midsummer night

In the next few years, He Xiyuan's father was on business trips all year round, staying in hotels more often than sleeping with his parents at home.

He Xiyuan guessed that the parents would deliberately create conflicts in order to monopolize the master bedroom at home.Of course, Alpha's father is not completely innocent, and the title of partner should not be the obligation to wait ten years to do housework.

When he was very young, He Xiyuan realized that pheromone attraction was just a false concept.There are tens of thousands of divorced couples who have cheated and divorced after being completely marked. What binds their partners is not just physical attraction, but interests and power.

People shouldn't be bound, and Alpha is happy to sing the so-called eternity of love and symbols in order to control Omega and Beta.

The older He Xiyuan grew up, the more he realized that family, school, and hospital are all layers of Alpha power institutions.He tried hard to break out of the nuclear family, like slowly crawling out from the innermost layer of a set of dolls.However, every time you break through a layer, you will find yourself in a new set of wooden shells, which are larger, more refined, and harder to destroy than the layer you just left.

When he was a teenager, He Xiyuan was an Omega with an open soul. He read in a small room, looked up at the stars in the night sky alone at night, and liked to take a boat with the sea breeze during holidays.When he was studying, he won an award for his writing, and the judges commented on him: his thinking is broad and his artistic conception is meaningful.

His brain and physiology developed early, but he already felt mentally and physically oppressed when he was a teenager.In real life, his living space is limited to half a desk on campus and a corner of a few square meters in a small bedroom at home.

When he entered junior high school, he was taller than all Beta classmates in the class, and then he was gradually transferred from the back row to the middle row, and then to the front row.

It seemed that the more he grew, the less nutritious his body and spirit became.Family and society have no nourishment for Omega's spirit and body.

Arguments such as "Omega will marry when they grow up", "Omega will not be as good as Alpha after high school" and other arguments are like black sticky spider silk, and lies are woven into a huge web, which hinders Omega who pursues life in the web.

When the Omega was trapped in the net and could not move, black claws stretched out like them.

If he stays in such an environment, He Xiyuan is doomed to castrate his true self and become the Omega set by others.

But the strange thing is that He Xiyuan is still invulnerable after growing up in such a harsh environment.

Apart from his personal hard work and luck, he believed that the main reason was that he met Lu Chengfeng when he was a teenager.

When he was most helpless and confused when he was young, he gave Lu Chengfeng all his expectations for the future; the other party may not respond, but he is the most suitable object to store his emotions.

He Xiyuan went abroad as an adult. On the first day of school, he entered his single dormitory, which had heating and cooling, a bed and a desk.Joy is not enough to describe his mood at that time. Looking at the small dormitory with a square 20 square meters, he felt that the soul that had been squeezed and deformed in the past [-] years could finally be released, let it dry in the sun, and could float freely again. .

In the first few years of his work, he rented a flat with others in the urban area, only looking for Beta and Omega, and refused to be with Alpha or Omega with Alpha's partner.

He always felt uncomfortable for no reason when he thought of two married people sharing a room. This reminded him of his small bedroom where he was constantly disturbed, and his parents and father who were like inmates.

For Omega, marriage means selling personal space and labor surplus value.In addition to life choices and spiritual freedom, what was deprived was also the fruit of fertility that was taken away by Alpha-children.

The child is not in He Xiyuan's assumptions about the future, and he can't find any reason to have children.

Most of the Omega classmates and colleagues around him have already found a suitable Alpha, although it looks ordinary.Some of them have given birth, while others are planning their future life together.

But He Xiyuan has been alone for many years.

In college, he looked young among his peers and had Alpha pursuits of different races.But because of his low-key personality and no obvious preferences, only a few Alphas really took the time to observe him and send out date invitations.

He Xiyuan met an Alpha when he was working at school. The profile of the other person was similar to that of Lu Chengfeng: high nose bridge, deep eye sockets, long eyelashes, and slightly curly hair.He reluctantly agreed to the other party's date and invitation to have dinner together, but after watching two movies, he still chose to deal with it coldly, and died without a problem.

No one can arouse his physical and mental longing like Lu Chengfeng, and his resemblance only reminds him of the illusory reflection in his heart when he was a teenager.

When he was a teenager, He Xiyuan's emotion projected on Lu Chengfeng was half like star chasing, half courtship.He never distinguished what category his feelings belonged to, and only pursued them passionately, in a fiery and clumsy way.

Emotions, true feelings, and liking are the most real feelings in the world.

Home, school, and society had not aroused emotion in him, so he groped blindly, looking for something that aroused inner perception.He has emotions for food, the evening breeze in the forest and literature, and when he meets Lu Chengfeng, he finds that he has emotions for people for the first time.

Ecstasy swept over him, and the fact that he liked Lu Chengfeng made him feel that he was no longer alone in this life in the long night.In addition to being able to appreciate but not look back at his beautiful things, he was pleasantly surprised to find that he can also like people.

He Xiyuan's love for Lu Chengfeng extended to every aspect of his life.Only do what you like, pursue the life you like, and stay away from all people and things that make him disgusted.

The society's discipline on Omega cannot make him submit, Alpha's pursuit and the pressure of his spouse around him cannot make him submit, nor can the power and oppression that he often experiences as a teenager.He ultimately surrenders only to freedom and self.

After working for two years, he rented an apartment alone in the urban area, which has a simple kitchen and a south-facing balcony, and the decoration is comfortable.

In addition to his full-time job on weekdays, he also works part-time as an overseas project consultant.Sometimes he thinks back on the past years and discovers that the closed environment since he was a child made him know what freedom is. The family's control and suppression of his physical desires accidentally made him an adult without estrus.

For Omega, it is more free to not have an estrus period, just like a Beta, who does not need to consider the necessity of marriage and childbearing.

He Xiyuan secretly thought that if conditions permit or the environment improves, he can have a child at the right age, preferably an Omega child.No partner, only one child is also very good, life seems to be very complete.

If he hadn't met Lu Chengfeng again, he might have repeated his dull and free life.

After meeting Lu Chengfeng many times at dinners and workplaces, He Xiyuan sensed that his superiors and management deliberately pushed him to Lu Chengfeng's side.

Everyone's actions and intentions were calm, and the attitudes of all parties were always harmonious and tacit, and no one said it clearly.Once you say it, it will be a dead end, and you will be the first one to die.

He could almost predict the look in the eyes of his boss and Zhu Ping's persuasion, nothing more than knowing how to behave in the world and being flexible at work.Or pointing out that he is self-confident, no one wants to get close to Lu Chengfeng through him; the high-level executives of both parties have met, business cooperation is a settled matter, and he is just a dispensable analyst.

He Xiyuan couldn't refuse to meet Lu Chengfeng in terms of behavior and words, and once he saw Lu Chengfeng, he felt a throbbing in his glands and mind.This feeling made him sink when he was young, but now he must find a way to break the situation.

Three years after graduation, his work and mentality tended to be stable, but his body gradually escaped the control of the suppressor.The only solution seems to be to find an Alpha mate.

This idea is a bit ridiculous. When he was a teenager, he never suppressed physical desires, nor did he suppress emotions. He remembered that he once hated all external forces that suppressed physical desires.

However, when he grew up, when he had the ability to control his body and desires, he did not choose to let go, but continued to use the suppressors that had been imposed on him.

Perhaps because time has passed, he has become accustomed to controlling his body in a stable state, and he is afraid that his body has instincts that he cannot control.

Having been alone for so many years, he wasn't sure whether his will would be free from the interference of his physical instincts, and he obviously didn't do it back then.

Maybe find an Alpha or even a Beta partner, it's always better to settle down and have someone to accompany you.

He Xiyuan called Xu Jiu, a friend who studies reproductive medicine, who was in clinical practice, and told him: "There are several options: taking medicine, injections, suppressors, and Alpha pheromones. These can solve physical needs, but psychological Needs are still up to you.”

An elder among his relatives is a doctor. Knowing that he has been in poor health for many years, he said to him: "Find an Alpha partner and have a baby, and your health will be cured."

The parents who escorted him to implant the suppressor heard such good words, and they also said: "Your headache problem, you need to find an Alpha, and it is best to have a child while you are young. When you meet someone you like at work, and the family conditions Good Alpha, hurry up and chase after this village, there will be no more shops here."

Parents' statement is very ironic.He has been in love with a certain Alpha since ten years ago, and has been pursuing him silently for several years.I hoped that I would be qualified to talk to the other party after I had obtained a certain equal status. If the other party did not resist, maybe I could tell the fact that I liked him.

But slowly, he felt that he could not catch up.

It's understandable that he couldn't catch up. After all, he was just an Omega of ordinary origin, average physical fitness, and a suppressor implanted in the back of his neck.

And at this age, he no longer likes anyone like he once liked Lu Chengfeng.