memory castration

He called me Xiaobai?There was a buzzing sound in my head, and I almost thought I had an auditory hallucination again. After a long while, I said in a difficult voice: "What do you mean by this...?"

The corner of Xu Yifei's mouth showed a meaningful shallow arc, "When we grow up, we will go to Egggarsen to get married, and Xiaobai will marry me when the time comes, okay?"

Someone said the exact same words to me more than ten years ago, but he has long since died underground.

"What? Still can't remember?" Xu Yifei gently touched my lower lip, "We gave each other our first kiss, did you forget it too?"

Xu Yifei... Li Xinlong?Why can I see my first love from his face? !No, their looks and personalities are completely different!

"I don't know what you're talking about!" The smell of tobacco that I was used to became irritating in an instant. I pushed him away suddenly, but I couldn't open the locked car door no matter what.

He continued to sneer, "Then why do you want to run away in a panic? Can't believe it or don't want to believe what you heard?"

I snarled at him with red eyes, "Xu Yifei, go to hell, stop playing tricks here!"

He leaned over and pressed me firmly against the glass window, "Xiaobai, should you call me another name now? Li Xinlong? Longlong? No one has called me that for a long time..."

After he said that long-lost name, I completely froze and became a wooden person.

They're nothing alike, really.

Li Xinlong is gentle, weak, cheerful, kind and has a little low self-esteem, while Xu Yifei is irritable, strong, cold, inhuman and arrogant...

Li Xinlong always blushes at every turn, and his eyes are too shy to look directly at each other.

Most of Xu Yifei's face is expressionless and his face is paralyzed, and his eyes are sharp like needles that can pierce people to death.

Li Xinlong would say Xiaobai, I will take good care of you, better than grandma treats you.

Xu Yifei would scold me viciously, Fang Yibai, you bitch, if you bother me again, I'll fuck you to death!

And the most important point: Li Xinlong is dead, but Xu Yifei is still alive...

When I was in a trance, Xu Yifei said in a sexy and deep voice: "Didn't you ask what deal we made eight years ago? Xiao Ziqi knew my secret, so he told me his secret too. After that he went to For Egggarson, he promised me that he would never come back. But seven years later, he appeared in Jiangcheng again, why should I keep a secret for such a guy who doesn't keep his promise?"

"Longlong? Are you really... Li Xinlong?"

His thick and long eyelashes flickered, and his pupils were like fireworks lit in the dark, showing unparalleled brilliance, "I am."

I groped for his all-too-familiar facial features with my hands, lowered my arms weakly, and said word by word: "Since you're dead, why did you come back?"

Xu Yifei was stunned, the heat in his eyes instantly extinguished and turned into two black spots.

Am I too cruel?He didn't greet the good news that he was still alive with a smile...

But without his words, Longlong would still be a pure young boy in my heart, and a lovely lover who I can remember with a smile.

What now?My lover didn't die, but turned into a beast and kept lurking beside me. For eight years, not only tortured and humiliated my body, but also trampled on my personality...

I really wish he was dead already, dead dead!

"Is that your reaction?"

"Otherwise? I want to hug you with great excitement, and thank God with tears streaming down my face for recovering my first love, and also giving him a rich and powerful status. More importantly, he has been fucking with me all the time I have never left my side, and all my past sorrows and sorrows are all jokes... Is that so?"

He pursed his lower lip habitually, and his eyebrows furrowed slightly.

"Xu Yifei, or should I call you Li Xinlong, I don't know what you went through in Jiangcheng to become what you are now, and I'm not even interested in knowing. But no matter what happened to you, you have no right to transfer this hatred to me."

"If it's your brother who made me become like this?"

"Then go find him! What does it have to do with me? Before today, I didn't even know that I had an older brother. Why should I take the blame for him?"

Xu Yifei raised the corners of his mouth, and his smile was full of sarcasm, "What if he did all these things for you?"

"What for me? I never took a penny from him, let alone any benefit from him! I am also a victim, okay?"

"If you don't take it now, it doesn't mean you won't take it in the future..."

"Fart your mother!" I slapped him unbearably, trembling with anger, "Don't say I didn't take it, so what if I take it in the future? You don't have the ability to fight him and bully me instead What's going on!"

He didn't redouble his anger and fight back as usual, but looked at me blankly, "Because you are the only weakness of that pervert Xiao Ziqi, if you are sad, he will be ten times more sad than you..."

I laughed back in anger, "It turns out that I am just a tool to vent in your eyes. According to this, you might as well just kill me directly. Why do you waste time doing more useless work?"

"Kill you?" He lowered his heroic eyelids, covering half of his dark pupils, "Then what should I do next..."

"Don't fucking pretend to be a lover in front of me! You said it as if you loved me so much. If you loved me, you wouldn't have broken your promise and left Ninghai back then! If you loved me, you wouldn't have sex with others in front of me, let alone tortured After I'm done, kick people away, pat their butts, and get married! Xu Yifei, how cheap is your love? Is it sold in the market wholesale by the pound?"

He twitched the corner of his mouth, and said in a cold ironic voice: "My love is worthless, and your love is not worth much. I used to keep saying that I love me, but when I turned around, I used money to draw a clear line. When I was in Ninghai, When Li Xinlong touches you, it's like desecrating the saint. After arriving in Jiangcheng, I coax you like a dog with my fingers. I can do whatever I want with my legs. I have never seen you resist, and I have an affair with my brother. Qing guy...what qualifications do you have to say about me?"

These words slapped my face like a slap in the face, and I clenched my fists, "Since you know how bad I am, why do you still pester me? Aren't you meaner than you?"

His face was flushed with sullenness, he gritted his teeth and pinned me down with his elbow, "I'll show you who the bitch is right now!"

Now I have to admit that I have failed in life, that my scheming is not as good as Xiao Ziqi's, and my physical strength is not as good as Xu Yifei's.

After several scuffles, I didn't get any cheap.But fortunately, the space is small, the two big men are quite restrained in their movements, and I don't care about face, I use all my hands, knees, elbows and teeth.

Xu Yifei's body is strong and muscular, and his hair is cut so short that he can't hold it with his hands.

He firmly held down my hands and feet, pressed my face against the cold glass window to force a confession, "Tell me, who the hell is cheap!"

I sneered, "If you want to know, just look in the mirror, bitch Xu!"

"Fucking stubborn!" He punched me on the chin, "Say, who the hell is cheap!"

"It's the cheapest dog to ask!"

He threw away his arm, clacked his fingers, and was about to pull my belt, "Okay, let's see how I deal with you next..."

boom!boom!Someone knocked on the window with a stone outside, and the other party's voice was as flat as greeting the weather, "I'll count to three, if you don't come out, I'll smash the glass."

It's Xiao Ziqi... I subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, but when I thought about our relationship, I felt nervous again. He might as well not show up. The situation is even more chaotic now!

Xu Yifei probably didn't expect him to be summoned, the tip of his nose pressed against my face and didn't move.

Xiao Ziqi began to count outside, "One...two..."

I didn't say anything, and Xu Yifei also lay down and pretended to be dead, and then when the word 'three' was silenced, there was a loud bang from the glass.

"Damn, he really dares to smash it!" Xu Yifei's expression changed, he opened the car door and rushed out, "Xiao Ziqi, you madman!"

Xiao Ziqi was staggered by his brute force, but ignored Xu Yifei, threw a stone and looked at me worriedly, "Xiaobai, are you alright?"

I sat up in embarrassment, but I didn't dare to meet his eyes at all.

Xiao Ziqi... are you really my brother?If you knew the truth long ago, why did you do such a thing to me?

A few minutes later, we sat in the living room, and I repeatedly rubbed my punched chin, while Xu Yifei was staring at the water glass on the table, with scars from my scratching on his face.

Although it has changed owners several times, the furnishings in this house have basically not changed much.

I still remember that it was on the old sofa under me that Li Xinlong and I kissed for the first time, while Xiao Ziqi was watching coldly on the spiral staircase.

So many years have passed in a blink of an eye, who would have thought that the three of us would come to this situation today?

Xiao Ziqi was adding sugar to my cup spoon by spoon. His fingers were slender and transparent, and he could look good even with such ordinary movements.

He is worth hundreds of millions, owns real estate in various places, and has a deep mind and a handsome and elegant appearance... If it is not because of his perverted personality, he can be called perfect.

And I was naughty from a young age, accomplished nothing for more than 20 years, stupid and unlovable.

The distance between heaven and earth, how could we be brothers?

Xiao Ziqi handed over the cup with a gentle expression, "Who can tell me what happened?"