Rebirth of Su Shi

"Speak softly, don't scare San'er." My brother-in-law couldn't help but say something for me when he left with his son in his arms.

"He's my younger brother, how can I scare him?" The elder sister gave a coquettish snort, pushed him, and signaled him to leave quickly.

After their father and son left, the elder sister looked at me and sighed, picked up the chopsticks to serve me food, "Don't be nervous, I said I am not against homosexuality. But as your sister, there are still some things I have to say .”

"Sister..." I felt anxious.

The eldest sister put down her chopsticks, "I haven't told you why your brother-in-law is willing to marry me in the end, have I?"

I nodded.

"Before your brother-in-law and I got married, we were really together with a man, and that man also worked in the Education Bureau. Your brother-in-law was with that man for five years. Don't look at your brother-in-law like a bear, when you treated that man The man is determined. In what he used to say, he wanted to be with that man even if his future was ruined, and your brother-in-law always believed that that man had the same thoughts as him. But all this was just his wishful thinking. Theirs The matter was accidentally exposed. That man couldn't bear the pressure, and he couldn't bear his future in the Education Bureau. In the end, he put all the responsibility on your brother-in-law. Your brother-in-law begged and even knelt down to that man, but still Nothing can be undone.

Your brother-in-law is my college classmate, and I know everything about him being with that man.I like your brother-in-law a little bit, but it's not enough to compete with a man for a man.You also know how good your brother-in-law is, and men and women chase him more, but he only chooses to be with that man. I always thought that it was not easy for two men to be together, so I cherished each other even more, and I always thought that they would be together. We went to the end together, but we didn't expect the result to be like that.

Your brother-in-law was disheartened and originally planned to resign and leave the Education Bureau to leave City B, but in the end I resorted to secret tricks to get him to marry me as well.Because of our marriage, the scandal between him and that man was naturally resolved.

I tell you this to use your brother-in-law as a lesson for you.Two people have been together for five years and finally separated. With such a result, one can imagine how stressful this road is. "

I listened to the elder sister's words in silence, not daring to look up at her.

In my previous life, I was forced to be GAY by life. My soul can only feel for men during my MB experience. The few photos that my eldest sister put on the tea table made me clearly realize Su Shi’s natural GAY , because looking at those women's bodies, Su Shi's body didn't react at all.Therefore, I cannot still have feelings for women like my brother-in-law Gao Yaoyang.

After living a new life, I also want to live a normal life in a normal way, but because of my sexuality, I know that it is impossible for a normal person to embark on the path of marrying a wife and having children in this life.

I took a deep breath and looked up into the eyes of my elder sister Su Fu, "Eldest sister, I am born gay, it is impossible for me to change sexually. But as long as you are here, no amount of pressure is pressure."

Su Fu pressed her temples with her fingers, looked at me and was silent for a while, "I won't force you, you can decide for yourself." She put her hand on my head and smiled along my short hair, "I I believe that there are other homosexuals in this world who want to find a homosexual for the rest of their lives, so you have to think carefully, don't trust a person as stupidly as your brother-in-law, you have to see whether the other person can withstand the pressure. Give your heart out, or... San'er, as you said, no matter what happens in the future, don't forget that you still have me and your second sister."

After hearing this, my nose was sore.How long has it been since you felt this tear?

Some couldn't help throwing herself into her arms, wanting to shed tears according to the current feeling, but her eyes were still dry in the end.

I was alone in my previous life, and I was a MB that everyone despises, so I am not afraid of being known as GAY by others.And being in a normal family in this life, I was somewhat worried about the reaction of my family members, but I didn't expect to come out so easily and even get forgiveness from my family members.

In the years since I came here, I have never thought about finding a man, and I have never dared to show it. Unexpectedly, my eldest sister discovered the clues, which shows that my family cares about me beyond imagination.

Very happy, really.I can't find words to describe this feeling of happiness. I only know that I will take care of this family relationship for the rest of my life.

Maybe it's because I was forgiven after I came out. Recently, I've been in a particularly good mood. It seems that after a heavy revenge, my mental state has improved a lot.

I have been soaking in the library for the past two or three years, and I have never been exposed to the sun or exercised, so my skin looks a little sickly pale, and my physical strength is not very good.I have thought about exercising, but due to lung disease, I cannot do strenuous exercise, including long-distance running.

Every morning when I get up, I go to school and jog twice. Although my breathing is not smooth after jogging, I still persist.

My elder sister and brother-in-law have always been worried about my health, except that every time I go home, my elder sister will make some warm food for me to eat. When I am not home, my elder sister will make it at home and bring it to me when I am free, so My body is getting by.

Seven or eight years of living in MB made my soul feel bored with sexual desire, so for more than two years after I became Su Shi, I was completely in a state of abstinence, and occasionally my body reacted, but I was also mixed with cold water.

It's just that I have developed a certain habit over the years. For the men around me, I always consciously look at their faces and figures with an evaluation eye. Among the 'simple' college students, sometimes even I feel that I look at them. The man's eyes are very obscene, but fortunately, every time he reacts, he will try his best to restrain his words and deeds.

When I was an MB in my previous life, even the way I walked was professionally trained, and I got used to it naturally. At the beginning, I always twisted my waist and dragged my fart. I'm serious, thinking I'm playing tricks.And when eating, I couldn't change the habits of my previous life at first, propping my chin with one hand and winking lightly, chewing lazily and slowly, it was a very attractive posture, but in the end my sister knocked my posture right with a chopstick.

In order to restrain these words and deeds, every time I go home to eat, I pretend to imitate the gobble-up of young people nowadays, and accidentally choke myself several times.

Regarding this habit, I did not deliberately change it, because it is very difficult to change something that has become natural, so it is still the same when I am eating alone. This is why I don’t like going out for dinner with others in the past two or three years s reason.

Another week later, when I returned to school from my eldest sister’s house, I felt that I had nothing to do and decided to go to the school library. The librarian there was already an old acquaintance with me, and every time I came, he would greet me with a smile.

It's just that today's library is a bit strange. Usually there are many people in the library but there are definitely not many people, but today it is full, and there are still many students standing together in groups and looking in a certain direction.

"Sister Zhang, what's so strange?" I whispered to the librarian sitting at the registration desk.

"Student Su is here?" Ms. Zhang responded to me in a low voice.

"En." I nodded, raised my eyebrows and gestured to that side.

"Have you heard of the Tang Dynasty?"

"Tang Dynasty? I know." I don't understand why she suddenly mentioned Tang Dynasty.

My calm answer got her to roll her eyes, "You know what, I think you have misunderstood me like this. The Tang Dynasty I am talking about is not the Tang Dynasty 400 years ago. The Tang Dynasty I am talking about refers to a Man, his surname is Tang Mingchao."

I was speechless, why did someone call this thing?

"Sure enough, you are a nerd. What else do you know besides reading?" Seeing my confused face, Sister Zhang smiled narrowly, then raised her chin and nodded in that direction, "I graduated here in 07, A top student in law and economics. He graduated from university, and then went abroad for further studies. No, he came back after receiving two master’s degrees. Back then, he was considered a man of the hour in the school, and the teachers and students of the school every day One who doesn't know him."

I don't know!I sneered in my heart.

"He won a lawsuit that caused a social sensation that year. You know that the son of Luo Zhengde, the deputy mayor of T City, killed someone? He won it."

What's so great about it?Aren't lawyers specialized in litigation for people?However, those who dare to be honest with officials are not so courageous.

"Tang Yusen, you should have heard of it?"

Tang Yusen?You know it's a Chinese, right?Must be the leader of the country.

"Understood? That's his grandfather."

I didn't know about the death of the deputy mayor of T City's son. I was busy serving men at that time, so how could I have time to care about such trivial matters?

But it's no wonder that Tang Chao is not afraid of offending the deputy mayor surnamed Luo. The surnamed Luo is considered a local official, and his grandfather is the leader who manages the entire country.The Tang Dynasty is a true prince, how many people does he dare not offend?But it's too weird for the kind of prince who wants to be windy and rainy to become a lawyer, right?

Seeing that I didn't speak, Sister Zhang continued to chatter, "Tang Chao started a company when he was in college, and several top students who graduated with him were poached by him. Those who graduated from grades 08 and 09 were intermittent. A dozen people went to his company, and all of them belonged to the school." Sister Zhang gave a thumbs up. "Speaking of which, you haven't heard of him? It's impossible. Calculate the time, he only left Q University when you were in your sophomore year. How come you haven't heard of him?"

I couldn't help raising my eyebrows and said, "Sister Zhang, it's normal that I don't know him. I just transferred from C University in C City when he left."

"Yeah? Why haven't I heard you talk about this?" Sister Zhang was surprised.

You didn't ask me again!

"What is he doing here today?" Did he come here to highlight his excellence and make others look up to him?

"He gave a lecture this morning, and came here for a stroll just after the lecture."

stroll?I smiled at Sister Zhang, the meaning of this smile was so unclear that even I didn't know how to express it myself.