Ordinary heartbeat [e-sports]

Turning back to the upstairs section of the stairs seemed extraordinarily long, stepping up one step at a time, it was like never going to the end.

Nan Ke quietly followed behind him, with a little sweat on his forehead, his eyes were locked on the person in front of him worriedly.

The light in the youth training room on the second floor was still on. The child was probably sleepy, and he kept rubbing his eyes to try to relieve it. Qu Yi stopped at the door, paused, pushed the door and walked in. The child panicked when he saw someone coming in. Standing up, no matter where the game in his hand went, Qu Yi couldn't make an extra smile, so he just nodded, walked around him, and stood by the window.

On the second floor with a clear view, a black car is still parked there quietly not far from the window. ?What I think in my heart is completely inconsistent with what I say, I really don't know, when did I become like this?Where did the people who used to be reckless and talk about it when they liked it go?

The child behind him had already been dismissed by Nan Ke at some point. He stood beside Qu Yi, avoiding the place where he could see him, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

His gaze fell outside motionlessly, Qu Yi seemed to sigh lightly, and then said in a low voice: "It's okay."

After all, some thorns in my heart can't be pulled out, so I can't express the love in my heart as calmly as before, what should I do, it's already like this.

After a long time, the car parked over there was still parked, as if waiting for some kind of extravagant hope that would not be steadfast.

Qu Yi turned around, and the room became dark. Nan Ke thought he was going to leave, but after walking a few steps, he found that the man sat down on the chair near the window.

The moonlight shone thickly on his face, making the blurred vision much clearer.

"Leave me alone for a while, I'll leave before training tomorrow morning."

Nan Ke stood beside him, rolling the words on the tip of his tongue back and forth, but none of them came out after all. A moderate sigh scattered in the air, and with the sound of the youth training room door opening and closing, he was completely squeezed out. broken.

After the light was turned off for a long time, Qu Yi's eyes still couldn't adapt to the darkness. Everything in front of him began to overlap. In the small space of the electronic equipment, panic, fear, and suffocation came one after another. He held his chest, and during the moment of calming down, an abrupt and ridiculous thought flashed through his mind.

He sighed softly: "God is so kind to me, I really don't let me take any advantage."

After sitting in the gray world all night, his eyes slowly regained clarity following the blasting sky, he loosened his stiff shoulders, stood up and looked out the window, he had already left, and there was no stay behind Traces, in the middle of the night when he was awake, Qu Yi thought a lot, thinking about the past, the present, the future, and things that he couldn't figure out clearly. He kept thinking over and over again, should he give himself another chance?At least ask clearly what he wanted to know, but the moment he stood up, he felt that maybe there was no such need at all, so what if he asked clearly?Can you still face him calmly like before?

The door behind him slammed slightly, and Qu Yi was startled, thinking that someone came to train so early?

"Are you awake?" Nan Ke, who was standing behind him, was holding a glass of warm water in his hand. He hadn't slept all night, and his eyes were bloodshot.

Qu Yi watched him approach, and his tense mood all night suddenly relaxed: "Did you sleep?" He took the water, "Thank you."

Nan Ke shook his head: "I haven't slept much, drink some water and go to sleep, are your eyes uncomfortable?"

"No, um, I'll go to bed after drinking."

Nan Ke stood where he was, seemed to have something to say, glanced at Qu Yi and moved away.

"What's the matter? Anything to say?"

"You..." He pinched the back of the chair with his fingers, his knuckles were slightly white because of too much force, "If you really can't let him go, you can go and have a good talk with him, it's not important Just explain it clearly? I think he still likes you."

Qu Yi marveled at Nan Ke's words, but after listening, he just lowered the corners of his eyes and smiled calmly: "I see, thank you brother."

Qu Yi put down his water glass and wanted to leave, but Nan Ke behind him stopped him again: "Qu Yi, don't leave any regrets, some people really won't come back once they miss it."

At the moment when he couldn't come back, Qu Yi's heart sank, his nails scratched his fingers, he nodded bluntly: "I see."

Lin Yihan drove away before dawn. He opened the window and was blown by the cool night wind in the middle of the night, blowing away the smell of alcohol and extinguishing the anger in his heart. He actually felt a little regretful and flustered When he said those hurtful things without hesitation, in fact, if you think about it carefully, you can understand that if Qu Yi really had someone else, according to his temperament, he would never come down to see him at all, but he still has the mood to think in the chaos All these, his eyes and mind are full of him being protected by others, separated for too long, so long that he will lose control as long as he touches his body temperature, how can he stand the instigation of others.

Drowsy, he went back to the villa in the southern area. The house where no one lived for a long time was still clean. He dragged himself up to the second floor, got into the room where Qu Yi used to live, and fell straight on the bed.The smell about him has long been gone, but for no reason, he felt at ease lying there, he took out his phone, looked at the person who was still properly placed on the screen, he thought, just wait a little longer, wait a little longer Wait, he'll tell him all about it.

However, there are some things in this world that simply cannot stand waiting.

Less than two weeks before the start of the World Championship, the entire club has entered the stage of day and night training. Qu Yi's eyes are getting worse and worse. He can only train for about four hours a day with the help of medicine, and the duration depends on him. His mood was ups and downs, and a pair of gold-rimmed eyes hung on the bridge of his nose, which was originally empty. In this way, even if he started to get confused, he could still persist for about an hour.

Moba games are different from some games. Players must go through a long period of arm memory to control their operations and develop their game awareness. Twelve hours of training time is not enough, let alone five hours.

As the condition of the eyes is not optimistic, the condition of the body seems to be affected. The coach did not say much on the surface, comforting Qu Yi to put the body first, but in private, he did not respond to the headquarters. It is not easy to enter the world championship. They all went with the mentality of winning, not to mention being a businessman, in front of interests, others have to stand aside. Qu Yi naturally understood this truth, so when the club proposed to let the top laner of the second team and a youth trainee When joining the first team as a top laner substitute, Qu Yi nodded without saying anything.

After the Asian Invitational, Qu Yi basically became the captain, but the club thought of the long-term hard work in 776, so they got a double captain. 776 was like a mirror in their hearts. If there is any matter, he will push it to Qu Yi's side. If he doesn't eat this food, he won't be bothered to shoulder the burden. Gradually, other people will silently take the position of Captain Qu Yi, and go to him for big and small matters. All the familiar titles are back, but the relationship with 776 is somewhat awkward.However, times have changed, and one day, the only person on the team who has a substitute happens to be himself, and there are only two at a time, which is interesting.

When the news first came out, Nan Ke was naturally unhappy, so he went downstairs to find Li Xin. Li Xin looked sad and explained that he couldn't control the matter. , how many people need to give some face, coupled with their excellent professional skills, many clubs are eager to dig, staying in AZ to be a data analyst is considered Qu Cai, he was originally for Qu Yi, and now Qu Yi can't play No matter what the Heavenly King Lao Tzu is or something, Nan Ke doesn't care.

Li Xin couldn't give an answer for a long time, and Nan Ke didn't bother to listen to his ink, so he made a call directly to the headquarters, and the person on the other side said something, and the person standing in the living room on the first floor exploded on the spot.

"What are you talking about? What do you mean it is difficult for him to play? He is young and 21 years old, and he has a good life. Why can't he play?"

"Coach Nan, don't bring your personal emotions, isn't what I said true?"

"What do you mean by personal emotions? Who won the World Championship? Who won the championship of this year's Spring Split? Could it be that because of his bad eyesight, all the things he has worked hard for half a year are directly denied? You guys clearly know that playing in the World Championship is his long-standing dream, but what happened when it came to an end?"

The person opposite smiled softly, as if hearing something that made people laugh: "Coach Nan, don't talk about dreams when you are old. It's easy to make people think that you haven't grown up yet. Of course we don't want to deny it." He, if he can, of course he will play, but we must always prepare for it. What if we can’t? Is there no one to succeed? Coach Nan, I understand your feelings, but this is the club’s decision. I hope we can Obey it together."

"Heh..." Nan Ke smiled, he understood, they bought him here, that is, they bought a machine, a machine that can make money, and today he can't turn it, so it's here It's time to give up.

"I hope that the headquarters really wait for him to be unable to play before replacing him, instead of replacing him from the beginning. By the way, if Qu Yi can't participate in this World Championship, I won't be with the team. Let’s go to Los Angeles together, after the match, I will directly terminate the contract with your club, and I am willing to bear high liquidated damages, because this is my bottom line.”

"Coach Nan, Nan..."

Nan Ke hung up the phone directly, holding his breath in his chest and calmed down for a long time before going down. When he turned around, he found that the protagonist who had called just now was standing on the stairs behind him.

Qu Yi looked at him calmly, seeing that he had finished playing, he came down the stairs slowly, with the pair of gold-rimmed glasses still on his face, and his gentle demeanor was a bit more, he stopped in front of Nan Ke , It took a long time to spit out a sentence: "Brother, there is no need to do this."

Nan Ke was a little nervous, he was afraid that Qu Yi would say something strange and stab him again, even though he knew the chance was very small, he still couldn't help worrying, luckily.

Looking at the obviously depressed child in front of him, Nan Ke raised the corners of his mouth, and put his most nonchalant smile on his face: "It's okay, they are reluctant to terminate the contract with me, and they even pointed at me to help win the championship! Don't worry."

Qu Yi knew that he was trying to comfort himself, but the matter had come to an end, it would be useless to say any more, there could only be two people in each position in the World Championship, and now he has two substitutes, even if the chances of youth training are very small, but After all, it is not impossible, not to mention that the substitute youth training child has also had a relationship with me a few times. Although he lacks a little bit of consciousness and has no experience in competitions, he is not inferior to himself in the game operation at all. I can see a little bit of myself.This time the headquarters directly added two substitutes, and the intention was already obvious. Even if he was allowed to play in the World Championship this time, the chances of playing in the next season would be very small, not to mention that he had just rejected an endorsement not long ago. Haven't been too happy.

Sure enough, it’s still different. I didn’t have much experience in KM. I followed the team all the way and felt like family members. I dropped down halfway. Even if the money I bought at that time has already been earned back, I’m still an outsider in the final analysis, or That said, it's just a product.

"Talk to the headquarters, I will retire after this World Championship."

Nan Ke was stunned: "Xiao Yi, don't be impulsive, we still have room for discussion on this matter, you..."

"This is my own choice. I don't want to play anymore. I'm tired of playing. If the club decides not to let me play in this World Championship, I can retire now."

The young man's expression was calm, as if he was saying something that had nothing to do with him, Li Xin over there was also stunned, he still couldn't play just now, why did he suddenly become retired?

"Qu Yi, Qu Yi, look at me, tell me do you really want to retire? Do you really want to retire?" Nan Ke squeezed his shoulders hard to force him to look at him, his heart was full of waves, and then Throw a stone into it for a moment, and the embankment will burst in an instant.

Qu Yi raised his head slowly, met Nan Ke's gaze, and a dim light flashed through his dark eyes.

"Yes, I want to retire, I want to retire, I want to leave."

Nan Ke, who had been warmly facing him, suddenly pushed him hard, with uncontrollable anger in his voice, he pointed to his heart: "What about me? What do you think of me? You just leave Let’s go, what about me? It’s you who said you want to win a world championship, you want to transfer, and you chose the person yourself. If you don’t like me, it’s okay, it’s okay, I’m willing to accompany you step by step. , but Qu Yi, from the beginning to now, have you considered my feelings in everything you do?"

At some point, there were many people who shouldn't have appeared on the stairs. Li Xin was also dazzled by the sudden turn of the plot. He hurried up the stairs and sent the youth training children and others back to the training room.

"What do you think of me? For so many years, no matter what you do, I support you, what about you? Just because I like you, you should suffer everything, right? Huh? Yes, maybe in your heart, I count What, at most, you are a stranger who is better than a friend. After all these years, have you ever really opened up your heart and said a word to me? If you say you want to retire, you will retire. If you retire, what about me?"

Qu Yi stared at him motionlessly, poking his heart with questions one after another, smashing the armor he had put together to pieces. He really owed him all these years.

Nan Ke's back was facing him, his shoulders were heaving and falling, but anyone who looked at him could know what kind of turbulent waves his heart was going through at the moment.

"Is he really so important to you? Can you give up everything, even your own belief?" His voice was slow, but every word pierced into Qu Yi's heart like a needle.

"I'm really disappointed in you. Since you separated, you have never come out. You closed yourself up and thought you could escape. Every time you saw him, your whole person fell apart. It was you. Don't get better, it's because you don't want to come out, you love him but dare not tell him, you will only torture yourself, Qu Yi, because a man is going to die, are you worthy of other people? You really let me disappointment."

The person standing behind Nan Ke suddenly trembled uncontrollably. The secret that had been hidden in his heart and did not want anyone to pry into it was now being exposed to the sun bloody. He covered his heart, took a step back and tried to resist The urge to bend over.

I don't know which sentence hit the mold, the long-standing anger of the young man was completely ignited with Nan Ke's words, he chuckled: "Yes, that's how I am, I just want to keep it in my heart and not talk to anyone, I just don’t want to be good, so what can I do? I just want to die, I’m really sorry to disappoint you, but Nan Ke, no matter what I do, it has nothing to do with you, I... um... ..”

The pain that swept up his chest instantly interrupted his words. Nan Ke's clenched fists loosened with this unnatural hum, and when he turned around, he looked like the man was on the verge of falling. He ran over and grabbed his shoulders , asked eagerly: "How are you? Where does it hurt?"

The person in his arms was still struggling at this moment, with one hand grabbing the clothes on his chest and the other limply pushing Nan Ke who was holding him: "You...let me go... .”

Li Xin upstairs also ran down in a hurry, not knowing what to do for a while.

"Quick, call an ambulance, quick..."

"Oh, well..."

The face of the person in his arms gradually turned pale, and the hand that was holding the front of his chest slowly loosened. Nan Ke was completely panicked. He couldn't stop calling for him with the hand holding Qu Yi, and everyone upstairs was in a hurry. Running down to surround him, Chao Mu came down from upstairs, took a look at Qu Yi's situation, and said decisively: "Coach Nan, there is a pretty good hospital nearby, and my uncle is there, I'll drive you there, and wait like this It’s going to be bad if you go down.”

Nan Ke was already a little confused, he reacted for a second before he nodded hurriedly: "Okay."

He picked up Qu Yi, who was completely unconscious, and followed Chao Mu out the door. The hospital was very close, and he went out in less than 5 minutes. By then, the place was ready. The moment Qu Yi was pushed into the emergency room, Nan Ke Na's frantically beating heart finally calmed down a bit. He stood blankly in front of the door, and within a few minutes was knocked back by the rushing nurse.

"Family members go to the side, don't stand at the door."

Nan Ke stepped back and leaned against the wall on the other side, and Zhao Mu who finished the phone call over there also came over.

"Don't worry too much, it's fine."

His ears could finally hear the sound. All the way out of the club, he could still see that person except for his eyes. All senses seemed to be out of order. He was in a daze, completely experiencing the feeling of loss.

"Sit down, it will probably take a while."

Nan Ke walked stiffly to a chair beside him and sat down. After a long time, he bent down and hugged his head.

Why prod him?You clearly know that he can't be stimulated by Nan Ke?Are you crazy?Can you say that too?If something really happened to him this time, what would you do?

There was a crisp applause from the side of his body, and before Chaomu could react, there was another muffled sound, and Chaomu hurriedly grabbed him: "Coach, it has nothing to do with you, don't do this, everyone is uncomfortable. Why bother?"

"I'm really not alone..." he murmured, no one in the club knew Qu Yi's situation better than him, he was so accurate in picking where he hurt the most, "I'm really not alone ..."

Chao Mu sighed, and seeing that he had no intention of continuing, he let go of him: "I heard what you and Captain Qu said today, it's not your fault, we all notice how good you are to the captain, but love doesn't matter. It’s not clear what kind of thing is. It’s not something that can be exchanged for good. We all hope that our efforts will be rewarded. There is nothing wrong with it. I think the captain can understand it. When he wakes up, talk to him. It’s okay, let alone the captain. To Coach Nan, apart from anything else, the friendship is there. He is actually under a lot of pressure. The whole team is on him alone, and he is not interested in money. The management has always had opinions on him, and it is true today. I'm so angry, but..."

"Who is the family member of the patient?" Chao Mu's words were interrupted by the nurse who came out in a hurry.

Nan Ke hurried up: "I, I am."

"Sign this, the patient is not doing well."

Nan Ke, who was holding the list, suddenly trembled in his hands, and even his voice trembled: "He, what happened to him? Why all of a sudden..."

His hands became cold in an instant, and cold sweat broke out from his back, soaking his T-shirt immediately. At this moment, Chaomu's uncle came down from the stairs, nodded towards Chaomu, and turned to ask the nurse beside him. The nurse simply explained After looking at the situation, the man took a look at the form in Nan Ke's hand, and then took it back: "Don't sign for now, I'll go in and have a look."

The coolness spread from the soles of his feet. At that moment, Nan Ke experienced the feeling of suffocation for the first time. His heart seemed to stop beating. His whole body was as cold as if he had been stripped naked and thrown into the winter snow. He even forgot No matter how to write his own name, he couldn't even hold the pen in his hand, as if he was the one who was going to die.

"It's okay, let's wait."

He couldn't sit or stand, and finally he could only squat against the wall. In a white shirt and black trousers, a tall man about 1.8 meters tall squatted next to the hospital chair like a child. His hair was completely soaked in sweat. His eyebrows and eyes were nestled in his arms, and when he looked up again, his face was already full of water.

After an unknown amount of time, the closed door of the emergency room finally opened slowly. He staggered and stood up, holding Zhao Mu's arm and eagerly asking: "Is he alright?"

The man standing at the door took off his mask and showed a peaceful and comfortable smile: "It's fine, and I can be transferred to the general ward in a while. The patient's heart is not very good, so he can't be stimulated any more. Wake up." After the infection, temporary blindness may occur, don’t worry, it will recover in a few days.”

Nan Ke had no time to worry about other things, he bowed heavily to the doctor, his eyes were red when he stood up: "Thank you, thank you!"