Growth pain

Lu Shining has been dreaming frequently these days, and the dream is full of noise and everything. For a while, Yuan Sen came to hold his hand, and for a while, it was a shadow of two people passing by without an umbrella on a rainy day, and then he appeared in the By the windows, the pupils reflected the ever-changing flickering lights of the ambulance.

Waking up suddenly at night, the gaps in the bones were filled with pain, Lu Shining curled up, wiped off the sweat from the nape of his neck, his mind was full of Yuan Sen's words "he is sick".

Then he is sick too.

Knowing how much Yuan Sen hates this kind of people, and knowing that it is impossible, he still likes them.

How can it be so unreasonable to fall in love with someone.

He suddenly wanted to ask Yuan Sen why, why he assumed such an attitude, as if he didn't care about a person's demise at all.Lu Shining seemed to be able to taste a bit of the saltiness of the rainwater in his mouth, as if he had returned to the rainy night a few years ago, the buzzing of the ambulance mixed with the sharp curses from the next door...

The body hurts even more.

The next day Lu Shining went to school with a pair of panda eyes on his face. Yuan Sen asked him what was wrong, and he made up a random reason: "It was too late to play games last night..."

Yuan Sen asked: "When did you start staying up late playing games?"

He is not good at lying.Lies are always easy for Yuan Sen to see through.

Lu Shining pursed his lips, "Yesterday."

Yuan Sen dragged him and refused to let him go, "Oh? Then tell me, what are you playing?"

Lu Shining remained silent for a long time.

"Xiaolu, when did you learn to lie?" Yuan Sen asked.

Lu Shining retorted from the bottom of his heart, obviously he didn't learn it, and he would be seen through every time.

If one day he could lie without changing his face, he would not be guessed, and he would not be flustered and embarrassed.

##

Why is it Yuan Sen?

The two get along day and night, seeing each other every day, every day, he should be tired of seeing Yuan Sen's face.

Lu Shining thought a little angrily, biting off a piece of bread, the speed of chewing became faster.

The same table sat next to him, "You just eat bread?"

Lu Shining swallowed the bread, "Hmm..."

"That's not nutritious, let's get some food."

"Fighted." Lu Shining replied looking at the long queue in the cafeteria.

The deskmate turned his head, "Stop lying, you didn't..."

Seeing Yuan Sen walking this way with two dinner plates, she immediately changed her words: "It turns out that someone is running errands for you."

"Rock paper scissors, he lost." Lu Shining emphasized, "It's fair."

The tablemate laughed, "Okay, then I'll go cook."

Yuan Sen walked over, but the girl had already gone away.

"Why don't you ask others to eat together?"

Lu Shining lazily raised his eyelids, "She hasn't cooked yet."

Yuan Sen sat down, "Help her."

"Why?" Lu Shining asked back, and then muttered, "I don't like her, so it's not good for her to misunderstand."

Yuan Sen paused for removing the chopsticks, and rubbed his head, "Why are you so gentle, Deer, no wonder girls like you."

Lu Shining was so pressed that he couldn't lift his head, and gradually lost his temper, pretending to be fierce: "Yuan Sen, are you sick, let go!"

You have the disease!

What's wrong with liking boys!

Yuan Sen, big bastard.

##

In the evening, Lu Shining waited for Yuan Sen to finish school, and Yuan Sen arrived late after waiting for more than half an hour.

Lu Shining was the only one left in the classroom, Yuan Sen stepped in, "Xiao Lu, can you walk by yourself at the door later?"

"What's wrong?" Lu Shining stood up and put on his schoolbag.

Neither of them is a child, there is no need to stick together all the time, and there is no need to wait for each other every day, there is no point in wasting time without talking.But no one mentioned this matter, Lu Shining was reluctant, and Yuan Sen wanted to take care of his brother's emotions.

That was the first time that Lu Shining saw Li Jianhua, the boy was not as tall as Yuan Sen, seeing Yuan Sen calling "Brother Yuan" one by one, the admiration that Lu Shining was familiar with in his eyes.

The same was true of myself when I was a child, listening to Yuan Sen's words wholeheartedly.Since when did he change his appearance, become such an annoying character, and do these unpleasant actions.

Lu Shining stopped, "Yuan Sen."

Not even "brother" anymore.

Yuan Sen turned around, "Huh?"

"Otherwise..." Lu Shining spoke slowly. He has opened up a lot in these years, only his eyes are still the same as before, sincere and bright like a dog, "Let's not leave together from tomorrow, next semester Don't you have to add late self-study? It's not a time to finish class."

That was the most successful lie he ever told.

On the one hand, he was grateful for his success, but on the other hand, he felt sore for Yuan Sen's straightforward response.

It is best for him to take the initiative to say about the separation, Yuan Sen will not feel embarrassed about it, and everyone will feel better.

Anyway, he has always been so capricious.

But he forgot to complain about the cold for half an hour, and he never thought of letting Yuan Sen understand his waiting.

Those are not worth mentioning, but everything is worth it the moment I see Yuan Sen.

##

In the next few days, Lu Shining did his homework immediately after school.Although usually he would not delay writing until very late, but this time he was too diligent, even Lu's mother was surprised and asked Lu Shining what was wrong.

He replied solemnly: "I just suddenly want to learn."

Mother Lu: "Do you believe me?"

Lu Shining lightly pressed the tip of his tongue against his teeth, and blinked innocently at Mother Lu, but Mother Lu didn't appreciate it at all and exposed him mercilessly.

"Recently, Yuan Sen came to you, and you didn't go out very often, did you have a conflict?"

Lu Shining remained silent.

Mother Lu: "Is there a conflict?"

Lu Shining: "...No."

Lu's mother turned around and left the house with a look of disbelief.

Lu Shining leaned back on the chair, sighed deeply, and lowered his head.

As Lu's mother said, he has been avoiding Yuansen a little these days.

Those dreams full of charming colors continued, which made him feel uncomfortable when facing Yuan Sen.

The physical contact that was so natural in the past has become unnatural.Yuan Sen always likes to put on him like a boneless man, but he is tall, and his breath always rubs against his ear.

Lu Shining was sensitive to the fact that his ears would heat up, but he didn't dare to move them away, for fear that Yuan Sen would notice.

It's exhausting to be so cautious.

Is it such a tiring thing to like someone?

It was the first time for Lu Shining to experience this kind of thing, so he could only hide this feeling clumsily in his heart, and occasionally patted it when he felt pain.

But why does it hurt?

Like the same sex, like their own hair.

He raised his hand to grab the air, why does Yuan Sen hate homosexuality so much?Is it natural, just like he naturally likes men.

Lu Shining didn't dare to think about it.

##

Lu's mother wanted to reconcile the two children. When Yuan Sen went out this weekend, she called Yuan Sen back, "Yuan Sen, take Ning Ning out for a walk, he always stays at home these days Get out and get some air."

When the elder said so, Yuan Sen naturally had no reason to refuse, "Yes, but is he willing to come out?"

Mother Lu winked at him, "I have a way to get him out."

When Lu Shining was called out by Lu's mother, he was still holding a freshly washed apple in his hand. He just put his mouth up and took a bite, but the flesh hadn't come off yet. When he saw Yuan Sen outside the door, he stopped all his movements.

Mother Lu grabbed his cotton-padded jacket and pushed him out, "Hurry up and go out with Yuan Sen, don't stay at home, and don't worry about getting sick from boredom." After finishing speaking, she closed the door immediately.

Lu Shining slowly bit the apple, "Where are you going?"

"I made an appointment with Li Jianhua and the others to sing."

"Oh." Lu Shining immediately turned his head towards the door, "Then I'll go back first..."

Yuan Sen grabbed the back collar of his sweater, "Where are you going? I promised Auntie to take you out."

"I'm not a child anymore, you don't have to take me with you all the time."

Yuan Sen smacked his lips lightly, "Xiao Lu, I found you recently..."

Lu Shining shivered from the cold, Yuan Sen stopped and urged: "Hurry up, put on your clothes, and go."

Lu Shining had no choice but to hand the apple to Yuan Sen and began to get dressed.

While he was getting dressed, Yuan Sen finished eating the apples.

Lu Shining followed Yuan Sen: "I took a bite of the apple."

"I don't dislike you." Yuan Sen replied without turning his head.

Lu Shining bit the tip of his tongue, "But I took it because I wanted to eat it."

Yuan Sen turned his head, pressed Lu Shining's head, and embraced his shoulders, "Can I order you a fruit platter later? Don't worry about me here, ancestor."

Lu Shining raised his head, "My apples are sweeter."

Yuan Sen bent his mouth and smiled hypocritically, "Xiao Lu, don't force me to do it."

Lu Shining continued to raise those innocent eyes, "Will you hit me?"

"No." Yuan Sen covered his mouth, "But I want you to shut up."

Yuan Sen's palm was big and warm, covering half of his face at once.The moment his lips touched his palm, Lu Shining's eyelashes trembled uncontrollably.

Arriving at the front desk of the KTV, Yuan Sen suddenly remembered something, turned his head to look at Lu Shining, "Xiaolu, can you smell the smoke?"

"Did you forget that my dad also smokes?" Lu Shining said, "And I'm not a baby, why can't I smell it?"

"Lu Ning, your skin is itchy recently, why do you say ten words to me?" Yuan Sen stretched out his hand to pinch his Adam's apple, deliberately making him feel uncomfortable.

Lu Shining took a step back to avoid it, and quietly stuck out his tongue.

He just wanted to refute, wanted to know where Yuan Sen's bottom line was, and couldn't stop probing.

Lu Shining didn't want to become a person with many complicated thoughts, but liking this thing was so special that he couldn't control it at all.

There were five or six people sitting in the private room, both men and women.

Lu Shining stayed at the door for a moment, then stepped in.

Yuan Sen introduced him to others, pointing directly at Lu Shining: "My brother."

Lu Shining didn't refute or agree, the girl on the other side of the sofa said, "Are you still in junior high school?"

Yuan Sen laughed, stretched out his hand and rubbed Lu Shining's hair, "No, it's the first year of high school, and it's the same school as me, doesn't it look like it?"

Lu Shining spoke with a volume that could only be heard by two people: "Don't treat me like a child."

He won't always be a kid.

He will also love, experience the pain of unrequited love, and...whom he will be with someday in the future.

He glanced at Yuan Sen sideways, and suddenly became awkward.

There were people smoking in the private room, but Yuan Sen didn't, so he pushed the fruit plate to Lu Shining's side, "Don't you want to eat apples? They're all peeled, eat."

Lu Shining said something, someone was yelling a song, Yuan Sen didn't hear clearly, so he moved closer to him, "What did you say?"

Lu Shining looked at the person who was very close to him, as if he could kiss him any closer.

"I didn't say I wanted to eat."

Yuan Sen asked him, "Don't you want to come?"

Lu Shining thought about a lot of things in a second, and finally answered: "Yes."

He wanted to see Yuan Sen's reaction, but Yuan Sen said calmly: "Then go back, I will take you back."

Lu Shining lowered his eyes, "I'm just joking."

Only then did Yuan Sen raise his hand and patted his head, "Lu Shining, I found that you have been a little sick recently."

Lu Shining did not deny it.

"You don't have to accommodate me like this." He said suddenly, "Yuansen, am I not 16 years old? I will be an adult in two years."

Yuan Sen didn't show any signs of anger before, but he was a little angry when he heard this sentence.

"You mean to let me take care of you?"

Lu Shining opened his mouth and responded subconsciously: "I didn't say that..."

Why did they stay together? After careful calculation, it has been 11 years.

Yuan Sen has been taking care of him since he was a child. He will feel safe hiding behind Yuan Sen. He doesn't have to deal with adults and elders, as long as he follows his brother.

But people always grow up.

Nobody can stop another person from growing and changing.

After the ktv ended that day, the two of them were silent all the way, and in the end it was Lu Shining who gave in.

That sounds pretty incredible.

But it is.

It was Lu Shining who said first: "I mean, you can hit me."

Yuan Sen showed an incredible expression, "Why did I hit you?"

Lu Shining was not sure: "Because I always talk back?"

Yuan Sen looked down at him, "Forget it, forgive you."

It turned out to be really angry.

This time he overdid it, Lu Shining took out the chewing gum, "Do you want to eat?"

Yuan Sen took it, "Do you dislike the smell of cigarettes on me?"

"I didn't. It's you who despise yourself."

Yuan Sen smacked his lips lightly, "It tastes like watermelon again, Deer, your taste is so strange."

Lu Shining knew that he was no longer angry, so he took two quick steps to follow, stepping on Yuan Sen's shadow.

I learned to take care of your emotions, because you can put your unhappiness on your face openly.

I like what you are going to do.

I dare not say.

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