ninth tail

This is the closest cemetery to the urban area. Because it is not yet the Ching Ming Festival, there is no one in the cemetery and it is very quiet.Ji Xiao parked the car casually on the side of the road, and walked in with Ding Wei.

The old man guarding the cemetery at the gate was sweeping the fallen leaves. When they entered, the old man just looked up at them, ignored them, and continued to sweep the floor.

After Ji Xiao entered the cemetery, his whole expression changed, his steps were very light, and there was only a very slight sound when he landed, as if he was afraid of disturbing someone, which made Ding Wei follow a little nervous, and he also lightened his steps. Although he had no sound when he walked.

Ji Xiao is very familiar with this place, leading him to walk unhurriedly among rows of seemingly indistinguishable tombstones.Ding Wei had never been to the cemetery, but had only been to the Luan Graves a long time ago. His impression was very bad, and the atmosphere of death was permeating the surroundings.But the current cemetery is completely different. It looks like a park, clean and tidy, and the air is good. He thinks it is a good thing to lie here and bask in the sun.

Ji Xiao didn't stop until he reached the end of one of the rows before a tombstone.

Ding Wei leaned over to him and looked at the stele. The photo on it was a young boy named Cui Yuanhang.He looked at the date above and calculated it in his mind. He was 17 years old and felt something was wrong. He was always bad at calculations, so he did the calculation again, and it was still 17.

"17 years old?" He glanced at Ji Xiao and asked in a low voice.

"Well," Ji Xiao nodded, squatted down in front of the stele, and wiped his hands lightly on the photo, "I was not yet 17 when I died, two months away..."

Ding Wei squatted down next to Ji Xiao, thought for a while and then sat down on the ground directly. The moment he got close to Ji Xiao, he felt a certain emotion in Ji Xiao's heart, which he had never experienced before.

This indescribable sadness made Ding Wei look at Ji Xiao in surprise, but Ji Xiao's face was expressionless and calm.

In Ding Wei's eyes, Ji Xiao used to give people the impression that he is a carefree and nice gentleman, never angry or anxious, always smiling and talking, but he didn't expect that he would have another emotion that was hidden so deeply.

"This is the friend you mentioned?" Ding Wei felt a little depressed because he felt Ji Xiao's emotions.

"Well, Yuanhang and we are young." Ji Xiao smiled and sat down, "The kindergarten is just mixed together, known as black and white."

Ding Wei glanced at Cui Yuanhang's photo, and then at Ji Xiao. Cui Yuanhang was quite fair, while Ji Xiao's skin was wheat-colored. He held his chin: "Are you Heisha?"

"That's right," Ji Xiao laughed, smiled for a while and then sighed softly, "But this kid is much wilder than me."

Ding Wei didn't know how Ji Xiao laughed, he almost doubted that what he felt was not Ji Xiao's emotions, he stared at Ji Xiao strangely for a while, but didn't speak.

Strange person, obviously feeling very sad, but still laughing.

"When we were on vacation, we would have a drink together, climb trees and walls, run wild in the countryside..." Ji Xiao leaned on the stele behind him, raised his head, and squinted his eyes to recall.

"How did he die?" Ding Wei interrupted him and asked directly.

Ji Xiao choked on the second half of the sentence, his heart was blocked for a while, and he patted Ding Wei's shoulder after a long time: "You really don't know how to be tactful at all."

"Then..." Ding Wei twitched in his heart following Ji Xiao, he didn't like this feeling, it was uncomfortable, but he didn't want to stop, he was a little curious about Ji Xiao's state, but he didn't know how he could be more tactful , paused for a while and asked again carefully, "How did he die?"

"Have you ever been to the warehouse? It's a big one with a lot of bags piled up. I can't remember exactly what was in it. Anyway, it was piled up like a hill, very soft." Ji Xiao looked at Cui Yuanhang's photo, His eyes fluttered, "The two of us are very willing to go to that warehouse to stay, climb to the top, lie down and chat, usually no one will go in, it is very quiet."

Ding Wei looked at Ji Xiao and said slowly, wanting to continue to ask, how did he die, but he bit his lip and didn't ask, Ji Xiao's sadness has gradually overflowed, and this kind of discomfort that he has never experienced makes him feel sad. He inexplicably wanted to cry.

"We discovered that warehouse when we were freshmen in high school, and we spent most of our non-class time there," Ji Xiao still remembered the feeling of nervousness and excitement when he and Cui Yuanhang slipped into the warehouse, just like the secret Like a base, "We went there almost every day during the winter vacation. I don't know where there are so many things to talk about. It's about 20 years later..."

Ding Wei hugged his legs quietly and listened with his chin on his knees. He seldom chatted with anyone, but he talked to Su Gui at most, but he couldn't say a few words. Either he didn't want to talk, or he started fighting.

"It was very cold one day," Ji Xiao was silent for a while, as if he was recalling how cold it was that day, and he continued slowly after a long time, "It was so cold to the bone, I said warm up by the fire, it happened to be on Yuanhang's body Bring a lighter."

Ding Wei turned his head to look at Ji Xiao, he could already guess the following story.

"We found a piece of iron and put it on top of the pile to make a fire." Ji Xiao's voice was a little hoarse, and he began to struggle a bit, "It's dry in winter, you know, things are easy to catch...We didn't notice the sparks jumping out , when I got up, I realized..."

"Run." Ding Wei interjected, he was afraid of fire, if it wasn't for fear of Ji Xiao's accident last time, he would have fled far away.

Ji Xiao glanced at Ding Wei, and smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled: "Stupid boy, how dare we run away at that time, and we will not be beaten to death if we are caught setting fire to the warehouse."

Ding Wei felt very uncomfortable, Ji Xiao's smile was forced, and he felt a little distressed: "Stop laughing."

"We wanted to put out the fire." Every time Ji Xiao thought of this, he would feel breathless. If they hadn't thought about putting out the fire at that time, things might not have been as they were later, or if he hadn't proposed to make a fire to keep warm... Ji Xiao I lit a cigarette and drank it, "The fire wasn't too big when I found it, but I always felt like I could extinguish it by patting it twice with my clothes."

The result was not shot out.

Ji Xiao withdrew his gaze and landed on the toe of his shoe. When Ding Wei touched his leg, he found Ji Xiao trembling.He really wanted to comfort Ji Xiao, but he didn't know what to do, he had no such experience, a man trembling with sadness in front of him.

very sad.

"The fire burns very quickly. It's all things that can be touched at the first touch. They burn into one piece after a while," Ji Xiao continued after a while, tapping his fingers on the ground unconsciously. When I jumped off, the stack collapsed."

Ding Wei suddenly sat up straight, stretched for a long time before slowly returning to the previous position lying on his knees, biting his lip.

"He pushed me, pushed me away, I fell quite far, when I got up and looked back... I couldn't see him anymore, he was pressed under the pile," Ji Xiao pressed the corner of his eye , with a hoarse voice, "The fire is all on fire."

"I want to go back and look for him, but it's hard to get close. I'm covered in clothes, but I can hear his voice." Ji Xiao sniffed, raised his head and stared at the sky in a daze, "I really want to get him come out……"

"What happened later?" Although Ding Wei already knew the ending, he still couldn't help asking.

"Someone came later, someone dragged me out, but he didn't come out." Ji Xiao tried his best to control his voice, he still remembered the last words Cui Yuanhang said to him in the fire.

Brother, run.

Ji Xiao touched the photo with his hand. After that, he didn't mention it to others. He kept it in his heart and pretended to forget it, but in the next few years, he would always think of it inadvertently. .

After posting the photos in a daze for a while, he felt that his mood was better, and then he remembered that Ding Wei had been silent by his side.Ji Xiao turned his head, Ding Wei was still holding his legs before, looking at him fixedly, with two tear marks on his face.

"No way," Ji Xiao was a little surprised, and quickly leaned over to hug Ding Wei's shoulder, "I haven't cried yet, why are you crying?"

Ding Wei frowned, he kept trying not to cry, now that Ji Xiao hugged him, he burst into tears, and the voice was very loud, he closed his eyes and rubbed against Ji Xiao's arms, crying so hard that he couldn't understand: "Okay uncomfortable..."

Ji Xiao couldn't care less about Cui Yuanhang's matter anymore, he felt that he just said such a thing, and it wasn't too touching, how could he make this child cry.

Originally, I just wanted Ding Wei to know what a friend is and what a relationship is, but I didn't expect Ding Wei to react like this.

Is this drug too strong?

"Don't cry, you," Ji Xiao hugged Ding Wei in a hurry, and patted him on the back, "I knew I wouldn't tell you about this... It's been several years, don't feel bad ,It's in the past."

It took a while for Ding Wei to get better, but he was still sobbing, making Ji Xiao's chest wet. Ji Xiao pinched his chin and lifted his face to look at it for a while, then looked at his own chest: "I Damn, your nose is crying."

"Shut up!" Ding Wei froze for a moment, pushed Ji Xiao away, pulled up his clothes and wiped his face carelessly.

"Actually, I brought you here today to tell you about this, and it's not for anything else." Ji Xiao took out a pack of tissues and threw it in front of Ding Wei after digging in his pocket for a while. Well, you have been cultivating a human form for so many years, but..."

Ding Wei took out a tissue and covered his face, leaving only a pair of eyes to stare at Ji Xiao.

"But if you always have the usual attitude, why do you bother to create a human form? Why do you want a human form? You are just a black cat, and if you have the tail you want, it will be over?" Ji Xiao asked a series of questions.

This time Ding Wei was not annoyed by his [-] why, he was confused by Ji Xiao's question.

"Look, why do monsters have a human form?" Ji Xiao squatted and moved forward, "Because human beings have the most emotions. If you are really a nine-tailed cat, do you understand why you want to help people realize their wishes?"

"I don't know." Ding Wei answered honestly, sniffing, his eyes were still full of tears, and he looked at Ji Xiao quite confused.

Because it is M.He remembered what Su Gui said.

"Because of kindness, love and so on," Ji Xiao thought for a while, he was not very good at instructing people, he spoke with difficulty, and he didn't know that Ding Weiwei could not understand, "Do you understand? Apart from trimming the tail , as a human being, these are normal emotions, you don’t even feel these, it doesn’t make sense to have ninety tails.”

"Then what does that have to do with my going to school?" Ding Wei asked with a nasal tone and a little dissatisfaction.

"You are so young, isn't it the most normal to go to school? The best way to integrate into human beings is to go to school." Ji Xiao stood up and patted the ashes on his pants, "Life without school is incomplete and has no friends." My life is not complete, and the world of only myself is the most incomplete, so how about this summary is enough."

Ding Wei stood up slowly, Ji Xiao's words were much more straightforward than that of the uncle and Lu Kuan, he seemed to understand something, but it was not very clear.

He wiped his face clean carefully, and walked out slowly behind Ji Xiao: "It's the first time I cry."

"Really?" Ji Xiao raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, "Actually, I really don't want to understand why you are crying, I just want you to know what kind of thing is love."

"I can feel that when you are sad," Ding Wei raised his face, "You think it's all your fault, right?"

"Well, yes," Ji Xiao felt a pain in his heart, and grabbed Ding Wei's shoulder, "Let's go, it's getting dark, and we haven't eaten yet."

When Ji Xiao started the motorcycle, Ding Wei leaned forward, hugged his waist as usual, and whispered in his ear: "But you didn't do it on purpose, he won't blame you. "

"...Thank you." Ji Xiao turned his head and smiled, he didn't expect Ding Wei to say such a sentence, he could hear that this was Ding Wei's comfort, and felt that it was not easy for Ding Wei to say such a sentence.

Ji Xiao's smile this time did not have the haze and reluctance before. In Ding Wei's view, he smiled very nicely.

I like to see Ji Xiao's smile, a gentle smile without sadness.

Ding Wei was a little fascinated by watching, and without thinking too much, he leaned over and kissed Ji Xiao seriously on the face.

Ding Wei's lips were moist and soft, and Ji Xiao's whole body was stiffened by the electrified feeling on his face, and there was even a buzzing sound in his head, as he was kissed intently by a teenage boy With a look on his face, he couldn't describe this feeling, but he was a little dizzy anyway.

"What are you doing?" Ji Xiao waited for a long time before asking.

Ding Wei didn't seem to understand why he had this reaction, and put his chin on his shoulder: "I kissed you."

"You always fall in love so suddenly?" Ji Xiao touched his face, the feeling of the kiss was still there, he looked at Ding Wei with a calm face, and deeply felt the difficulty of communication between humans and cats.

"First time."

"...First kiss?" Ji Xiao slipped out a sentence uncontrollably, and after finishing speaking, he wanted to slap himself.