Overwintering method of lilac

Unexpectedly, Runsheng smiled: "I know...do you miss me..." He leaned into Yu Qing's ear and whispered: "Last Thursday, it was so late, you came out of the library , and went outside to buy cigarettes for me... Where is the pack of cigarettes?"

Yu Qing was dumbfounded.After a long time, he slowly remembered... Runsheng was right, he did buy a pack of cigarettes that day.

He hadn't seen Runsheng for nearly three weeks.Runsheng must have been back home, but the two of them never met.Last Thursday, when he came out of the library alone, he suddenly felt very lonely when he saw the students walking in twos and threes.There are not many people who are interested in studying in graduate school, and the number of senior courses in the outer courtyard is much less than before.For most, this will be a relatively easy year.There are not many people like Yu Qing who still spend time in the library every day, so he is naturally alone.

Because of something on her mind, Yu Qing walked around the school alone to relax, but unknowingly walked to the railway line at the back gate of the school.That canteen is now a small store, and the variety of tobacco and alcohol is much more than a few years ago.Yu Qing went there and bought a pack of cigarettes for Runsheng out of habit.

He walked all the way back, somehow took out the pack of cigarettes and smelled them halfway.The scent of Yunsu was still so pleasant, but Runsheng didn't know where he went.

He didn't take that pack of cigarettes home afterwards, but put it in a drawer in the dormitory.There is nothing embarrassing about admitting this, Yu Qing is indeed a little bit resentful.

After a while, Yu Qing slowly said: "You are back, why didn't you come to me?"

"It's very late." Runsheng said naturally: "I went to find you, don't you still have to go back to the dormitory to sleep? If the gun goes off, we both will feel uncomfortable..." He said with a smile: "I just like that Watching you go all the way back..."

"Well, then what conclusion did you draw?" Yu Qing said flatly.

"I think you're so cute when you think about me." Runsheng whispered, "Did you think about me jerking off?"

Yu Qing didn't answer, but just asked back: "Isn't this the first time?"

Runsheng noticed his indifference, and his smile restrained a bit: "Only occasionally..."

Yu Qing took a deep breath, trying to make herself sound calm: "Why do you want to do this?"

Runsheng muttered, "Just... just observe."

"Would you like to see if I'm secretly dating someone else?" Yu Qing couldn't help it, and raised her voice: "I'm very angry when you do this!"

Seeing that Yu Qing was really angry, Run Sheng said in a calm tone: "Dou Dou, I..."

"How long have you been doing this?" Yu Qing glared at him.

Runsheng fell silent—he lowered his head.

Yu Qing has always been a person with no temper, but now when the cold wind blows, he feels his chest is congested badly.Runsheng has been a little weird since he was a child, sometimes he doesn't care about his temper, and sometimes he is very patient and patient.

Unexpectedly, he spent all his patience in inexplicable places now.Yu Qing used to think that he was seriously insecure.But later the relationship between the two stabilized, and Runsheng often ran away without seeing anyone. Apart from being lonely, there was also a little comfort—Runsheng at least got better in this respect.

But right now, it seems that that is entirely my own wishful thinking.

Yu Qing really didn't know what to say.He had never been so disappointed.

The two stood silently in the cold wind, and finally Runsheng couldn't help pulling his arm like a child who had done something wrong.Still angry, Yu Qing shook off his hand.

Runsheng showed a flattering expression: "Don't be angry." He whispered: "I came so far..."

"What do you think of me?" Yu Qing paused.

Runsheng was stunned for a moment, and finally became serious: "People who want to be together forever..."

Runsheng said it all his life.Yu Qing knew that she shouldn't forgive him just like that, but after hearing those three words, her heart softened.He lowered his head sadly: "For the rest of your life...you say one thing and do another thing. I don't know if you're still thinking another thing..."

"I didn't..." Runsheng said eagerly.

"You said we were going to be together forever..." Yu Qing interrupted him cruelly: "But you...but you didn't even ask me what my plan is after graduation, and you didn't tell me what your own plan is... ...I don't want to let myself influence your decision like when I graduated from high school. I have already decided that no matter what decision you make, I will support you wherever you go...But you, but you never asked me, you don't care about me at all..."

"I don't care about you!" Runsheng explained: "But you yourself said that no matter what decision I make, you will support me! We will definitely be together in the end..."

Yu Qing couldn't understand his certainty: "But...but what if I'm admitted to a graduate student in another place?"

"Then I'll go find you." Runsheng looked at him, the eagerness in his eyes slowly cooling down.He stared at Yu Qing for a long time, and then said in a very light and slow voice: "Are you regretting it?"

"What do I regret! What do I have to regret!" Yu Qing felt that anger welling up again: "What's wrong with you!" He was in a hurry, but the more anxious he was, the more he didn't know what to do How to say: "I am alone, I don't know where you have been, I don't know what you are thinking, and I don't know what you plan to do after graduation... I don't know anything, and you don't say anything, what Don't even ask... I will also worry, think too much, and don't know what to do! If I run away without a trace and don't tell you anything, won't you be worried and sad?"

Runsheng looked at Yu Qing, and suddenly raised his hand to wipe the corner of his eyes.

Only then did Yu Qing realize that the corners of her eyes were wet at some point.She turned her head to cover up: "Anyway, you are like this...you never admit that you are wrong..."

"Then what do you want to ask now, just ask." Seeing Yu Qing's tears, Runsheng finally felt a little relieved.He licked the moisture on his fingertips, as if he wanted to put his fingers in his mouth, but he held back.

Yu Qing was a little exhausted: "You can say what you want, do you still have to ask me..."

Runsheng hesitated for a moment, as if he was organizing his words: "Have you passed your dismissal?"

"The result hasn't come out yet." Yu Qing said dejectedly: "I don't feel very hopeful. I might take the postgraduate entrance examination, but I haven't decided... If I take the postgraduate entrance examination, I can't be assigned. I don't know where I can be allocated... If If I can be assigned to Factory 176, there is no need to take the postgraduate entrance examination... In fact, until now, I have not decided anything."

"My project may not end before graduation." After a long time, Runsheng said cautiously: "I signed it to keep it confidential, so I can't tell you more." He lowered his head: "And there is something, I... ..."

Yu Qing's heart raised again: "What's the matter?"

Runsheng closed his eyes, and finally said with difficulty: "I... I may have to leave soon... For the next year, I will be away from home."

Yu Qing was stunned: "What do you mean? One year? How can you travel for such a long time? Then you don't have classes? Don't you take exams? What about graduation defense?"

"It's okay to defend or something. I'll definitely write the thesis over there." Runsheng said in a low voice, a little guilty and aggrieved: "I don't want to either... Teacher Qin said he would arrange it. Yes, the fellow graduate students are also like me..."

Yu Qing stood there for a long time, as if he had finally figured out the twists and turns, he tentatively asked: "So you want to observe how I live when you are not around?"

It took a long time before I heard Runsheng's soft "hmm".

Yu Qing didn't know what to say now.

Another gust of wind blew by, and Runsheng finally said eagerly: "Can you stop being angry..."

"I can't." Yu Qing said sullenly.But he also knew in his heart that he was not so angry anymore: "What about after the project is over?"

"Go back to this school for postgraduate study." Run Sheng said honestly.

Yu Qing glanced at him: "Then what should I do if I am a graduate student in another place?"

"I'll find you after graduation." Runsheng said seriously, "Isn't it encouraging to choose your own career now?"

Yu Qing sighed heavily: "Understood. Let's go."

"Where are you going?" Runsheng asked quickly.

"Go to the river and see if there are fishing boats. My sister wants to eat shrimp."

Runsheng followed immediately.The two walked side by side, Yu Qing breathed into the palm of his hand.As soon as he let go, Runsheng grabbed him.

Flocks of migratory birds flew across the sky above them.

Yu Qing quietly stretched out her finger and inserted it into Runsheng's.