When the current male protagonist wears ancient words

Tong Haisheng was very sad. He liked Gong Xiao, so when he heard Zhou Zhou's joking words, he had a feeling of being dissected. At the same time, he was even more afraid that such feelings would be spread. If Gong Xiao knew, He may never be able to get close to him again.

In a hurry, he thought of a formula of aphrodisiac specially circulated among the people - if Zhou Yi also tactfully Cheng Huan under his body, he could use this threat to keep his secret.

However, he did not expect the result to be so serious.

Tears blurred his vision. In fact, his eyes were sore from crying. He didn't know how he could shed so many tears, but he just couldn't stop.

When Tong Haisheng was five years old, his father started going in and out of casinos, gambling like his life, and soon lost all his belongings. When he was six years old, his mother left with a rich master.At that time, he was still young, and when he asked his mother where he was going, his mother only said that he was going to a big city to buy clothes and toys for him.Thinking about it now, it was probably because the master didn't want to raise other people's seeds.

After his mother left, his father not only gambled and did not change, but intensified, gambling and drinking every day, until he was seven years old, his father finally paid him off because he owed too much gambling debt.Serving tea and water to people in the casino, he was usually bullied, but he endured it all, and only asked for a chance to escape.

In the winter when he was eight years old, he stole some money from a gambler and went to the street to buy some incense sticks.At night, he lit the incense, covered his mouth and nose with a cloth while everyone was stunned, and fled with some clothes.

He left the city overnight and walked along the official road all the way to the suburbs near the capital.The money he stole was exhausted, many blisters appeared on the soles of his feet, and there was no clean place on his body.There were countless new and old injuries on his back, arms, waist and legs, and the weather was so cold that he could die, but he didn't know how he walked to the suburbs of Beijing in that tattered clothes at that time.

That night he finally collapsed on the side of the road from exhaustion, sleeping with his legs hugged helplessly, but it was so cold that he knew how to shiver.At that time, he began to think about his mother who ran away with others and his father who betrayed him because of gambling debts, and began to cry, and fell asleep while crying.After three days like this, he, who was already thin, was skinny due to the many days of traveling and three or four days of hunger, which made people feel distressed.He felt that he was so hungry that he could eat a few cows, and he was also very thirsty. His mouth was so dry that he felt that a tank of water was not enough to quench his thirst, and he fainted with tears in his eyes.

When he woke up again, he was lying in a beautiful room, sleeping on a soft bed, covered with a warm and soft quilt, and then saw the person who saved him—Gong Xiao.

After Gong Xiao rescued Tong Haisheng, knowing that he was helpless, he accepted him as an apprentice to teach him medical skills, and followed him around the palace.At that time, Gong Xiao was not the best imperial doctor in the palace, and Tong Haisheng was just an abandoned child.

Tong Haisheng has tasted the feeling of being abandoned and disgusted by others, and he knows how painful and bitter it is to be alone and helpless, so he tries his best to please Gong Xiao and do everything that makes him happy.

Gong Xiao is not a person who likes to laugh, so at the beginning, he was very worried that what he did not do well made him angry.But later, Tong Haisheng gradually discovered that Gong Xiao was not unhappy. When he made progress, there would be approval in Gong Xiao's eyes and an invisible smile.

Then, Tong Haisheng found himself in love with Gong Xiao's faint smile and approval.Then, he found that the simple smile and approval in Gong Xiao's eyes seemed to be the focus of his life, like air is to people, like water is to fish, like wings are to birds. I can't do without Gong Xiao.

At the age of 13, in the summer, he was ordered by Gong Xiao to deliver medicine to a high official in the court and take his pulse by the way.That kind of medicine is only available in the pharmacy in the palace, and it is very expensive.When he entered the mansion, the butler left him in the yard and told him to wait.After waiting for a while, the butler came back and told him to wait.

I drank too much water at noon, so I borrowed the toilet in that mansion.When I was walking back, I got lost and couldn't find anyone in the yard to ask for directions.When he was about to find his way again, he heard teasing and groaning. He went in to have a look, only to find that it was the official who was having sex with an extremely handsome man on the bed.

At the age of 13, Tong Haisheng already had a certain understanding of the relationship between men and women because he studied medicine with Gong Xiao, but this was the first time he saw a man having sex with a man.

He was a little frightened and left in a panic.

After taking the official's pulse and returning to the palace, Tong Haisheng couldn't sleep at night.

He felt that he was very strange, although he was fine before that afternoon, but after seeing such a bloody scene, he hoped that Gong Xiao would treat him like that.

After struggling for a month, Tong Haisheng found himself in love with Gong Xiao.

But the love between men is rare, not to mention that the person he likes is actually his teacher Gong Xiao who kindly took him in.

Tong Haisheng didn't dare to say it, of course he didn't dare to say it, he was afraid that after he said it, Gong Xiao would sell him out like his father.The shadow and pain of his childhood made him dare not do anything different to Gong Xiao, let alone tell him that he likes him.That was digging its own grave.

In the six years before yesterday, Tong Haisheng had been cautious, never made a single mistake, and dared not make any mistakes, but yesterday he heard Monday's words.

He and Zhou Yi couldn't be called friends, they just had some conversations with this weird man, and they also knew a lot of new terms, such as "fag".He knew a gay was a man who liked men, and he was.So he was afraid that such feelings would be known by Gong Xiao, he was afraid that his six years of hard work would go to waste, he was afraid that the feelings he had worked so hard to hide for a year would be exposed in front of others...

In the final analysis, what he was afraid of was that Gong Xiao would not want him.

But in the end he was abandoned again.Abandoned by the person he respected and loved the most since birth.

A little disheartened, at that moment, he had the idea of ​​committing suicide.The only person in this world who has anything to do with him has left him decisively, how can he live alone?