Growth pain

When Zhao Shengnan sent a message to Lu Shining, Lu Shining was waiting for an interview outside the meeting room of the new company.

Zhao Shengnan: 【Are you free tomorrow? 】

Lu Shining glanced at it and was about to put the phone back in his pocket.

Zhao Shengnan: [I've already returned to Tokyo, it's Sister Yunle who wants to talk to you. 】

When he came out of the company, he felt that the interview went well. Lu Shining was in a good mood, so he rewarded himself with a street egg waffle ice cream, and then remembered the two messages that he didn't reply.

Lu Shining: [Are you looking for me? 】

Zhao Shengnan: [Yes. 】

Lu Shining: [Why are you looking for me? 】

Zhao Shengnan: 【You are Brother Yuan's childhood friend. 】

Is such that.

Lu Shining took a bite of the chocolate-flavored egg waffle and then the strawberry-flavored ice cream, hot and cold mixed together, and the sweetness filled his taste buds.

In addition to being Yuan Sen's childhood friend, he should also be Lu Shining himself.

When will everyone notice this.

But he still agreed, and went to see Yuan Sen's girlfriend, to be precise, his ex-girlfriend.

Lu Shining has always been cruel to himself, and the way to completely give up is right in front of him.When he went to see Su Yunle, he would definitely swallow the word "let go" and weigh it all the time.

He hoped this very much, fearing that he would soften his heart again.As long as Yuan Sen shows weakness to him, he will compromise, and he will continue to do things even if he can't say harsh words.All his memories of the first 18 years were related to Yuan Sen. If he wanted to give up, he had to tear himself apart and return half of him to Yuan Sen.

That hurts so much.

The next day Lu Shining wore short sleeves and thin sweatpants to meet Su Yunle.

Su Yunle invited him to the coffee shop, and when she first saw Lu Shining, she smiled and said, "You look like my younger brother."

"Zhao Shengnan?"

Su Yunle nodded, "Like a college student."

Lu Shining looked at the decoration in the store, "Should I dress more formally?"

"That's good." Su Yunle pushed the menu in front of him, "I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have bothered you..."

Lu Shining shook his head and raised a smiling face, "It's okay, I don't have anything to do recently."

Su Yunle put her hands on the edge of the round table, "Really, that's good. I asked you out today, and the most important thing is to talk about Yuan Sen."

"We haven't been in touch recently." Lu Shining was right.He was hiding from Yuan Sen, and he didn't want to see each other. The reasons were all kinds of strange.

"It's okay, I didn't expect to be able to contact him through you." Su Yunle smiled at him casually, "I'm going back in a few days, and now I want to talk to someone, I won't tell you these things , I don’t know who to tell.”

This was something Lu Shining did not expect.

"Did Yuan Sen tell you? About us."

"I said it." Lu Shining thought about it, "but I didn't say much."

"I guess so, he never talks about this with others." Su Yunle looked as expected, "If it weren't for people who are close, they wouldn't know that we are in a relationship, and he doesn't post photos to show his affection. I don't remember the anniversary of our relationship, and I don't have any romantic cells."

Lu Shining thought to himself, it's started.

Su Yunle propped her chin, "But he remembers your birthday."

Lu Shining: "..."

"I picked your birthday present for him." Su Yunle said, "Do you still like it?"

"That bracelet." Lu Shining said numbly, "Well, I really like it."

"We were not dating at that time, so I thought he picked it for his girlfriend." Su Yunle laughed, "I just wonder what kind of girlfriend a person with such a bad temper would look like."

Hence the video.

Su Yunle said: "Now that I think about it, if it's really a girlfriend, then I really did something really bad."

"Fortunately not." Lu Shining joked.

Su Yunle shook her head, "But I did misunderstand at that time."

Lu Shining was stunned.

Su Yunle looked at him. Today she painted warm orange eyeshadow, and she looked very soft. "I thought you were his boyfriend."

The waiter lightly placed the coffee on the table, Lu Shining didn't want to drink anything, the air conditioner couldn't cool down the heat in his body, his palms were sweating.

Su Yunle picked it up and took a sip, without adding any sugar or milk, leaving a light lip mark on the cup.

"It's outrageous to say it, and I didn't know that I misunderstood until I graduated." Su Yunle seemed to think of something funny, and rolled her eyes while talking, "Sheng Nan went to find me on vacation, and he fell in love with Zhong Yuansen at a glance. Ask me for his contact information after the party."

Lu Shining: "..."

"He seldom contacted you at that time, so I thought you two were separated, and I made a decision to give Yuan Sen's contact information to Sheng Nan." Su Yunle tapped her finger on the wall of the cup, "Then he rushed I'm mad."

"That time really angered him." Su Yunle said, "He resented this very much. You know what I'm talking about, right? Sheng Nan said that you know his sexual orientation."

Lu Shining finally moved the cup in front of him, and ordered a cup of cocoa, which was like a child's liking, as if he couldn't taste it.

"Ah."

He knew, and more than just knew.

Su Yunle said: "I later apologized to him because of the misunderstanding, and he solemnly asked me to apologize to him. Do you know how hard I was to wipe my face? I scolded him to death."

Lu Shining fully accepted this absurd statement, it was something Yuan Sen would do.

"I didn't contact much after graduation, because Yin Hao set up a line for the two of us, and wanted to have a meal to solve this matter, so we got in touch again." Su Yunle said, "Although I said earlier There are so many words that dislike Yuan Sen, but he is indeed a very good partner."

Lu Shining then said: "I understand, this is called wanting to promote before suppressing."

"No, it's not." Su Yunle laughed, "It's more suitable for me, and I don't like being a romantic couple. We started dating because Yin Hao and his gang set it up. We both regard work as a comparison. The heavy ones didn't have a date in college, so they thought we were a good fit.

"It was only after I was with him that I realized that he could do housework and cook. Although his words were not pleasant at times, he still complained about what he did."

What Su Yunle said was clear to Lu Shining, he had enjoyed all these benefits before, and in the future they will be exclusively enjoyed by another person.Maybe it's not Su Yunle who is opposite, but it doesn't matter to anyone.

The memory that made him panic when he was young was turned up again, and he was reminded once again that it was him who was greedy, delusional, and wanted more. Yuan Sen had no reason and would never respond to his feelings.

He knew clearly that it was a secret between the two of them.

It was he who broke the contract.

Su Yunle called him: "Little Deer."

Only then did Lu Shining come to his senses, and tapped his fingers on the edge of the table.

Su Yunle continued: "People will be dissatisfied living in a comfortable and comfortable area. I am starting to want romance."

Lu Shining thought about how to comfort him for a while, and finally said: "...This is normal."

Su Yunle shook her head, "I want romance at first but I don't want to say it myself, I'll wait for him to notice."

Lu Shining pursed his lips, "Maybe you should talk to him directly."

Su Yunle laughed, "Yes, I thought about it later. But at the time, I just felt... boring. The life of three o'clock and one line every day is for a wooden person who doesn't need romance. This life is too bleak and unreasonable." .”

"Of course, these are not the main reasons for our breakup... Sheng Nan and I grew up together, and I love him like a younger brother. You and Yuan Sen should understand this feeling when you were young." Su Yunle said After a pause, he looked at Lu Shining, "But his attitude towards Sheng Nan is very contemptuous, as long as Nan Nan is around, he will pretend he can't see this person."

"I don't know why he rejects Nan Nan so much. Nan Nan quickly stopped thinking about him after knowing that he didn't like men. I mentioned to Yuan Sen many times that his attitude was problematic, but every time he agreed on the surface. Okay, it will be the same next time." Su Yunle said, "Afterwards, we quarreled and fought coldly, and then I proposed to separate to calm each other down. At that time, I thought that everyone was an adult, so there was no need to waste words What are you arguing about. By the time I want to have a good talk, he will have already returned home."

Lu Shining had been listening quietly, and only reacted when he heard this. He raised his head to look at Su Yunle in surprise.

Su Yunle said warmly: "What's wrong?"

Lu Shining hesitated to speak, and shook his head.

"I've thought about it for a while, some things I can back down and some things I can't, but I really can't help him like this..." Su Yunle said and looked at him, "Can you understand, little deer?"

Actually a little do not understand.

But something figured out.

Lu Shining said, "Are you trying to ask me why Yuan Sen rejects homosexuality so much?"

Su Yunle bit her lower lip lightly, and nodded.

"I don't know very well." Lu Shining said calmly, "But when he was in school, he didn't like that kind of person very much. Maybe... it's his nature."

Everyone lies.

There are lies in everyone's mouth.

Lu Shining is just one of them.

Although I usually don't spoil things in advance, I'm trembling seeing you guys... you'll run away, and you won't maintain the status quo.And there are still many foreshadowings that have not been solved, and people will lie.