My Young Ning [Rebirth]

On the second day after the new year, there was news about what Yan Youning had asked Ling Ao to inquire about.A friend of Ling Ao who was in the car dealership recommended him a second-hand Kia Sportage. The car was in good condition, it had only run [-] kilometers, and the seller's price was not expensive. He asked Yan Youning if he was interested in taking a look at the car.

Yan Youning went the next day and bought the car back. He was still a student, and his money was limited. Besides, he didn't know what the situation would be after two years. This kind of car was just right for him.With the means of transportation, not only is it much more convenient for him to commute to and from get off work, but he can also do many things that are not so convenient to do at ordinary times.

For example, check out Guan Yufei's whereabouts.

For a big family like the Guan family, there will be many foreign affairs activities years ago. Whenever Guan Zhengan shows up, Guan Yufei is always by his side. Looking at the photos of the father and son, Guan Zhengan's eyebrows and eyes are kind, as if being caught After the eldest son was heartbroken, the son he picked up halfway became the only comfort in his heart.As usual, Guan Yufei had no expression on his face, as if no matter what happened, it had nothing to do with him, and there was a calmness and composure that didn't match his age.After several trials, the media came to the conclusion that this son is young and mature.However, Yan Youning suspected that this so-called "young and old man" was also a smokescreen released under Guan Zheng'an's behest, in order to make him wear the heir's coat in the future to have a more realistic visual effect.

Sometimes when he reads the newspaper and looks at the father and son standing together in the photo, Yan Youning will have a subtle and strange feeling that history overlaps.It was as if what he saw was not the expressionless Guan Yufei, but the ignorant self who had found a sense of belonging in his father's love and acceptance, and was locked up like a puppet with a smirk on his face. The father and son played around in circles.

In the name of love.

But the same trap, he fell into the bait because he was loved by his mother since he was a child, so after she passed away, he wanted someone to treat him with the same love.And Guan Yufei probably never looked forward to the relationship between his parents, otherwise he would not have discovered something soberly in such a short period of time.

Guan Yufei looks like a malnourished, miserable green boy, but he is one year older than Yan Youning.Yan Youning can comfort himself with his age, with the shrewdness and experience he has cultivated through the tempering of life, he will do better than himself, he will not follow his old path, but seeing the frequent exposure of the Guan family Yan Youning still feels uneasy about the photos of father and son.He always thought of Guan Yufei guarding downstairs of Huayi that night, with a thin figure and empty eyes.Like a little beast that is cornered and completely at a loss.

Yan Youning didn't have his phone number, and this brat said he wanted to call him, but he never did.It was impossible for him to come to find Guan Yufei, and the person who knew both of them at the same time, one was Ming Feng, who was in the United States and would come back sometime, and the other was...Mu Kun.

When Yan Youning's car stopped by the side of the road, he was still thinking about what kind of expression Mu Kun would put on if he went to find Mu Kun, surprised?Accident?disdain?With Mu Kun's personality, when he saw Yan Youning came to him on his own initiative, he would definitely feel that Yan Youning regretted it, and maybe he would say a few words to ridicule Yan Youning's overreaching.

Across the road is the closed private club where I met the Guan Brothers for the first time. The parking lot in front of the door is lined with luxury cars.It was so far away that it was hard to see whether there was Guan Yufei's car inside.He thought about going over to look for his car, and then put a note on the door reminding him to call himself or something.However, the security guards in this kind of place are very vigilant, and an idler like him can't touch it at all.

Yan Youning can only wait here to try his luck.This is the only place where he and Guan Yufei meet, if he still can't block people, Yan Youning doesn't know what to do.Judging from the situation that day, the Guan Yufei brothers should be regular visitors here.Even if Guan Yusen has broken up with his family on the surface, Guan Yufei may still come out for fun.Especially now that he has been pushed to the fore by the Guan family, his status has attracted people's attention, and there should be no shortage of entertainment among the princes of the aristocratic families who have contacts with the Guan family.

Yan Youning looked at the time on his phone, it was almost twelve o'clock.Guan Zhengan is not strict with his adult son, but there is one thing that he cannot spend the night outside.If Guan Yufei really came out to play, it's almost time to come out.In fact, two nights ago, he seemed to have seen Guan Yufei, but it was too far away, Yan Youning couldn't be sure if he saw it wrong, and there were a group of men and women around that person, it was even more impossible for Yan Youning to pass by.

Yan Youning glanced at his phone every few minutes, and gradually became a little impatient.Even if his living habits are not regular, he rarely has the experience of wandering outside in the middle of the night like this.Just when the body was a little sleepy due to the boring waiting, the door of the clubhouse opened again, and two men came out.

Yan Youning stopped yawning halfway.When he saw the two people walking out clearly, he couldn't help but punched the steering wheel.The slightly thin young man walking in front was Guan Yufei, but what happened to Mu Kun who was following him?Was it because the Guan family sent him to be an "assistant" to monitor Guan Yufei, or was it that all Guan Yusen's brothers, this scumbag, would be interested in stretching out his paws? !

Yan Youning was so angry that he couldn't help it, he couldn't just run over and let his appearance arouse Mu Kun's suspicion of Guan Yufei.I can only watch them get into the same car and leave quickly.

Looking at the empty road, Yan Youning felt inexplicably sad.It was agreed a long time ago to stay away from this family and never have any relationship with them again.But inexplicably, he was still being held, and he couldn't get close, and couldn't bear to stay away.

Yan Youning's own past and present lives were all trapped in a huge net, no matter how hard he struggled, his hands and feet were still firmly stuck to this net.The only difference is that the position is changed, from the most central position to the spectator seat on the edge, which seems to be safe.However, watching others die, and still dying in the position that I vacated, this feeling is even more torturous.

Yan Youning suddenly thought of Ming Feng.He is Guan Yusen's friend, he can go in and out of Guan's house, he can see Guan Yufei, he can... he can tell him how Guan Yufei's situation is.

Yan Youning checked his phone again, thinking about the date when Ming Feng might come back, and silently hoped that this man would come back as soon as possible.

The day before New Year's Eve, the employees of Huayi officially had a holiday.

Yan Youning spent the whole day changing and washing the curtains and quilt covers, and the sofa covers were replaced and washed. Then he carried the vacuum cleaner from the roof to under the bed, and took advantage of the sunshine at noon to clean the glass windows. All wiped clean.This is Yilian's habit. She said that before the new year, she should remove the dust and welcome the new year cleanly. This is the rule of the oriental people.So every year before the Spring Festival in the past, he would follow Yilian's ass, washing the curtains, cleaning the glass, and even the stove from top to bottom carefully.

It is still good to live alone, at least the sanitation is not so troublesome.I spent most of the day packing up, then drove to Walmart to scavenge, huddled among a group of beaming moms and aunts, and stocked up on holiday food for myself: meat, vegetables, fruit, bread, and dairy.

The next day was New Year's Eve, Yan Youning got up early in the morning and changed into dark clothes, drove to a nearby flower shop to pick up the pre-ordered bouquet, and drove to the cemetery to visit Yilian.

There were actually firecrackers in the cemetery, and there were incense sticks and paper money in front of many tombstones, those Yan Youning didn't understand.His mother is not from here, and she doesn't understand these customs.He only knows that she loves to see flowers the most. In fact, not only lavender and iris, but also all kinds of flowers.Her nature is that of a beauty-loving, flower-loving little woman who lives in her dreams until she dies.

During the time when he just woke up, he once thought that if the time was a little earlier, it would be great if he could see Yilian again.Even if only once.Later, I felt that if I didn't see it, I would see it again, and seeing it was just to experience the pain of separation again.Orientals all believe in fate, which means that their mother-child fate has come to an end.

A large bouquet of lilies was placed in front of Yilian's tombstone, and the tombstone was wiped clean.This is someone who rushed over to visit her grave first.

Yan Youning was a little surprised. Could it be that Yilian's suitors chased her all the way here because of the exposure of her life experience?In any case, it is always a comfort to have someone come to visit her and think of her.

Yan Youning put the bouquet in his bosom next to the lily bouquet, reached out and gently touched the smiling person in the photo, "Someone came to see you? Huh? Is it a handsome guy?"

Yilian looked at him with the same smile.

She will always be so beautiful, time can no longer change her face.

Yan Youning sniffled lightly, took out the poster with his big face printed on it, folded it up, and put it under the bouquet, "Hey, take a look, I'm off to make a movie. Li Ao also said that I The face follows you, and it's quite photogenic."

Yan Youning looked at her, closed his eyes lightly and pressed his forehead against her face.

He has grown up, he is too weak to say words.But he really hoped that Yilian was still alive, quietly waiting in a place that he could call home.When he is tired and lonely, he can rest his head on her shoulder and let her touch his hair.

This is the first Spring Festival that 19-year-old Yan Youning spends alone without his mother.

This is the tenth year that Yan Youning, who came back from the dead, left his mother.The longing remains the same, but the fear of losing a mother has been settled in the bones by the years, and forbearance has become a habit.

Sure enough, the years are like knives, and even the roundest pearls and jades can carve out sharp scars.

However, no matter how hard the pearl jade is, its texture is always brittle.

Listening to the sound of firecrackers not far away, Yan Youning felt more and more empty in his heart.Those crackling sounds seemed to reverberate in his heart, which made people feel extremely uncomfortable.

It's the New Year's Eve, but his only relative is sleeping here alone.

He once felt that he came back to life to avoid the tragic ending of the previous life and to live again according to his own will.But now, Yan Youning felt confused again.

The current him should be regarded as avoiding the entanglement of the Guan family.I already have a job, I'm continuing my studies, and I even just bought a car - although it's not a fancy car.But the feeling in his heart became more and more at a loss, as if he was trapped in a fog.He can't say whether this is the way of life he wants, it seems to be, and it seems... It doesn't matter whether it is or not.

He came back to life to avoid Guan Jia and live for himself.

But what is the purpose of living by oneself?

Yan Youning had nowhere to go other than the dormitory, so he simply stayed in the cemetery until dark before going back.The cemetery is built on the middle of the mountain, and the terrain is very high.When walking down the hill along the steps, you can see the gorgeous fireworks over the city blooming on the night that just fell. With the crackling sound, the whole city is restless and cheerful.

Yan Youning didn't like this kind of scene, it would make him feel that he was alone, not even having a New Year's Eve dinner with him, it was quite pitiful.

Go out next year, he thought.Reporting to a travel agency and taking a walk anywhere is better than wandering around by yourself.

It was not yet seven o'clock when Yan Youning returned to the dormitory. He bought some firecrackers from the grocery store outside the community. No matter what, the Chinese New Year still had to look like a Chinese New Year.

There are a lot of ingredients stored in the refrigerator, but it's not easy for him to cook alone. If he cooks less, it doesn't look like the Chinese New Year. If he cooks too much, he will have to eat leftovers tomorrow.Who wants to eat leftovers during the Chinese New Year?After much deliberation, I decided to eat hot pot.Simple, convenient, and still hot after eating for a long time.

He can also drink a little wine.

Yan Youning put the firecrackers on the shoe cabinet by the door, rolled up his sleeves and went to the kitchen to wash the vegetables.He loves to eat soy products. He bought a lot of frozen tofu, water tofu, and tofu skin. There are also vegetables, and the meat is a little less, but there are shrimps...

I was busy in the kitchen when I heard the doorbell ring outside.Yan Youning was a little puzzled, the other house on the same floor seemed to be vacant all the time, no one was seen when going in and out.I don’t usually live here, let alone during Chinese New Year.Could it be that, as the joke says, the neighbors upstairs and downstairs don't get jealous when they eat dumplings?

Going up to the cat's eye and looking out, Yan Youning was stunned, he couldn't believe his eyes, and when he took a closer look, it was still the same person, standing there with a dusty face, waiting for him to open the door.Probably impatient to wait, he stretched out his hand and patted hard on the anti-theft door, "You Ning!"

Yan Youning opened the door, the look of surprise in his eyes was undisguised, "Why are you back?"

Ming Feng smiled and said, "There is something wrong with the company, so I came back early."

"Oh?" Yan Youning wanted to ask why the company came here for something?But this sentence passed in his mouth again, and he swallowed it back, "Come in."

Ming Feng came in dragging a big suitcase, and stretched himself before entering the door, "Oh, I'm so tired."

Did he come directly from the airport without going back to his residence?

Yan Youning looked at his completely relaxed expression, and vaguely felt that he... understood something——