Restlessness

1. This is Gu Yuan's second winter in Los Angeles. The rainy season is coming, and the sky is dark and the streets are empty.After the lightning and thunder, the black cats in the small gardens of each house seemed to be alarmed, and even the cars parked in the garage gave out mechanical warnings one after another.

Gu Yuan raised his head and nestled quietly into the sofa, only a few provocative lines from the TV were left in Nuo Da's living room.

2. Rain seemed to know Gu Yuan's truest mood at the moment better than anyone else, and mercilessly hit the window sill, making a dull and depressing sound.Gu Yuan pinched his mobile phone in his hand, and he could still see that familiar smiling face on the lit screen.

Gu Yuan suddenly let out a long sigh, closed his eyes, and finally flicked the screen of the phone with his fingertips, opening the words that he hadn't said in person before.

Weather on October 10: heavy rain

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

This is my third month in the hell, and I want to start writing something for you today.

Even if you can't see it.

The rainy season in Los Angeles seems to be at the end of the year, but I still only wear a thin T-shirt. If you ask me if I will be cold, in fact... my left chest seems to be colder.I came here according to my mother's idea, and I don't have any interest in financial majors. I remembered a lot of things we did before, but what else can I do besides thinking about it...

If I go back now, will you forgive me when you see me in such a mess...

July 11 weather: overcast

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

One thing that surprised me today came from Zhou Hui. I don’t know where I got my contact information. That idiot insisted on videoing me in the middle of the night... Actually, I want to ask him how are you doing?Did you have a good meal?Have you ever had stomach problems?Did you stay up in the middle of the night as before... But I suddenly didn't dare to ask, he said that my departure had caused you a lot of harm, and I suddenly started to be afraid, afraid that my so-called persistence would make us finally Farther.

I gave up finance, and exchanged emails with the professor for two hours. He talked with me about the future and ideals, but in the end he just felt a little pity.

But I didn't regret it, I just made a phone call and told him personally that the person I love the most is sick.

July 12 Weather: Sunny

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

Today it seems that the whole of the United States is immersed in joy and peace. Everyone has a small Christmas tree in front of their house, which is covered with various lantern decorations. I just bought a sticker and put it on On the transparent floor-to-ceiling windows.

My parents sent a few brief greetings, and I just fudged them casually.

The little boy next door is wearing a red and white Christmas suit, holding a freshly made biscuit, with a smile on his face... Behind him are two men who are slightly older than me , I was a little surprised at first, but when they told me "Yuan, Happy New Year"...

I just realized that I miss you very much.

Want it so so much……

July 3 Weather: Sunny

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

It seems that I haven't written anything for you for a long time. In fact, sometimes I start to hesitate when I calm down, because I know that the things I write are more just to comfort myself.

I heard from Zhou Hui that you were very tired during your third year of high school, and you didn't like to communicate with others, and you didn't want to talk... Zhou Hui said that he didn't understand why we became like this, but I also do not understand.

I obviously want to give you the best, and want to protect you... Only in the end did I realize that I was the culprit.

Like you, I put all my thoughts on specializing in psychology. The new professor had a good impression of me. He told me that day...

"Yuan, only those who have emotional feelings can learn psychology. You are a storyteller."

I don't know if he is praising my excellent grades or pity me.

Even though I didn't say anything, he saw through me at a glance.

July 7th weather: light rain

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

Zhou Hui just sent a message saying that your college entrance examination is over today, and then he sent the word "steady", until this time, the thing that had been pressing on my heart seemed to suddenly dissipate.

I didn't reply to him again, but just opened the book on the table that was thicker than the middle school materials.

After that I looked at your picture for a long time, and I told him myself.

Xu Yue is still waiting for me... I will definitely become an excellent person like you.

but,

I'm suddenly not so sure...

Are you waiting for me...

January 10 Weather: Cloudy

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

Today I finished the last test of psychology, the professor just nodded in satisfaction after getting my paper.He didn't say anything, he just told me in broken Chinese, regardless of the tone

"Congratulations to you. You have successfully graduated with a degree."

That's why I knew that what I had to learn in three years had been imprinted in my mind unconsciously during countless difficult nights.Several friends in the class each gave me a gift made by myself.

That night, another girl expressed her love to me. I didn't refuse but didn't accept it either.

Then one evening she knocked on my door and stood outside and told me, "Yuan, Los Angeles is not for you, you should go back and find him."

You see, it seems like everyone knows that I love you very much.

July 11th weather: light rain

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

The next year the rainy season came again, and this time I will definitely not hold back like before.I reached out to your university last night and passed all video interviews.

Xu Yue, wait for me... We, see you the day after tomorrow.

3. Gu Yuan finished typing the last line of the day, looked around at the completely vacated room, and finally smiled slightly.There was a black suitcase at the door, Gu Yuan stepped into his shoes after changing his clothes, and finally went out without looking back.

November 11 weather: strong wind

Xu Yue, seeing words as faces.

I still can't believe that the distance between me and you is only 15 meters.Your community looks a bit dilapidated, and there is no elevator... I suddenly felt a little distressed.

But starting today, you will be hurt by me.

What we missed in the past two years, I will make up one by one.

4. The content in the memo seems to be really over here, Gu Yuan smiled and turned off the phone.The suitcase next to him became more and more dazzling in the dark night. He quietly squeezed his mobile phone, listening to a few hoarse voices from the microphone...

"Hey?"

The next day, Gu Yuan woke up very early.He was very tormented on the way to the lecture theater, and even thought of countless ways for them to meet again.

At last……

"The student in the back, can you see the teacher's face clearly from sitting so far away?" Gu Yuan resisted his urge to run towards Xu Yue, resisted the mist in his eyes, and finally melted into this sentence slowly.

Xu Yue, I want you to take a good look at me...

This is the first sentence that Gu Yuan and Xu Yue said two years later, and it is also their new beginning.

Gu Yuan stared at Xu Yue's face seriously for a long time.

In the past two years, it seems that it has really not been so hard.