several times, but as long as I think of my mother, I clenched my teeth and insisted. Because I know she wants me to get rid of the low/low status. But do you know how painful it is?" Han Jingxiao swallowed The next sip of wine, I nodded.

"I've heard it said..."

"People who haven't experienced it will not understand, because it is really worse than death... I have experienced such days for several years. When I was ten years old, one night after my meridians were reversed, I didn't feel like I used to. Returning to Fengxue Mountain Villa in the same way, because of the irritability and conflicts in my heart, I chose a road that I would not normally take to relax, and on that night, I met someone who I miss so far."

I looked at Han Jingxiao, and my body trembled suddenly.

"It was a little boy who was only about three or four years old. He was a pampered young master. Wearing a moon-white robe, his small body just turned over from the wall. I was standing outside watching Watching him fall to the ground. The round face, the skin is very white, like a doll who wants to hold him in his arms..."

I looked at Han Jingxiao, his face was full of gentle smiles, and all his indifference trapped in memories was dispelled.

"Actually, his cute appearance is only second. What makes my heart move is those eyes... It's like a lake under the moonlight.