father's tree

In the evening, Li Changen went to Tang Wenyan to pick up Li Su. He observed Li Su carefully in the past few days, but he didn't find any boy Li Su was very close with. If there was, it was An Wei.

But looking at the relationship between Li Su and An Wei, it doesn't look like a relationship between lovers.

He sat on a chair and waited for Li Su, and An Wei was also painting not far away. The two of them were very serious and focused, and didn't pay attention to each other at all. However, the way An Wei looked at Li Su before, there was indeed a deep feeling in his eyes. like in.

However, Li Su was nothing special to An Wei.

Li Changen walked to An Wei's side, looked at what he was painting, and couldn't help being stunned for a moment, because the painting showed Li Su painting at the window, and An Wei was still applying paint, but he didn't look at Li Su, just follow the Paint your own ideas.

Li Su's face in the painting has an indifferent color, and the whole painting is very cold. Anwei turned his head and saw Li Changen, and said, "This is Susu."

Li Changen asked in a low voice, "Why do you feel so deserted?"

An Wei said, "Susu is usually so deserted, even in a large group of people, he is so deserted, as if he doesn't care about anything, his eyes are always looking at the sky, the buildings, the grass on the ground, the road The trees next to him spend very little time on people, haven’t you noticed that his paintings are almost all landscapes, and rarely show people, and even if there are people, they are very small and empty.”

After being reminded by An Wei, Li Changen found out that Li Su was really like this.

He looked at Li Su again, Li Su was standing there, daubing his drawing with a brush stroke by stroke, he was painting a house this time, Li Changen recognized that it was the old house before their house, the old house was in his There are strong colors under the brush, the tree is so huge, and the flowers are also huge. Li Changen understands that this is the old house in Li Su's eyes when he was a child. In the eyes of little Li Su, everything in that house is so big. so high.

Li Su's face was calm, expressionless, and his eyes were deep, as if he was not looking at the drawing, but looking at a certain place in his heart, so deeply, as if he was examining something in his heart.

Li Changen looked at Li Su, and An Wei also looked at Li Su, showing that kind of obsessive eyes again. Li Changen has read so many books about homosexuality these days, so he naturally knows that homosexuality is not necessarily a more feminine man. Then, A tall and cheerful kid like Anwei may also be gay. He likes his son, and Li Changen has this feeling.

Li Changen didn't say anything, and he remembered that when he came to pick up Li Su a few years ago, An Wei said something to the effect that there was someone who was pursuing Li Su, but that person was not worthy of Li Su, so Li Su should not accept that. people.

Li Changen thought, who is that person, is that boy with Li Su?

However, no matter how I guess, I can't find the answer, because Li Su's life is very monotonous. Apart from school, it is the studio, or at home. Even if there is a boy, who else will the boy be besides An Wei? Where does it appear.

After Li Su finished painting, she packed up her brushes, paints and palettes, took off her apron, and looked at Li Changen, "Father, let's go."

Li Changen came over to put his coat on for him, and asked An Wei if he wanted to go together, An Wei said, "No, I'm staying here today, you go."

Li Su said, "Then goodbye."

An Wei said, "Goodbye. Are you coming tomorrow?"

Li Su thought for a while, "Come after class."

An Wei said, "Well, yes, I'll come too."

Rejected by his classmates at school and labeled as a homosexual, Li Su now devotes more time, energy and emotion to painting. He makes himself ignore everything in the outside world and only pays attention to himself. , you will not be slandered by others, and you will not feel sad.

Li Changen put his arms around his son's shoulders in one hand and his bag in the other. He led him out of the yard and got into the car outside. Li Changen sat in the driver's seat and fastened his son's seat belt before starting the car and leaving.

While driving, Li Changen said seemingly unintentionally, "You and Anwei have a good relationship. Anwei is a good boy."

Li Su nodded slightly, "Yes."

"Are you usually just with Anwei when you're painting? Didn't you ask him to play outside?" Li Changen said, and glanced at his son again.

There was no expression on Li Su's face, just like the faint mist in the night.

"Well, he asked me out to play, but he was always busy and didn't have time. However, the last time Teacher Tang took us out to collect scenery, we counted as having played outside."

"Na Susu, do you like him?" Li Changen guided him step by step, wanting to get to the truth.

"I like it." Li Su sensed the mystery in Li Changen's words, and looked at him.

Because Li Su is not gay, he has never liked a man or a woman, and he has never had anything to do with a man, so even if others talk about him behind his back at school, someone came to see him at the door of his class, He didn't seem to care, so he didn't think that the teacher had told his father about it, and his father regarded it as the biggest problem in the child's growth process, which was equivalent to Li Su's mental problems when he was injured. How could he not treat it well.

Because he had seen many homosexual cases, he even worried that Li Su would be forced to commit suicide like in the case, how could he not be worried.

Stared by Li Su's clear eyes, Li Changen couldn't ask if he and An Wei were in a relationship. He was afraid that it would irritate Li Su, so he decided to wait.

So I changed the topic to other things, "Honey, the weather is getting warmer, do you want to buy clothes?"

Li Su shook her head, "The old clothes can still be worn."

Li Chang'en said, "How can you still wear it when you grow taller? I'll measure it for you when I get home and see how much taller you've grown."

"Ah? Have you grown taller? I didn't notice it." Li Su really didn't care about it, maybe he always used Li Changen and An Wei as a comparison, the two are so tall, it seems that no matter how long he grows, he can't surpass them , I didn't find out that I had grown taller.

Li Changen said, "Why not? Didn't you notice that the clothes and trousers are a bit short, and they used to reach my chest, but now they reach my shoulders."

Li Su really realized it. For the first time in so many days, she felt a little happy, "Ah, I have grown taller. Maybe in two years, I will be as tall as your father."

Li Changen touched his head with his right hand, "Yes, my silly son is going to be an adult soon."

Li Su smiled, eyes slightly bent, Li Changen glanced at him, and sighed in his heart, thinking that if Li Su was born a girl, maybe it would be better.

He is so beautiful, and has inherited all the advantages of his mother and his appearance. Of course, Li Changen can't compliment his son in terms of IQ, but he just has artistic talent that he doesn't have.

"How are you doing at school recently, and how are you getting along with your classmates?" Li Changen asked softly, feeling very uncomfortable in his heart. Why did his son encounter so many problems when he was growing up? How could he be said to be gay? good.

Although he has told the teacher that Li Su cannot be bullied by his classmates, there is no way to change other people's views on Li Su.

Li Su thought about being ostracized and instructed in school. As long as he put all his energy into studying and drawing, his father loved him and tolerated him. He felt that he could no longer care about what other people thought. He shook his head, "How can I do well in school, I always fail in mathematics and physics, but it will be fine next semester, we will be divided into classes, Dad, I will go to the liberal arts class, so that I don't have to study science. "

"Well, okay, I'll listen to you." Li Changen saw that his son didn't know how to talk about homosexuality in school, so he didn't ask.

If Li Su showed that he didn't like it, he could actually let Li Su transfer to another school along the way.

However, he also read education books and said that it is not a good thing for children to change schools all the time. Children are always adapting to new environments, which is not conducive to growth.

Li Changen thought that when he was young, he seemed to grow up in an instant, and he didn't encounter any major problems that he couldn't get through. When it was his son's turn, there were all kinds of problems.

After returning home, the cook prepared supper. After eating supper, Li Changen took Li Su upstairs.

Li Su took a bath with his father, sat in the bathtub and stared silently for a while, Li Changen called him after washing, and then he stood up blankly. He hugged it out, "Stand still."

Li Su smiled at him, and said suddenly, "Father, if I were a girl..."

Li Changen's heart skipped a beat, "Susu is a boy, not a girl. Didn't I hate it when others said that before, why should I say it myself?"

Li Su said, "Because you said I look like a girl, I don't want to be a girl. If I am a girl, can I still sleep with my father and take a bath together?"

Li Changen laughed, "You know this. Of course you can't." In his eyes, Li Su has always been a child, as clear as water, and knows nothing. However, Li Su has read so many books and learned to paint. He had seen so many paintings of nude women, so it was impossible for him not to know everything, but even if he knew, he didn't have any evil thoughts in his heart. His eyes were always as clear as water, and his whole body exuded a kind of cleanliness and purity. The feeling of spring sunshine.

Li Changen couldn't help thinking, he has no evil thoughts, could it be related to his being gay?Because you don't like girls?

Li Su wiped her body, put on her pajamas, and said, "That's fine. Fortunately, I'm a boy, otherwise it would be difficult for me to be so close to you, Dad."

Li Changen helped him put on his pajamas, picked him up again, left the bathroom and threw him on the bed, saying, "When you grow up, Dad won't be able to hug you anymore."

Li Su rolled over on the bed, "Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't hug me now, but I feel embarrassed if you hug me."

Li Changen tapped him on the forehead, "I don't know what to do."