Wrong body

September [-]rd.cloudy day.

Chu Yi's surgery is scheduled for September [-]th.For convenience, the hospital arranged for him to be transferred to a single ward. Right now he is lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling of the ward and waiting for dawn.

It had been more than ten hours since the last time I saw Wilson.After they came back from the beach, they talked a lot less. His friend listened to the Walkman for a long time, and Chu Yi didn't want to disturb him, so he lay on the window sill and watched the scenery to pass the time.

Before leaving, Wilson finally took off the earphones.He asked Chu Yi, after your operation is over, will you come to see my eyes to remove the stitches?

Chu Yi replied, let's talk.

The friend didn't follow up.

Chu Yi turned over.In preparation for the operation, he didn't eat anything, and when he lay down, his stomach was so empty that he sat up.At the end of the bed was his backpack.When tidying up, Chu Yi discovered that his personal belongings were so few that he could fit them in a small backpack.

Things that did not belong to him have been returned, such as the fairy tale borrowed from the hospital library.In addition to the clothes and documents he wore when he came, there was only the idiot machine and the brooch that Wilson gave him in the backpack.

Opening the backpack, Chu Yi took out the packed things one by one.The fool machine is almost brand new, and he only took one of the 36 photos to commemorate the flowering period of the big cherry tree.His original intention of bringing the camera was that he was afraid that he would be bored, and wanted to take pictures for entertainment. Unexpectedly, in the end, the film only passed through once, which is a pity.

He put the camera aside and opened the velvet case.After accepting this gift from a friend, Chu Yi has not had time to appreciate it alone.He wasn't sure if Wilson had given him the gift because he remembered the myth he had told him, or if he would have gotten it even if he hadn't told the story.

Ouroboros represents an endless loop.Chu Yi rubbed the brooch repeatedly. He knew little about gems, but he also knew that this thing was by no means an ordinary glass product, and it might even be very valuable.The beaded chain he'd bought Wilson was worthless by comparison.

He felt a little funny, and wanted to scold his friend face to face, scolding him for being so stupid, why would he give this kind of treasure to others casually.Once such a gift is given, it is hoped that the other party will cherish it forever-but how can a friend guarantee that he can do this?He may be a nostalgic confidant who will keep the gift obediently.It is also possible that it is just an ordinary person looking for profit, who turns around and sells the gift at a valuation.

After thinking about it, Chu Yi thought that he couldn't call Wilson stupid.His friend is much smarter than him. After all, what kind of person to be is now a matter for him to consider.Chu Yi put the velvet box into the inner pocket of his backpack. After placing it properly, he climbed out of bed, picked up the fool machine, and walked barefoot to the corridor.

In the middle of the night, only the night lights of the hospital accompanied me.Chu Yi walked down the stairs, turned a few turns, and came to the door of his friend's ward.

The door was locked from the inside.Chu Yi stretched out his hand, hesitated for a long time, and didn't dare to knock.He put his head against the door and touched it lightly, thinking that he was useless, or forget it, put the camera at the door and go back.

As he was thinking, the door suddenly opened.Chu Yi quickly raised his head, and Wilson stood in front of him.The friend may have heard the sound. He turned his head, listened with his ears, smelled with his nose, and tried to tell who the person in front of him was.

They were so close that Chu Yi held his breath.After a few seconds, Wilson asked, is that you, Xiaoye.

Chu Yi didn't answer.He said in his heart, it was me.

He didn't speak, and his friend didn't respond. After confirming the identity of the visitor, he gave way to the door and signaled Chu Yi to come in.

Chu Yi walked in.He didn't dare to talk to himself as usual, and after entering, he stood there against the door, not daring to move much, as if one step forward would be a cliff, and he was about to fall off.

Wilson sat back on the hospital bed. After waiting for a while, he found that Chu Yi was abnormally quiet, so he took out his Walkman and handed out the earphones to the air.

Do you want to hear it?

Chu Yi breathed a sigh of relief, he nodded, and realized that his friend couldn't see his answer, so he walked to his side, took one earphone and put it on.

The tape is still in the Walkman. Wilson played from the beginning, they sat side by side, the music reduced the distance between each other, and neither of them said anything more.Hearing that the third song was coming to an end, Chu Yi realized that side A of the tape would soon be finished. He looked down at the idiot camera in his hand, and only thought about two lines of lyrics before secretly stuffing the camera into Wilson's pillow Below, and then pulled the opponent's arm, pulling him to stand up.

The connection of the headphone cable kept the two of them from being too far apart. The friend couldn't figure out what Chu Yi was going to do, so he had to follow him step by step.The two walked to the open space in the ward, and Chu Yi took his friend's hand and asked him to put it on his waist.

leaflet.The friend understood, and asked in a low voice, are you going to dance with me?

Yes.

Chu Yi still replied in his heart.He never said that, in fact, he thought the album on Wilson's Walkman was very suitable for dancing. He often wondered how his friend could not resist shaking his head to the music.He was also curious about what it would be like if he and Wilson danced together to the tunes in it.But he knew that if he made this kind of invitation before today, with Wilson's unfathomable self-esteem, the other party might not agree to him even if he jumped off the window sill again.

But it's different now, this is the last time a willful person will be willful, and Wilson didn't refuse.Chu Yi was barefoot, and he thought the floor was cold, so he stepped on his friend's feet.Each person has one earphone, which is hung on each other's ears.There is music on one side and the breathing of the other party on the other. In such a situation, it is too unfair not to move with the music.

They moved gently in response to the singing. Wilson's dance steps are very small, and there is Chu Yi standing on his feet, and he is very cautious with every step he moves.But his hand on Chu Yi's waist looked like another person, he pressed him tightly, his palm was so hot, hotter than the temperature on their lips when they kissed that night.

Another song passed through the Walkman, and Side A was about to end.Chu Yi looked up at his beta friend. Wilson was much taller than the 16-year-old, and Chu Yi could barely reach his chin by stepping on him.He stared intently at half of his friend's face. Several times, he secretly made up for the missing upper half of his friend's face. Eyes are the most important thing. What will Wilson's eyes look like?Big eyes, single eyelids, whether the corners of the eyes are up or down.

But now he understands that it doesn't matter what kind, what he wants to see most is a pair of eyes in which he can find his own reflection.Chu Yi couldn't help taking a breath, his throat was choked, he remembered the phrase Wilson asked would you come to see my eye stitches removed.He couldn't answer, he thought he couldn't wait for that time.

Friends were puzzled by the change in his breathing.Xiaoye, what's wrong with you?

He still didn't answer.The music in the earphones is flowing quietly, and is singing andI'tfetyou, won'tfetyou.Chu Yi stretched out his hand, he put his arms around his friend's neck, kissed his lips, and kissed him hard, melting more choked sobs between the other's lips.

Friends hold him.They kissed and kept kissing.After all the A side of the tape was played, the music stopped abruptly, and the kiss ended at the same time.Chu Yi pulled off the earphones, stepped back on the cold floor, and fled the ward with bare feet as fast as possible, completely ignoring Xiaoye's shouts from his friends behind him.He ran forward, he dared not turn back.

From the beginning to the end, he was patient and never said a word.Chu Yi didn't want the last impression he left in Wilson's heart was crying—the self under the cherry tree, the self who declared to be an omega in the sea, and the self who kissed him like a prank—difficult, difficult to understand and difficult Goodbye to a friend.That's it, let him remember these.

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September [-]th, rainy day.

This day has been overcast and cloudy since the morning, and it will rain cats and dogs after a while, and the sky is too dark to penetrate the light.Chu Yi was transferred from San Marino to a private clinic by Dr. Shelly.His surgery is special and should not be publicized, and everything needs to be done in a low-key manner.Before the nurse in the clinic gave him anesthesia, Chu Yi told the other party that he only had a backpack with him, which was placed outside, and he would trouble him to keep it and return it to him after the operation was over.

The movement of the nurse's hands stopped, but fortunately she agreed to him in the end, but she looked at Chu Yi with a little more sympathy.

Okay, let's do the surgery with peace of mind.Chu Yi told himself.The effect of the anesthesia was slower than expected, he did not fall asleep quickly, and he could still vaguely hear the conversation between Dr. Shelly and the nurse.The nurse was asking about the high risk of the patient's operation today, and the clinic's equipment and blood bags may not be able to keep up. What if he died in the middle of the operation.

Dr. Shelly spoke calmly, and replied that if he died on the operating table, he would be thrown outside according to the old rules. He was just a foreigner and would not leave his identity certificate.

The nurse sighed and whispered, God bless us.

Chu Yi felt that his eyelids were heavy.From the moment he got on the plane and came here, he knew better than anyone what he was going to face next.Transgender surgery is a gamble, either succeed or die, there is no third way to go, he has long been prepared.He just didn't expect that during the buffer period of the extra three months of life, he would meet Wilson.His friends taught him so many things, filling his body one by one.He is no longer a broken piece.

When you see something beautiful, your heartbeat will miss - Chu Yi lied that day.That was not what he felt when he looked at the sea.This feeling had already been produced when he first saw the young man who tried to commit suicide.The other party was so tall, so thin, and his outstretched arms were so slender and broad, like the wings of a bird, he wanted to use this to jump down from the window to find some kind of freedom.

His heart stopped, then jumped again.They are all people who have no strings on their bodies.He spent all the first time and those happy days together.For such a good friend, Chu Yi can only bless him, even if he spends all his future luck, he still wants to leave the best wishes to him.

He prayed in his heart. Wilson.Nian Nian.I wish you the light of day again.I wish you eternal happiness.

Today, too many people pray to God for a piece of luck, and they don't know whose hands it will end up in.The surgical light above his head was so dazzling that he couldn't see it without closing his eyes, so Chu Yi closed his eyes.The anesthesia took effect, and he fell into another world, only to find that there was nothing but darkness there.

There will be no more.