Growth pain

Shao Qing and her girlfriend guessed right.

Chen Shuangyi just likes men.

Chen Shuangyi was two years older than Lu Shining, and was the vice president of the music club that Lu Shining joined in college.

Lu Shining remembered that when he first entered school, various associations came to the department to recruit people, and Chen Shuangyi sang a very affectionate love song on the stage, which instantly captured the hearts of all the girls in the audience.

Lu Shining also thought it sounded good, followed by a group of people applauding, the applause stopped, the president was speaking on the stage, and the singer walked over and sat next to him.

Lu Shining came late, so he could only sit in the front row, with empty seats beside him.

"Excuse me, is there anyone here?" the man asked him softly.

He shook his head, and Chen Shuangyi sat next to him.

After a while, Chen Shuangyi took the initiative to chat with him, and finally invited him to the club.

"Come and play with me when you have time," Chen Shuangyi said.

Lu Shining had just finished his military training, and was tanned like black coal balls, but his eyes were surprisingly bright, he was not very good at talking about scenes, and he was hesitant when he heard the words.

Chen Shuangyi smiled, "Why, I'm afraid that there will be too many things in the club, so I don't want to go?"

Lu Shining shook his head against his will.

Chen Shuangyi: "It's okay, I'll cover you when you come."

This is very similar to what Yuan Sen would say.

Yuan Sen, he was young.

During the military training, I kept reminding him to wear sunscreen like an old lady, but I didn't want to see him get sunburned and kept laughing at him for getting tanned.

Lu Shining stopped his dodgy eyes, looked at Chen Shuangyi, and finally nodded.

Since he nods, he will definitely go.

As a result, there was an interview in the music club, and Lu Shining sang in the huge auditorium. He felt uncomfortable and didn't perform well, but he still joined the club.

Before leaving, Chen Shuangyi greeted him specially, which made him feel uncomfortable when he left the relationship.

He doesn't like to owe favors to others, and always finds a way to pay them back.But how to repay this, Lu Shining was at a loss, obviously the senior asked him to come to the club.

How come he got in in the end.

It was only later that Lu Shining learned that Chen Shuangyi did not participate in the interview review.

At that time, the two were already very familiar.With a smile in his eyes, Chen Shuangyi asked him: "What do you think? You are considered to be a good singer among those people, and you look good. Our president is a well-known face control, and he will definitely keep you. "

"How would I know." Lu Shining was a little annoyed.He seldom greets people proactively, but he often greets Chen Shuangyi in those days.No matter how you think about it, you are at your own loss.

Lu Shining's childish behavior made Chen Shuangyi laugh even more. He reached out to rub his junior's head but was dodged.

Lu Shining seldom has physical contact with people, including friends, and keeps the most basic distance.It is inevitable that people feel that he is a bit difficult to approach, but in fact, the child has a bad temper, and he can do whatever he is asked to do. If there is anything in the club, as long as he is free, he can be called by just one call.

The person who seemed so afraid of trouble at the beginning has become the most down-to-earth one.

Chen Shuangyi felt incredible.

Lu Shining sang in the school bar, and occasionally Chen Shuangyi would see him when he went drinking with his friends.

Lu Shining doesn't dye his hair or wear earrings like other singers. He can wear whatever clothes he wears in class and work here. His hair is always the same color, and it turns into a natural light brown under the light.

Chen Shuangyi once invited him to drink, but he refused, saying, "I'm not very good at drinking."

Tell the truth.Lu Shining is not good at lying.

"You can try it." Chen Shuangyi said warmly, "The alcohol content here will not be very high."

Lu Shining looked up at him, but still shook his head, "Not yet, senior."

Lu Shining is so well-behaved, the two of them have known each other for more than half a year, and they still call him senior in a proper manner, unlike the new boys who call him "Brother Chen" and "Brother Shuang Yi" one by one.

It was also in this bar that the two drank for the first time.

That day Lu Shining sat quietly at the bar alone, when Chen Shuangyi walked over, he put the cell phone he had been holding in his hand for a long time into his pocket and looked up at him.

"Want to drink?" Chen Shuangyi asked.

This time Lu Shining nodded.

It was the first time Lu Shining tried drinking, and he became drunk after two drinks. After being drunk, he was very quiet. He held the phone in his hand again, and after a long time, he dialed a number.

The call was quickly connected, but Lu Shining did not speak, and suddenly burst into tears.

Chen Shuangyi was taken aback, and quickly took the mobile phone from his hand and put it on the table, asking, "What's wrong?"

Lu Shining cried very quietly, barely making a sound, wiped away his tears and said, "Dizziness."

Chen Shuangyi: "..."

Afterwards, he sent Lu Shining back. Lu Shining didn't need his support at all. He walked to the entrance of the dormitory soberly, and thanked him solemnly, "Thank you senior, please trouble senior."

But Chen Shuangyi knew that he was drunk.

Because the phone in Lu Shining's pocket has been ringing since he was hung up, but Lu Shining didn't expect to answer it.

The next day, the hangovered Lu Shining struggled to get up from the bed, faced the 21 missed calls in silence, and finally put his head in the pillow and called back.

A voice came first from the phone: "Lu Shining, do you remember that there is a 16-hour time difference between us?"

"Um……"

"So what do you mean you called me at five in the morning and hung up?"

"...Drowsy and mistyped." Lu Shining said vaguely.

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Lu Shining was like a piece of white paper without any folded corners or graffiti, it fell to the feet of others smoothly and lightly, and when others walked around him, he also lightly rubbed past others' feet without leaving behind.

Ever since that time of getting drunk, Chen Shuangyi always felt that he had an obligation to teach Lu Shining something.

Lu Shining didn't resist drinking so much anymore, but he didn't drink much, so he wouldn't let himself get drunk and lose his temper.At least he never cried in front of Chen Shuangyi afterwards.

Chen Shuangyi asked one day: "Shi Ning, has anyone ever told you that your eyes are beautiful?"

At that time they were drinking with Zhang Lei, and Zhang Lei drank himself down, lying on the table and talking nonsense.

Holding a small beer cup in his hand, Lu Shining replied, "Yes, Shao Qing said."

Shao Qing never hesitated to praise him, always saying that he could find a good man.

Because good babies deserve to be cherished.

Lu Shining doesn't think so, those who don't complain and refuse to speak up will always suffer.

But he got used to it.

Chen Shuangyi nodded, and lit a cigarette in front of Lu Shining, the fire ignited in the boy's eyes, so bright and so dazzling.

He took a sip, and suddenly handed it over, "Do you want to try it?"

Still using a gentle voice, asking softly.

Lu Shining stared at the cigarette, moved his fingers lightly, and finally shook his head.

He is so obedient and listens to his brother.

Although his elder brother left him long ago.

"You should know, right?" Chen Shuangyi had a smile in his eyes, and the ashes from the cigarette were on the soles of his feet. "I like men."

Lu Shining was also unambiguous, and nodded honestly, "Well, I heard you calling someone in the bathroom of the bar before, and your tone was very aggressive, talking about breaking up."

Chen Shuangyi laughed: "Don't you tell any lies?"

He just broke up with his boyfriend a while ago, and he didn't seem to be hit by the breakup at all.

"What about you, do you have someone you like?" Chen Shuangyi asked again.

Lu Shining still nodded, "Yes."

"Then why aren't we together?"

"He's not gay, he doesn't like men." Lu Shining looked at him, his eyes were still clear, as dark and bright as a dog's eyes.

Chen Shuangyi raised his hand, "What a coincidence, you like men too."

His hand landed on top of Lu Shining's head.

This time Lu Shining didn't dodge.

Zhang Lei had no idea that the two of them were out of the closet in front of him, and the first thing he said after waking up was: "Come on, if you're a brother, keep drinking!"

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Later, Lu Shining learned to smoke, always shrinking himself up to smoke, sitting on the steps hugging his knees, smoking like a girl - Chen Shuangyi commented.

Lu Shining didn't refute, but said in a low voice: "Girls are fine too." But he wasn't.

Chen Shuangyi asked him: "Do you like straight men that much?"

Lu Shining's eyes widened, "How could you like him just because he's straight?"

Chen Shuangyi looked at him, "So you happen to like a straight man?"

Lu Shining's expression said it all.

Chen Shuangyi handed him the cigarette, "It will be very hard."

"I know." Lu Shining said, "I'm ready to abandon him."

He used the word "abandon", not only did not show decisiveness, but added a bit of stubbornness.

Chen Shuangyi watched him take the cigarette, inhale lightly and then spit it out, even smoking seriously, as if he was doing something solemn and serious.

"not ready yet?"

Lu Shining said, "It would be fine if he didn't respond to me."

He rested his head on his knees, looking a little dazed, like a puppy who couldn't find its owner, "but he responded every time."

Every meaningless message answered, every phone call answered.

Is a good brother.

But not someone who can love.

"Then after he doesn't respond to you anymore, after you leave him behind," Chen Shuangyi said, "shall we try together?"

The author has something to say: At this time, Lu Shining was in his freshman year, and Yuan Sen was still studying abroad.Um. .That's right, the tower was stolen a long time ago (not counting)