Growth pain

Lu Shining arrived at the agreed meeting place, which was a teahouse he had never been to before, followed the waiter's guidance and walked into the small tea room, only Zhao Shengnan was waiting there.

Zhao Shengnan was a little thinner than before, his face was still round, but his jaw was slightly pointed.When he saw Lu Shining, his eyes lit up, and there was joy that couldn't be hidden.

Lu Shining was really embarrassed to be looked at by him like this, so he nodded to him and said, "Hello."

Although it wasn't the friend he deleted by himself, he was half responsible anyway, he acquiesced to the drunk Yuan Sen to do that.

When Lu Shining sat across from him, Zhao Shengnan leaned forward and said first, "Sorry, I insisted that Brother Yin Hao contact you."

Lu Shining said: "Then I should apologize too, I deleted you without saying anything."

Zhao Shengnan shook his head hastily, "It's because I didn't pay attention to my words, it's normal for you to find it annoying..."

Lu Shining looked at the teacup in front of him, he didn't know how to taste tea and didn't like drinking tea, why did he agree to the appointment...

"But I still want to make friends with you." Zhao Shengnan's cheeks were slightly red, and he lowered his head and whispered embarrassedly, "I really like you... Don't get me wrong, it's not that I like you, I just think you Good looking."

Lu Shining: "..."

His blunt remarks made it difficult for Lu Shining to answer.

Zhao Shengnan raised his head again, his eyes sparkling, "I hardly made any friends of the same age when I went to school in Japan. The only one who can speak my mind is Sister Yunle. The first time I saw you, I thought you were very nice."

Where does this judgment come from.

Lu Shining was stunned for a moment, caught off guard by Zhao Shengnan's straight ball.

Zhao Shengnan lowered his voice again, and said with a volume that only two people could hear: "You are the same... right? When I saw you, I thought you were. I wanted to confirm the chat before, but I didn't expect to arouse your disgust. ,sorry."

Why is everyone's gay radar so sensitive except him?

Lu Shining couldn't help but sighed.

Zhao Shengnan's thinking is not difficult to understand, probably a child who is well protected by his family, who is too afraid of being lonely and wants to find someone of the same kind.

Lu Shining said: "Then even if it's even, you tested me before, and I also deleted you once."

Zhao Shengnan looked at him with sincere eyes, "Then can you add another friend, I promise I won't harass you again."

Lu Shining also looked back at him, "I think you should have discovered that I'm not a very easy person to get along with."

But Zhao Shengnan said: "Not at all, you are the best person I have ever gotten along with."

Lu Shining choked up, thinking about who this kid had dealt with before, but in the end he relented and handed over the phone to add him as a friend.

He doesn't dislike Zhao Shengnan, the boy also said that he likes him as if he is not in love, but simply wants to make friends.

After adding friends, Zhao Shengnan was obviously relieved, and he talked a lot more lively. He recommended refreshments to Lu Shining, and then asked him what he likes to eat, completely childish thinking.

After a while, Zhao Shengnan said again: "Actually, I liked you a little at first..."

After saying this, he immediately added: "But now it's completely gone!"

Lu Shining: "...um."

"Also, I lied to you when I told you that Brother Yuan and Sister Yun Le had reconciled."

"Well, I already know that."

Zhao Shengnan scratched his head embarrassingly, "I thought we could get closer by saying this."

The result is exactly the opposite.

Lu Shining tapped the table with his finger, but he doesn't care anymore, or maybe he is best at forgetting the pain.

Suddenly two knocks came from the next door, Zhao Shengnan looked at Lu Shining hesitantly, "Sister Yun Le and the others are waiting on the opposite side."

Lu Shining was stunned.

"Sister Yunle said that she has something to say to you." Zhao Shengnan lowered his head, as if he had done something wrong, "Do you want to listen to her?"

Lu Shining said, "Okay."

That's what he came for.

Those two people came in from the next door, Yin Hao waved at him first, and said embarrassedly: "I'm really sorry, brother."

"Why do you make it sound like I'm threatening you?"

Su Yunle was still the same as the last time we met, with exquisite makeup and skirts, as if it was not winter.

Yin Hao shrank his neck and dared not speak, and pulled Zhao Shengnan to go outside.

Zhao Shengnan obviously didn't want to leave, so he looked back several times, Yin Hao said: "Oh, your sister told us to go out and wait, don't smudge, hurry up."

After the two left, the tea room fell silent again.

Lu Shining looked at the woman opposite, and the woman was also looking at him, smiling at him: "Nan Nan likes you very much."

Lu Shining opened his mouth, "Ah, um."

"Others are a bit dull and not too shrewd, but they definitely have no bad intentions." Su Yunle's voice was soft and gentle, "I hope you can get along well."

Lu Shining: "...Ah, um."

"Why are you so restrained?" Su Yunle's eyes rolled up, "Is it because I lied in the previous conversation?"

Lu Shining closed his mouth.

Su Yunle smiled at the corner of her mouth, picked up the teacup at hand and put it down again, "I did lie, I separated from Yuan Sen not because he couldn't accept Nan Nan. Did Yuan Sen tell you? I suspect that you and his relationship, suspecting that he is a homosexual."

Su Yunle suddenly changed her previous style, no longer beating around the bush, and simply poured out all these things.

Lu Shining couldn't react for a while.

Su Yunle shrugged, "I've never been qualified as an older sister, but Nan Nan really wants to have a good relationship with you, so I don't want to create a gap between the two of you because of me. After all, now I'm with you Yuan Sen has already broken up, and you are the ones who get close. Instead of waiting for the bad things I did to be discovered, why don't I just say it now."

Lu Shining was completely stunned, "What?"

Su Yunle said: "During the time I was with Yuansen, because I doubted your relationship with him, I refused to answer many calls from you."

Lu Shining's heart beat a little faster, and his voice became dry: "Wait a minute, doesn't Yuan Sen know?"

"Where did he know? I deleted the communication records."

Su Yunle still had that gentle appearance, speaking these words slowly.

"I was still very young at that time, and I never thought of the consequences, and I never thought about what to do if I was found out. Looking back now, I really did something too much. My first impression of Yuan Sen was too deep. , it's hard to change my mind for a while, even without you, I would doubt others...

"At the end of the day, Yuan Sen is a very insecure person. He never talks about love. I don't know if he is capable or not good at it. That's all. He doesn't even mention his family affairs. , How can it be like this between couples, I talked to you before just to find out about his family situation... Ah, I'm sorry, I'm complaining again. "

Su Yunle showed an apologetic smile, stretched out her hand to show Lu Shining the ring on her hand, and said half-jokingly: "I forgot to say, I'm already engaged, I was introduced by my father, and the other party's conditions are not bad, at least he's taller than me high."

Lu Shining said, "...Congratulations."

"Thank you. The wedding may be held abroad. If you like, you can come with Nan Nan. He must be very happy. Where did I say... Well, in short, it is like this. The reason why I broke up with Yuan Sen is that we can't get along. He didn't answer the calls you made on purpose, I don't know if you remember, I answered your calls with his mobile phone." Su Yunle made a gesture with the microphone, "Fortunately, you are in contact now. Otherwise, I will really be a sinner."

She wasn't really sorry.

It's no wonder that in the eyes of others, he and Yuan Sen are just friends, so what if they grew up together, they will gradually lose contact because of some trivial things.

The reason why Su Yunle dared to tell him this matter today was because she felt that the two of them had reconciled and everything that happened before was over.She confessed that she was giving herself an explanation.

Lu Shining couldn't tell how he felt, his heartbeat had completely calmed down, and he nodded very calmly.

Walking out of the teahouse and being wrapped in the cold wind, Lu Shining felt empty in his heart.

The other three wanted to keep him, but he refused, saying that he still had work to do when he went back.

Where is there any work, he is clearly a vagrant now.

Su Yunle's words solved the misunderstanding between him and Yuan Sen for many years, and the man did not suddenly become indifferent and stop contacting him.But with the real answer in front of him, he didn't feel very happy.

Even without Su Yunle's secret obstruction, he and Yuan Sen would still lack the contact for those three years, maybe it would be different, it would only last longer, maybe they would never see each other again.

As early as Yuansen chose to leave, it was doomed that they would drift away.

He didn't forget that there was no love between them in the beginning, there was only friendship and family affection, and Yuansen would not die without him.

The reason why I can't forget him is that memories will beautify people.

If it wasn't for Su Yunle's paranoid not wanting Yuan Sen to have contact with him, Yuan Sen might have forgotten him long ago.

People always forget about pain.

When will I be able to remember?

Lu Shining got the answer when he acquiesced to Yuan Sen's intimacy with him - when he was left behind, he would remember how sad it is that I like you.

The reason why he agreed to meet today was also waiting for the moment when the knife fell.

We will always not contact, you will leave me, a better life.

He believed in it from the very beginning.

The author has something to say: I told my friend that the name could be changed to "The Pain of Falling in Love with a Straight Man" (I'm talking nonsense)