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The road ahead rushes in front of me, and then quickly disappears under the headlights of the car.It wasn't until they reached the front of the house that Sheng Weimin was conscientiously waiting in front of the door.Seeing two drenched people get out of the car, they shouted: "How did you two do this!"

"It's nothing, Principal Sheng, let's rest now." Shao Youguang grabbed Ji Jian's shoulders, half pushed, and walked into the house. He also wanted to protect him from the rain, and handed over the car keys to Sheng Weimin.

Ji Jian was more polite than him. He nodded when he saw Sheng Weimin, and invited him in a friendly voice, "Come in for a cup of tea?"

"No, no, no," Sheng Weimin waved his hands, "Hurry up and change your clothes, so you don't catch a cold. Let's talk about something tomorrow." He looked back at the two of them as he walked, feeling that the atmosphere was unusual, but he couldn't help it anyway. Can't figure out what's wrong.

The two entered the house and followed the usual procedure. Ji Jian boiled water, changed his clothes and went to take a bath.He was no longer polite and modest, and said coldly: "I'll go first."

Taking a bath in the mountains is really not easy. Most people don’t have a place to take a bath. The room in Ji Jian’s room was isolated later. It’s terribly simple, but it’s better than nothing. You don’t have to spend your days in the town’s bathing place like the villagers up.

Taking a bath may seem like a small matter, but once you feel uncomfortable, it can always ruin a good day.The private bathroom with empty walls that Ji Jian insisted on at the beginning showed its effect at this time.

It's just because it's too simple and there's no place to put clothes, so I can only take them off first and go in every time.It was nothing the past two days, although the two of them had their own ulterior motives, they both pretended that one was more magnanimous than the other.I'm afraid that the other party can't see that the sky is bright and the sky is bright in his heart.

It's really different now, as soon as Shao Youguang looked up, he saw Ji Jian undressing towards him with his back, the lamp was still the same, somehow it looked a little more dim today, with a little more charming color in between.

The cool air on the spring night made his skin a little red, and Shao Youguang was horrified to see that pair of long straight legs walking around within a few square inches, with extremely smooth muscle arcs.People with good-looking gastrocnemius muscles in their calves are indeed seeking the favor of God. No matter what movements they do, whether their legs are bent or bent, whether they are tensed or relaxed, they are all pleasing to the eye.

Ji Jian went in to take a bath, and the sound of the water mingled with the sound of the rain outside the window. Shao Youguang thought confidently, how many times he swam in the river together when he was a child, and he had seen everything he should have seen and should not have seen.But the slenderness of young people belongs to young people after all, and it is far from being able to replace the tension of a hasty glimpse of adulthood.At this moment, his mind is indeed full of yellow waste, but there are many kinds of "beauty", and it is often not from beauty to sex, but from beauty and sex, there is no distinction between beauty and sex.The lover's body is shining brightly in front of his eyes, it would be false if he doesn't move his heart, now there is still a hazy layer of window paper between the two, sex is ambiguous, beauty is impulsive and restrained, open and respectful.

It stands to reason that it is more beautiful when it is filled with water vapor, but a bold person like Shao Youguang has no time to take a closer look, so he hastily took over to take a shower. The water is warm and does not boil, but the temperature is just right for him.

Everything should be done step by step. The two of them lay down on their own beds and wrapped up the quilts, both of them looked contented.Shao Youguang lay on his side, his eyes burning, and said, "Can you continue with your story?"

Hearing this, Ji Jian turned off the desk lamp, but he didn't sleep well with his pillow on his head, and sat half-sitting against the head of the bed.His pajamas are made of light gray checkered cotton cloth, which seems to have cut off a lot of coldness. His hair is fluffy on his forehead, not completely dry, and he looks very obedient. The profile of his face is fuzzy and fuzzy. into an atmosphere.

He opened his mouth and said, "There's nothing else in the back, it's just a boring story."

"real?"

"Well, what's written later is..." Ji Jian paused, he shook his head, and said that I can't remember clearly, who knows what he thought back then to write this kind of story.

"Probably...probably, when Xu Man returned home with the writer, he knew that the writer was a down-and-out son, and his parents left a lot of money for him to squander, but he was also unhappy, and the things he wrote were contrary to the times. , so I can only live a sloppy life with my talents in mind."

"He wanted to write a story about a naked Greek teenager, about history and desire. Kind of like Narcissus who ended up turning into a daffodil, Xu Man became his model, just like those people need models for painting , Writing articles is also needed.”

"Oh, it's a 'narcissistic' story." Shao Youguang smiled and interjected leisurely.

"Yes," Ji Jian smiled vaguely, "any kind of love should be respected."

Shao Youguang agreed and asked, "What's next."

"They fell in love, and it was a matter of course."

"Then do the people around them agree?" Shao Youguang asked such a question.

Ji Jian was silent for a while, and then said: "Yes, they have received everyone's blessing."

He went on to say: "The ending is that they are together and love each other very much. The writer no longer writes, and he finds that he has become very happy after giving up writing. He goes to work in a publishing house and receives a fixed amount of money every month. Xu Man also no longer works as a model, he lives with the writer, and occasionally goes out to do odd jobs, he has lost the so-called talent of being able to hear the sound of fish, but he is also very happy."

Shao Youguang stared at Ji Jian in the black for a while, but didn't speak.

"It's a good ending, isn't it?" Ji Jian patted the pillow, lay down, and looked at him with his head sideways.

"Very good." Shao Youguang replied, but Ji Jian felt that he was not sincere.

There is a piece of corn outside the window, rustling by the wind, this sound is different from the sound of rain, like some kind of low-pitched confession.

They speak to each other as the earth speaks to the wind.

Once the eyes get used to the darkness, it is a kind of hidden perspective to look at things again, just like a deer on the grassland peeping at the crescent moon rising on the distant horizon in the bushes.Ji Jian and Shao Youguang looked at each other for a while, and both felt that this situation was really beautiful.It's just that the good is good, and you always have to commit yourself to reality.

Shao Youguang raised his eyebrows and said, "I think you have something to tell me. Let me guess, what unpleasant things happened during your visit to Liu Meng's house during the day?"

Ji Jian's eyes widened a little: "How do you know?"

"Please, Mr. Ji," Shao Youguang smiled, "you are almost sad written on your face."

"I'm very happy today, really." Ji Jian argued with him.

"I know you're happy, but aren't these two different things?" Shao Youguang saw clearly, with a happy ending in his voice, and he didn't make any detours with him.

Ji Jian sat up again, sighed, hesitated before speaking.

"I was wondering if I should get out of here."

"How to say?" Shao Youguang also sat up.He was selfishly happy at first, and then based on his understanding of Ji Jian, he felt that it was not an easy matter for Ji Jian to say such a thing.

"When I was by the river this afternoon, Liu Meng's mother broke down several times, saying that I harmed Liu Meng." Ji Jian sighed again, "She said that the things I taught Liu Meng gave her The teaching is bad, how did such a good person become like this."

"You also know that his mother has no culture. She can't understand what happened, and she doesn't know who to blame. She can only blame me. She is also very forced. For a family like her, this daughter is The only hope. They just hope that she will be well and marry a good family in the future. What kind of culture, pursuit, they don’t understand, and they don’t think it’s necessary.” Ji Jian shook his head and said, “But her mother used to be very good. Yes, very enthusiastic, every time we meet, I say thank you, Teacher Ji."

"Yes, I know, she is the one who sent me to find you." Shao Youguang met him before and traveled the same way, so he knew that that woman had a very strong mouth, and if she really wanted to scold her every word, she must be worse than Ji Jian. Those two sentences are far worse.He thought, I don't care how enthusiastic she was before, but if he was reluctant to say a serious word to this person in front of him, it would be her turn.

"When I was teaching Liu Meng, I found that she had aura and talent. She loved to read, so I encouraged her and lent her books. She said that she wanted to get out of Yiliang, and she wanted to get out of Yiliang. Middle school is not bad, she went to the provincial capital, and everyone was very happy at that time, her mother and father were also happy, and felt that they had a good face. Now the neighbors are laughing, and the daughter of the Liu family went out for a trip, and she was stupid in studying."

"Knowledge can harm people, why didn't I know it before?" Ji Jian didn't know who he was asking, and Shao Youguang saw extremely simple confusion in his eyes.This confusion made my heart twitch violently.

"What's up with the kid now?" he asked.

"I wanted to talk to her in the afternoon, but the communication didn't go well. I took a psychology course for a year in college. She was depressed one-way. I can guess it. She is a child with a very sensitive mind. Seeing more There is too much psychological gap in the big world, and there is a lot of pressure, and no one communicates with her. In all fairness, "Ji Jian smiled bitterly, and then said: "We all went through this stage when we went out to study. I saw her sometimes I think about my old self.”

"But," Ji Jian said vaguely, "I'm still luckier than her."

He didn't say where he was lucky, because he suddenly realized that the thing that caused him the most pain back then was what supported him all the time. Perhaps loving someone can really make him courageous.

Ji Jian went on to say: "You also know that in this society, especially in rural areas, it will be more difficult for girls to walk. But not only girls, everyone has his boundaries, and some people live their lives unsatisfactorily. You know, that’s very lucky, some people accidentally see beyond the boundary, just like fish in a fishbowl, swimming in such a space for a lifetime, but if one of them has seen the sea, of course it will feel painful. Liu Meng said You see, I put more options in the world in front of her, but the reality taught her that she has no right to choose. It’s been more than [-] years. We were crazy to break through everything and escape from the original world more than [-] years ago. How about a small city today? Times have developed and changed for the better, but this escape has become even bigger and more tragic."

"I've clearly seen a better world, but I can't take them there, so what's the point of me being here?" After holding back these words for too long, Ji Jian was finally able to say, "What's wrong with us? What did those mothers do wrong? What did the children who wanted to run away do wrong? I can’t seem to find a solution, how ridiculous, my original intention of coming here was to find myself, it’s quite selfish to say it, and I’ve been touched by myself. But I suddenly didn't know where I was, I was really... so small."

Shao Youguang patiently listened to him, and then said: "Look, I'm actually a hedonist, and I haven't read so many sage books, so I can't make any sense. If you are willing to leave, I am naturally happy. Let's go back happily." If you don't want to leave, that's fine, I'll come and hide in the mountains with you after the house is sold."

"Hey," Shao Youguang raised his voice a little bit, "You said that a house in Shanghai is enough to live here for a lifetime without worrying about food and clothing, but it's not in the urban area. The two-bedroom apartment is not big, and the community is also an old community."

When Ji Jian heard this, he almost failed, saying that you are young and poor.Shao Youguang said it as a joke, so Ji Jian took it as a joke, he laughed and thought, how is it possible, I am not worthy of him doing this, how can anyone be so foolish.

Seeing that he finally smiled, Shao Youguang breathed a sigh of relief and said: "I respect all your decisions, but Ji Jian, whether you leave or stay, I hope you will be happy and happy. Besides, what you said Boundaries, in my opinion, are natural laws that must exist. Beyond the boundaries are still boundaries, and we can see sharp horizons everywhere we go, just like mountains are still outside of mountains, and there are larger seas beyond the sea, and The universe, there are multi-dimensional spaces outside the universe. We live in the boundary forever, so we are sad and lucky."

"Where is the luck?" Ji Jian asked him, then suddenly thought of the apartment Shao Youguang mentioned, felt strange, and asked him what happened.

"That's right, our drama is actually very clear between the Beijing circle and the Shanghai circle, but there is no way, I am popular, and I can eat everywhere." He answered in an evasive way, and Ji Jian was also taken in by him for a while.

It was the first time he confessed all his thoughts to a person, only to realize that there was something to say, the problem was still there, and his mood was much more relaxed.Ji Jian saw a mirror on the door of the closet, and a new moon was reflected in the mirror. He thought that it was still full a few days ago, and then he realized that a new cycle had begun.He straightened the pillow again and lay down, but he didn't know why he had some inexplicable expectations in his heart.Talking is also a very exhausting thing, not to mention that every sentence is to dig out his own heart. Just as the sleepiness became heavier and he was about to fall asleep, Ji Jian heard someone move on the bed next to him.

Shao Youguang came to him in the dark, couldn't see clearly, and kissed him on the cheek, which happened to be on the tip of his nose.He hugged him reassuringly, said a few words and went back in a respectful manner.

He originally wanted to call him a baby, but he felt that it was really nasty, so the words twisted around in his mouth a few times, and it became: "Little neighbor, don't hold back your worries in the future, just tell me."

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