deceased into ashes

In the taxi, the cold wind outside the window was blowing in; it was a rare sunny day in November, but there was no warmth in the air; Zhou Qianyi rolled up the window, looked at Yan Min beside him who was also looking out the window, and looked down. He stared blankly at his hand with the medicine on it.

There was a song playing in the car, Zhou Qianyi listened silently, she touched the place where the medicine was stuck on her right hand again, Yan Min looked down at the bag, then found Zhou Qianyi's cell phone from the bag, and said, "Qianyi... ....your phone......"

"Thank you..." Zhou Qianyi took it, turned on the phone, and saw more than ten missed calls, all of which were from Yu Qingyue.

It was ten o'clock yesterday morning.

She put down her phone, raised her head and closed her eyes, the song in the car was playing slowly...

-passers-by crossing the street and river

only a moment

the forest will fall

The wind blows away the clouds...

The confusion you left me

The years have dried my attachment

I still keep the memory

Hold too much and fall apart

Too much scattered so sad

When you are sad, you go away, go away

gone...

"Qianyi..." Yan Min looked at the shadows of trees flashing by outside the window, and said, "You...still decide to go back?"

"Yeah." Zhou Qianyi looked at his left hand before saying, "Thank you for the time, I'm sorry to trouble you..."

Yan Min looked at her, the air in the car was still very cold, and there were not many complicated emotions on her face, she just smiled lightly, with a trace of melancholy in her brows.She knew that Zhou Qianyi had already made the final choice.

"It's the last time." Zhou Qianyi clenched the clumsily coiled scarf with his right hand, took a deep breath in the scarf, and said, "I still want to be with her."

"sorry."

"It's okay..." Yan Min knew that Zhou Qianyi was very persistent. She had placed a lifelong bet on this relationship. Now, it was time to open the lid and reveal the answer.

No one who is on the gambling table is willing to leave empty-handed. Everyone returns to the emotional gambling table with a full load.

Some people gamble to the end and make a lot of money; some people gamble to the end but lose nothing.

The ending of love is like Schrödinger's cat. No one knows whether the cat in the box is alive or dead; and no one knows whether love is holy or demonic.

Love, if you talk too much, it will appear superficial, and if you talk too little, it will appear ignorant.

People who are full of enthusiasm at the beginning can also be hurt by feelings and become silent; who doesn't face the things they yearn for with a fiery heart?

Not long after, the tree shadow outside the window stopped running and the car stopped.

The taxi stopped at the entrance of the community. Zhou Qianyi got out of the car to get the things she used in the hospital, but Yan Min took the first step. Yan Min took down her few clothes and daily necessities, and said: "Be careful Don't touch the water with your own hands, if you need something...you can come to me anytime."

Zhou Qianyi took the bag from Yan Min, and the clothes were neatly folded; she smiled gently at Yan Min, and said: "Sister Yan, you are suitable for someone better than me, I don't have much time ...You can find a better person, for me who has little to do with myself, there is really no need...I don't want to keep hanging on you and make you sad in the end."

"Qianyi," Yan Min looked at her, took a deep breath, and said, "I like someone, it's my own decision, and my decision will not be hasty. Like you, we all want to stick to our own way. "

Zhou Qianyi didn't answer any more, she just nodded slightly at Yan Min to express her thanks, then waved to her, turned and left.

Zhou Qianyi's back still looked like a clumsy little bear, but inside was a lamb in bear's skin.Yan Min looked at her back and smiled wryly.

"Let's go, master." Yan Min sat back in the taxi, and there were already other songs in the car.

The tune of that song is very gentle.

Like her smile in her heart, she is very gentle.

- i wait for you when the leaves fall

take you to see my original heart

It was sunny like childhood

someone sang green grass

how hard i have to work to get your heart

i think i should be pretty sure

you are my only one

......

Zhou Qianyi opened the door, and saw Yu Qingyue sitting on the sofa.

How many times has she been like this, sitting on the sofa, waiting for Yu Qingyue to come home, just waiting like this, looking out the window, without words or emotions.

When Yu Qingyue heard the sound of the door opening, she turned her head to look at the door. Her eyes were reddish, she had obviously cried, and her hair was a little messy.The skirt she was wearing hadn't been changed yet, and it seemed that she had fallen down, and the skirt had some stains on it.

When she saw Zhou Qianyi, her first reaction was to get up and walk over, imagining holding her in her arms like before; as long as her arms were full of Zhou Qianyi's smell, she would not feel panicked, and would feel at ease.

Zhou Qianyi who was hugged did not break free, she just listened to Yu Qingyue's slightly nasal voice murmuring in her ear repeatedly: "Where have you been?...I can't find you anywhere... I was wrong... okay..." Her voice was full of tears.

Zhou Qianyi pushed her away after listening, walked to the hall to put away his things, sat on the sofa and looked at the cleaned house.Yu Qingyue saw the medicine patch on her left hand, sat next to her and carefully asked, "Qianyi...hand...what's the matter..."

Zhou Qianyi moved to the side, obviously not wanting to get close to Yu Qingyue, she hid her left hand under her sleeve before saying, "...I'm a little tired."

After hearing what she said, Yu Qingyue was not unhappy, and got up to get vegetables from the refrigerator: "I'll make some vegetables, and I'll buy what you like. You can rest for a while."

Yu Qingyue wiped her reddish eyes, breathed a sigh of relief, and walked to the kitchen with the dishes.

Zhou Qianyi clutched her stomach. Her stomach hurt a lot. The symptoms of advanced gastric cancer became more and more obvious. Some cold sweat broke out on her head, and she gritted her teeth to endure the pain.

She didn't know how long she could live; all kinds of diseases tortured her so much that she couldn't live without her.

Zhou Qianyi didn't plan to go for surgery and chemotherapy. She had undergone surgery for a congenital heart disease when she was a child, and the pain still terrifies her.The doctor said that she would not live to be 35 years old, and she didn't want to live that long. She still feels that she is suffering.

In the past, she just wanted to spend more time with her lover, but now, Yu Qingyue doesn't need her so much, and the other person is so good and good, so she doesn't have to think about it anymore.

But she is really not reconciled.

Obviously she is her lover, obviously she is the one who came first, but she will never be able to compete with all kinds of rich and powerful young masters outside, the girls who are much prettier than herself, and her getting wilder and wilder. heart of.

What are you?

To try to make her remember herself even now by deluding herself is... ridiculous.

Yu Qingyue is busy in the kitchen, she seldom cooks, and cooks for herself at home a few times, Yu Qingyue thinks that what she likes to eat is always the same, Zhou Qianyi will never blame her for not occasionally Adjusted the seasoning and did not buy good food.

She didn't ask much, as long as Yu Qingyue was willing to cook those dishes, as long as she was sincere.

As long as I am not the one who was abandoned.

Just that... that's enough.

Yu Qingyue had already prepared the dishes, she set the plate and brought it to the table, watching Zhou Qianyi eat a little bit with her chopsticks, she smiled happily.

In the past few days, she suddenly felt the uneasiness and fear of not being able to find Zhou Qianyi.

Now she thinks, it's okay, as long as she is here and calms down, Qianyi won't leave...

Yu Qingyue thought about it, then smiled and picked up some food for Zhou Qianyi with chopsticks.

She didn't notice Zhou Qianyi's pale face.

She also doesn't know that her lover, who is still eating her cooking, will soon leave this world.