summer like smoke

Christmas has passed and New Year's Eve is approaching. As a long-standing big family in Philadelphia, the Xia family still has to hold banquets on the table.

When Su Yuwei took Lin Yan to Xia's house, the whole Xia's house was full of people, drinking and drinking.The five big and three white people with thick blond hair and blue eyes were chattering and chirping. Lin Yan couldn't understand the harsh bird language, and he also found it ugly. They laughed and communicated with each other with exaggerated expressions and body parts.Su Yuwei is obviously a frequent visitor and acquaintance here, as soon as he appeared, people would come up to him one after another to say hello and talk to him.

Of course, this time, without saying a few words, the Yankees who are bold and enthusiastic by nature always quickly shifted the topic and eyes to the exquisite oriental beauty who was born beside Su Yuwei.

Some people even stared straight at the eyes, and their lustful looks made Lin Yan feel sick and almost want to vomit.What's more, they wanted to play hands and feet, or utter obscenities to flirt with (although Lin Yan couldn't understand, but facial expressions are also one of the very effective communication methods for human beings), but fortunately, Su Yuwei stopped them in time.

"He's one of Adrian's, take it easy and watch your paws and mouth, buddy."

When everyone heard this sentence, their movements were all in unison. Although they were not reconciled, they did not dare to do anything wrong and take the next step. After struggling for a while, they could only shrug their shoulders and say "Oh, that's really a pity." , and then tangled and depressed, and gave up resentfully.

However, it is not ruled out that there are a few who can't help being daring, sneaking up to Su Yuwei's side and whispering into his ear, "Hey buddy, tell Adrian for me, One day, if he gets tired of playing, can he bring this beauty... to us for a try? Hehe, I never thought that you East Asians could be so beautiful when you combine the facial features. It's incredible... It's so fucking amazing! No wonder Adrian stayed in China some time ago, and now it seems that he has found a beauty. Tsk tsk, if it were me, I would be reluctant to leave."

Regarding the words of such people, Su Yuwei usually adopts a lukewarm, neither salty nor indifferent attitude of ignoring them, smiling slightly, and lightly throws a sentence at them: "Okay, then you guys, just wait slowly. "

Lin Yan didn't have much interest in Caucasians in the first place, and he always felt that they were reckless savages who hadn't fully evolved yet, but now, he didn't like them even more.Su Yu protected Lin Yan all the way to the place where he could finally see Xia Zhaoshi, and it was also within Xia Zhaoshi's line of sight. Then he breathed a long sigh of relief, and smiled as if relieved: "Okay, the mission of the flower guardian is finally complete. It's over, you can go find him, I'm going to find my beauty too." After speaking, his eyes immediately filled with all kinds of tenderness, and the tenderness floated to a corner deep in the hall.

Lin Yan curiously followed Su Yuwei's gaze straight ahead, and at the moment when the familiar figure with whom he had met several times came into view, he was momentarily taken aback, and then laughed: "Oh──" He deliberately dragged With a long voice, he pondered, "So the person you like is Ji Wanxiao."

If it was Ji Wanxiao, then Lin Yan felt that he was just ranked as the second most beautiful by Su Yuwei, which is acceptable and fair.

At this time, Ji Wanxiao was playing games and betting with a group of his white friends, drinking and laughing, his eyes half-closed and his cheeks slightly red. He loosened his tie and unbuttoned a snow-white haute couture suit. The neck and chest are looming, and the quarter of the western temperament inherited in the bones is really rushing towards the face, and it can't be covered.

A great beauty indeed.Moreover, she is also a top-notch beauty with both Chinese and Western styles, and can be both male and female.

Can't help but think of Ji Wanxiao and Xiao Lan's old stories that have been tossed about for so many years. Lin Yan tilted his head and looked at Su Yuwei's half of the picture carefully. Amidst the beauties in the distance, it seemed as if everything around her was quickly receding into the background and turned into floating clouds. The intoxicated side face, his expression didn't know what to think, and suddenly reached out his hand to pat Su Yuwei's shoulder for the first time, and smiled very sincerely Said: "It seems that it is not easy for you... Heh, I wish you good luck."

If there is a chance, Lin Yan really wants to have a good conversation with Su Yuwei, which one is more painful and tormenting, between deep love and deep love, or deep love and ruthless love.

As soon as Su Yuwei's front foot left, Lin Yan faced Xia Zhaoshi in the distance in the next second, with an expression of neither fear nor arrogance, and his attitude was neither humble nor overbearing.

But only he himself knows what kind of earthquakes and turbulent waves he is experiencing in his heart at this moment.How longing I used to be day and night like crazy, now how hard to resist the depths of my gaze.Lin Yan remained calm on the surface, but in fact it was only because he was unwilling to reveal himself to Xia Zhaoshi, even the slightest bit of hunger, thirst and weakness.

He knew that Xia Zhaoshi didn't like him like this.He remembered that Xia Zhaoshi said to him that day that he hated it, hated it very much, and even hated it the most, that he was like this.

So he is changing.So he is pretending.Xia Zhaoshi, you see...do you understand?

Layers of blue waves slowly appeared in Lin Yan's eyes, and the only figure in the waves was the one with picturesque eyebrows.

There are so many people here.Beautiful women, handsome men, rich people, officials, wealthy people, high-ranking people...everything, everything.But his eyes, his Lin Yan's eyes, can only see Xia Zhaoshi.

In the depths of the peach blossoms, there is a human face, no one knows where.

Sean next to Xia Zhaoshi is a well-known playboy in Philadelphia, with blonde hair, blue eyes, wheat complexion, well-proportioned muscles, an American handsome man, cool and charming.Ever since Lin Yan came in, those two bright green eyes had been staring straight at Lin Yan like hungry wolves, and the thieves never stopped.Sean, who is even more ridiculous, has a carefree and open personality, but he is indeed an authentic China hand.Especially recently, I don’t know what to do, my brain is cramped, and I am so obsessed with Chinese classical literature that I am so obsessed with it. Whenever I meet people, I will say that I am studying... "Dream of Red Mansions" these days!

Regardless of his appearance or state, Lin Yan completely hit Sean's cuteness. Every unconscious move, every frown and frown made Sean tremble and excited.In the end, he couldn't control himself and used his crappy Chinese with extremely exaggerated and weird tone, shaking his head and pretending to exclaim at Xia Zhaoshi next to him, and praised loudly: "Wow! Adrian, this person is you in China What a beauty! Sure enough, if you want to talk about the top beauty, only you East Asians can have the facial features! Oh, by the way, his surname is also Lin, right? Oh my God! Isn't this the real sister Lin! You see, there are two eyebrows that seem to be frowning but not frowning, and a pair of eyes that seem to be weeping but not weeping. There are two sorrows in the state, and the disease is full of tenderness. There are tears, tender Panting slightly. When you are quiet, you are like a beautiful flower shining in the water. When you are in action, you are like a weak willow supporting the wind. The heart is more open than dry, and the disease is like Xizi, which is three points better... Oh God! Except for the gender difference, Cao Gong’s description , It’s him! He’s such a sick beauty. Although Westerners will never be able to understand your Chinese’s sick aesthetic, I have to admit that your Chinese’s aesthetic is really Very sharp and reasonable..."

"shut up."

Xia Zhaoshi frowned and interrupted his friend's tiresome chatter, and looked at Lin Yan with gloomy eyes, not very welcoming.

Lin Yan's complexion did not look very good - no, it should be said to be very bad, his cheeks were so pale that it was not normal.But at this time, Xia Zhaoshi didn't think much about it. He just thought that Lin Yan was afraid of the cold, and he was too tired after a long-distance flight of more than ten hours.

Sean couldn't bear his lust, and as soon as he finished drinking, he was ready to walk over to show his fists, and teased and teased this oriental classical beauty that perfectly fits the image of Lin Daiyu in his heart, but as soon as he took a step, Xia Zhaoshi caught her firmly with his eyes and hands. Grabbing his wrist, he warned in a low voice, "What do you want to do, he is mine."

Sean was taken aback.He is very familiar with Xia Zhaoshi, it can even be said that he cannot be more familiar with him, so he knows that Xia Zhaoshi is an extremely fake man, he is very good at disguising, and he always puts on a gentleman in front of others. When did you see him so unabashedly angry and stern?I especially remember that in Las Vegas, although Xia Zhaoshi was smart, he was not good at gambling like a demon (he was born with bad luck, so there was nothing he could do about it).After one night, not only did he lose a series of zeros, but he was also snatched away by a group of his friends, who was originally a beautiful and enchanting, and most importantly, a very clean unopened MB──at that time Well, Xia Zhaoshi wasn't as angry as he is now, he just shrugged his shoulders and said lightly, "It doesn't matter, I will give it to you and play with it."

The Xia Zhaoshi who looked like that at that time is really very different from the Xia Zhaoshi who looks like this now, thousands of miles apart. Sean was stunned for a while and finally came back to his senses, and asked in amazement: "Huh? Why? Didn't you say last time that you and him have finished playing and goodbye? You are still not allowed to touch it?... I rely on you As for ah!"

Xia Zhaoshi was silent for a few seconds, narrowed his eyes slowly, and paused every word: "As long as he is in front of me, then he is mine."

As long as Lin Yan is in front of me, Xia Zhaoshi, then he is still mine.No one can touch it.No one can move.

Sean was embarrassed when he heard the words, and he was speechless for a long time before finally choking out a sentence: "Yes, Mr. Xia, your desire to control has broken again. In my opinion, your disease really needs to be cured. If you let it continue to deteriorate like this, sooner or later you will suffer from it." One day I want to hurt others and myself." After thinking for a while, he leaned forward very gossip, stroked his chin and smacked his lips, with a thoughtful expression on his face, "But... hehe, it's a bit strange. It's the first time I see you so angry Are you so anxious, is it really just because you don't like others touching the things you have touched? Um... why do I feel that you seem to be really, a little bit moved by this beautiful woman Lin? "

Xia Zhaoshi was startled without a trace, and glanced at Sean coldly: "If you don't speak, no one will treat you as dumb."

Did he have feelings for Lin Yan?Oh, no, no, how is this possible, how is this possible.He won't be emotional with a person, and he doesn't want to be emotional with a person.

To be enamored with a person, to like or even to love, what kind of tenderness and entanglement is it like, thousands of turns, fascinated, and lingering emotions.In the process, he will gradually lose himself, forget himself, and even abandon himself and abandon himself, and he will do so willingly!The panic feeling of not being able to control oneself and everything is really terrifying and beyond imagination.He Xia Zhaoshi didn't need it, let alone wanted it.

As Xia Zhaoshi thought about it, his expression gradually became more ugly and gloomy. Sean observed the words and expressions, and knew that if he continued to tease him, he would touch the reverse scale, so he curled his lips and didn't dare to provoke him anymore.Suddenly I thought of Napoleon's evaluation of China, that classic saying is indeed reasonable, the Chinese are not angry, but once they are really angry, it will become very scary.Especially Chinese people like Xia Zhaoshi, who are sinister and cunning, who hide their knives in their smiles.

Xia Zhaoshi thought that Lin Yan would come to look for him, but he didn't expect that Lin Yan looked at him from a distance for a while, then suddenly shifted his eyes and figure, turned around and walked to a place that was completely opposite to him.It was beside an elegant, extravagant and full of aura woman.

Xia Zhaoshi's face darkened suddenly, but he was taken aback immediately when he turned his head to look.That woman was none other than his mother, Zhao Rulin.

Zhao Rulin was only 16 years old when he gave birth to Xia Zhao, so he is only in his early 40s now. With proper maintenance and dressing up, even if he is standing among the beautiful young people, he is not too far behind. On the contrary, it has a unique and unparalleled aura due to the accumulation of years and experience.

Lin Yan knew about this woman's deeds.On the Tao, she is as famous as her deeds.Zhao Rulin was originally an orphan. Ever since she was rescued by Uncle Xia who was 15 years older than her, Xia Cheng, at the age of 13, she has been by his side all the time. Even though he almost saved his life from the god of death several times, he never left and never gave up.

Until this time, Xia Cheng himself first abandoned their mother and son.

Although there is no priority in love, and there is no right or wrong, but because Lin Yan likes Xia Zhao, he protects his weaknesses to death, so he also hates Yan Jiaqi and his mother.Even if Xia Cheng really likes a woman, it is actually her.

It is obvious that everything about Xia Zhaoshi has been inherited from Zhao Rulin, no matter his facial features, his personality, or his scheming.

Lin Yan once silently compared the three women in his heart.Li Weizhe's mother, Li Yanxin, was an innocent girl who would never grow up all her life; his mother, Qiao Xiaoyin, was a complicated woman with both maturity and immaturity, and only Zhao Rulin was a real queen.

Although the former two are also strong women to some extent, it is undeniable that they both changed and even destroyed themselves for love.And only Zhao Rulin, no matter how much she loves, but without love, she is still herself.She will always be herself.

Live the same way, walk the same way.Even if she was left alone halfway, she persisted in living and walked to the end alone.

Perhaps Xia Zhaoshi's hard heart, ruthlessness and ruthlessness come from here.Lin Yan really hates and loves this, resists and attracts, suffers and is fascinated.

Standing in front of Zhao Rulin, Lin Yan politely stretched out his right hand, bent his eyes and smiled slightly: "Hi Aunt Zhao, I am Lin Yan. I don't know if Xia Zhaoshi mentioned me to you, but he once told me I said that one day, I will bring me to visit you."

Zhao Rulin returned Lin Yan's grip with an elegant smile, but said, "Lin Yan? Who is it?"

The disappointment in his heart flashed by, Lin Yan sighed secretly, his eyes were burning without avoiding fear, he looked deeply at Zhao Rulin, and said word by word: "Yes, someone who likes your son."

He said so.Let go of his arrogance and arrogance.

Zhao Rulin raised his eyebrows, squinted his eyes and looked at Lin Yan's face carefully for a moment, the admiration for his amazing beauty in his eyes gradually rose, and finally nodded and admitted: "Yes, you are indeed the type he will like, "As he spoke, he raised his glass to Xia Zhaoshi who was in the distance, and pointed at him, "So, does he like you?"

Lin Yan smiled slightly, and cleverly replied: "He will like me." His voice was light and firm.

One day, there will be such a day, he likes me.love me.

After I die, he will remember me, Lin Yan, for the rest of his life.

"Heh──" Zhao Rulin lowered his head and chuckled, shaking the wine glass with his slender fingers: "Okay, then you, come on."

Later Xia Zhaoshi brought Lin Yan back to the room.Lin Yan looked around curiously and freshly, touching here and there, and sighed with intoxication: "So you grew up here? Haha, I regret that I didn't seize the opportunity just now and talk to Su Yuwei. Ask more about your childhood embarrassment."

He didn't exaggerate or tell lies, but he really wanted to know, really wanted to know.In the past, he felt that there was still a lot of time, but now, he could only spend his life desperately.

However, it is not enough.Far from enough.

He didn't want to die...he didn't want to die.It's true that he is very bad, but he actually doesn't want to torture Xia Zhaoshi at all.What made Xia Zhaoshi remember him for the rest of his life, what made Xia Zhaoshi never forget him, what made Xia Zhaoshi never look up to others, what made Xia Zhaoshi lose his love forever and have no happiness... If he can not die, if he can not die!

──Then how could he be so wicked.

He just gave it a go.When a person is about to die, his words are good and his actions are crazy.All his badness is because he is going to die.

If he was alive, and Xia Zhaoshi was destined to never love him for the rest of his life, then Lin Yan would rather die the moment Xia Zhaoshi fell in love with him.

It's a pity that Xia Zhaoshi ignored it, and didn't hear the fear and loneliness behind Lin Yan's teasing.He just stared deeply at Lin Yan for a few minutes, and asked calmly and slowly: "Why did you put down your pride and come to me? I remember that I made it clear to you last time that what I admire and value the most is Your pride."

Lin Yan blinked, paused for a few seconds, and suddenly the corners of his mouth twitched playfully, revealing a very beautiful and warm smile: "Because I miss you," he said, tilting his head with a lovely expression, "How about it, Are you satisfied with this answer? Is it enough?"

Xia Zhaoshi held Lin Yan's chin expressionlessly, squeezed slightly, and slowly narrowed his eyes: "So you mean, in your heart now, I am more important than your pride?"

The disgust and disdain in that tone, Lin Yan kept hypnotizing himself, but didn't hear it.

"No," he shook his head slowly, his watery eyes were extremely sincere, and he said softly, word by word, "What is pride? Xia Zhaoshi, you are more important than my life."

You are more important than my life.

And it is far more important.

This is real.Because at this moment, two-thirds of his life is in Xia Zhaoshi, your palm.

Without any warning, Lin Yan stretched out his hand and hugged the long-lost Xia Zhaoshi's waist, pressed his head heavily on Xia Zhaoshi's shoulder, and sucked hard, hard.The familiar smell made him go crazy uncontrollably, but he was calm like never before.

He closed his eyes, spread his wings, and let himself fly in the gentle and safe darkness.

"I put my pride and my life in your hands."

"...all, in your hands."

But do you want it, Xia Zhaoshi?

If you don't want it this time, then I'm not sure whether there will be a next time after all.

I'm not sure if I'm still alive, but I can give you a third chance.

Xia Zhaoshi's eyes sank, and he actually smiled: "Why don't I want that?" He picked up Lin Yan and walked to the bed, and threw Lin Yan heavily on the bed, his tall body was pressed down, condescending, Overwhelming, "And, I want it now."

Lin Yan was stunned for half a second, and when he came to his senses, big blushes suddenly appeared uncontrollably on his face, and the ecstasy in his eyes had nowhere to escape, so he quickly entangled him obediently and obediently, spreading his legs embarrassingly, Shyly opened the body.

When facing Xia Zhao, he always has endless reserves and shame.

But he was so overjoyed.

Familiar body, familiar temperature, familiar touch, familiar process...but it seems to be brand new that has never been experienced before.After a brief farewell, he missed everything about Xia Zhaoshi.

From the moment he entered, Lin Yan tightly hooked Xia Zhaoshi's neck, buried his head deeply in the sweaty, scorching shoulders and necks of each other, rubbed back and forth, and murmured softly over and over again. : "Xia Zhaoshi...remember me, remember me...don't, forget me."

Please remember me, Xia Zhaoshi.Please, don't forget about me.Over and over again, over and over again, tirelessly and tirelessly, even though his mouth was crushed and he couldn't cry, he still persevered and moaned like this bitterly.As if possessed.

He hoped that every sentence, every word in these words, and even the tone and sound of every sentence, every word, and the ups and downs, could be firmly engraved in Xia Zhaoshi's mind and never be forgotten.

He admitted that he was timid, weak and incompetent.He was afraid of many things, many, many things.He was afraid of death, the cold, the dark, the loneliness, the loneliness.I am afraid that no one will remember, no one will remember the life and death.It was so desolate, he felt hurt just thinking about it.

If possible, at this moment Lin Yan really wanted to kill Xia Zhaoshi himself.Kill him and let him go with him.He really wanted to kill him.

As the climax approached, this idea became stronger and clearer in Lin Yan's heart.Even in the end, it was simply soul-stirring and roaring.

Finally, at the moment when the spring water in his body melted and the warm current spread everywhere, Lin Yan let out a low whimper. The hard and cold feeling rose from his sweaty, high arched back all the way up, and finally climbed slowly to Xia Zhaoshi, which was steaming and high temperature spread neck.Lin Yan straightened his upper body and gently bit Xia Zhaoshi's ear, his voice was like a gossamer, like a ghost: "If I die... Xia Zhaoshi, if one day I die... Will you, will you... Come with me and die together?"

A pair of sharp scissors that dazzled people's eyes was clinging to Xia Zhaoshi's clearly visible arteries in his neck.As long as the sharp blade is just one millimeter forward, it can easily end Xia Zhaoshi's vulnerable life at this moment.

It was when Lin Yan was just walking around the room to have a look around, somehow he accidentally picked it up.It turned out that in his subconscious, he didn't even know that he had wanted to do this for a long, long time.

He is bad like this, and he loves like this.Even he himself felt incredible and terrified.

The lingering aftertaste of the orgasm gradually receded, and the originally charming and fiery lust was quickly cooled and frozen by this knife of severing love, and it could not turn back and froze.Xia Zhaoshi was lying on his body, his face was against the light, and he couldn't see clearly the expression of his brows.

It's been a long time since he spoke, his voice was deep and hoarse after a love affair, sexy as always, the only difference is that this time, it also brought some categorical indifference: "I want company when I'm alive, and I want company when I'm dead. "In the shadows, Lin Yan vaguely saw Xia Zhao and raised his beautiful eyebrows, "You know Lin Yan, you are really weak and cheap like this."

Xia Zhaoshi, you are really a sharp devil.

Lin Yan's eyes slowly floated up fine and small spots of light, and softness poured out bit by bit, his pupils gradually converged into a shining and magnificent wave, the boundless sea of ​​stars, and he suddenly smiled.Although he himself didn't know why, what he was laughing at.

"Yes, I'm delusional, I'm just delusional," his voice was very soft, just like the soundless, sparse and shattered snow outside the window at this moment, "but Xia Zhaoshi, I just... just, really annoying , just one person."

He just hates being alone.The most annoying, alone.

Everyone doesn't like to be alone, but no one can understand Lin Yan's mood.Those difficult years of fleeing for thousands of miles; those panic experiences of being locked up in a dark room by their parents, locked at the bottom of the box, and stored in his home; The hopelessness of not coming -- no one, who can, really understand.

Life and separation in the last second may be death in the next moment.

So as early as that time, Lin Yan had put away his tears and gritted his teeth, and silently swore to himself in his heart that if he could no longer be alone, then no matter what, he would never be alone again.

But Xia Zhaoshi only felt that he was weak.

He is lonely.

Thoughts flashed by, and the right hand holding the scissors couldn't help shaking. Xia Zhaoshi's eyes flashed, and he seized the opportunity to squeeze Lin Yan's wrist and flick it vigorously. The scissors flew out immediately and hit the corner of the table on the ground. There were two loud bangs.

Apart from a little pain in his hands, Lin Yan had nothing to regret on his face.Anyway, he couldn't really do it anyway.

In fact, it wasn't even a temptation at all, he knew too well that Xia Zhaoshi wouldn't want to die.He just, just-

Just what, he thought and thought, thought and thought, in the end, he couldn't tell why.Maybe it's because somewhere deep in his heart, after all, there is still a little silly expectation and delusional hope?That faint, bleak, grayer and smaller than fluorescent light, hopeless.There were very few things in the first place, but now, there is nothing left.Bet everything on it──

He lost.

But he didn't blame Xia Zhaoshi.This was not Xia Zhaoshi's fault.Everything is his own, he has to blame himself, moths fly to the flame, he commits a crime knowingly, he knows he is wrong and he is wrong.

The courage to know the ending and go all the way to the end is foolishness.

When did Lin Yan become so stupid.

Lin Yan blinked, and wanted to close it as if tired, but couldn't close it reluctantly.How long can I see the face hanging above my head at this moment?The eyelids trembled slightly, water droplets rolled and fell on the tip of the eyelashes, and the crystal eyelashes were like petals blown by the rain and the wind.

Since the danger was lifted, the two have been silent.The surrounding air was heavy and flowing, and the tense atmosphere was solidified. Xia Zhaoshi half-closed his eyes and looked down at Lin Yan. He didn't know how long it had passed, but finally something happened.One hand stretched five fingers into the depths of Lin Yan's wet hair and pulled it desperately. The other hand was raised high and then fell heavily, slapping Lin Yan hot and loud across the face with a ferocious and irritable expression on his face. Xin Xin yelled furiously without concealing: "How dare you take a knife to me!? You actually want to kill me!? Who gave you such courage? You are so courageous...you are mine! Who is going to kill me? You do this? Lin Yan!?"

Xia Zhaoshi was really mad.A ball of fire was burning in his chest, a mouthful of bad breath was stuck in his chest, a trace of unwillingness was stuck in his chest, and there was even a touch of fear that he didn't realize was lying in his chest!The spring breeze blows wildly, and the dead come back to life.He wants to vent!He is going to explode!He is going to kill!

My whole body was in severe pain as if it was about to explode.

But he didn't know what he was angry about, and why he felt so angry.He was just upset, simply upset, wanted to get angry, got angry instinctively.

Many people wanted to kill him, and even wished that his life would be worse than death. Xia Zhaoshi knew it and knew it.And he also understands these people very well, or to be more precise, he doesn't care about these people at all, he will kill them if he wants to, come if he has the ability, he is not afraid, he disdains; but he has never thought about it, let alone imagined it , Among these people, unexpectedly, there will be Lin Yan.

He humiliated Lin Yan, but Lin Yan couldn't hate him.He tortured Lin Yan, but Lin Yan couldn't treat him as an enemy.

So what exactly should Lin Yan think of him, and what should be the relationship between them? Xia Zhaoshi never, never, seriously thought about these questions.

He just couldn't bear Lin Yan's betrayal of him, and couldn't bear the fact that one day, Lin Yan would swing a knife at him.

That drives him crazy.In Xia Zhaoshi's heart, even if the whole world is against him, Lin Yan should stand by his side, with a languid posture and a frivolous smile, but extremely firm, unwavering until death.

He is his.

is his.

his.

Xia Zhaoshi didn't think about it, but this was all his confidence.No reason, no reason asked.So, after a long, long time, when he finally knew what this confidence was and what it came from... He couldn't say that it wasn't his fault.

He can't blame anyone else, he's his own betrayer.

He is so selfish.He just wanted Lin Yan to always have him in his heart, but he didn't want even a little shadow of Lin Yan to be in his heart.To a certain extent, Xia Zhaoshi is a real coward who is worthy of the name. He refuses to pay because he is afraid of getting hurt. He is weak and incompetent.

That slap was so heavy that Lin Yan was stunned. His ears were still ringing, and his eyes were pitch black.The whole person was blown directly from one side of the bed to the other side of the bed, his face was buried deeply in the soft and sunken pillow, his head was dizzy, and his skin was burning and painful.

【You are so brave】.Ha, when a person is about to die, his behavior is also crazy.

【Who allowed you to do this】.Ha, no one, but himself, and this unfair fate, ordered him to do this.

【you are mine】.huh

I'm yours... But Xia Zhaoshi, you don't want me.

Feeling a little better, Lin Yan slowly turned his body and lay flat, his pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes filled a thousand feet, and the blue waves overflowed, but they didn't overflow after all.Adorably pursing her lips and slightly raising her chin, Lin Yan said softly, "Xia Zhaoshi, kiss me."

Kiss me, kiss me.We haven't kissed for a long time.One month and seven days, do you remember, have you counted them.The tormenting feeling of longing like mad worry, endless, ecstasy... Xia Zhaoshi, have you tasted it.

"I miss you."

real.Because of that taste, he tasted it day and night.

Xia Zhaoshi looked down at Lin Yan with aloof eyes and cold eyes.As always, the white fingertips, which were neatly trimmed to the point of being too clean, went all the way up from Lin Yan's chin, and finally stopped slowly at the corners of Lin Yan's slightly raised beautiful eyes.Rubbing for a long time, Xia Zhaoshi suddenly squinted his eyes, and many complex emotions that could not be explained in words flashed through his deep, dark and jade-like pupils, which were difficult to capture.He laughed uncontrollably, paused for half a second, and finally uttered an irrelevant sentence: "God, Lin Yan, you have wrinkles here."

Actually, there are wrinkles.

In fact, this is a common thing, and it happens to anyone.But Lin Yan should not be, and cannot be imagined, included among any of these people.

Lin Yan shouldn't grow old.In everyone's feelings; in everyone's eyes that were once stunned to death by him.

Lin Yan's body trembled, his expression froze, and a huge panic and frustration of being found cheating instantly appeared in his heart.Although it's just an imperceptible shallow fine line, soon this face will be filled with it everywhere.

Soon, he knew.

Youth is a sweet dream.The arrogance of youth is similar to everyone, but after waking up from the dream, each has its own desolate path.

He is on his way downhill.This moment, and the minutes, seconds, and moments to come.When you have passed the peak, you will have to go down every step of the way.Every step can only, and only, go down, this is the only way to go.

There is no life in a dead end.This world is full of desperation, how can there be so many timely charcoal, willows and flowers.

Finally, Xia Zhaoshi leaned over and gave Lin Yan a long kiss.Deep, lingering, intertwined with lips and tongue, but also bitingly cold.He convinced himself that it was a charity, but at this time, he hadn't noticed the bit of reluctance in the charity.

Lin Yan left before dawn the next day.He comes and goes like the wind, but only he knows that he is actually just a kite.Life is scattered and precarious, and the mountains and rivers are lonely.This time, he handed over the kite thread to Xia Zhaoshi.

No matter how far and high you fly, you still want to be needed.

It's a pity that no one wants it.Everyone likes to look at him, and only likes to look at him, floating high above.Few people really care about whether one day he will be tired, and he will actually fall.And when he fell, a new kite appeared to replace the blue sky that he once dominated.

It used to be brilliant, but now it is bleak.

No one in this world can't live without someone, so at most he can only pray to Xia Zhaoshi, please remember him for the rest of his life, don't forget him.

His only regret is his beauty, Xia Zhaoshi only saw a little bit of the glimmer of his beauty.The supreme scenery of the heyday was lost to someone.

On the morning of the first day of the new year, Xia Zhaoshi and Zhao Rulin had breakfast together.The relationship between mother and son is superficially estranged but actually tacit.Although they have lived in the United States for decades, the Xia family has consistently upheld all the customs and habits of the Chinese people.Diet especially.

Qian Qian took a sip of soy milk, and Zhao Rulin suddenly asked Xia Zhaoshi: "Oh, by the way, that beautiful boy named Lin Yan who appeared at the banquet a few days ago, what do you plan to do?"

I was a little surprised that his mother, who never liked to ask about his personal affairs, would take the initiative to ask an unimportant question this time.