Growth pain

"Do you know what you're talking about?" Lu Shining bent down to pick up the key, his eyes were on his hand and the key, but not on Yuan Sen, "You and I, we are both men."

Yuan Sen said, "I know."

Immediately afterwards, he added: "Isn't that your senior too?"

The door of the dormitory finally opened, and the moment the door was pushed open, the light shone on the two of them. Lu Shining walked in, and Yuan Sen followed him.

He followed Lu Shining wherever he went. In the end, Lu Shining got annoyed and raised his head to look directly at each other: "Do you know what men and men are going to do?"

Yuan Sen's expression was not natural.

Of course he didn't know and wasn't interested in knowing.Lu Shining understood.

"Holding hands, hugging, kissing, making love." Lu Shining spoke out word by word, and he didn't know why he wanted to give Yuan Sen "science popularization" here.Obviously a mindless bastard. "Shall we do all the things lovers should do?"

Yuan Sen was dumbfounded, and the one who spoke a few seconds later was: "Little Lu, you are quite clear."

Lu Shining said with a straight face: "I beat you."

This sentence seems familiar.

Yuan Sen is thick-skinned enough to dare to ask: "Then can you calm down after beating?"

Lu Shining felt a deep sense of powerlessness, "Yuan Sen, you don't have to be like this."

no answer.

That's what it is.

After a while, Yuan Sen said, "You can try it."

Lu Shining was taken aback, "Try what?"

"What you said." Yuan Sen lowered his eyes, his eyes were deep and energetic, and he seemed to have a lot of affection when he looked at people, "Let's give it a try."

Lu Shining had seen it through, and said numbly: "I remember correctly, you were still thinking about getting back together with Sister Yun Le a month ago."

Yuan Sen frowned, "Why are you talking about her suddenly? It's impossible for me and her...Why do you still call her sister?"

Lu Shining was at a loss for words for a moment.

"Before I asked you if you would get back together with her, you said you didn't know." Lu Shining looked up at Yuan Sen, with a look of accusation and identification, "Doesn't 'don't know' mean possible?"

Yuan Sen reacted for a while before he realized when it happened, "At that time, I was afraid that I said directly that I didn't want to get back together, and you were going to match the two of us. You know, Yin Hao alone is enough to annoy me."

Lu Shining raised his hand and punched Yuan Sen. Yuan Sen took a step back with an unbelievable expression on his face, "Xiaolu, are you really hitting?"

It's absurd that things have developed to this point. Who would have thought that Yuan Sen's thinking is so simple, but who can be blamed for it?

"Then you suddenly fell in love with men?" Lu Shining spoke almost retaliatoryly.

Yuan Sen seemed to be thinking for a while, "No."

Lu Shining waited for him to continue, but Yuan Sen didn't say anything, just looked at him.That look made him uncomfortable, so he just turned away.

Yuan Sen leaned against the table, turned his head to meet Lu Shining's gaze,

"If it's someone else, I can't accept it. You should be fine."

This was a standard love speech, but Lu Shining could hear something was wrong, before he opened his mouth to make a sound, Yuan Sen seemed to be responding to his guess.

"Xiaolu...Lu Shining, do you like boys?"

##

Things have been foreshadowed.

Since the two of them went to school, Lu Shining did not pay as much attention to the opposite sex as his peers.Junior and senior high schools are the emotional ignorance period for boys and girls. Classrooms, cafeterias, and girls' dormitory buildings are full of ambiguity.

Lu Shining is too obedient among this group of people, remembering the teacher's teachings, not passing notes, not talking small words, and not being intimate with any girls.After work, I was even more insulated from love. Finally, a female friend appeared, but it was really just a female friend.

Yuan Sen's words completely froze Lu Shining in place, his eyes glanced around, like a lop-eared rabbit with a guilty conscience ready to run away at any time.

Yuan Sen naturally saw his emotional changes, and directly dragged the person to him, "Xiaolu, why don't you tell me the truth about everything, and I have to guess everything by myself?"

The wrist was tightly clenched and it hurt, Lu Shining couldn't break free and could only raise his eyes to look at people, his eyes were watery as if he was wronged.

"What are you afraid of? Didn't I tell you everything? Have you ever thought about it? Yin Hao and I haven't talked about my family, and I haven't talked about Pei Yan... Whether it's a former friend, classmate or current buddy. Colleague, I haven't said anything, but I only told you." Yuan Sen finally lowered his face, vented his pent-up resentment and anger, and asked word by word, "Lu Shining, you have a fucking relationship from beginning to end. Trust me once?!"

"What do I need to believe?"

There was an alarm bell ringing in Lu Shining's mind to warn him of danger.

"Then what are you afraid of? If you like men, you should hide them. If you are worried that if I find out, I will beat you or tell your parents?" Yuan Sen pressed his hands on the table and lowered his head, as if kissing , such a close distance can feel the breath between the two sides.

"Don't you hate homosexuals?" Lu Shining was very nervous, panting quickly, but his voice was soft, "What do you want me to say, do I have to knock on your door early in the morning to say good morning to you, I am gay and like men ?”

Yuan Sen gritted his teeth: "Little Lu, why are you so good at talking back?"

Lu Shining still didn't understand, everything was messed up.

None of the things he thought happened. He imagined many scenarios, none of which could be more absurd than the present one.

Yuan Sen said: "I did have a prejudice against homosexuality at the beginning, it was because my mother kept sending me these things, and then I went abroad... Lu Shining, do you think I haven't changed at all in the past six years? If so Well, when Su Yunle introduced her brother to me, I should have kicked her brother over, and Yin Hao tied the knot and wanted us to reconcile, so I wouldn't go."

Lu Shining swallowed, not because he was afraid, but because his mouth was dry. At the same time, he wanted to calm himself down.

"You have Zhao Shengnan and your senior..."

Yuan Sen frowned when he heard the two titles, "Can it be the same? They are them, and you are you."

"My dad is indeed a jerk." Yuan Sen said softly, sticking to his ear, as if talking about intimate love, "He has been changing people around him constantly in the past few years. At first, I also felt nauseous. It makes me sick to think that he gave birth to me."

Lu Shining's eyelashes trembled, but Yuan Sen patted him on the back lightly.

"My mother should also feel disgusted. Whenever she sees me, she can think of my father, but it can't be helped. The appearance is given by them. I didn't see him much during the few years I went abroad. I just went back to the village to see him. Later he He contacted me, hoping that I could work with him in the future, but I declined.

"He has changed a lot of people around him over the years. Everyone seems to have a purpose. No one really loves him. In the end, he doesn't believe in anyone, but he needs to ask me to go back." Yuan Sen stopped here, " I didn't agree, but my mother agreed. My mother always felt that all his things should belong to me. To be disabled is not to die, it is better to be so disabled that you can only live with an oxygen mask, but you have to live."

Lu Shining's eyes flickered, his expression relaxed a little, and he was no longer so defensive.

Yuan Sen still didn't let go of the hand that was holding Lu Shining's wrist, "I realized not long ago that I can't get rid of these two people wherever I go. So Lu Shining, I said that I came back for you, not all I'm lying to you."

Yuan Sen looked closely at his pupils, even though Lu Shining didn't say a word, he was afraid of missing any of his expressions.

"Little Lu, I come back just to hope that we can get along like before... It's okay if we can't go back."

##

Yuan Sen sent the drunk Lu Shining back to the dormitory last night, during which time Lu Shining was very quiet until he lay down, Yuan Sen pulled him up, "I haven't changed my clothes."

Lu Shining said, "Yes."

"Huh, what? Change your clothes before going to sleep." Yuan Sen said and started.

Lu Shining patted his hand away, "I can do it myself."

Yuan Sen spread out his hands, "Then you do it yourself."

Lu Shining took off his clothes in front of him, his shirt was open, his trousers were half down, but he suddenly raised his head and said to him, "Don't look at me."

Lu Shining is very thin and very white, his ribs are obvious when he breathes, his eyes are still very moist when he said these words, it was caused by crying before.

Yuan Sen was stuck in agitation and bewilderment throughout the night, and now he even gave up thinking. He just felt that Lu Shining wanted to drive him away, so he stood still and said coldly, "You change yours."

"Then turn around." Lu Shining continued to change clothes, taking off while talking, "Why are you looking at me?"

The tone of being so wronged and easily bullied sounds a little angry.

Until Lu Shining fell asleep, Yuan Sen dragged a chair and sat beside the bed.

My childhood is not only loved by girls but also boys, no matter how I think about it... it makes sense.

What about Lu Shining?

The night was as thick as a precipitated ink block, and the indistinct black shrouded the outside of the window.

Previously, Lu Shining's abnormal behavior was dissected one by one, and the memory stopped at Lu Shining's sentence "because I'm sick" before the dispute between the two.

Yuan Sen lowered his head slightly, Lu Shining slept soundly, and was as harmless as he was when he was a child, hiding himself under the quilt and only showing his eyes and nose.

If only I could rely on him like before.

He is always happy to take care of children.

##

"It's okay if you can't go back." Yuan Sen said, "I don't object to taking a step further."

"Are you crazy?" Lu Shining blurted out.

Yuan Sen tilted his head, "Whatever you think, it's because you don't trust me. Lu Shining, why can't you just say something? If you don't like drinking milk, just say you don't like it. If you're gay, just say you're gay. Those messes in my family dare to tell you that everything is in your hands, what are you afraid of? What can I do to you? If I want to beat you, you will be beaten when you were five years old, you know, you were bullied and carried me behind your back Cry, when I grow up, I still like men behind my back..."

"Lu Shining, you are sick."

Yuan Sen lowered his head and pressed Lu Shining's lower lip, "Don't blame me for being sick too."

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