Shuoyun Feidu

At that time, the surroundings were quiet, the valley was secluded, and only the slight murmuring sound of running water could be heard. Not far away, there was a long and winding stream, and the sunlight shone on the water, making it colorful. There were many petals floating in the water, surrounded by flowers Crowded wild flowers, such dense sea of ​​flowers, are blooming unscrupulously and enchantingly, regardless of the time of the world, making people dazzled and fascinated.

The soft willows on both sides of the bank, the cool and bone-chilling stream flows quietly in the sea of ​​flowers, the clear water is shimmering, and the reflection is shining. Mu Qinghan is standing by the water, and in his sight is the touch of greenery in the sea of ​​flowers opposite. He was thirteen or fourteen years old, with hair like a black waterfall and a green skirt, sitting by the stream and playing in the water. A pair of snow-white slender bare feet were exposed from under the green skirt, immersed in the crystal-clear stream. Dyeing the cool and moist water vapor, accompanied by the fragrance of flowers, the stream is slow, and the surrounding flowers are blooming freely, but Mu Qinghan suddenly felt a little cold at this moment. Knowing why, he just felt cold, so he walked towards the opposite bank. The stream water wetted the upper of his boots, but the water surface, which didn't look wide and wide, could not be crossed no matter how he walked, like entering a blurred nightmare Among them, I only saw flowers blooming in the water, and the girl on the other side stretched her feet to play in the water. In an instant, the past years flashed by in front of her eyes, and Mu Qinghan still held her hand in her mind. A trace of clarity, even if you can't pass through the boundless water in front of you, you still have to walk towards that touch of greenery. However, in the boundless sea of ​​flowers, someone is coming from afar. The slender figure seems to be familiar. , walked to the side of the girl, and then stretched out her hand.

The girl raised her head slightly, holding the light green skirt corner with one hand, with a broken face, she gently took the hand that the man stretched out, and in the intoxication that was full of flowers and as gorgeous as the sea, the figure began to overlap with the man in a trance At the same time, Mu Qinghan watched this scene clearly, but was unable to make a sound, as if there was a voice as clear as water whispering softly in his ears, smiling slowly: "My name is Rongrong..."

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Mu Qinghan's heart was suddenly empty, he didn't know whether he was awake, or if he was still addicted to that nightmare, trapped in a person's smile, he raised a hand slightly, subconsciously Fumbling in his bosom, as if he was looking for something, but he couldn't find it, Mu Qinghan began to feel a little anxious, his hand tried his best to grope around his body, at this moment, a warm hosta was silently stuffed into it. In his hand, someone said in a soft voice, as if in a lifetime, "...is it this?"

At the beginning, it was warm and smooth, and a heart suddenly became stable for the time being. Mu Qinghan rubbed it with his fingers carefully, and could feel the familiar patterns carved on it. It was the pattern of a red phoenix flying to the sky, and he kept it with him all the time. The beloved thing... Mu Qinghan rubbed the hairpin slowly in a daze, and many chaotic memories in his heart came to an abrupt end here, as if he had never woken up. At this moment, he seemed to have understood What, it seems that there is nothing, or it is uncertain. After an unknown period of time, he finally opened his eyes, slowly waking up as if from a dream, and then found himself lying in a strange room with a The soft and comfortable mattress, the room smells of calming incense, there is a basin of clear water on the table next to it, and a snow-white towel is placed on the edge of the basin, a tall and tall figure is standing by the bed, with long black hair Like ink and satin, it is neatly tied in the crown of hair, reflecting a stunning white face. The eyebrows are trimmed like strokes, the lips are like vermilion, the skin is transparent and white, and the facial features are impeccable. They have faded away. The youth that should be, fresh to the point of monsters, is quietly looking at him, the slightly pointed chin that looks proud, the blue eyes that are often unreasonable and unconsciously squinted, at this moment At this moment, they were all silent, and the bright golden sunlight was reflected in the Danfeng's eyes, making it look like a cluster of jumping dark fire was flowing inside.

[... If you say, if you said that what you did just now was with someone you like, wouldn't you feel better? ] The words before coma still rang clearly in his ears, Mu Qinghan thought of many things in the past, many clues that seemed confusing but could not be grasped, he suddenly felt that the light in front of him was too dazzling, The air was too heavy, the body was too tired, and he almost didn't have much strength to remind himself of his current state. He tried his best to look at the person standing at the end of the bed, and looked at the person with slightly drooping eyelashes. The thick eyelashes were as graceful as butterflies. The translucent sunlight reflected softly on that handsome face, casting a faint rose-colored shadow below. Mu Qinghan didn't speak, and couldn't speak for a while, he restrained himself subconsciously I looked at this person in a trance, not knowing what it was like, was it hope, anticipation, fear, or vague ecstasy?He didn't know all of this, he just frowned slightly, looked at the other party, and put the hairpin in his hand beside the pillow without making a sound. He still cherishes it as before.

At this time, Beitang Rongdu was a little confused, his eyes showed a bit of complexity, he didn't know if Mu Qinghan had already guessed something, or just suspected, or confirmed?Before this, Beitang Rongdu never thought that he would have to face such a situation one day, but the fact was exactly like this, he could not help but accept that Mu Qinghan's eyes were looking at him , there was a faint sense of trance in those two extremely black eyes, but they were more serious, as if they were examining something, digging something, looking at him like that, Beitang Rongdu's eyelashes trembled slightly involuntarily, As if flustered, he wanted to avoid the sight that made him feel uncomfortable, but he couldn't do so. At the same time, he had to force a faint smile on the surface, forcing himself to look more natural, and he moved a few times. She lowered her rosy lips and wanted to say something, but suddenly she heard the person lying on the bed speak silently, barely audible: "...What do you mean by that sentence?"

Beitang Rongdu's heartbeat suddenly stopped without any warning. He stretched his smooth cuffs to cover up, but he couldn't say anything. He saw his own shadow in those dark pupils of Mu Qinghan. This time, he really didn't know how to answer. Should he immediately find out a clumsy lie to continue to deceive this person and himself, or should he tell the other party the truth?He didn't know, he really didn't know, and he didn't want to know, but he couldn't help but answer... Beitang Rongdu's voice was vague in his throat, he hesitated for a while, and then he seemed to pull out a smile naturally. However, his tone was not as unreserved as usual, as if trying to hide something, he walked up to Mu Qinghan pretending to be relaxed, stood still, looked at the man's complicated eyes, and said: "You The injury is serious, you need to take good care of it, my king..."

Just halfway through the conversation, one hand suddenly clasped Beitang Rongdu's right wrist tightly. Mu Qinghan stared at Beitang Rongdu in front of him, feeling a little absent-minded for a moment, thinking of a person who was both happy and angry. He couldn't remember how long it had been since he was so emotionally agitated, and even his hands began to tremble slightly, and he couldn't control it anymore. At this moment, Mu Qinghan almost held his breath and held Beitang The hand on Rong Du's wrist was also a little bit out of control, and his mind was confused. Before that, he had always thought that he would never have such a moment of hope again, and there was nothing in this world worth his hope. It was a vague hopeless contradictory mood, which was so heavy that it was almost unbearable...Beitang Rongdu was a little unsteady on his feet, but there was something faintly in his eyes, which condensed into dots of gathering and scattering waves, which he had never seen before. Having been to Mu Qinghan like this, the person in his memory has been gentle, desperate, angry, and powerless, but he has never experienced the intertwining of contradictions at this time. Beitang Rongdu wants to treat Mu Qing Han smiled, but the corners of his mouth just twitched, as if he had given up all his persistence and concealment in an instant. He looked at the person in front of him, and finally said in a low voice: "...Look, now, You probably don't want to see this king anymore... But that's fine, anyway, maybe you will know sooner or later, now, this day has finally come."

The hand that was holding Beitang Rongdu's wrist was slowly and silently released. Mu Qinghan's eyes didn't blink for a moment, and a certain emotion that had been suppressed for too long rolled in his chest in an instant, and he couldn't even take a deep breath. , he just kept staring at Beitang Rongdu, with an uncontrollable emotion almost rushing out of his eyes, he really couldn't calm down, and he didn't want to figure out anything at all. It runs through mercilessly, regardless of anyone's will, even if someone wants to control his own destiny and confronts him, it is only an inevitable cause and effect, not something that can be changed...

Looking at Mu Qinghan's expression, Beitang Rongdu suddenly felt a little flustered, like a urchin who was caught on the spot and did something wrong. In fact, he has done many things that can be called inhumane, but even someone as cruel as him People still have some softness like ordinary people. In some processes that were only full of calculations and conspiracy at the beginning, they accidentally invested in emotions that he didn't expect. At this moment, he didn't know that Mu Qing What kind of reaction will Han have, is it resentment, despair, surprise or confusion?No one likes to be deceived, but for this person, I have been weaving one lie after another from beginning to end.

Suddenly, a hand slowly held his hand. It was not a soft and soft touch. The thin calluses on it even made people feel a little itchy, but it was tightened bit by bit, starting from the tiger's mouth, He has been holding every finger, groping and testing, as if trying to taste whether it is the feeling in his memory. These actions may have lasted for a long time, until the palms of his hands are about to sweat, Beitang Rongdu Cai opened his mouth slightly hoarsely, and sighed softly: "Do you still think it's worth it now? It was fake at the beginning, and even afterward. You want to stay together forever, but in the end, even 'Rong Rong' It's all just flowers in the mirror, 'she' looks at you madly in love, sees you sad and troubled alone, but pretends to know nothing, sees nothing, simply treats you as a fool... such a truth , are you willing? You have a deep love, no complaints and no regrets, you regard 'her' as your god, you remember the appearance of 'her' in your heart, and you can't forget it for a moment, but even that face that makes you dream , are just painted skins, the things you cherish are not taken seriously...'She' is all lying to you."

Beitang Rongdu's voice became soft and light at some point, it was the soft murmur of a young girl, not abrupt or unexpected, like a butterfly resting on a piano, like a gurgling stream, the past and the past are coming one after another , so familiar, so familiar, as if after a long, long time, the eyes looked through the autumn water, and finally met again, as if seeing you for the first time, as if seeing you again, so unreal, and so sad and joyful , as if separated by distant time and years, slowly reuniting with that person in memory... This feeling, who can really distinguish the taste of it, and who can really hope to see this person again?

Mu Qinghan raised his hand to cover his eyes, but even so, that wet water mark still uncontrollably and slowly meandering down from the corner of the eye without warning, shining brightly, and then Disappeared in the black hair... Mu Qinghan has long forgotten when he stopped crying, maybe it started when he remembered, he always thought that as a man himself, He will not shed tears for anything, even if he has encountered the greatest humiliation that a man can endure, he has never shed a tear of shame, but at this moment, he cannot control himself, no longer Unable to control, an inexplicable emotion dominates him, just letting his eye sockets wet under his palm, something flows out of it... what is it?

A soft hand was gently placed on his face, with warm fingertips along the skin, slowly wiping away the line of moisture, a strange yet familiar voice whispered: "...Are you hating me. "Beitang Rongdu's eyes flickered like a ghostly fire. He looked at the man in front of him quietly. He had never seen this man's tears. No matter when, there seemed to be nothing that could make such a strong man The other party is subdued or weak, so he knows that his hands are trembling slightly, and he doesn't know what to do. Yes, he has always had feelings for this person. From the beginning of the design to the present, even himself, I don't know when he gradually invested in a trace of sincerity in this purposeful script. He remembered that this person used to push the swing for him, and then looked at him from the sidelines, just like that. Watching quietly, and occasionally meeting each other's eyes, it is undeniable that there may not be some inexplicable happiness in it, even after many years, that scene, that little bit of picture is still not erased, perhaps inadvertently When I was there, it was engraved in the depths of my memory...

However, Mu Qinghan suddenly pulled Beitang Rongdu's hand away. He sat up, not caring about the situation in front of him. He shouldn't move his body at all. Talking, just staring at the other person closely, he didn't know if he should be angry, but he only knew that seeing this person at this moment, looking face to face, with four eyes facing each other, exchanging breaths, was already his dream... ...Mu Qinghan suddenly pulled hard, with such force that he pulled Beitang Rongdu into his arms. He hugged this person who was not the pretty girl in his memory, firmly, tightly As if afraid that he would disappear again, afraid that he was hiding in a corner that could not be found, afraid that he would never see him again.

Mu Qinghan's face was buried in Beitang Rongdu's hair, feeling that fragrant breath, something slowly diffused from his heart, if at this moment he suddenly found that everything was just a Dreams, such a cold fact, no one can bear... Mu Qinghan has never had more contradictory emotions than this moment, pain and happiness are intertwined and replaced, complex, trance, but even if the other party uses another The face gave him an unexpected truth or blow, but at this moment, all this still made him feel the long-lost freshness, the surprise that the whole person was about to come back from the darkness of ignorance, That kind of fragrant pain, full of bitter happiness, embracing together, churning, stirring, you can't taste what it's like, but you can't deny that it's all real, because of the dream, how can you feel it? will be so clear?

Beitang Rongdu was hugged tightly by the man, so tightly that he was even a little out of breath. In fact, his reason had already told him to push this man away, but this time he didn't push him away, yes , Why did you push it away? He obviously didn't hate it, and this person was holding him, and his heavy and rapid breathing was blowing against his neck. He could even clearly feel this person's strange and complicated emotions. , and these are all because of him, all because of him... Beitang Rongdu was silent for a long time, and after a long while, he said in a low voice: "...you don't hate me?" His answer was one kiss after another, It wasn't a violent storm, nor was it a drizzle, but Mu Qinghan just kept kissing him, non-stop, non-stop, raining kisses on his face, what kind of feeling was that, No one can tell, but it's still lingering, Mu Qinghan doesn't know if he is still awake, but he knows that he longs for this person so much, he wants to hold him tightly, never let go, never let go.

--If there is a destiny, after the lights are all knotted, the three feet of snow will turn white overnight, and there will be no words until then, but there will be only ashes, without rekindling?I used to think that even looking at it again was an extravagant hope, I used to think that my whole life could only be accompanied by the cherished memories, I used to think that I would never join hands again, but now, at this moment, at this moment, that photo is not branded on The face deep in my heart is close at hand, I can smell a vaguely unfamiliar but familiar fragrance in my nose, and the body that is not slender is hugged in my arms... How can he let go?

Beitang Rongdu didn't move, just let Mu Qinghan hold him, let the other party vent his emotions, but he was calm after all, even if he couldn't bear it, he still patted Mu Qinghan's shoulder after a long hug , whispered: "Now you see, I am thousands of miles away from the person you imagined, not 'Rong Rong', but 'Rong Du', I am not even a woman... Do you understand? "Mu Qinghan hugged Beitang Rongdu even more tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "...I know." Beitang Rongdu gently pushed the other away silently, and said, "Then, don't you care at all? Moreover, there are still many things, you may not have time to think about it now, but..." But Mu Qinghan just resolutely circled Beitang Rongdu again, and clasped his shoulders tightly with his fingers. In his life, before he met a certain person, he never had a strong desire for anything, but later he had this idea, wanting to have a person, thinking about it, not willing to be taken away by others, even now, he still has this idea. I still want this person, even if it's 'he' instead of 'she'... Mu Qinghan stretched out his arms and hugged the person he couldn't lose anymore, and said: "...I don't know if I am I really care about these things, whether I can accept them, but I once told you, "What I said to you and swore to you are all true, I will never regret it in my life, and I am willing to give you a hairpin for the rest of my life", These words, not because you changed your face, voice, and identity, it will change, and you will pretend that nothing has happened..."

--Yes, no, he has already lost a lot of things, but only this person, he can no longer lose, he still wants the person in his arms at the moment, no matter whether this person is a man or a woman, he does not want to deceive For himself, he loves this person deeply and needs this person. Compared with other things, more than anything else, the presence of this person is the most important thing, isn't it?

Beitang Rongdu didn't know what to say, and he didn't want to say it. He had thought of many possibilities. He thought that Mu Qinghan would hesitate, be angry, or walk away, or even draw his sword to face each other, etc., but at this moment This kind of situation was not what he had imagined, but it seemed to be a very natural result, without any abruptness--what kind of affection is it that loves so blindly regardless of everything, is it worth it?Isn't it worth it?Does this person really see his choice clearly and understand what he has to face?

Beitang Rongdu suddenly wanted to laugh, but he couldn't do it, he couldn't even pull the corner of his mouth a little bit. In his thoughts, the reason why he has been refusing to tell Mu Qinghan the truth , in addition to various other considerations, there is another reason, that is, he is worried that this person will be angry, and he does not want the relationship between each other to break down. Frankly, Mu Qinghan would give such an answer - so it turns out, is it that simple.