Died Before the Wedding

I have heard the vows of youth who do not know the height of the sky.

He said, I want to love you forever.

I asked, how to love.

He said, if you get to Naihe Bridge, don't rush to drink the soup, wait for me to pass, and forcefully kiss you in front of Granny Meng.

In this way, a kiss lasts longer than a lifetime.

I said, how do you know that I will go before you.

He jokingly said, you practice immortality and type code all day, your liver is dry, you must die earlier than me.

And then this short vow ended with me kicking him off the computer desk.

If he dared to do this, Possibly Meng Po would not allow us to have a good pregnancy, and he would cry in the next life of reproductive separation between cats and dogs.

……

The city is a pit of mercy, allowing the weak bugs to live in a small corner and survive, without having to watch and participate in the decisive battle of the elites.

I am an ordinary programmer without any talent, and I think such a corner is enough.If you are not busy or busy, you can feel a little happiness that is ordinary and worthy of having nothing to do.

I thought that I was so ordinary that meeting him would be my whole life. I thought that I was so ordinary that it was smooth sailing from work to retirement. I thought that I was so ordinary that there was a one in ten thousand chance of being cut off from me.

I thought I was so ordinary that death was far away from me.

At least as far as I have held his hand for a lifetime, after reading the mountains, rivers, lakes and seas left in the memo.

But I died before our wedding.

……

I shouldn't believe the nonsense in the novel.

In fact, death is very painful, although sometimes only for a moment, that moment of pain is also heart-piercing.

The pain that remained was so real that I forgot I was dead.

Until I saw him standing in front of my grave, holding a black umbrella, as silent as another monument.

The suit on his body didn't even buy a new one. I personally went with him to the old suit shop with the house number over the years to customize it.

I saw my parents throw away their umbrellas and grab him by the collar insanely, twisting the groom's Norwegian embroidery.

My parents firmly refused to agree to our marriage from the beginning to the end. No one knew how much effort it took me to just bring him to see the second elder.

Now those efforts are in vain, my tombstone stands in the rain, and it turns out, I followed him, and I'm dead.

It doesn't make sense at all, I died in a car accident and had nothing to do with being with him.

But you can't force the parents of a newly bereaved son to be calm and sane. It takes all the effort to grab the only culprit they can confide in grief, anger and hatred in their bony arms.

All the people present were miserable except me.

I couldn't see his expression, only his slender and lonely back came into view.

I could guess that he was saying sorry.

……

I can't touch anything, the difference between me and the air is probably that I still have some consciousness.

However, the ignorance left by the severe pain that washed over my nerves did not dissipate for a few days, and I couldn't remember my name and his name.

He stayed at the funeral in the rain, and by the time the cleanup crew arrived, he had probably cleaned up everything he could.

The staff called his name: "I'm sorry that our delay has caused you unnecessary trouble, and we are also saddened by the loss of your loved one, so we can waive part of the funeral expenses for you, Mr. Xie Chenmin."

……

I remembered.

My name is Lin Chu, and his name is Xie Chenmin.

When I hung up the work card of the Supervision Department of the Student Union of the school, when I went to clean up the mess of students fighting in the cross-collegiate basketball game, I met an enthusiastic student who offered to help clean up the mess.

I said: "Hello, student, thank you for your support to the work of the student union of the school. In order to encourage you, we will make a notice of praise in the official network announcement. May I ask your name?"

He smiled: "Xie Chenmin, Class 19, Class 1, Engineering Management."

I slowly lowered my head, and turned the notification page on my phone—the front side said that according to the students at the scene, the main student who intentionally provoked disputes with language was one person, the captain of the basketball team of Class 19, Grade 1, Xie Chenmin. .

These three words are probably pronounced like this, and it is impossible for this class to have two identical names by such a coincidence.

After the fight, I actually stayed here calmly and helped the student union clean up. This is the first time I've seen you after two years as an officer.

But what made me remember him was what he said while pointing at me after being scolded and admitting his mistakes—"Don't forget, you officers want to report and praise me, and I recorded it."

I was scolded by the minister for this.

In short, when I first met him, he didn't leave me with a good impression.

……

I remember now.

I wanted to call his name again, but nothing came out.

After I die, my soul can still look at him while staying in the world. This is already the greatest mercy that God has given me. There is no reason for me to have the five senses of ordinary people anymore.

He was home, if it could be called home at all.

We have a Samoyed, and he named it Lin Zhaocai.

I can't understand why I use my surname and a name of earthy color, but he has been called it that way for five years.

Zhaocai came over to meet it wagging his tail furiously, and would not come down until he got a pat on his lap, then stood where he was and continued to wag his shaggy tail and looked in the direction of the door.

He is waiting for me.

It thought that only when it got two touches could it welcome its owner back home.

It may have been yesterday, the day before yesterday, or the day before yesterday. It was very stubborn this time, and tilted its head toward the door, resting its head on its paws and lying down to wait for me.

He walked from the living room to the bedroom, the bathroom to the kitchen alone, the lights in the room alternately lit up in the dark city night, and Zhao Cai was still lying there motionless.

He was wearing slippers, came over and handed Zhaocai his exclusive rice bowl, and said, "Zhaocai, don't look at it, let's eat."

Zhaocai raised his head to look at him, and the light gave him some twinkling stars in his puzzled obsidian eyes.

It whimpered aggrievedly.

It seems to be asking him—what about the other person, why did he disappear, where did he go, and you are mad at him again, aren't you?

Xie Chenmin was still speechless, and he didn't bother to think deeply about what a dog's barking meant.

Zhao Cai was afraid that he would not understand, so he stood up and yelled again.

He knew that recruiting money was afraid of the dark, so he put his hand on the light switch at the door.

He said, "If you don't eat anymore, I'll turn off the lights."

……

"If you don't eat anymore, I will unplug the power."

This is the most frequent sentence he said to me in college.

For a coder, facing a pile of unsaved code and a person with his hand on a power plug is an inhumane nightmare.

Xie Chenmin gives me nightmares every day.

Tracing the nightmare back to the source, I have to question myself every day, why did I continue to be responsible for the follow-up affairs of Xie Chenmin in order to make up for my mistakes?

He told me that he didn't do it on purpose, it was the opponent who always played tricks and hurt his teammates by playing a regular side kick, and he couldn't get angry for a while.

Ghosts believe his nonsense.

……

Industrial management is a famous major in our university, and countless top students who have passed the exam rushed to squeeze in.

I complied with my parents' compulsive wishes, entered this promising major, and then transferred to the department with the first grade in my major.

Arriving at a "Phoenix" college that every famous school is famous for.

Our university is computer.

My father was so angry that he bought a plane ticket to come here that day.

……

With the label of a handsome guy in the school of management, he haunts me, who is one year older than him and in a different department.

He said he admired me, my senior.

I was chewing the meal he brought for me, and I just wanted to dislike the strong taste.

He said that he had no ideals, and felt that people with ideals were great, so he felt that my story of bravely changing departments was really amazing.

I chewed down meals that were salty enough to tear my walls apart.

I can't tell him. In fact, I don't have any ideals. I just want to tell my parents that I'm awesome.

I can also decide my own life.

……