Reborn love is not sweet talk

"Panshu, what's wrong with you? You look so bad?" Dajiang was about to go out to change shifts. He was on night shift this week, and he saw Zou Panshu stunned at the door in a daze, and he didn't see him take out the key to open the door.

"It's okay, I may be a little tired recently." Zou Panshu tried his best to smile and walked into the dormitory.

This excuse is not very good, but seeing his smile that is uglier than crying, Dajiang didn't know how to persuade him, so he just said along the way: "Well, then take a good rest for a few days and don't work overtime every day. Your physique is too strong. Worse."

"Okay. I see. I will come back from get off work on time for a few days to rest. Brother Dajiang, don't worry too much." After speaking, Zou Panshu felt that his strength began to recover and he could move freely.

"That's good. If you're really uncomfortable, ask for leave and rest. You should rest quickly, I'm going to work." Time was running out, so Da Jiang had no choice but to suppress his worries, and strode out of the dormitory to go to work in the company.

Putting the eco-friendly bag on the table, Zou Panshu poured a large cup of hot water. He couldn't wait for the water to cool, so he directly added some cold water into it. After filling himself up, he felt that he had really come back to life. The heartache seemed to kill him with a knife.

How could he have forgotten Qin Mingyu? The person mentioned in the phone call just now was him. Seeing what Ren Shukuang meant, he was going to take him back to the apartment tonight.Zou Panshu will not be arrogant and think that it is because of his choice that Ren Shukuang picked someone in advance. He can't figure it out, and he can't ignore the heartache. He just watched the person he loves hug someone else to bed tonight. Sleeping will not change this fact for a year from now on.But he didn't know that it was because of his arrival that Ren Shukuang's heart was deviated. At this time in this life, Zou Panshu was full of love, and Zou Panshu was just an insignificant stranger to Ren Shukuang, and he was not even qualified to go to bed. No, because Ren Shukuang would never take action against the people or staff around him, let alone accept the delicate young man who knew the incident of the year and thought he was right. After such a tragic lesson, he restrained all his arrogance, and Ren Shukuang still lived. A life not controlled by others.

How is life different? Ren Shukuang clearly knows that he is dissatisfied. In the past, he was also such a person between a man and a boy. He can find peace by venting out the depression that cannot be taken away by work and alcohol.But this year is not right, his heart is far from the same peace as in previous years, which makes his spirit more anxious, nervous adjustment every day, work busier, and even has to choose more business trips, and the time spent abroad is gradually increasing.

The difference in Zou Panshu's life is that he also works crazily, his unspoken love has nowhere to go, he is not even qualified to meet, so how can he talk about being with him for a lifetime.He frantically squeezed out every minute to study, and he was even more conscientious in his work. He handled the relationship well with colleagues around him, not to please hypocritically, but to take care of him as sincerely as possible, just because this is the company of that person, he loves him, and He loves these colleagues who work for him, and he feels very cordial in every part of the company.

After receiving three months' salary, he took a large part of the remaining money to apply for the driving school. He clearly remembered that in the near future, one night in the near future, Ren Shukuang's driver had a sudden illness and asked for leave. People who are very privacy-conscious would rather drive by themselves than pick a driver at random.

That night, Ren Shukuang was in a small car accident while driving home drunk. He didn't hit anyone but hit the safety island. A passer-by helped him to dial the phone number of the apartment. Returning to Ren Shukuang, thinking about it carefully, it seems that the careful care of him that night was the source of the two people's communication.No matter what the purpose was, Zou Panshu would not want this incident to happen again, and he would not be allowed to be in a car accident again, let alone give Qin Mingyu a chance to enter Ren Shukuang's heart like this.Maybe Qin Mingyu wouldn't take good care of the illogical drunkard that night, but Zou Panshu couldn't take the risk.

For this day, Zou Panshu has made a lot of preparations, and it has been 5 months since he went to work.Those heart-piercing pains, those unspeakable jealousy, he buried them all in his heart, let them ferment and swell, and endured them willingly.

His work has been affirmed by Manager Qian, and he has become one of Manager Qian's right-hand assistants. He has outstanding performance in coordinating back office and collecting and sorting out data. His patience and carefulness are recognized by his colleagues, and most people on the tenth floor deserve it The cute little brother, after all, only 21 years old is several years younger than everyone else.

And his English has also been successfully promoted. Although he has never participated in the formal qualification examination, he has communicated with his colleagues and learned more and more professional terms in related businesses. He is willing to spend his frugal money on buying In terms of professional books, at least his hard work pays off. He can already sort out the company's English materials at a slow speed. This kind of rapid improvement ability also makes Manager Qian think highly of him.

His body has undergone several months of conditioning, daily unremitting a lot of exercise and deliberately increased appetite, and it is completely different from that time.

This day is the Mid-Autumn Festival. Except for a few security guards on duty, all other employees of the company start their vacation two hours earlier. After all, the three-day long vacation has already made most people happy and unwilling to work.

Working overtime on holidays is three times the salary, and Da Jiang almost never falls behind. He expressed a little regret to Zou Panshu for not being able to accompany him on the holidays, and obediently went to work.Zou Pan let out a sigh of relief, it happened that Da Jiang had to work overtime continuously, otherwise he would have to figure out how to hide the fact that he would not be back tonight.

Zou Panshu didn't know where Ren Shukuang was going to drink, so he could only follow him in the most stupid way, wearing a peaked cap with the brim pulled low, and bought a new suit to wear, so that even if People who are familiar with it should not be easy to see, and there are many passers-by on the road, so it is really hard to see it until you are in front of you.Fortunately, there was a traffic jam during the Mid-Autumn Festival, Ren Shukuang's speed was not too fast, the taxi clenched his teeth easily, turned a few streets and drove for three quarters of an hour before finally stopping in front of a private club.

Ren Shukuang threw the key to the doorman and went in directly.Zou Panshu watched the doorman drive the black car into the underground parking lot.He was in a daze, what should I do, I can't just sneak into the ground, it won't work like this, when the time comes, if it's the doorman who drives the car out, then I'll be waiting in vain.It seems that he can only stare at the gate of the clubhouse, and recommend himself when Ren Shukuang wants to get in the car and drive by himself.

It's the Mid-Autumn Festival, but the weather is not so beautiful. It's cloudy all day, and there are thunderstorms in some areas. The sky can't see a trace of moonlight. It's dark like a giant beast covering the city. In order to save money, Zou Panshu bought it It was a thick coat. He hoped that this coat could be worn for a longer period of time. He specially wore it today to avoid people's eyes and ears. But at the moment, it was a bit of a pain. After wearing it hot, he took it off and it was cold again, and his heart was beating. After a smooth time, every minute and every second became extremely long.

Sitting on the inside of the crosswalk opposite the clubhouse, I found a stone pier to lean against.Knowing that there were still several hours to wait, he ran back and forth without spending any money. He took out the prepared newspapers from the environmental protection bag, spread out a few sheets and sorted out a small space, and sat on the ground like this, leaning against the Shi Dun dozed off to refresh himself.The second-hand mobile phone he bought on purpose had already set an alarm clock. In order to prevent accidents, he deliberately set it to 11 o'clock. According to his experience, Ren Shukuang should have come out around 1 o'clock.He was still worried about whether Ren Shukuang would change places, and thought that even if he wanted to change places, he would not leave so early. While knowing that he had better recharge his energy at this moment to cope with the drunkenness at night, he was also restless and afraid of missing it. He was in a daze and slept very restlessly. He had some strange nightmares. When he woke up at 10:30, he didn't dare to squint anymore, and just started counting the vehicles coming and going from the opposite side.

When the black car with a familiar license plate drove from the exit of the underground parking lot to the gate, Zou Panshu felt his mouth was dry, and he kicked up abruptly. When no car came, he staggered and ran over.

Zou Panshu estimated that the distance was at most 50 meters, but Zou Panshu made himself out of breath. The car had just stopped, and the doorman was still asking the customer if he needed a driver.Ren Shukuang was obviously drunk, and still hated other people's interference. He waved away the hand that was reaching out to support him, and walked towards the car door as straight as possible. He thought he could still control his behavior, and believed that he could drive back alone in such a late night.

"I'll take you back." The gentle and crisp voice sounded, with a little panting, and the tone did not make people feel the toughness of the command, but it was not easy to refute.

Ren Shukuang stopped halfway around the front of the car, raised his eyes and glanced, intending to teach the ignorant boy who dared to speak to him in such a tone, and saw himself in Zou Panshu's eyes. His big misty eyes seem to be able to speak, and they are full of caring and eager anticipation.He shook his head. He had an impression of these eyes, but it seemed to be an illusion. He stared at the person fixedly, his mind was rumbling violently, and he always felt that he could grasp some clue immediately. Can't catch the feeling.

Zou Panshu dared to speak out so boldly because he was fully prepared. Even if he was stared at by Ren Shukuang at the moment and felt guilty, he still insisted on cheering himself up. No matter what, he would not back down, even if he was rejected later. If this is the case, the stalker will also prevent Ren Shukuang from driving by himself, even if he uses a substitute driver in the store, if he misses this opportunity, he will have another chance, but he can't just stay out of it knowing that something will happen to Ren Shukuang .

His palms and back started to sweat. It was really the face of Ren Shukuang who couldn't see his expression in the backlight was a little hazy. He didn't know how much his thoughts would be revealed, and how much should be revealed. He was afraid of being misunderstood too much. I was also afraid that without Ren Shukuang, I would not be able to feel his specialness, so I was thinking anxiously in my heart, when I heard the man say something that sounded like heaven: "Drive."

Ren Shukuang turned around, the doorman opened the rear door quickly, but he didn't go up, but stopped by the passenger's door and waited.The other doorman next to him hastily stepped forward and opened the front door while apologizing, and waited for him to sit down before closing the door.

Zou Panshu looked at it in surprise, and pulled open the door of the driver's cab. To be honest, this was the first time he went on the road independently after getting his driver's license. He had no chance to find a car for a test drive. If you slow down, nothing will happen. It's safer than driving a drunk.

"Do you know the address?" Ren Shukuang asked calmly, unable to tell if there was any other meaning, not even feeling drunk.

If it wasn't for the fact that his sitting posture, which had always been straight, was completely spread out on the backrest at this moment, Zou Panshu would have suspected that his memory was wrong.

"I know." Zou Panshu quickly gave an address.He didn't want to pretend that he didn't know the truth. As for how Ren Shukuang thought he knew it, let him guess. It's a good thing to attract his attention.

Zou Panshu turned on the ignition and shifted nervously. Fortunately, it is an automatic car, which is easier for a novice like him to drive. He only needs to put the slow gear on, hold the steering wheel firmly and look forward, and lightly touch the car with his feet. Stepping on the accelerator, the speed left the clubhouse like a snail.

Ren Shukuang watched him drive the car on the road, and after turning a corner, he stopped facing him and didn't speak again, as if the person next to him was his old driver, doing whatever he wanted, maybe even more confident, because Ren Everyone can feel Zou Panshu's stiffness and tension, those big eyes are staring straight ahead, as if wishing to stare a hole, without blinking.

Zou Panshu's nerves have forgotten the existence of Ren Shukuang since he was on the road, and his own life is nothing. Anyway, he has earned a chance to be reborn, but Ren Shukuang's order is even more distressing to him. There are still many things in this life that he has not done , I didn't say a lot of words, I was so nervous that I was sweating all over and didn't know.

When he parked the car in the designated parking space of the apartment without any friction, he saw Ren Shukuang squinting and dozed off. His heart was beating like a drum for a while, and he didn't know whether Ren Shukuang was drunk or not, what was going on now, Did something happen that I didn't know just now? My attention was focused on driving and looking at the road, and I was hesitant to wake him up. Waking up meant that I needed to negotiate and let me take him upstairs, and I had to face the apartment. people inside.

"Xiaoyu, are you here?"

Zou Panshu's heart trembled, here he is, this person is really drunk, this name will only be uttered when he is very drunk, in his previous life he didn't know that this person had passed away, so he heard that he was a little drunk. Yu promised me not to leave. At that time, I thought that Ren Shukuang's lover had gone abroad, and I felt very sad for him. After that, I began to understand his psychology and began to care about him.

This person is not addicted to alcohol, and always numbs himself with work. Alcohol is the second choice, and finally the most primitive exercise. But to count the number of times he was really drunk, Zou Panshu thought that it was really this time Especially powerful, I rarely saw him drunk after that, maybe he didn't know when he was drunk.

When he was drunk, it was like going back in time, the time stayed in the moment when Xiaoyu left in his mouth, and all he talked about was the past before that.

Hearing this name from Ren Shukuang again, the nostalgia lingering on the tip of his tongue, knowing that that person has passed away, Zou Panshu still can't help feeling sorry for him and hating him at the same time, can he really replace him if he misses him so much?

There is no answer, but it can't stop Zou Panshu's footsteps. He replied with his most gentle voice: "Here we are. Let's go up." He wondered if this person would wake up drunk tomorrow and not remember anything. In his previous life, he took care of him from midnight until dawn, and when he woke up, he revealed it without saying a word. How to live or how to live, there is no change at all.

If this is the sweet dream he hopes most in his subconscious mind, Zou Panshu is willing to dream with him, fulfilling the wish in his heart that Xiaoyu never left.

After locking the car door and erecting his thin but firm body, Zou Panshu secretly praised that his exercise had achieved fruitful results, and felt that he was a little more relaxed than when he was brought back in his previous life.Smelling the body fragrance that has penetrated into the soul, and feeling the temperature of his body again, the places where they fit together rubbed against each other, causing waves of trembling. complex.

When he arrived at the door on the top floor, Zou Panshu didn't dig out his pocket to find the key, but took a deep breath and waited for the doorbell to ring. There was still this hurdle to face.

"It's you? Zou Panshu? What's wrong with him?" Qin Mingyu looked at the person with a surprised face, and murmured in an unbelievable tone.

He hesitated for a short time before reaching out to help.

There was a sound of "pa", and the back of his hand turned red immediately. It was Ren Shukuang who slapped him fiercely, like a wild beast whose territory has been invaded by humans to protect itself.

Ren Shukuang's eyes were still half-closed, and he glanced at the two with a flash of cold light, and the cold light disappeared for a moment, and he was a completely drunk person again, with the weight of his body resting on Zou Panshu's body again.

Zou Panshu was embarrassed and didn't know what to answer, so he explained: "Qin Mingyu, Ren Shukuang is drunk, I'll take him back." He didn't know how to explain the rest, so he just looked at Qin Mingyu without moving.

Zou Panshu couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in, and he came here only after doing enough psychological training, but when he really faced Qin Mingyu, he still felt his heart ache, and he couldn't help but clenched the hand holding Ren Shukuang's waist, and didn't realize it at all. The person who suffered the force was Ren Shukuang.

It didn't matter if it was Qin Mingyu, he couldn't see any disappointed expression, he shrugged his shoulders and backed away, making room for the two of them to enter, and went directly to the kitchen to pour a glass of water.