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From that day on, Ji Jian rarely saw Shao Youguang.I was stunned to endure the summer after the college entrance examination was over for a very, very long time.Ji Jian knew he was wrong, so he had the cheek to knock on the door of Shao Youguang's house several times. Shao Zhenzhen came running over wearing sandals and said, "My brother is not at home. He is out to play. Brother Ji Jian, you want to come to me Do you want to play at home?"

"Forget it, next time." Ji Jian always replied with drooping eyelids.

Shao Zhen really couldn't resist gossip, and always had to hold the door and say a few words to Ji Jian: "Hey, brother Ji Jian, do you know what's wrong with my brother and Zhu Xiaohong? I think they have a good relationship. Don't you..."

Shao Zhenzhen mysteriously did not continue, but left a lot of room for reverie.

"Oh," Ji Jian said dryly, "Did you do your summer homework? Would you like me to check it for you?"

Shao Zhenzhen stuck out her tongue and quickly closed the door: "Goodbye."

So Ji Jian didn't like to go out anymore.There are many things he can do at home alone. This summer does not have to be like Shao Youguang imagined a few months ago, swimming by the gleaming Huaihe River, lying down and submerging their heads in half-person-high rush grass.Or, they have even grander revenge.

Shao Youguang talked to him happily lying on the table in a sunny afternoon—they just rotated to the seats by the window at that time, and the national practice is to change the seats of primary and secondary school students to a large group every week, which is called preventing Strabismus, in fact, lacks the effect, but it directly adds a dose of excitement to the boring children.

The group by the window is always the most popular. The teacher is easy to ignore visually, and the light is good.Shao Youguang told Ji Jian this plan because he was bathed in such light. Anyone who knows a little bit about photography knows that the strong sunlight in the afternoon does not look good on people, and the face is divided into extreme overexposure and shadows. Like a film with extremely high saturation and rough texture, the reason why it is called film is because the film has temperature. When you zoom in on it, what you see is not digital pixels, but vivid colors.

This was a great plan for them at that time. Shao Youguang said: "I went to work a month ago, and I thought about the place. I asked Uncle Zhao on the pier to take me to run a boat from the Huaihe River to the Yangtze River. , to transport our pomegranates to the whole country. Then we will travel when we save enough money.”

"I can go anywhere. At that time, no one can control me."

He waved his hand as if pointing the country: "Beijing? Shanghai? Hey, no, it's boring. If you want to go, go farther. How about going to Hong Kong, where you can catch your father, or go to the United States? California? HotelCalifornia?"

Ji Jian also stopped writing and thought with him, he didn't have the divergent thinking of Shao Youguang's Ma Xingkong that day, and he didn't have any big dreams.

The sunshine is really good, the sunshine in summer is different from the light in spring.The blurred boundaries of spring, the light and transpiration of summer make the boundaries of things sharp.When you open a comprehensive geography book and come to the page with a map, it is actually not easy to identify. It is densely packed with climatic zones and environmental determinants.With Ji Jian's finger pointing, he struggled to identify the Huaihe River and the small towns along the Huaihe River. He swam along the thin blue line with his fingertips, thinking that it would be good to go anywhere.

Or it would be nice to just take Uncle Zhao's cargo ship and drift along the Huaihe River so neither south nor north.

But now, what is the evidence of these existences?There was no written evidence to stand at attention, and the speaker ran away without a trace.Ji Jian had no choice but to write it down in his diary during a boring day on vacation.He wrote every word very seriously, as if they really swam around dragging their hands, this is the only witness.

Song Manzhi was happy to see Ji Jian staying at home all day.She thought it was her own education that worked. On the night of the dinner, before Ji Jian opened the door late at night, she sat on the sofa and watched the hands of the clock waiting.During the long wait, Song Manzhi felt a fear of not being under her control.

"Don't think that you can do whatever you want after entering the university." She warned Ji Jian so solemnly. At the same time, her keen Ji Jian smelled the alcohol on Ji Jian's body.

But that day, Ji Jian didn't say "I see" obediently to her as usual, but went back to his room without saying a word, and slammed the door with a bang.

Song Manzhi greyed several hairs for her son's sudden and unreasonable rebellion, but found that things were different from what she thought, so she settled down again.

That year, out of the [-] students in this small town who took the college entrance examination, only [-] passed the exam.There are people who go to all over the country, and they all study hard for three or four years like Ji Jian.Except for Shao Youguang, who is lucky.

Zhu Xiaohong was also one of the 15 people. She went to Beijing to apply for a second-class school with a score that could read a book. She was not happy, saying that choosing a city is much more important than choosing a school.After learning that Ji Jian was not in the same place as Shao Youguang, he happily came to Ji Jian to congratulate him.So Ji Jian felt even more depressed. He knew that Zhu Xiaohong had no good intentions, so he ignored her and just finished the matter hastily.

Of course, it's impossible to say that Ji Jian didn't see Shao Youguang in one vacation.Naturally, the two families who lived opposite each other didn't see each other when they looked up.One evening, Song Manzhi was missing a seasoning for cooking, so he sent Ji Jian to buy it.He opened the door and saw Shao Youguang leaning against the opposite door unexpectedly.In fact, he rehearsed in his mind more than once what it would be like to meet Shao Youguang by chance one day. To be honest, he had some expectations in his heart.But when things do happen, things are not so rosy.

Ji Jian's hand holding the doorknob barely stopped, and instinctively wanted to shrink back, but the door creaked, and Shao Youguang still looked over.

Dusk came from all sides, and everything was enveloped in a harmonious and uniform tone, as if soaked in some kind of amber-like liquid.When Ji Jian saw Shao Youguang, he felt that he was taller and darker again, and his hair was shaved short again, making his outline even tougher.He glanced at him like a stranger.Ji Jian bit the bullet and walked out the door, the corridor was narrow and dark, the light and shadow were separated, the distance between the two of them seemed not too far or close, just the social distance of a polite greeting between neighbors.

"Go out." Shao Youguang nodded at him, then looked away, obviously unwilling to talk to him.

"Oh." Ji Jian took a step forward, something in his character made him insist on not bowing his head.But he actually has a series of questions to ask, where have you been?What are you doing here?

Ji Jian had a little hope of luck, he thought, if Shao Youguang was standing here, might he be waiting for him with the same hope of luck.

He still stopped his steps of turning left to exit the unit door, paused for a while, and asked without embarrassment: "Why are you standing here?"

Only then did Shao Youguang turn his head, raised his eyebrows and stared at Ji Jian for a second or two, before saying, "My mother and my sister are at home, I'm going out to secretly smoke a cigarette."

As he spoke, he took out a bag of Bai Hongmei from his trousers pocket and shook it.

"You...don't keep smoking." Ji Jian softened his tone, he couldn't help reconciling.

Shao Youguang didn't buy it, he lit one and said, "Leave me alone."

Ji Jian wanted to say more, but Shao Youguang went straight out.

"Aunt Song asked you to come out to pick up something, don't delay." He said without looking back.

Ji Jian had no choice but to go out as well, and the two of them, one in front of the other, didn't say a word.

It was dark and the sun was setting.There are no tall buildings in the small town, so a fiery red sunset can be seen sinking into the end of the road.One or two clusters of flames swaying in the dark deep waves of the Huaihe River are reflected.

They have walked this road many times to and from school.When they walked this road, they used to think that the whole world was nothing more than this, just keep walking straight.

But now it turns many corners invisible.Walking, Shao Youguang turned left, Ji Jian turned right to go to the grocery store to buy the ingredients Song Manzhi wanted.

They didn't even say goodbye, Ji Jian never knew that this road could be so uncomfortable.

This discomfort lasted until the end of August.This is a major event for Ji's family. He is leaving to go to school.Song Manzhi sent him to the train station and muttered a lot of things behind him, and the luggage was also packed.But many years later, he forgot all of this, and only remembered that it was a very early train, and everything was foggy in the early morning.There is only one bus from this place to Shanghai every day, and there are not many people on the platform.

Song Manzhi sent him to the platform.The train was late, and Song Manzhi was going to be late for work, so he left Jijian to wait on the platform alone after thousands of orders.

Ji Jian watched Song Manzhi's back disappear into the fog, becoming more and more unclear.Did she turn back?Is she turning back because she can't bear to bear me?Ji Jian asked himself.But there is no answer.

After a long time, it seemed that the sun was about to rise completely, and it was a pale round.It's a cloudy day.

In the mist that had just begun to dissipate, Ji Jian heard the long mournful sound of the whistle, the ground began to shake, and the rails transmitted the roar of giant machinery.

The train came, and the people waiting for it were sparse, and some were talking to each other.But Ji Jian was alone.

This is the first time Ji Jian has left the city, with a decisive gesture of not looking back.But he didn't feel scared at all, he was ready to fly out of the labyrinth early on.So he had no choice but to attribute this inexplicable emotion to a disappointment of expectations.But expectations should not be there, because he left quietly, and before he left, he glanced at the window of the next door. It was pitch black, and it was probably the time of a good dream.

With a click, the train stopped.The flight attendant opened the door of the carriage and started yelling: "Everyone line up, take your time." The lady who sold tea eggs and marinated chicken legs on the platform also started the first hawking of the day.

Amidst these voices, Ji Jian heard someone calling his name.He didn't believe it, and when he looked back, he saw only the bustling crowd.

Then, he saw a tall man running towards him dragging his luggage.

It was Shao Youguang, frowning, sweating all over in the summer morning, and a drop just fell on his eyebrow.

The man bumped Ji Jian fiercely and said,

"Fuck|fuck, I'm going with you."

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