Grand Collection

Too many things happened in the past two days, which made his brain feel half-emptied and exhausted. He just wanted to close his eyes and have a good sleep, but when he was really lying on the bed, he found that his brain could not restrain his thoughts, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.

Kong Xin sighed, got out of bed with bare feet, walked over and opened the curtains, sat on the windowsill and smoked, looking at the dark night outside the window, feeling empty in his heart.

Wen Zhijun and Luo Zigeng, two different faces appeared in front of my eyes, Wen Zhijun's tenderness, Luo Zigeng's doting, one was the first love, and the other was the lover who had been with him for the longest time.

He leaned against the wall and gradually closed his eyes, and the past events changed in his mind like a revolving lantern.

The twilight campus, my confession, Wen Zhijun's smile.

On the Antique Street in the morning light, when Luo Zigeng looked up, he looked at each other in amazement for an instant.

20 years ago in Stone City, autumn insects suddenly appeared, and the young green onion who accompanied Wen Zhijun to catch crickets all over the mountains and plains.

Five years ago in Ruzhou, on a cold winter night, Luo Zigeng accompanied him day and night in front of the hospital bed.

At the birthday party, Kong Min took away the grasshopper gourd. At that moment, Wen Zhijun's sad eyes almost looked desperate.

Under the street lamp, Luo Zigeng, who was covered in blood, desperately kissed passionately.

On New Year's Eve, in the square, among the crowd, tightly holding hands and kissing openly.

One night after another, on the big bed, the pain was so painful that it shivered, but it was so cool that it bonded to the bone... That big boy never let go of his hand, never stingy with his feelings for him...

A low moan escaped from between the teeth, "Zigeng..."

Kong Xin suddenly opened his eyes, the sky in the east had already turned pale, he was taken aback for a moment, realizing that he had just called out Luo Zigeng's name, Kong Xin wiped his face, and was surprised to find a hand full of water, and he actually cried in his dream.

Sitting on the icy window sill, his whole body was freezing cold, and he could hear the creaking sound of bones when he moved. He looked out the window blankly, and suddenly wanted to hug Luo Zigeng and hear his doting smile again.

It's a pity that he doesn't want himself anymore...

He closed his eyes, not daring to recall the way Luo Zigeng looked at him, the undisguised coldness and ruthlessness, he didn't want to bear it, as if he didn't want to, remember or accept, the fact of breaking up didn't exist.

Suddenly the phone rang, Kong Xin grabbed the phone, glanced at the word Luo Zigeng on the screen, his breathing stopped for a moment, and he quickly connected, "What's wrong? Something happened?"

"Good news," came Luo Zigeng's weary voice, "my cousin is awake."

Kong Xin breathed a sigh of relief, "Just wake up, what did the doctor say?"

"The doctor checked, and the condition is very good." Luo Zigeng paused for a moment, then asked hesitantly, "Do you want to come and see?"

"Oh, good," Kong Xin was a little dazed, and replied angrily, then suddenly came back to his senses, "Zigeng!"

"Ok?"

"Well... You've been exhausted for the past two days, and you haven't had a good rest. I saw that your eyes were bloodshot yesterday."

Luo Zigeng chuckled, "It's okay, my aunt on one side, and my cousin on the other, both lying in the ward, I should be busy, at least to lighten my mother's burden, even... Even if my cousin is my rival in love, That's no wonder he, who can control emotional matters?"

"Don't say that," Kong Xin felt very sad suddenly, he couldn't hear Luo Zigeng's self-defeating words, the more lightly he said, the more it hit his heart like a whip.

"Well, let's not talk," Luo Zigeng smiled politely and distantly, "hang up, goodbye."

"Don't! Don't hang up!" Kong Xin called.

Luo Zigeng was very patient, "What's wrong?"

Kong Xin's mind turned quickly to find a topic, "You...you haven't had breakfast yet, have you? What do you want to eat? I'll take it there!"

"Brother Kong, it's not yet five o'clock, and it's not yet dawn."

"Yeah, it's not yet dawn, and the east is turning pale...Hey, did you ever write like this when you were young?"

"..."

Kong Xin wanted to slap himself, so nervous!Over there is my lover who has been sleeping with me for five years. I have known him too well. Why do I feel like a fledgling boy?

Luo Zigeng smiled, "You are also very tired, cousin woke up, and you can finally relax and sleep well."

These words became a bit sour, Kong Xin immediately hit the snake with the stick, "No, I can't sleep without you."

"Drink a cup of hot milk before going to bed," Luo Zigeng said calmly, "You're a little nervous, don't play with your phone an hour before going to bed."

Kong Xin snorted coldly in his heart, you still care about me, kid, pouted, "Don't pretend you don't understand me."

Luo Zigeng was silent for a moment, and said in a low voice, "I can understand, but Brother Kong, I can't accept you now. Whenever I see you, I will think of you and my cousin..."

You show your true feelings, you two love each other, and you are the Cowherd and Weaver Girl who were forcibly torn apart by the cruel reality. It is a pity that I am so ridiculous that I only found out after being a double for five years.

You always like to see me smile, but through my smiling face, who do you see?

But do you know, Kong Xin, love that can be dismantled is not called love, and love that dare not admit it is not called love either. You look forward and backward, swing left and right, and hesitate, you can’t make a choice between me and my cousin, you think you Love both, but you don't love either!

Hanging up the phone, Kong Xinku sat on the window sill. The sky was getting brighter and people were gradually walking around in the neighborhood. He hugged his knees tightly, and suddenly thought how nice it would be to have a time machine, back to before the engagement, back to the Five years ago, back to 17 years ago.

he regrets...

Asked the aunt at home to make a few more breakfasts, put them in an insulated lunch box and took them to the hospital. Just in front of the ward, I met Luo Zigeng head-on. The two stood in the corridor, both startled.

"Why are you so haggard?" Luo Zigeng frowned, "Didn't sleep last night?"

Kong Xin looked at the corridor calmly, and found no one else, so he decided to act coquettishly, humming, "I can't sleep without you."

"!!!"

Luo Zigeng's face was struck by lightning, as if he had swallowed a hundred flies, and he couldn't even speak.

Kong Xin was annoyed, "What are you looking at with those stupid eyes!"

Luo Zigeng heaved a sigh of relief, probably thinking that he hadn't damaged his brain. He raised his legs and walked towards the ward, saying as he walked, "Don't always stay up all night in the future, you are not young, and my cousin still needs your care..."

Before he finished speaking, he was suddenly dragged back by a strong force. Before Luo Zigeng could react, Kong Xin pressed against the wall, leaned up with his fiery body, grabbed his collar and gritted his teeth, "What are you going to do? When? Is it interesting to torture me? Seeing me suffer, seeing me feel fulfilled because you can’t eat enough or sleep well?”

Luo Zigeng turned his head away from him in conflict, "You just think I'm making trouble?"

"Aren't you making a fuss, what are you doing?" Kong Xin lowered his voice, "Our five-year relationship...why do you waver so easily? That ear of yours heard me say that you are a stand-in?"

Luo Zigeng just felt it was funny, "I have to listen to you, is it true?"

"Yes!" Kong Xin said domineeringly, "I have to say it to be true. Only when I say I don't love you can you leave me. If I say you are not allowed to leave, you don't want to leave me!"

Luo Zigeng turned cold, "Don't you think you are ridiculous? You are 33 years old, Young Master Kong. You are not a 13-year-old kid. I am not your pet. I am a person, a living person, and I also have I will be sad, I have my own judgment, I have my own choice, I don't want to play with you now!"

"You!" Kong Xin choked and gritted his teeth, "What will you do to turn back?"

"I want you to never see my cousin again, can you do that?"

Kong Xin was stunned, "Are you stupid? The relationship between our two families is so good, how could I never see him?"

Luo Zigeng smiled self-deprecatingly, "Yeah, I'm so stupid, so what if you really never see him? Aren't you thinking about it in your heart, it seems that I am really stupid."

Kong Xin frowned at him, hesitated for a moment, then suddenly took his hand, "Come with me."

"What?"

"come over!"

Kong Xin dragged him through the corridor, and the two walked into the dark stairwell. Aunt Wen's ward was on the twentieth floor, and most people took the elevator, so that the stairwell was useless, and almost no one passed by.

"Luo Zigeng," Kong Xin called his tuba by name, and leaned against the wall, "I figured it out, I like you more."

Luo Zigeng was pondering over a word, "More?"

"I was 27 years old when I met you. You can't force me to have no past," Kong Xin said in a low voice, "I admit that I like Wen Zhijun, but that was when I was in my teens. You Duo, prettier than girls, I would like him, that's normal, but at that time we didn't have the courage to admit our relationship."

"Zigeng, I have liked him for so many years that I don't know how to like others. Later, I have been in love many times, regardless of men and women, but everyone will leave me in the end. They say I don't If I say I don’t love them, I know it too, because I can’t let Zhijun go, I make them feel no love.”

"Later when I met you, I had a feeling of heartbeat, not just the attraction of hue, I thought, even if you didn't have this face, I would still like you, we have been together for so many years, how do I treat you, Can't you feel it? You can tell with your conscience, can't you really feel that I like you? "

Luo Zigeng pursed his lips and looked at him calmly. He knew that Kong Xin liked him, and he knew that he was dependent on him, but he just couldn't swallow this breath. The person next to him who had been in love for five years would one day burst out with him. His cousin was in love with each other, and this kind of blow made him unacceptable. In the past two days, even looking in the mirror every morning made him extremely painful.

Kong Xin stuck to his body, and both of them could feel each other's violent heartbeat, Kong Xin whispered, "Zigeng, you are different from all my previous lovers, I am willing to be your zero. After a while, you are so happy every time, do you know how much it hurts me?"

Thinking of those things between the bed curtains, Luo Zigeng couldn't help being a little shaken. When a big man mentions things on the bed, he will always be easily teased and lose his bottom line.

He looked at the man in front of him with complicated eyes, knowing that this guy has always been unwilling to bow his head to others, but he was willing to lie under him. He closed his eyes, and he seemed to be able to hear the blood-pumping panting in his ears. Voice.

Slender legs, sexy slender waist, beautiful chest, shaking sweaty hair, looking desperately wanting to climax...

Luo Zigeng took a deep breath.

"You have reacted," Kong Xin smiled maliciously, his lower body deliberately rubbed against Luo Zigeng, "You like me, Luo Zigeng, admit it, you can't let go of me, what good will breaking up with me do you? Can you find a better boyfriend than me?"

Luo Zigeng gritted his teeth, "It's not that I can't do without you."

"You're wrong, you really can't do it without me," Kong Dao said, "But I can't do it without you, Zigeng, let's stop torturing each other, you are angry with me these days, and you are also very sad, right? I don't want Wen Zhijun anymore, really, even if he throws his arms around me, I won't want him anymore, I just want you, be good, don't be angry."

"Do you think you are coaxing children? You can't let go of your cousin for more than ten years, but you can let go in these two days?"

"We still have decades of time in the future, enough for me to let him go," Kong Xin tempted, "You are my man, you have to supervise me, and I will only think of you from now on."

Luo Zigeng frowned, "I won't listen to your smooth talk, I want to listen to something practical, for example, when are you going to come out?"

Kong Xin choked, and paused for a few minutes, "Xiao Meng came home last night and came out. My dad...seemed very shocked, and he couldn't accept it."

"Then are we going to sneak around for the rest of our lives? I can't stay by your side as your apprentice for the rest of my life!" Luo Zigeng said, "We are not young anymore, my mother urges me to go on a blind date every day, I'm going to be annoyed to death, Now there are only two ways in front of us, coming out, or getting married, do you want us to get married?"

Kong Xin looked at his anxious expression with distress. He could understand this feeling. What a frustrating thing it was not to be able to hold hands in the sun with the person he loved for the rest of his life.

He said with difficulty, "Zigeng, don't force me all the time. I can't hit Dad at this time. It's not easy for him to bring us up alone. He's already sad enough that something like this happened to my sister. I Don't make him sad anymore!"

The negotiation seemed to be at a dead end. The two confronted each other in the dark stairwell. After a while, Luo Zigeng sighed, "Even if you don't come out now, you can't hide it from him forever. As long as I come out from the closet, you will definitely hide it." Can’t stop, Brother Kong, I’ve already made plans. I’m optimistic about a store in Antique Street, and I’m in contact with the owner. When I get the deal, we can open our own store. Even if Uncle Kong kicks you out of the house, We can feed ourselves too."

Kong Xin took a step back and murmured, "Well, wait a little longer, until I find a suitable time..."

Luo Zigeng smiled lightly, and reached out to touch his face. The familiar texture made him unwilling to let go. It was a face he loved deeply, but unfortunately it didn't belong to him. He said softly, "Brother Kong, what you just said That's right, I still like you, and I can feel your liking, but you make me very tired and insecure, let's all be quiet, when you think it over, have the courage, and are willing to admit it I'm here, and I welcome you back anytime."

He held Kong Xin's cheek, kissed him on the lips, and turned to leave.

Kong Xin took a deep breath, and suddenly closed his eyes: You make me so tired of liking you...